rockinlibrarian: (rebecca)
In the past week or so I'd been having a nebulous mental health discomfort on the topic of writing, sparked by me uploading a new chapter to a fic I'd first posted for Yuletide (the "rare fandom" fic exchange)— which had gotten a surprising amount of attention DURING Yuletide, when people were browsing the Yuletide fics specifically, but at this time of year? Rare fandom indeed, it may as well not exist. So now, no one cares that I've posted said new chapter (not even the person the original fic had been gifted to has responded to the message I sent about it). Nonetheless, I keep getting MORE fic ideas in this nonexistent fandom that no one will care if I ever actually write, and so my brain kind of melted down. But I couldn't quite put into words what was bothering me. All I knew was it had something to do with writing-for-me vs. writing for an audience. 

I finally figured out what's going on in therapy this morning, so have this elaboration:

My most defining personal trait is that I have a vivid, overactive imagination. (In high school our gifted teacher let us look at our own files that she had on us, passed up through the gifted teachers since second grade, and I had been highly amused and more than a little delighted to discover that, in evaluating me for the gifted program, one of my 2nd grade teachers, on a chart where they were checking off like "below average, average, above average" etc for various traits, had made an extra box on the line for "imaginative" just so they could mark me ABOVE above average). 

Nowadays I know I have this particular neurotype, AuDHD, that this experience of mine fits into, so I'm going to use those terms to describe it now, though I didn't have the language to describe it at the time, just the feeling, the understanding that This is How I Am. So, my "Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder" manifested in me having a hyperactive brain, really. My body, uh-uh. But there was SO much going on inside my head, and it was all very interesting, which made me a big ol' daydreamer. And night dreamer, too, which is How It All Got Started, when I was six or seven years old and dreamed about one of Santa's elves going rogue and taking our church hostage on Christmas Eve, and woke up thinking, "That was a STORY!" and, now that I knew how to write, I set out to write it. 

So there's the part of me that DOES write for me, that couldn't stop writing even if I was the only person in the world who could read-- heck, that wouldn't stop writing if I was in a coma, judging by how often I attempt to write my dreams into stories while I'm dreaming them. I love crafting stories. I love putting into words the rampant THOUGHTS racing through my head. It's a matter of putting order to chaos, too. 
It's like I have probably said before at some point about the Pipeweed Mafia Epic. That was a watershed moment for me in writing, when I'd basically stopped everything but journaling (oh, and the One Book manuals, which I got paid for so that was some bonus incentive) since Sam had been born and this sense of I Must Spend My Time RESPONSIBLY settled upon me. Then I got this writing prompt and this ridiculous story poured out and I knew what it was to write for fun again.*

But that's the ADHD side's influence. The Autistic side's influence comes from the fact that I can WORD better in writing than in speaking. It's funny how I've always known this even when I didn't think I was autistic. Language problems? Me? Oh right, I'm much more fluent on paper than out loud, maybe I actually DO have something of a disability with spoken communication. 

As a kid and still today my favorite fictional character was Anne Shirley, because she was…kind of an aspirational figure, really. She's the poster child for the way ADHD manifests in girls, I say nowadays, but at the time I could just say that She was like me but OUT LOUD. We shared that vivid, hyperactive imagination. But she was DOING stuff with hers. She was sharing it with the other kids, having adventures with it. The other kids respected her for all her ideas. Man, I would have loved to be able to do that, to share everything that was going on inside my brain with the other kids, to have adventures with them. But somehow I was just this Invisible, Oversensitive Lump they went to school with, if they noticed me at all. 

My Invisibility Complex— less an inborn personal trait and more of a reactive one, but it's the other trait having its say in how I identify with myself as a writer. I feel invisible, since I was pretty young. I have this whole vivid existence inside my head that no one can see. I still struggle with it today, even though I'm able to identify it and use Cognitive Behavioral Therapy against it and write therapy sessions for Viktor Hargreeves about it. It's the trait that rears its head when I don't get feedback on social media, that gets green with envy when other people's fanfics get spread around and shared and mine get a few kudos if I'm lucky. And it's the trait that was eating at me the most when I kept wanting to write for a fandom that doesn't exist, that manifested as a voice that kept whispering, "No one CARES, what's the POINT?"**

Because sharing my writing is how I've felt SEEN, since I was little. Some of my classmates DID like to read the little books I made. My 6th grade Language Arts teacher, Mr. Rodgers, was so visibly delighted with the way I weaved spelling word sentences into stories, he'd ask me to read my assignments to the class, beaming at me the whole time (and he's still high on the list of Teachers That Had the Biggest Positive Impact On Me. He and Mrs. Forte— the above-mentioned high school gifted teacher, whom I still exchange Christmas cards with even— and the biggest reason for both of them is that they enthusiastically encouraged my writing). Many years later, an old classmate had run into my dad and kept going on about how much her daughter reminded her of me, which bewildered me, because I, you know, thought I was unmemorable, invisible; then I spoke to her myself and she explained that her daughter was always making those little paper booklets and filling them with stories, just like I used to do— so it wasn't just how I FELT seen, it WAS how I was seen!

In middle school English class we had to journal for the first five minutes or so, and then our teacher asked if anyone wanted to share what we'd written, and I always volunteered, because that was my moment to be SEEN, for all the Me inside me to actually come out for my classmates to get to know, even if I'd only written something like "Today was boring. I wish we could have an adventure." And then come to think of it I would have usually written something ridiculous that could have happened instead, so maybe it wasn't such a boring entry after all. 

So, that's my thing with writing— it's hard to separate into Writing for Myself and Writing for an Audience because both aspects are woven deeply into my own sense of identity. I can't not write, because it's how I give the chaos of my brain substance. But writing is also the only way I really know how to connect with others, so it hurts much more deeply than it should when people ignore what I write. And, bringing the ADHD back into the conversation, I have terrible time management skills, so my brain is constantly both forgetting to do things and ruminating that I probably HAVE forgotten to do things, so if I take the time to write a story that nobody will read, it will yell at me, "YOU ARE WASTING YOUR TIME," and I will be unable to do ANYTHING, productive or not. 

Which, more deeply, worries me that fanfiction has ruined me for ever getting back to writing original fiction. If I feel there's no point in writing a story for a non-existent fandom, how is there a point in writing a story for a fandom that never had a CHANCE to exist, because it's always just been inside my own head? How could I bear waiting years for my stories to be actually published, and even then wonder if anyone's actually reading them? Paper books don't have a handy comments section or even a Kudos button! How can I overcome all these hang-ups and just write?  

(Nonetheless, I did write approximately 1,000 words of Blossom Culp fics in the past week anyway).

*While looking for that link, I ended up finding a WHOLE bunch of appropriate other posts in my "writing" tag on Dreamwidth. For example, here's me on how writing was my Voice as a child, and how dare I say "No one cares what you have to say"** to that poor little inner kid? And here's me wondering what I actually HAVE to write about, post-Pipeweed Mafia but pre- discovering AO3, and here's me post-discovering AO3 wondering which of my many works-in-progress I can actually hunker down and finish, many of which HAVE been finished since, many of which have NOT, AND you'll notice far down the list, I mention the Blossom Culp fic which finally finishing NOW five years later triggered this ruminating to begin with. And here's me wishing I had people to talk about my writing with, also five years ago.  

**Another thing that stood out while reading the posts in my Dreamwidth "writing" tag was how often I attributed this voice to The Lone Power of Diane Duane's Young Wizards universe— Satan, the Prince of Lies, the Creator of Entropy. It occurred to me that it's been awhile since I've correctly identified this voice in this way— I've dutifully reblogged Tumblr posts encouraging a person to ignore the voices, inner and outer, that tell you not to create, but it had gotten to a kind of wishful thinking state: maybe if I tell myself this enough I'll believe it? But I used to believe a lot more STRONGLY that the voice that tells you, or specifically me, that my voice Isn't Needed, No One Cares, Just Shut Up— is the voice of Evil, trying to stem the tide of Creation. I need to get back to calling that voice what It is, again. 
rockinlibrarian: (christmas)

So let’s make a new calendar: Russian Christmas is the last day of the year. So Happy New Year! This is right on time! Honestly, I do gather the lists and write a lot of the descriptions over the course of the year, then the end of the year it’s final writings and editings and formattings and gathering links, but this year I kept getting distracted every time I sat down to work on it. “I know what your problem is,” Jason, who was diagnosed with ADHD as a child and went to a special high school where he learned coping strategies, said one such time. “Your problem is you’re TRYING to write. You need to go try to do chores, and suddenly you’ll be all about writing!”

And it’s true, that actually works. Sometimes. It did in that case and then I spat out the whole “Christmas” section below.

So if you’re new here, here’s my year, divided into Real Life and Media (and also Other Stuff I Wrote, that could technically be considered Media but I don’t know), and then put into lists which may or may not be ranked, and things are bolded and different sizes by outline level, so it’s easy to skim through just looking for stuff you’re interested in! Although you nevcr know, you might find something interesting in a section you didn’t KNOW you were interested in! Whatever you do, please feed my need for external validation by leaving me a comment about whatever you DID find interesting!

 STUFF THAT HAPPENED

Real Life Events

The definite biggest happening of the year was that the burnout I'd hinted at last year finally came to a head, and I realized that no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't pull off being a full-time librarian (particularly one with a 40-minute commute). This was a massive paradigm-shaking decision, but one that has only proved more right over time, as I've taken the time to catch up on doctors appointments and do physical therapy, and I've become much more aware of my limits (emotionally and physically) since I'm not pushing them constantly. And every so often over the past few months Jason will just say, in a tone of wonder, "I'm glad to see you happy again," or "It's good to have you BACK," because I guess it WAS that noticeable!

As it turned out, my old boss from the library down the street called me the very evening my position was posted (that I was leaving it), and asked if I'd be willing to do storytimes for them on a contractual basis— paid per storytime— a couple mornings a week. I thought how ironic it was, how annoyed the arrangement would have made me a few years ago, Oh, and why don't you just make me your full-time official children's librarian? But now that I've HAD the opportunity to be a full-time-official children's librarian, I can say, Yes, I did that! But now I need less! And actually a couple mornings a week being paid specifically for storytime is exactly what I can handle! So I still get to do storytimes after all! And I can tell by how tired I am afterward that it's definitely all I can handle!

Now, it's good I have--a smaller but not nothing-- income after all, as I did worry that we wouldn't have enough money if I quit, and we'd just gotten a massive hole in our bathroom floor. The wood had rotted away under the tile and we're probably going to have to have the entire bathroom redone to fix the water-tightness, and in the process of moving the toilet to access the hole in the floor better Jason broke the toilet, too. So we've been down to one bathroom most of this year!

Also luckily, Sam has a full-time job and is now paying into the household expenses. Because he graduated from high school this year! I am the mother of a high-school graduate! My little baby boy (yes, that's how long I've had a blog)! Since he did VoTech he's straight out into the workforce, and has been learning all sorts of new adulting things this year.

One of the highlights of my year was the Honors College reunion in June. This was right when I was first debating leaving the library, so I was pretty stressed out at the time, and how good it felt to hang out with some of my old college friends— only two of my best friends could make it, Tracie and Jen, and we also met up with our friend Holly, but that was enough to just be so fun! It had been years since I'd seen Tracie or Jen and even longer since I'd seen Holly, but it felt like no time. And campus has changed a LOT. And because we were an Honors College full of nerds, one of our old (now REALLY old) professors did a lecture, and I was just like, oh yeah, this is great, I'm a nerd, I'm among my people again. And at the evening dinner we passed around a microphone for people to reminisce things to share, and I volunteered, just so I could share how amazing it had been back then to find a community where I actually felt like I belonged, and how nice it was to revisit that feeling today!

 Christmas

Christmas was good this year— bittersweet, but good. Full of laughter in my immediate family. With actual free time I returned to my hobby in previous years of sewing gifts for people, mostly sweatshirts, but also corduroys for Maddie and a jacket for my niece Betty. The problem is that JoAnn Fabrics has closed since the last Christmas I did this, and it's a lot harder to find cute fleece (for cheap. I did order some cute patterns from Spoonflower but those are much more expensive and I had to supplement with solid-color sleeves or whatnot). Supposedly Michaels inherited all JoAnns' product lines, but even online the selection of cute fleece prints is scanty. Ah well. To the point, this was the most recent time Jason out of nowhere told me "It's good to have you back," watching while I bustled around sewing and wrapping and singing carols, because "you always loved Christmas, and you just hadn't been into it the past few years," and that made me teary.

Which is where the "bittersweet" comes in, because I've been emotionally on-edge this year, maybe BECAUSE I have more time to think about things. I've been missing my dad this year even more than I'd missed him over the past three Christmases. You can tell my mom's heart's just not as into Christmas as it used to be, and I remember the Christmas Eve parties at their house— which HAD been mostly my dad's doing— and I guess something about this year made it really sink in— no, we never WILL have that particular experience again. Christmas is an eerie time of year, I say as someone who loves Christmas, but I also love psychedelic music which is ALSO eerie. It's like they say that Halloween is when the boundary between the living and dead is thinnest, Christmas has always felt like when the boundaries of Time are thinnest. Like Time as we know it is least linear. It feels like every Christmas that ever was and ever will be is happening at once. It's probably just that the music is reserved for this time of year, but it's the same music (for the most part) you've been listening to EVERY year at this time of year, and your brain connects them all that way, but the nostalgia hits hard and constant. And I love reliving the joy I've gathered from Christmas over the years, and I love spreading more of it, but I miss the people I used to see at Christmastime— the extended families— seems like extended family get-togethers died off after COVID and never picked back up. And I do my best to bring joy to the world like my dad did, but I'm not as social as him, so I can't, like, fill his shoes. And maybe I noticed it more this year because I HAD time and energy to spend on Christmas cheer at all?

Library Happenings

Obviously my library time was shaken up a good bit this year, which makes it feel a little weird, and some things I might have remarked on no longer seem important. But I shall do my best!

Top Five Summer Library Program Moments in Chronological Order Because I Can't Rank Them

The Collaborative Summer Library Program theme was "Color Our World," and I kept learning fascinating things about color all summer that I kept wanting to share but wasn't always easy to turn into an elementary-level activity. Here's a list of "moments" more than themes or activities— things I remember with great fondness!

  • The Pumpkin— I don't actually mention Fausto Gilberti's Artist picture book bio series in the booklists below, they just missed the cutoff line I suppose, but it's a neat Italian series (translated) that really focuses in on what makes the artists in question interesting to kids. I picked Yayoi Kusama Covered Everything In Dots and Wasn't Sorry for an introductory read-aloud on the first day of the program, the theme of which was finding art in the world all around you, and I thought her story fit. The kids actually got really into it, surprisingly the older group even more than the younger group even if I WAS (gasp) reading them a picture book, because some of her artwork was just so wild, so it elicited a lot of "wow!"s and "WHAT?!"s. Now most of the book is cartoony illustrations, but on the last page is a photograph of one of her more recent series of works, basically lots and lots of pumpkin sculptures covered with lots and lots of dots for as far as the eye can see. Immediately after this, we made collages by cutting interesting things from old magazines. Suddenly one of the girls gasped and ran over to me with a decorating magazine. "Look what I found! It's one of her pumpkins!" And indeed, there was actually a set of Yayoi Kusama's polka-dotted pumpkins being shown off as a high-class decorating option in this magazine. It was a perfect moment of learning kismet. And she DID use the pumpkins in her collage.
  • Wear Your Colors week—there's too many memorable moments to pick from this week, which focused on fiber arts. The kids did glue batiking with spray dye on T-shirts, and on the first day, while they were drying in the sun, a sudden rainstorm whooshed in, causing a bit of a panicky mess that became Quite the Story. One of the teen volunteers, who'd been getting into fiber arts herself, started a little crocheting club of a bunch of interested kids during recess and down time. Pom-pom making was the biggest and most surprising hit of the week. And I'd invited a special guest, a woman who owns a nearby alpaca farm and a yarn shop to go with it, who'd visited the library earlier that year, to come in to talk about/show them how she turns alpaca wool into yarn, and everyone was fascinated! The older kids even got to try out the equipment. That was a very successful week, on the whole.
  • Fireworks video and [child's name redacted]— This is small as far as programs-for-the-group go, but it's the sort of thing that Makes It All Worth It, as they say. Fourth of July week was "Color Chemistry," so we ended the day with a video about how fireworks are made. On the second (older kids) day, a mother who had kids in both days came up to tell me that her younger son had spent the entire 40-minute ride home the day before (this library serves a VERY large rural area) excitedly describing in detail exactly how fireworks are made, and we both felt kind of lucky that the ingredients aren't things that are easy for a seven year old to come by, or there WOULD have been some attempts made at homemade fireworks, we're pretty sure! Anyway, definitely a Moment of the summer, hearing about all that excitement one little video had caused.
  • 3D printing— the library had recently set up a 3D printer, and I thought it would be really cool if the older group could try it out for "Building Color" week, but I was nervous about asking. But on the contrary, our director thought that was a great idea and even suggested each kid make their own piece to take home, which I'd assumed we'd just be able to make one group piece to keep at the library. I found a little project on Tinkercad to make a little keychain with a name or initials on it, which I thought would be great for everyone to be able to personalize their own piece without spending too much time making things up from scratch. The kids caught on to using Tinkercad relatively quickly, and then each took their turn spelling whatever they wanted (within reason) on a keychain— most went with their names, but we had TWO "#1 DANCER"s, and one girl just spelled "GREEN" on a keychain that she did request be made in green. The youngest boy (who actually age-wise belonged in the younger group but was very smart and mature) made one that was really silly and made everyone laugh, which I of course now forget. My only real disappointment was that the one boy (the older brother of the one who now knows how to make fireworks actually) who I'd convinced to sign up for Summer Quest in the first place by telling him that the big kids were going to get to use the 3D printer, HAPPENED to be sick and stay home that week!
  • Banana Piano and muffins— the last week was "The Color of Sound," and for stations I set up a full-chromatic-octave 12-key Banana Piano with a Makey Makey kit. Twelve bananas being used as a piano by elementary schoolers get pretty beat up after a half-hour play session, and we did this on two different days, so that was 24 bashed up bananas I didn't want to go to waste, so I made banana muffins and offered them up at our end-of-summer picnic as a gift from me to everybody. And those banana muffins were VERY popular if I do say so myself.
  • Bonus: Field Trip— there was no better fit for a field trip to celebrate a summer of art, color science, and hands-on making, I thought, than my favorite former place of employment, the Children's Museum of Pittsburgh. And it was SO FUN. All the kids had a blast, and I did, too. It was fun to be back there to see a field trip from the OTHER side after having led such trips myself over 18 years ago! (And yes, I pointed out the sign in the lobby that still has my name on it because I'd happened to be working there when the expansion was built). And it reminded me just how much of my educational philosophy I developed from working there, things that have become instinctual when planning activities that, oh, I see are things I learned at the Museum! And on the flip side, I was seriously tickled listening to our guide do the Pre-Tour speech and I heard him use some lines/turns of phrase I'D originated for the speech over 20 years ago!

 Top Five Regular Storytime Themes

  1. Bears: Do you have any idea how many books about bears there are? There was even a book in my old Outreach bags called No Bears that was about how sick the young narrator was of books with bears in them. And my favorite picture book of 2025 (granted I haven't read too many) is a bear book (see below). So considering I was doing storytimes at two different libraries this year I reused this theme at both, and had more than enough selections to choose from. You have to do "Going On a Bear Hunt" because this always kills (not literally, it's not that kind of hunt). I cannot remember what craft we did, but there's more than enough stories to take up the time.
  2. Planting: I'd always wanted to do a long-term storytime project and I went for it this year— a two-parter program, one in mid-March where we talked about getting the garden ready for spring and planting seeds (also, read Plant the Tiny Seed, that's a must), and one in mid-May where we talked about flowers in bloom and made the required Mother's Day craft (which was a handprint flower). But at the March session I had them work together to plant a class marigold, then we set it in the window and checked in on it every week and watered it— there were different classes several days a week, and the volunteers tended to water ALL the pots, so they got plenty of water every day! They weren't ready for repotting by mid-may, so I used that as incentive for them to come back for our tomato-planting program in the off-season, so the marigolds could go in the garden with the tomatoes!
  3. Skeletons: I was scheduled to do a STEM themed storytime on Halloween, and I thought, what's a spooky science topic and/or a Halloween theme that can be given a scientific spin? And so I came up with skeletons. There's a cute book called There's a Skeleton Inside You! And you can sing "Dem Bones," and a book called Give Me Back My Bones about a pirate ghost putting his skeleton back together. Soon before I left my local library the first time, I'd made felt pieces of the bones in this book so the group could put the skeleton together along with the story, but I have no clue where they'd gone in the past three years— I looked everywhere I could think of! So I made new bones out of cardstock and we put them together on the floor. Good times!
  4. Owls/nocturnal: There are a lot of cute owl books, my favorite being Knight Owl, and Hello Moon by Downing (there's several books called Hello Moon) has a whole slew of nocturnal animals for the audience to identify. Last year Ms Vicki had found a really cute owl craft pattern with huge eyes made of fluorescent green paper so they'd look like they were glowing, so I thought I'd do the same at the new-old library, only I couldn't find any fluorescent green paper, so before I asked to purchase any I thought, but wait, let's take this a step up! And I made the eyes out of reflective tape instead.
  5. Time: I decided to do Time as a topic for the end of Daylight Savings, even though part of me was like "seriously? How are you going to pull that topic off for your primarily toddler audience?" But I proved myself wrong— for toddlers you just focus on basic things like Day vs Night and the months (seasons) of the year, and you sing "Hickory Dickory Dock." There was a book called The Clock Struck One that added a whole clock's worth of additional verses that was a big hit. And then I had them make clocks out of paper plates and brass fasteners and little round number stickers— I found a bunch that went from 1-20, so if anyone can think of any ideas for stickers 13-20 that would be useful! The preschoolers carefully worked on placing the numbers in order around the plate and were very proud, the toddlers stuck the numbers anywhere on the plate and were very proud (I said those ones were a pretty good visual representation of what my actual sense of time is).

 

MEDIA REVIEWS

Books!

Top 10 2025 and 2024 picture books, because I don't have enough good 2025 ones to make a list, but a lot of 2024. And also we're skipping the "books crammed for the Mock Caldecott" category this year because only a few of those are actually worthy of this list. I sucked at getting Caldecott-worthy books into the library before the Caldecott this year.

  1.  We are Definitely Human by X. Fang, 2024. This is definitely one of my new favorite story time picks—I read it in January and made an excuse to use it in as many storytimes/outreach visits as possible for the rest of the year, and bought a copy for both Jason’s youngest nephew (who thinks he’s getting too old for picture books since he’s started early chapters but he’s wrong) and my niece (who is still too young to really appreciate this one, but she’ll grow and I won’t have to worry about it going out of print before then). "Kind Humans help those in need," even when they're obviously VERY different from you—it's a great moral told in a very funny way. As a librarian in an age of state-sponsored xenophobia, I can't help noting that the author was an immigrant and this is definitely saying something about how one should treat immigrants, and does it show exactly how needed the message is when there was always one kid in every class who insisted the aliens excuse me definitely humans should be shot, even after it had been made clear over and over that they came in peace? I like the way I keep using the word "definitely" here and I didn't even do it on purpose.
  2. The Bear Out There, by Jess Hannigan, 2025. Jess Hannigan is a new talent to watch—her artwork bold and clever, her storylines subversive and unexpected. I like this one even more than her first book (number 7 on this list) so I imagine she’s only going to get better. This fourth-wall breaking book is kind of a take-off on Goldilocks. It’s really silly and went over really well in the most recent “bear” storytime (see aboveto be honest, finding this book was probably the biggest reason I decided to repeat the bear storytime!).
  3. I'm sorry you got mad by Kyle Lukoff, illustrated by Julie Kwon, 2024. I read this right after I did the Mock Caldecott binge (without being too impressed with many of them), and decided this should have gotten some Mock Caldecott attention, too—I would have been more likely to vote for it! (I'd ironically seen it on some Mock NEWBERY lists though—and the words are great, I love Kyle Lukoff, and learning to apologize properly is important). There's just so much happening in these pictures. You can pick out Zoe before she's even explicitly pointed out. You can see all sorts of side stories going on. You can see kids reacting-- and not-- to Jack's anger. Julie Kwon did not get enough credit for this!
  4. Life After Whale: the amazing ecosystem of a whale fall by Lynn Brunelle, illustrated by Jason Chin, 2024. Now this one was the Mock Caldecott binge I actually DID find Caldecott-worthy and got my number one vote—my coworker upstairs who did acquisitions even remembered it and asked me “Did you see that one about the whale?!” when I’d just mentioned Mock Caldecott coming up. Chin captures the majesty and feeling of it while still being scientifically accurate so, yeah, kind of amazing. And the words feel majestic, too. My only gripe, in evaluating it by Caldecott standards, was that sometimes I wished he would have drawn close-ups of ALL the animals the author is describing. But in the real-life ALAYMAs it ended up winning the Silbert for nonfiction, and that's probably more appropriate than the Caldecott anyway. I can say 100% that it deserves the Silbert.
  5. Joyful Song: a Naming Story, by Leslea Newman, illustrated by Susan Gal, 2024. Oh this book really is joyful. I’d seen it on some Mock Caldecott lists but we didn’t have our copy in time, but even if we had I don't know if I'd have thought "CALDECOTT!" about it. But joyful? So very much. It is Jewish, is about a family with two moms of different races, and their neighborhood is incredibly multicultural-- there are people out there who would take great offense to this book, which just goes to show you how WRONG they are, because how could anyone find fault with such an utterly JOYFUL celebration of family and community?
  6. Chooch Helped by Andrea L Rogers, illustrated by Rebecca Kunz, 2024.  Oh Chooch is adorable. I'm sure the narrator of this story doesn't want to hear that, but the picture where he's smiling at his birthday cake and the candles are reflected in his face just melted me. The story's simple and nice, but the pictures really are stand-out. We didn’t get this in time for our Mock Caldecott, either, but it won the real thing-- and it was the illustrator's first book, too! What a way to start off!
  7. Spider in the Well by Jess Hannigan, 2024. See, new talent to watch, I tell you. And this plotline is like nothing I’ve seen in a picture book before—I had NO idea where the story was even going! It’s both very funny and full of interesting artwork. I especially like the shots of looking down into the well and looking up out of it (click the link you can see them).
  8. Two Together by Brendan Wenzel, 2024. And here we have someone I remember being a New Talent To Watch but that was like ten years ago I think, and he has indeed put out SO many interesting books since. This was the book that actually won our Mock Caldecott, and I think I gave it one of my second-or-third votes. I love it but made myself confused possibly by thinking about the artwork too hard. Dog sees things in bold fingerpaints, cat in detailed crayon. But what's going on at the beginning and end? Is that how the reader would see them otherwise or what? But you see, that’s me absolutely thinking too hard, because just to experience it? It's very happy, and kind of psychedelic how the art styles combine. The rhyme is not quite perfect so I feel like it would trip me up reading aloud, but look at the pictures and be happy. As long as you don’t try to figure out the underlying artistic code of it all!
  9. The Last Zookeeper by Aaron Becker, 2024. I am a big fan of Becker, and this was in our Mock Caldecott, and I could imagine the real Caldecott committee really studying this one-- it seems to get better the more you read it. The plot is barely anything (giant Wall-e helps the animals find safety), but there's so much detail that only comes out the more you look (Zookeeper is wind-powered and his friend/rescuer is solar powered! Noah's Ark references!) His previous books that did win Caldecott Honors had more plot than this one (despite them all being wordless), so I think that helped those and hindered this one. Still, brilliant artwork!
  10. Zebra and Yak: the Backwards Alphabet Book by Paul Friedrich, 2025. Just pulled this off the new books shelf in my new-old library to pass time while waiting for the director, and was surprised how much I enjoyed it. This was cute, and could probably make a good read-aloud, though I haven’t had the opportunity to try it yet. I do need to get started planning another season of storytimes here.

 Top 10 Older Picture books

  1. The Power of Snow by Bob Raczka, illustrated by Bryony Clarkson, 2023. It’s meant to teach exponents, but it's simple enough to simply explain to preschoolers "on every page there are twice as many snowflakes!" and you can SEE exactly what that means! Granted, when I read it to preschoolers, they'll often shout out things like "That's almost one hundred!" when I just said "Five Thousand and Twelve." So maybe their concepts about number size are not quite ACCURATE, but they still appreciate how big the numbers get!
  2. Art is Everywhere: a Book about Andy Warhol by Jeff Mack, 2021. This one really impressed me. Maybe I shouldn't assume, but if I recall correctly these are Warhol's actual philosophies about art coming across in a kid-friendly way. It feels friggin' mind-opening. I used it at storytime the first day of Summer Quest because like the one about Yayoi Kusama (see above) it definitely made the point that, well, art is everywhere!
  3. In Between by April Pulley Sayre and completed by Jeff Sayre, 2023. Really beautiful! Little baby-- or kid—in between that’s the point—animals! I miss April Pulley Sayre, she died too young, but had always put out such lovely nonfiction picture books about nature that you could actually use with really young kids. I believe this was her last book, her widower finished it up to put it out.
  4. Christo and Jeanne-Claude Wrap the World by G. Neri, illustrated by Elizabeth Haidle, 2023. This one made ME go "wow" and smile a lot. Looking at this full list now, I see a lot of artist bios that I read for “Color Our World” that delighted me because somehow the concepts behind what many grownups see as “strange” or even “not art,” addressed to kids in these picture books, make perfect sense now and really highlight how to see the wonder in everything around you. Now that I've read it I remember someone on a podcast talking about having seen the exhibition "The Gates" when it was in NYC. “Surrounded Islands” is the one that really blows my mind though!
  5. The Concrete Garden by Bob Graham, 2023. Aww, Bob Graham always writes such sweet stories, and this was SOOOO Color Our World themed. I didn’t find a place to use it in my actual programming, but I sure did put it on display.
  6. The Boy Who Dreamed of Infinity: a tale of the genius Ramanujan by Amy Alznauer, illustrated by Daniel Miyares, 2020. Someone on BlueSky mentioned this guy and I said, "Oh, we have a book about him!" because it's a Wonderbook that didn't fit on the shelf properly so was face out where I saw it everyday, so I picked it up as soon as I got to work. Boy was this kid ever autistic-savant. Tried not to cry at his unique outlook and struggle to get others to understand it. Love the idea that numbers for him were something magical and outright religious, the words of God. Ended up giving him a shoutout in the chapter of “Tesseract” I was writing (see below) because I feel like Madeleine L'Engle would have loved him. I was amused and a little bewildered because this was the same week I first read “Power of Snow” (see above)—two books in the same week on the same mathematical topic (exponents!) and I loved them both, despite not loving numbers. But I love people who do love numbers making me love numbers for the course of their story! Side note, the author credits the India room at the Cathedral of Learning in her research acknowledgements, but there isn't any outright bio info of her to say if she's a Pittsburgher.
  7. Like a Windy Day by Frank Ashe, illustrated by Devin Ashe, 2002. I confess, I don’t really love Frank Ashe’s Moonbear books, but he wrote a separate book about the sun, and this one about the wind, that I do just love. This one is poetry that makes me feel exhilarated more than calm. I like the artwork with the wind girl in the background "playing" with things that fly.
  8. Mirandy and Brother Wind by Patricia C. McKissack, illustrated by Jerry Pinkney, 1988. Yes, note that the last book, this book, and the next book WERE all books I was looking at for my “wind”-themed storytime. I've often seen this book but had never read it, and I still didn't think I was going to when I picked it up now, because I could tell at a glance it was too wordy for my audience. But the voice caught me before I could put it down, and I had to read it just for my own pleasure, smiling all the while. It's a joyful book!
  9. One Windy Wednesday by Phyllis Root, illustrated by Helen Craig, 1996. Ah, I am right to trust Phyllis Root to make a good read aloud. And this one's simple enough for even the youngest crowd to get a kick out of-- and I laughed, too! It’s now on my Favorite Read-Alouds list for quick reference whenever I need a book about wind OR about animal noises!
  10. Emily's Blue Period by Cathleen Daly, illustrated by Lisa Brown, 2014. Aww, this is very sweet and sad but hopeful. I remember seeing it when it first came out but not reading it because, again, I could see that it was too long for a preschool story time. But this summer, when I had an elementary-aged group, and was looking for books with the combined theme of art/color and emotions? Perfect.

  Best Longer-than-Picture Books, no time range, because I didn’t read enough to warrant separating them:

  1. What is color? the global and sometimes gross story of pigments, paint, and the wondrous world of art by Steven Weinberg, 2024. Fun, interesting, full of weird trivia that I was dying to share with the Summer Quest kids the minute I read it. I ended up making a matching game of colors and their sources of pigments, with interesting facts on the back, that did get a lot of good responses! The weird only problem I have with this book is I feel like there could have been a lot more. Surely these aren't the only sources of pigments in the world! I want to hear about the rest!
  2. The Lady Janies series by Cynthia Hand, Brodi Ashton, and Jodi Meadows, 2016-2024. I try to use podcasts (see below) to motivate me to do housework, but being home so much now, I was actually running short on podcasts to match the housework. Then I realized, wait! Audiobooks! I’ll get to read for my own enjoyment again AND get stuff done! But what should I start with? It had been so long since I’d picked out a book purely to read for myself. Now, literary agent Jennifer Laughran, who I follow on various social medias and has very good taste (she was the first person I saw talk about Hamilton. She insisted to everyone it was going to be The Next Big Thing. I suppose this is part of what makes her a really good agent), had mentioned this YA series a few times in answer to the question “How do I get out of a reading slump?” because they are funny, easy to read, and most importantly absolutely nothing like anything else out there. So when I saw My Lady Jane while browsing Hoopla for audiobooks I gave it a go, and it was exactly as she described. Well not absolutely nothing like anything else, as it and the rest of the books are very obviously influenced by The Princess Bride in humor and voice (and occasionally outright references, not that there aren’t also a lot of cultural references from any other source you can imagine. There’s a character in My Contrary Mary who keeps having what she thinks are failed prophecies but are actually the plots of famous movies in our time, and it never failed to make me laugh). Anyway, so the premise is, take some interesting people from history, tell their stories but throw in some aspect of the supernatural, and make sure there’s a happy ending even if the actual history didn’t end that way (the supernatural bits help with this. So for example, your beloved didn’t DIE, they just turned into a frog! All is well!). And also, be funny. The only drawback to my plan of getting housework done to these is I get so sucked in that I can’t stop listening once the housework is done, and I end up just sitting around playing games on my phone for hours to listen to the rest.    
  3. The Secret of Lillian Velvet, by Jaclyn Moriarty, 2023. This is the entirety of what I have in the “Notes” column for this book on my BookRiot Reading Log Spreadsheet:* “(disability rep [one of the tracking columns on the BookRiot sheet] probably includes protag, everyone in the Kingdoms and Empires is neurodivergent I swear. Jaclyn Moriarty should be my best friend) (honestly, it might be a weird parasocial delusion but Jaclyn Moriarty SHOULD be my best friend).” Which is to say, reading a Jaclyn Moriarty book just makes me go “KINDRED SPIRIT? Someone on the same weird planet as me?” and decide again that probably we should be Best Friends. Oh yeah, I should probably mention that this is the most recent book in the delightfully unexpected middle grade fantasy Kingdoms and Empires series.
  4. The First State of Being, by Erin Entrada Kelly, 2024. When I was supposed to be putting the new Newbery winner on the New Winners' display on the day it won, I got distracted and started reading it, instead. I enjoyed it, but admittedly part of that comes from nostalgia of the 1999 setting: the “historical” references kept making me laugh (one of the characters was reading a Christopher Pike book and when she explained the plot summary I went "OH I READ THAT ONE!") But I also just generally enjoyed the time travel plot, which is a lot bigger in the story than the summary gives it credit for—even more prominent than the one in When You Reach Me, yet another Newbery winner that crossed historical fiction and time travel (yes, 1999 is historical fiction). I actually think I enjoyed this more than When You Reach Me barring all the latter's Wrinkle in Time references. Wrinkle in Time references do beat out 90s Teenager references.
  5. This Boy: the early lives of John Lennon and Paul McCartney by Ilene Cooper, 2023. Confession: this is one of those books I bought for the library collection because I wanted it. And believe it or not there was information in here even I didn't know before-- mostly about John's family, because his parents were PROBLEMATIC (they also probably had ADHD, and John most definitely had ADHD, I’m sure of it), but he adored his mother at least and was heartbroken by her death, so of course he blew off her total irresponsibility when he talked about her in interviews, and I've mostly just read all the primary sources in my Beatles-education. Like who knew primary sources could be biased. But I learned a little more about Paul's family, too, and the book helped put their childhoods in context in general in a way sources not aimed at kids sixty years later never do! If I have any criticism it's that I PERSONALLY would have liked to hear more about George, too, but he's not in the title so, that’s a me problem.
  6. The Color of Sound by Emily Barth Isler, 2024. Since the last week of Summer Quest was called “The Color of Sound” (see the Banana Piano above), I had to read the first chapter to see if it would be a good read-aloud for the older group. And whaddya know, the main character is suffering from burnout, just like me! So I had to read the rest of it, too! It also amused me how many parallels the main character had with the way I was writing Viktor Hargreeves in “The Beginning of Something Else Entirely” (see below in fanfic I wrote)—she has synthesia and experiences the world an awful lot the way I write Viktor “hearing the background music,” and they’re both on strike from playing the violin and have to learn to reclaim music in the course of the story! Also, this is a timeslip story, and Viktor’s whole life has—well, a lot more than timeslips but still. In fact this book is primarily realism, just with a time-slip and some historical elements thrown in. Kind of a magic realism?
  7. A Strange Thing Happened in Cherry Hall by Jasmine Warga, 2024. Speaking of reading first chapters looking for good first chapters to read to Summer Quest, this one worked on me-- I had to keep going! It's such a unique story-- not QUITE a ghost story, kind of a mystery, kind of a realistic kid-friendship story, and several chapters are from the point of view of an artistic turtle. It felt a little slight to me on the whole, but I'm 47-- it's perfect for a slightly lower-than-upper middle grade.
  8. Wrath of the Triple Goddess by Rick Riordan, 2024. Originally took this out of the library in February to read with the kids. Never found time to read with the kids. Still had it when I left the library I took it out from in August (boy can you get away with stuff when you’re listed as “staff” in the system). Finally gave up and just started reading it on my own time, sending it back to its home library through the system van! Truth was, I enjoyed it all right, but I know I would have enjoyed it a lot more if I was reading with the kids. Maddie makes us make time to watch the Percy Jackson TV show (see below in moving pictures) one hour a week, but reading the latest Percy Jackson Senior Year adventure just takes up too much time! As I said above, it’s weird picking out books for just me when I’ve spent the past ten years or so picking out books for me AND Maddie AND Sam. Or for library kids!   

 *This is the link to 2025's spreadsheet info. I can't find the 2026 one yet, though I suppose I can copy my 2025 one.

Most interesting Rereads

What's annoying is I swear I read some picture books this year that I've read before but in which the experience made me go "Oh, that is perhaps one for Most Interesting Rereads!" but I didn't write them down and now of course I don't remember. As for novels I did reread at least bits and pieces of A Wrinkle In Time (as if I need to) and the Blossom Culp books that I have, both for fic-writing purposes, see Fanfic I Wrote, Below.

Oh oh wait, I say as I'm editing up the "Top Summer Library Program Moments" section (yes, I do compose this in bits and pieces all out of order), I remember what (at least one of) the most memorable picture book reading was now! During "Over the Rainbow" week, which was also Water Play week, so the theme was light and color (and making rainbows), I read Hello, Red Fox by Eric Carle to the younger class. The premise of the book uses opposite colors and after-images— you're supposed to stare at each picture and then at a blank page, to see each animal in its "true" color instead. This requires a fairly bright light to work, and in the past when I've read this to a group, the chances of it working varied greatly because so many preschool carpet areas were relatively dimly lit or at least had indirect lighting, but this time we'd be outside in the sun! And it was fun watching more and more kids get it— a few never figured out how to do it right, but the others, it took some practice, but when it finally clicked and they saw the colors like magic, that was pretty fun. But even more memorable was the next day— I didn’t read it for storytime with the older kids because it's very basic, but while everyone was taking turns changing out of their wet clothes at the end of the day, I had activity stations out to keep the already dry/changed kids occupied, and the first batch of girls had already done all the inside activities except the Glowstick Party (which I needed to wait for another adult to pull off, and she was still outside with the still-wet kids), so I pulled out the book and explained what to do, just as an activity rather than a story, and they went nuts over it, in the best way. They hijacked every freshly-changed kid who came in after that to show off their nifty magic trick. I saw that as a clear win!

Oh I have another one, that I just remembered while getting distracted reading LAST year’s round-up! I read a few first chapters of The Mona Lisa Vanishes (that link goes to last year’s round-up) to the older Summer Quest group, then went to check it in at the end of the day, only to discover that there was a hold on it. Then I saw who had placed the hold—one of the kids from Summer Quest! (Actually one of the same girls who was making everyone try Hello Red Fox later in the summer, come to think). She’d gone straight to the circulation desk after being dismissed just to make sure she was the first one to read the rest!

Moving Pictures

The Grand Total of Moving Pictures I have watched this year, in order of when I watched them!

  • “Thunderbolts*” (Disney+)—the first thing I watched this year I watched in August so what does that tell you. Anyway, I've been out of the MCU loop, I had no idea this existed until my fic-writing buddy Stephsageek started posting chapters of a fic for it (see fanfic below), and it appeared to be about traumatized superheroes -powered people, which is my jam (see three quarters of my works on AO3), so like the week I left my job Steph had posted another chapter and I said, You know what? I suddenly have a lot more free time and I want to read this fic, this has inspired me to watch this movie this week. And Steph went, oh, cool, then in return I'll start watching Legion and read YOUR fics! (She has now gotten through the first season and become a Loudermilk fanatic because obviously). But the point is, yes, it's my jam! Yay, traumatized super-people learning about the Power of Friendship!
  • Leverage (Hoopla)—another thing Tumblr introduced me to. I never heard much about it in real life, but a surprising variety of my Tumblr people (people with like nothing in common otherwise!) have posted enthusiastically about it and it sounded fun, every episode a heist by a troupe of modern-day Robin Hoods. I have now watched the first season of the original run, because Hoopla offered a Binge Pass checkout for it, and so I've got the idea of it now— I'd like to hear what people's must-see episodes of later seasons are, so I can make sure to watch those (because there isn't a binge pass for later seasons, and you see how much--or little-- watching I get to in a year anyway). It is indeed very fun, and I can't get over the character of Parker, who is the most wacked-out example of authentic autistic representation ever and this was in, what, 2008 or something? That was before you could even be diagnosed AuDHD. But they made this character who is genuinely autistic but absolutely nothing like most autistic characters you see (especially at that time). Her special interest just happens to be breaking and entering.
  • Only Murders in the Building (Hulu)— I think I've liked the odd-numbered seasons better than the even numbers, and I liked those, too. So yes I thoroughly enjoyed this fifth season then! Every week I would be struck with the overwhelming sensation of Watching Mystery Shows With My Mom— this is SO her thing, and I keep asking if she's seen it yet but I don't think she's even figured out HOW to access it. Anyway, the things that delighted me most this season were Loretta's Undercover Work (what an excellent use of the character!), Oliver's backstory, and that Theo had a very small appearance after being completely absent from Season 4.
  • Percy Jackson and the Olympians (Disney+)—I’m not sure, I keep getting the feeling in Season Two that it’s trying too hard to be just like every other upper-middle-grade fantasy property put to film—but then again maybe that’s just me getting old? I had a similar reaction to the latest book in the series after all (see above). But it’s still fun, and the end credit animation never ceases to be fascinating. Also having been reading the Senior Year series I keep forgetting that Percy and Annabeth aren’t dating yet at this point, and I keep having moments of going “why are they acting so—oh they’re still not actually that close yet, I forgot.”
  • Oh, I forgot! I DO have a number 5 (and six, and potentially 7 and 8 but that would be cheating) to round this out: The Muppet Script Reading Series (here at Dynasty Typewriter)— Matt Wilkie, a big Muppet nerd who hangs out in the ToughPigs arena (see below), but also happens to work in the improv scene in LA in real life, decided to organize a script reading of The Muppet Movie for charity, and recruited a whole bunch of big names in the improv community (Marc Evan Jackson plays Kermit) to perform it. This turned out to be so successful and so plain fun for everyone involved that he's kept it up with MORE Muppet movie scripts— they just did Christmas Carol a couple weeks ago, but so far I've just watched the first one and Caper. You have to pay $15 to watch, but it's for charity, and it IS very fun, so enjoy!

 Podcasts!

  • My podcast listening still revolves primarily around Children's Literature and Muppets, with podcasts I've talked about before here. One additional Muppet podcast I have to call out this year though is the "70 Years 70 Muppets" campaign series at ToughPigs. Muppet Studios at Disney actually contacted ToughPigs about producing a podcast to tie in to their list of Muppets of the Week they were featuring during the anniversary (slightly-longer-than) year, and ToughPigs came up with a really creative premise: each week would be covered by a different staff member and they had full license to feature the character in whatever way they liked. So you had interviews with the podcasters' family members and interviews with the actual Muppet performers and interviews with people who just happened to share an occupation with the Muppet in question. You had off-the-wall silly episodes (see, anything by Shane) and unexpectedly fascinating episodes (see Drake's interview with Kathy Mullen for the Gaffer the Cat week, which is probably one of my favorite episodes and I'd never given the slightest thought to Gaffer the Cat before). You had episodes brimming with love for a character, episodes from a bewildered state of what is there even to say about this character, and at least one episode totally hating a character that I thought was nonetheless handled very well. You never knew what to expect from the podcast week to week, but every week was absolutely delightful. It just ended last week and I already miss it!
  • But in the spring one of the hosts of Muppeturgy mentioned a (her words) "lovely" podcast called "Strong Songs" devoted to picking apart what makes different songs great. Now, I think I'd heard of the podcast before but thought it had a dumb name so didn't look into it further, but the way she described it here made my brain perk up and think "THAT IS EXACTLY MY THING!" and I immediately went onto the ToughPigs Discord (Muppeturgy isn't a ToughPigs podcast but all the other Muppet podcasters do hang out there because that's just what Muppet fanatics do) to ask for more info, and before I knew it I was bingeing the whole thing from the first episode and keeping a list of music it introduced me to that I needed to seek out further (see below). I have learned so much, for while our tastes are generally similar (definite exceptions excepted), he has a jazz background, which I have no experience with, and there are a lot of things I just wasn't even aware of that he points out. It's awesome. You can hear him answer my question about musical notation in this episode.
  • And in a spinoff of that, Strong Songs cross-posted a miniseries (six-and-a-bonus episodes) podcast called "The Wonder of Stevie" — now, I like Stevie Wonder all right, some of his songs stand out as flat brilliant (and "Sir Duke" is definitely on the list of Top Favorites Just Under "Here Comes the Sun" But Which Are Unable to be Sorted Further), and I generally enjoy most of the others I know, but I wouldn't have called myself a Big Fan or anything— but the host, music critic Wesley Morris, is SO enthusiastic, and the stories he told were so fascinating, that I got sucked in immediately and thoroughly enjoyed this whole series— and ALSO discovered some new music, see below! Also, the show is produced by the Obamas— yes those Obamas— who are big Stevie Wonder fans, so sometimes Morris will interview them as fans, and he always cracks me up because you can hear his voice go into this "Oh, no biggie, just talking to MR. PRESIDENT here, you know" thing and it makes me laugh every time. (Side note, remember when Presidents generally tended to be halfway decent human beings? I kept thinking, My, what a decent human being, I miss having a decent human being for a President. End side note).
  • Also I noted that youtube videos about music can often be listened to without watching, so they became podcasts too. One that stands out as particularly interesting are all the interviews music producer Rick Beato conducts with a huge variety of musicians— I guess "variety" not so much in genre (he seems to have the most contacts in the rock and particularly grunge circles) but in fame? Because one video he's chatting with freaking David Gilmour, then with some up-and-coming kid with a YouTube channel, then with a studio musician you've never heard of who turns out to have played on a ridiculous number of big hits, then with a sound engineer or mixer, and what's great about these interviews is he talks to everyone the same way— well, he did fanboy over Gilmour a little bit— but I mean, he focuses on the music and how they go about creating music, a musician chatting with another musician about this thing they both love and hyperfixate over. You can tell the interviewees are totally comfortable talking with him like this, in a way they might not be with some random reporter in a publicity situation, so they also tend to have interesting stories you probably haven't heard before as opposed to canned responses in a typical style interview— or interesting stories you haven't heard before simply because no one ever thought to interview the non-famous interviewee before.
  • Also listened to a bunch of YouTube Music/Album reaction videos, but mostly those aren't worth recommending so much as they're just a fun alternate way to listen to an album; but I will call out this dude, Isaac Brown, who's in the middle of reacting to all the Beatles albums in order (as I copy this link I see that he accidentally posted a Led Zeppelin reaction to the top of this playlist, but don’t let that confuse you, it IS the Beatles playlist). I find myself reacting to the reactions, mostly of the "you ain't seen nothin' yet!" variety, but also because he'll ask questions about what he's hearing and I will respond out loud, just because Beatles info. I have an automatic response issue with Beatles info.

 Music!

  •  So "The Wonder of Stevie" (see above) focused on a "streak" of amazing albums Stevie Wonder put out one after another in the 70s. Morris outright called out, in one of the later episodes, that while there's a subgenre referred to as "Album Rock," and all the great rock bands have whole albums that they're known for, no one talks about "Album R&B," that Black and R&B artists are usually known for their individual songs, as "hitmakers," instead, and yet Stevie's whole albums deserved to be appreciated as ALBUMS too. And boy, was he right! I definitely have a new appreciation for Stevie Wonder as "Album R&B" or whatever now, and Innervisions and Fulfillingness's First Finale have made my Frequently Played Albums list. (Me committing a heresy: I know Songs In the Key of Life is supposed to be The Greatest, but while the highs are REALLY HIGH— "Sir Duke" is on it after all— , as an album I get kind of bored in between the highs? *gasp* I'm sorry, I'm tasteless. Whereas Innervisions and FFF keep me going "oh THIS is EXCELLENT" the whole way through).
  •  I started following a "Do You know this song?" poll blog on Tumblr, and one day what I thought was a delightful foreign song was revealed to be by an American band called Dengue Fever, made up of a white guy who visited Cambodia and fell madly in love with Cambodian 60's psych rock, some friends he begged to help him recreate it, and one actual Cambodian immigrant they found who, it turned out, had been a real pop star in Cambodia before she moved. So eventually they developed their own unique American variety of Cambodian-style psych rock, and I went, okay, I need to hear more of these guys, obviously. So I binged their albums for a month on Freegal (which my now-old library subscribes to but my local-old-and-new-again library does not, so one of the negatives of quitting my job was the day I discovered my library card no longer had Freegal access) and ended up downloading quite a bit. Like listen to this stuff. Can anyone claim that doesn't rock hard? No, you cannot.
  • I was listening to a bunch of music reaction videos on YouTube as I said, and one was on Floyd's Atom Heart Mother album, which I'd never listened to, since it had a reputation of being Not Good— but I liked it. I outright LOVED one number from it, "Summer '68"— which was apparently Rick Wright's contribution to the album songwriting-wise, which makes sense, because me and piano, and Wright's keyboarding is one of the things I love best about Floyd.
  •  Oh, I just noticed that I SAID I was keeping a list of music I'd discovered or at least wanted to explore further on Strong Songs, but haven't named any here (the Stevie Wonder being through the podcast I found THROUGH Strong Songs)! I still have the list up on a (computerized) sticky note here, so let's see. Some standout examples I see are Sufjan Stevens, whom I'd heard of but had no idea what his music actually sounded like (answer, not a bit like I would have guessed, and it actually reminded me a bit of Paul Simon of all people); the first time I actually ever heard a Phish song, "Limb By Limb"— my sister is a huge Phish fan yet somehow I'd never actually heard them? And I ended up buying Muse's album Origin of Symmetry pretty much immediately after the Strong Songs episode about two of its tracks

 Fanfic (I Read! See lower for fanfic I wrote!)

The One I Can't Rank Because Someone Wrote It Especially for Me

"Blossom Culp and the Convincer Effect," by psychomachia for Rockinlibrarian, (Blossom Culp Series - Richard Peck, T, 8,393, words). So like, Blossom Culp was my imaginary best friend when I was 14, so I was thrilled to discover that somebody had nominated this series for the Yuletide fic-writing exchange and I was like Okay sign me up for one of THOSE! (And when all the numbers were in of who had requested and offered what, I kind of figured this would be the fandom I got because no one besides me had offered in the other two fandoms I requested!) And so I have this post-series genuinely spooky adventure of Blossom and Alexander attempting to navigate an old theater with a ghost who just really wants to finish his show!

 Top 10 Other Fanfics I Read This Year

I've long since finished the TUA-fic-in-alphabetical-order binge so I don't have to divide it into categories. To be truly honest, I've also read less period, and I'm chapters behind on some of the fics that are even on this list. I also haven't read much from this year's Yuletide because I was so excited to see Blossom Culp fic that I ended up bingeing that instead (I read the three Blossom Culp fics from this year's Yuletide. One of which I wrote, so I guess TWO Blossom Culp fics have been the extent of my Yuletide 2025 reading). But that said, let's kick this off with some Yuletide 2024 instead:

  1.  "On Sale Now, Sold Out Always," by Missy for lemonwedge_onasaturday, (This is Spinal Tap (1984), G, 106 words)—putting this one first on account of I've read it the most, because it's shortest— one of the many things I love about the Yuletide exchange is the Madness collection, where people will post random little weird things like drabbles and poetry based on people's prompts, like this, which is a short letter Derek Smalls sent to his fan club about his new solo album, the title of which album still cracks me up but I can't tell you because that's basically the whole point of reading this thing— the titles are so perfectly canonical-sounding I wonder if Missy had just had a "List of phrases that sound like Spinal Tap songs" on file to pull for just such an occasion. This description is possibly longer than the fic now, so just read it, in Derek's voice for best results.
  2. "Cartes Postales," by mikeneko for salifiable, (Blossom Culp Series - Richard Peck, T, 21,631 words)— Somehow mikeneko wrote this for Yuletide 2012— I ASSUME the amount of time between assignments and due dates hasn't changed THAT much in 13 years, so the fact that this is basically a whole new book in the series, both in length and quality (and chronologically, like, if there WAS a fifth book this is when it would happen and it's the sort of thing that would happen too), is beyond impressive! Who writes the entire next book of a series for friggin’ Yuletide? WAIT: CONSPIRACY THEORY: what if mikeneko IS Richard Peck? They haven’t posted on AO3 since 2015 and Peck died in 2018! Coincidence? Yes probably.
  3. "Captain's Log," by rarefiedrest for Undercamel_of_Pluto, (Dredge (Video Game), G, 12,497 words)— so my Tumblr peep Pluto had posted a thought about the game Dredge, which I hadn't even heard of, but apparently it's Cthulhu-Mythos-seafaring-horror about a fisherman whose wife fell victim to whatever's haunting the Deep, and Pluto suggested that it'd be interesting if the fisherman had died and the wife was the main character instead, and went on to describe why, and I was like I know nothing about this game but I'd totally read this story. Then Pluto reblogged a link to this fic, because Rarefiedrest had also thought it sounded great so set out to WRITE the story! And despite still being clueless about the source material, I've been hanging on to every word of this deliciously atmospheric epistolary tale of foreboding and madness (almost— the most recent chapter is still open in a tab unread. But I'm looking forward to reading it whenever I stop doing all the other things!)
  4. "Empty Graves," by Unpretty, (Superman - All Media Types, DCU, T, 6,539 words)—speaking of Tumblr, this is one I read on Tumblr, then saw the post was linked to the story on AO3, so I followed the link just to bookmark it in the very likely event it would rank high enough in my reading memory to make this year-end list, which, as you see, it did. Now I'm kind of a Marvel-over-DC girlie, but I know the basics of Superman, which is all I needed to know to appreciate this tale of Martha Kent going all mama-bear on a bunch of time-traveling assassins targeting her son, and then promptly forgetting about it because time travel shenanigans. It's fabulous, as many others have apparently discovered before me, judging by the stats on this thing. But if you haven't read it, go do that!
  5. "A Confessional That Never Closes," by Stephsageek, (Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), M, 52,701 words)—and speaking of Marvel now, see the note about the Thunderbolts movie above, because this is the continuing story (both that the FIC is the continuing story of the MOVIE and that I'm continuing the NOTE of the movie here). So then I read and thoroughly enjoyed Steph's fic, which deals with a lot of similar themes and concepts as my own fic "The Beginning of Something Else Entirely" (see below), because like I said, traumatized super-people are my jam, and this is another story of bonding/found family, recovery from recent events, and healing from old wounds.
  6. "haircut & post office," by owlinaminor, (Kairos (O'Keefe) Series - Madeleine L'Engle, Austin & Murry-O'Keefe Families - Madeleine L'Engle, A Wrinkle in Time (2018), T, 2,374 words)— my long-delayed fic "Tesseract" (SEE BELOW IN CAPS BECAUSE I'M EXCITED) is tagged "Alex/Kate," implying the presence of a romantic relationship, and my fic, though not a romance per se, especially in this chapter focuses on Mr.-and-Mrs.-Murry as true life-partners, definitely Couples Goals, and while working on that chapter I wondered if anyone else had written them from that angle. The Alex/Kate tag only has 17 fics to begin with, and disappointingly most of those are actually focused on other people-- they'd been tagged mostly as a background thing. But this one, telling the Kate-POVed account of the week post-Wrinkle, was exactly what I'd been looking for, so in-character and focused on them as grownups. I mean, yes I do adore middle grade fiction and all, but I AM 47, I appreciate a good look at the grownups in the book I've been obsessed with since I was nine.
  7. "Summer Ghosts, Again," by LydiaOLydia for Aeriel, (Blossom Culp Series - Richard Peck, T, 11,077 words), on the flip side, that doesn't take away from me bingeing these stories about a couple supernatural-trouble-prone teenagers who I was obsessed with when I was 14, does it? The fact that I've had all these THOUGHTS about what happened post-series in my head for over 30 years without sharing them, then suddenly I find a stash of fics from like-minded people who apparently had many of the same thoughts all along? This was one of the first I read (since it was most recent pre-Yuletide '25— it was a Yuletide '21*— apparently Yuletide is the excuse now-grown Blossom Culp fans use to make public all their THOUGHTS), and I was stunned by how on-the-same-page I'd been all along with random strangers about these characters. Like in both my fic-based-on-my-30yo-headcanons-see-below and this one (spoilers for both these fics), Alexander tracks down Blossom at the newspaper where she works, and she at first won't talk to him since she's still furious that he jilted her several years ago, when he'd panicked at the various implications of Their Future** and figured his best option was to (pardon the term) ghost her— the circumstances and writing of each are very different, but for even the basic outline of that to be so dead-on it's like, the part of me that believes that All Stories Are True In Some Other Dimension is like, Well, our headcanons are obviously CORRECT, then, that IS what happened! (There are more repeating details coming out among the other fics, too, that were not stated in canon, but were apparently foreshadowed enough that everyone came to the same conclusion maybe? Like it's a little amazing how many different people decided that they'd lost their virginity-or-nearabouts to each other in The Barn Loft round about senior year, considering this is based on a young-YA-practically-MG series and it would have happened in 1917-18, but I guess that's another thing that just Happened in the Dimension Where it's Real? On the other hand, the aforementioned Mikeneko-who-is-probably-not-Richard-Peck, in a different fic, had Alexander lose his left leg in The War, just like I had (again see belownot my leg my story), which is frankly a WEIRD coincidence. Pretty sure Richard Peck—the real one—didn't foreshadow that one). Anyway, this particular story is very cozy and Correct to me, which is why it makes this list.
  8. "Fear of the Ethereal," by LuckyyWritess, (The Umbrella Academy (TV), E, 18,118 words)— Look, I know what you're thinking. But I PROMISE I didn't put this in here just to throw an Explicit Fiktor fic at you unawares. I do understand that my average blog reader has no interest in Fiktor-smut! No, I'm highlighting this story (which does happen to contain a bit of smut, fair warning) because of the really clever worldbuilding. It's an AU where all the marigold-babies are gods in a pantheon, and all their canon powers translate to godhood and make perfect sense. Their personalities as well, and other canon events, are reinterpreted for this setting in really creative ways. Viktor is the up-and-coming powerful new god and the God-of-Time is smitten with him. So yes, it IS also a (sometimes smutty) romance between Five and Viktor, but hey they're not even pseudo-related in this one and even if they were that's totally normal for gods!
  9. "put your heavy heart to rest," by backpacks-lite (TumblingBackpacks), (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 1,732 words)— here, perfectly platonic 5+7 content, happy now? This is pure canon, of Viktor's reactions to Five's return in season 1, but what makes it special is that it's told in a lovely 2nd person prose-poetry style, quite beautiful.
  10. "Never Again," by Peevesie_Writes, (Howl Series - Diana Wynne Jones, G, 2,349 words)— I found a lot of the fics I read this year mostly by clicking on tags in my own fics to see what other people had written on the topic, and clicking the "Howl & Megan" tag yielded a small-but-high-quality treasure trove of complicated sibling relationships, three of which made my Bookmarks as potential end-of-year highlights. I picked this one because it condenses a lot of emotions and backstory and explanations of how the past affects the present in a relatively short story. Sad but kind of brilliant.

Honorable Mention: "Closed Loop System," by One_of_Them (greenbean_paste), (The Murderbot Diaries - Martha Wells, T, 1,532 words)— this is actually a game of Minesweeper in which every move unlocks a bit of dialogue (usually funny). Supposedly there are four different endings, but I haven't the slightest idea how to find those, possibly because I'm no good at Minesweeper— I've just found two, in which You get Eaten By a Bug (which happens a lot), and In Which You Don't. So I'm recommending just on the basis of how cool the concept is, although perhaps I don't know the full of it.

*I didn't start doing Yuletide until '23, which is why this is the first year I saw Blossom in the nominations

**His actual motivation isn't in the fic I wrote, yet, but that WAS it, as will be shown if I finish the tie-in Alexander-POV chapter

STUFF I WROTE! 

Stuff I Wrote, Here on Dreamwidth Edition: 

Stuff I Wrote, GeekMom Edition: No? But I have time again, I may go back to it at some point.

Stuff I Wrote, Tumblr Edition: So I've noticed Tumblr has become my social media of choice, which is kind of annoying because most of my real life friends aren't on it. But it's in chronological order and the ads are unobtrusive, so it's so much more enjoyable to use than Facebook or Instagram! I don't make ALL that many original posts there, but I do some, so here are the highlights of those this year:

Random short bit that made me laugh so I'm sharing it even though it's short: I keep forgetting Megan Whalen Turner follows me and then I get a "Megan Whalen Turner reblogged your post" notification and go "WHAT??? oh yeah I forgot," every time.

I tried to get people to play the Lyric Game with me three times (still talking about Tumblr here):

 And here’s a bunch of Writing Asks (still on Tumblr):

 Times I linked on Tumblr to the fics I'd just posted on AO3, if you want to read the notes I wrote about each. (Otherwise, just see the links below!)

And combining the two: Yuletide Reveals and End of Year AO3 Writers Survey! Technically that was posted on January 1 of this year, meaning 2026, but that was the earliest I could talk about the Yuletide things I'd written! (Oh, so I wouldn't have posted this Annual Roundup by New Year's Eve, anyway, even if I HAD finished by then. I'm not going to NOT post about two of my fics of the year!)

 Stuff I Wrote, Fanfic Edition:

I technically ranked these, but it really goes 1st place, 4-way-tie for 2nd, 3rd-only-because-it's-freewritten-crack. BY THE WAY I LOVE COMMENTS. YOU SHOULD READ AND COMMENT.

"Tesseract,” (Kairos (O'Keefe) Series - Madeleine L'Engle, Marvel Cinematic Universe, G, 7,256, words)—CHAPTER TWO!  I'd posted Chapter One in December of 2021, and I PROMISED I hadn't abandoned it, I WAS still working on it, I WOULD finish it someday— and Someday was this October (well, for chapter two— there are still another couple chapters to go)! This fic, if you don't remember after all that time, is the prequel to A Wrinkle in Time that posits that Alex Murry had actually been working for SHIELD on THEIR Tesseract project before his disappearance, so it's a fun crossover. This is a fairly long chapter and it does cover over three years of story, in which, on the homefront, the Murrys try to figure out their strange nonverbal toddler Charles Wallace in an age when autism was considered a type of schizophrenia; and in the workplace, the Tesseract project gradually transforms from what the MCU claimed it was about into what we know it turned out to be by the events of Wrinkle. It's a really cool chapter and I'm really proud of it, not least because it took me four years.

New World Symphony,” (The Umbrella Academy (TV) , T, 20,563, words)—TWO chapters, Three and Four! This is my post-S3 everyone-falls-into-a-new-universe-that-already-has-no-powers-no-adoption-places-for-them-and-also-Five-and-Viktor-are-married story. Chapter 3 centers on their first major fight as allegedly-a-couple, and most of the rest of the family including some Sparrows make an appearance. But Chapter 4 is one I had written a lot of already a long time ago and was just WAITING for myself to hurry up with Chapter 3 so I could share it, it's the chapter that switches to Five's POV after having been Viktor's up until now and is about him learning to let go of his pent-up guilt. Hey, did I mention my thing about traumatized superpersons?

Psychomagnetism" for Snacky, (Blossom Culp Series - Richard Peck , G, 4,257, words)—As I said above, I was really excited to see Blossom Culp nominated for Yuletide and wondered who had possibly done a thing like that, so when everyone's request letters went out I went to see who else had requested Blossom, and Snacky's request letter made me go, "Wait, I've already written this story!"…mostly, because I'd STARTED putting all my headcanons about what happened post-series into a story several years before, but never finished because I assumed no one would care. Here was someone who cared! And Yuletide has the option of writing additional Treats for people who aren't actually your assigned recipient. What a perfect excuse to finally finish this up and post it! I guess I already talked a bit about this fic above! Also Snacky got a Wrinkle In Time fic for Yuletide last year, so we should probably be friends.

The Many Masks of Amahl Farouk" for skazka, (Legion (TV 2017-2019) , T, 3,413, words)— this is my actual Yuletide ASSIGNMENT, I was like, whoo, Legion I'm an expert at writing Le— oh, they want a Farouk-centered story. Farouk is the only Legion character I've never actually written before. Oh well, a challenge! And I think I pulled it off! It's Farouk chatting about all the faces he's worn in the course of his disembodied life as if he's doing an interview, and, I realized, one of the only times I've actually written a whole story from a villain's pov.

The Beginning of Something Else Entirely,” (The Umbrella Academy (TV), Legion (TV), M, 25,051, words)—because Farouk is long gone by the time this story takes place and all. Anyway, CHAPTER FOUR of this one went up this year. This of course is my post-S4 TUA fix-it in which the recently-erased Hargreeves find themselves in a pocket universe where Summerland is carrying on post-Legion, and everyone gets traumatized-superperson therapy! In this chapter Lila does Memory Work, Viktor starts the Prime-8s and sings James Taylor with Five thereby creating Summerland's new Music Therapy program, and Oliver Bird finally manages to assemble a complete barbershop quartet.

The Inaugural Meeting of the Ruthless Killers Who Are Much Older Than They Look But Are Single-Mindedly Devoted to Protecting Their Siblings Club,” (The Umbrella Academy (TV), Legion (TV 2017-2019), G, 1,091, words)—this was a silly bit of freewriting I did last year BEFORE starting "Beginning," when I was debating crossing over TUA and Legion but didn't have any ideas yet. So I threw Five and Kerry into the astral plane and had them interact. Also Lester Papadopoulos aka the-god-Apollo-stuck-in-teenage-form-as-punishment randomly shows up. Not so randomly, he just wanted to know why he wasn't invited in the first place. Anyway, I just was reading it this year and decided to finish it up and post it so here it is!


TA-DA! I know it's long, and I included lots of links to MORE stuff to read, but if you've come this far, DO leave me a comment about anything here that strikes your fancy!

 

rockinlibrarian: (rebecca)
I'm so glad I got into the Yuletide exchange three years ago-- it has brought me so much joy in so many ways! Just looking at the list of obscure (and sometimes not so obscure) fandoms makes me happy! I've read fics for things I've never heard of that have become some of my favorite fics! I got assigned to write for the same (not-so-obscure but for some reason people don't write 1000-word-or-more fics for it) fandom two years in a row and part of me thinks I might be mildly disappointed if I don't get it again just because I loved writing those fics so much and they garnered me so many wonderful responses! Honestly the fics I'VE RECEIVED have been just sort of a bonus perk on top of everything else going on here!

But this letter is about requests, so that's what we'll focus on!

My overarching DNW is smut. In fact you might want to stay away from romance all together but for one exception see below. But yeah, that's it. I always see letters with long lists of DNWs and I wonder if I'm doing something wrong, but a lot of those other DNWs would fall under "smut" anyway. 

As for what I DO want, I'm a fan of quirky. I like humor but am not adverse to heart-wrenching-- the two are better together! And yes I'd love treats!

Every year I start with the request that got me into Yuletide in the first place: the potential to read a new fic about the Loudermilk twins from Legion (TV) that I don't have to write myself! It might be an intimidating ask coming from me-- I AM the person who wrote the GUIDE to writing the Loudermilk Twins in fic after all! But that's just because I love them so much! I'd love to see more about life at Summerland pre-show (or post-show if you want to be time-loopy about it), with the Birds too, but especially the Loudermilks. 

My first year doing Yuletide, someone nominated the Sal and Gabi series, and it awakened a deep, deep need in me. I absolutely need more of Sal's delightful voice telling trippy multiversal stories! I don't think I could write it myself, but maybe someone else can! Alas, no one offered, and last year no one even nominated it, so this year I nominated it again, just in case someone's out there who will!

But this year I had a similar reaction to another nomination I spotted--"No way! Who nominated that?! We should be best friends now!": the Blossom Culp series. Blossom was my imaginary friend when I was in middle school! I made up so many stories about her! And decades later I'd still love to see more stories of whatever supernatural adventures she and Alexander get up to together! This is probably my exception to the not-looking-for-romance rule-- I did always ship them-- but of course only if it's in an in-character way (and still DNW smut). I always appreciated how supportive they were of each other when the chips were down, even if they'd never admit it when the chips weren't down.


Things I Can't Request Officially Because of the Wrong Nominated Characters But I'll Throw Them Out Here Anyway In Case of Treats (yes I am very open to treats!)

I glimpsed Only Murders In the Building on the list and said, "You know what I want? The Adventures of Loretta Undercover!" I've been loving how Loretta's being used this season and thought it would be fun to see some side shenanigans of Loretta taking on more roles in effort to solve mysteries. Alas, 12 characters nominated and not one is Loretta!

Austin & Murry-O'Keefe Families - Madeleine L'Engle is the only L'Engle on there, but at least it's pretty all-encompassing! But nominated characters are only the crossover ones (the Starfishes), and we've got a couple of Austins in there. But I've been writing about the Murrys lately, particularly Alex and Kate. If you click on the Alex/Kate tag on AO3 there are only 17 results (one of which is mine), and the vast majority of those don't actually focus on them at all. It's just a background relationship tag. So pooh, I'd like to see more written from the parental pov! That I don't have to write myself, again! (that would also be an exception to the "not romance" thing)

Peeked at the Fargo (TV) list and couldn't think of anything in particular I wanted, but then I noticed Rabbi Mulligan is still on the list-- I didn't see him at first-- and remembered another year that I HAD suggested something exploring the foster-parental relationship between Rabbi and Satchel/Mike, because that's just so interesting. But Mike's not on the list so it seems kind of pushing it.

That's all I've got this year! Happy writing!





rockinlibrarian: (rebecca)
The worst lie anyone ever told me wasn't even said by a person. It was an automated response, what the software was programmed to spit out onto the results page when someone, as I did, aced every section of the Aptitude Test we'd taken in high school: "You have a high level of skill in every subject. You can be whatever you want to be."

Even at the time I thought it was a little silly. I knew, for example, that if I really wanted to be a professional football player, that wasn't happening for multiple reasons, none of which the test had evaluated. But I had no desire to do anything athletic, so I didn't have anything to worry about. The test had tested my brain aptitude, and that was all that mattered, right?

"You're smart: you'll figure it out," seemed to be the answer to any struggle I had when I was younger. "You're smart." It canceled all the rest of it out— or worse, became an accusation. "You're smart: so why can't you remember your homework? You're smart: so why can't you just use the tips we gave you for being sociable/arriving on time/managing a classroom/whatever? You're smart: so you KNOW this isn't worth crying over. Why can't you just?"

There's a girl in Summer Quest this year who reminds me so much of myself as a child—she even looks a little like me (oddly more like me now than me as a child)— but she's smart—she makes quick insights that take me by surprise— we were drawing cartoon characters from a video and she immediately put hers into a storyline—she's highly sensitive and cries easily and melts down when overstimulated and wants things to be Just Right—she wanders off by herself at recess to play quietly with the little characters she made in craft time—she's a bit clumsy—she converses better with adults than with her peers— and on the registration form under Medical Issues We Should Know about, it says she's autistic and has ADHD. That's a known factor in her life. Ostensibly she gets Help for these things. 

When I was her age, I was just oversensitive and daydreamy and unable to take a joke but at the same time not taking things seriously enough, and I wasn't trying hard enough, because I was smart, so if I couldn't do what everyone else could do without thinking, it must be my own stubbornness somehow. 

What if we had known then what we know now about neurodivergence? That ADHD can affect quiet-and-well-behaved little girls who ace all their tests (but WHY does she insist on forgetting her homework??) just as much as hyperactive little boys who hate school; that there really is a spectrum of autism, and just because someone is hyperverbal and intelligent and isn't being disruptive with odd stims and noises, doesn't mean they don't need help? 

What if someone had helped me then, really helped me, not just given me well-meaning advice that I didn't have the slightest idea how to implement? Would I have better self-esteem, since I wouldn't have grown up trying and failing over and over to "fix" my faults? Would I have gotten advice that actually works for me, and actually have built the skills that I've grown to middle-age without having learned?

Or would I have grown up under the shadow of A Label, and been denied opportunities because people would assume I can't handle them?* Would people not have expected much from me at all?

On the other hand, would their lower expectations have made my many adult failures hurt less?

For this past year** I have been gradually making myself sick— mentally and physically. Stress. Burn-out. I actually pegged it last October: "I think I'm burnt out from trying to be normal all the time," I wrote in my journal. A few months later I found out that this was a real thing, with a name: "Autistic Burnout"— different from regular old burnout because it IS the stress of "trying to be Normal" on top of the stress of ones responsibilities. And even if it's called "autistic burnout," the ADHD factors into it, too— in some ways adds another layer of spiral, because the cure for burnout of any sort is rest, and ADHD tells you to go go go (although not necessarily in the right directions). What could I DO about it, though? I couldn't take a break, I had too many responsibilities! I couldn't say I needed help, because then for SURE somebody would say "Well maybe you're just not cut out for This." Maybe this was internalized ableism, maybe it is a realistic understanding of externalized ableism—I'm not sure! The messaging I've gotten all my life is I'm Just Not Trying Hard Enough, so I assumed— and you know, I still don't know I'm wrong!— that that would always be the only answer I ever got if I asked for help. 

So I kept plugging on. But the thing about Autistic Burnout though is that it actually makes your neurodivergent symptoms WORSE. Your executive functions go kaput; you can't mask as well—play the part of a Normal Person with Normal Social Skills; I have been noticeably having more trouble Wording in the past year (verbalizing is I guess the proper term, but I always think of it as Wording when I'm doing it— grabbing the correct words from my brain and pushing them out my mouth). Honestly I had been masking so well for so long I even managed to convince myself that I wasn't really on the autistic spectrum (couldn't deny the ADHD though), but as this burnout set in, I could feel myself, somehow, getting more autistic. The harder I tried, the worse I did, and the more exhausted I became, falling farther and farther away from the expectation of what I should be.

At work I went through waves of loving my job, feeling totally confident— and then something would go wrong and I couldn't take the criticism. Mostly because it was always something I knew already that I was bad at. And that just made me feel hopeless. Especially because the director always stressed how everyone needed to be "friendly and welcoming" all the time and "if you can't, then maybe this just isn't the job for you." But I AM friendly and welcoming! Aren't I? I always smile and say hello. But I don't make forced conversation unless the patron themselves is chatty— I personally feel that's more polite. But then, like, once the boss came down and said a patron had told her that the person at the children's desk had seemed "bored," and, like, the times lined up, it was me there…but I hadn't been bored. I have Resting Bored Face. You know. I am in fact autistic, it takes effort to put on A Face. I put on A Face to greet patrons but I can't keep it up constantly. But now I felt paranoid, that I couldn't let my face relax, because someone might think I was bored and unfriendly, so—yeah. The masking too much thing, burning myself out by trying to be Normal. But if I can't, then maybe this isn't the job for me? The job I love, that I'm an expert in, that I honestly feel I'm making a positive difference in people's lives?

At the beginning of this summer something clicked though. I was being reprimanded for Not Communicating Well Enough, for Being Too Messy, for Not Managing Time Wisely, and I realized: these are the exact same faults my bosses have had about me for the past 25 years. I never improve no matter how hard I try. And wait a second, these are also all symptoms of my AuDHD. 

Maybe I never improved because I CAN'T improve. 

Maybe I legitimately CAN'T be whatever I want to be. I do have a genuine disability. And maybe in theory there are always accommodations that can be made for any position, but on the other hand, I will never be a professional football player. And maybe I will never be able to truly succeed in a people-focused career, either. 

It's like telling a blind person, "Sort these blocks by color," and they reply, "I can't perceive color," and you go "Well, try harder." I can't People the way my bosses want me to People. I can't organize my time and space in a way that seems appropriate to others. I can't be the person they want me to be. I can't try harder when I can't in the first place.

So what CAN I do? This was my ideal job: stories, kids, fun educational projects! I would feel too bored or unfulfilled in any other position, and if I'm bored and unfulfilled, then I don't perform well, either, because the ADHD says "LET'S NOT PAY ATTENTION ANY MORE!" whether I want it to or not. If I could be a free-range librarian, just doing everything my own way, I'd be in paradise! But I can't do that. I HAVE to work with other people and I HAVE to fit into their standards of behavior. And if I really want to do programs for children— or work anywhere where I need to make sure the people are all following the rules and being under control— then I need to be With It, the key to classroom management— the exact thing I failed being a classroom teacher over. IT'S HAUNTING ME. That darn With-It-Ness that has eluded me since— since I was a freaking pre-teen babysitter. I am NOT With-it. I'm AuDHD and in my own little dreamworld!

The more I ruminated over this, through my heart breaking, the more it sank in that maybe I really DID need to re-evaluate what I was doing with my life. My work-life balance is completely out of whack, mostly because whenever I get home from work I have no energy for anything else, and I sleep until noon on the weekends still trying to recover. Sam graduated high school, and I found myself crying not just because my Baby Boy Is All Growed Up, but because it felt like I'd MISSED too much of it. I didn't have the energy to join the Band Boosters, and now I've missed my opportunity (Maddie does NOT do band). As I said, I was making myself sick with stress, but also, who had time to eat healthy or exercise? Who had time to make doctors' appointments when all the times available were times you couldn't POSSIBLY call off? When I left teaching in the schools, my doctor actually wrote me an excuse: this person needs to quit her job for her health. I am in that same state of un-health again, and when Jason made the same observation unprompted, I knew what I had to do.

(And yes, there is the financial issue to think about. But the good news is, Sam has a job now, and he's going to start paying us rent and utilities. And the truck gets paid off in October, so that's another 500 a month. And I won't be spending NEARLY as much money on gas, and will be cutting out a lot of fast and convenience food too. …the BAD news is, we DO have a hole in our bathroom floor that we weren't sure how to pay for BEFORE I decided to quit. But we're living).

I'm 47. For the first quarter of my life, I was an eager, know-it-all student. And for the second quarter of my life, I've struggled over and over with Trying to Be Whatever I Wanted to Be. I guess I'm DUE for a midlife crisis. 

And honestly, seeing this as a midlife crisis has helped put it all into perspective. Your life has seasons— you don't just follow one straight path from beginning to end. You're allowed— encouraged— to do one thing for awhile and then do something else. 

And it's been a big chunk of my life, yes. 23 or 24 years ago when I first needed an online handle, I settled on "Rockinlibrarian," because it combined my two biggest passions— rock music and, well, everything a librarian is. 

Do you see what I'm getting at? I am giving up half my username. I am deciding that I can't be a librarian after all, a thing that everyone I know associates with me intrinsically.

It's a big deal. And yet, I think it is the right move.

And hey, I'll always be a librarian in spirit. Kind of like I'll always be Catholic even though I haven't been to church in a decade. It's a Worldview you can't shake.  

SO, you ask, What am I doing now?

Well, for awhile at least, I'm not going to think too hard about the future. First, I'm finishing off Summer Programs at the library, so my last day is scheduled for August 18— one (work)day after my last Event (the Zoo trip).

Then I'm going to focus on recovering from the burnout, focus on building healthy habits, on getting back to the things I've neglected around the house and the relationships I've neglected with my family. 

And then? Well. We know little Amy wanted to be a writer from the time she learned how to write. Maybe even before.
small child with a pencil over her ear, reaching way up to a table to peck at a typewriter
If we can afford for me not to have a steady job, you know, maybe I can FOCUS on writing. Maybe I can start trying to write for publication again. And you know, I feel more confident that I can write other things, too— articles, nonfiction— if I could get a writing JOB, writing educational activities? Like the One Book Manuals? Then I'd get to at least plan fun programming again, too. 

Or, you know…how does one break into children's television writing? Maybe NOT necessarily writing for Sesame Street, but still. Remember my Mundo videos? What if I even created my own Youtube show to do booktalks or something? 

What if I DID become a freelance librarian, a traveling storyteller for hire? I could pretend to be Mother Goose and get hired for birthday parties and, yes, even library events. 

There are options out there. They're weird options, and not-steady-paycheck options, but I'm kind of curious to see now what direction the third quarter of my life*** might take.

How can you, person in my life (whether a close family member or a passing internet acquaintance!), help?

Thanks for offering! Despite my hopeful look at the future in those past few paragraphs, I'm in a pretty bad place psychologically right now. All my childhood self-loathing**** is back in full-force. So I ask of you gentleness and understanding. 

I would rather NOT receive whatever library meme you see that reminds you of me right now. Those actually poke at the raw bits currently. Maybe sometime in the future you can get back to sending me library memes, but not for the next few months at least. 

I would rather NOT talk further about the reasons I left or whether I might consider going back. 

I DEFINITELY don't want to hear about any of my faults right now— not that I really appreciate you informing me about them any other time, either— in fact it wouldn't hurt if you DID remind me of things I AM good at, of times I MAY have been a positive influence on your life. I can use the pick-me-up. Pick-me-ups also might make me start bawling—that's okay! They really do help, I'm just an emotional mess!

I ask also for your patience, that you don't try to rush me back into being A Productive Member of Society or whatever. That you don't place demands or expectations on me for a bit. And yes, these requests aren't just me being a diva or lazy or looking for excuses, but these are actual recommendations I found in a medically-reviewed article on autistic burnout of How to Help Your Loved Ones Going Through This. Allow time off, lower your expectations, let your loved one unmask and be exactly the unhinged weirdo she truly is. 

And maybe eventually you'll see me thriving again, being the GOOD things about Amy. Thank you for accompanying me as I try to figure out the next era of my life.
****

*And nowadays we have a science-denying conspiracy theorist in charge of the Department of Health, who has made it his mission to prove that neurodiversity and mental health disorders are "caused" by things like "bad parenting" and that medication makes things worse and maybe what we need is to be rounded up and made to work on a farm since fresh air and exercise cures all. (And I DO always feel better after working in the garden, but doing so requires a lot of other steps that are out of my mental capacity at the moment, which outside people really don't seem to understand). 

**To an extent, for much longer than a year, as I've gotten into lots of bad habits as far as self-care goes. But it's been much more blatant in the past year.

***YES realistically it's probably closer to the third third, but who knows. SOME of my family has been quite long-lived. And if I really DO build healthier habits now, maybe I've got a decent chance. (If I keep going on the way I have been, I will NOT).

****Speaking of writing, side note: I've been working on my long-neglected WIP fic "Tesseract" again over the past few months— my Wrinkle In Time/MCU crossover? And a good portion of the chapter I'm working on involves Kate and Alex worrying about their what-we'd-now-call-neurodivergent children. It's been a treat for me to look at Meg from an adult POV— an adult-who-loves-her POV— to see that awkward probably AuDHD kid that I glommed onto so hard at the age of 9 from an older and wiser perspective. But it's also reminded me of being that awkward AuDHD kid myself. I keep thinking of the line at the beginning —"It's not just the weather. It's the weather on top of everything else. On top of Meg Murry doing everything wrong." That was the line I was officially hooked, that I walked away from the bookshelf still holding the book open and not shutting it again until I ABSOLUTELY HAD to. And I see looking back it was because I identified so much with that feeling. I keep feeling it again now, even though I'm a grownup who should know better— I still FEEL it. And I thank Madeleine L'Engle once again for sharing her own weird neurodivergent thoughts with the world, with ME— it's AMAZING how much that book has meant to me over the past almost-forty years. As my own Maddie's name indicates!

rockinlibrarian: (christmas)
Hello, faithful reader of this annual really long thing! (You are allowed to skim. But then you might miss something that actually only I find interesting but I like to think you would also find interesting). Here’s my year, split up into Real Life and Media, and then further split up into categories, and then put in lists, some of which are ranked and some of which are not! It’s so organized! And remember, I am extremely needy and would absolutely love for you to comment on any of this, just so I know you actually cared!

STUFF THAT HAPPENED
 
Life Events in no particular order
Sam got his license, and a car, and a vo-tech co-op position/part-time job my baby is all growing up and stuff. Did you know I've had this blog longer than he's been alive? Technically it was on LiveJournal before and it's been TRANSFERRED to Dreamwidth, but the post announcing his arrival is still here! Anyway, and he had his last football season as a band geek (on flags but still) and I was sappy and missed my dad a lot. And both kids are very involved in drama club, but on crews, which is funny for me because I always loved being on stage, but Sam prefers lights and Maddie prefers costumes and sets.

In related news, we are Old. No, let me not be so glib, although Jason did turn 50 this year. We both have Old People Health Issues rearing their heads this year. Jason has to go on a low-fat-low-cholesterol diet. And I now have a CPAP machine, which is less annoying than I feared but still kind of sucks. Not literally. It blows, not sucks. Either way works.

I also got tested for allergies, because I've been noting a rather extreme uptake in seasonal allergic reactions lately. It turns out I'm highly allergic to all types of grass. That's grass pollen and stuff, not just, like, a lawn. I remember a kid in elementary school saying they were allergic to grass and that seemed impossible to me, like being allergic to water. Anyway, I'm also slightly less allergic to dust mites— not a good thing with my cleaning habits— and cats, for which the blame lays on my exposure to my pets in the first place, because that's definitely new. And luckily isn't bad, because Sir Ralphie still likes to sit on me. Good news, when he sleeps on me in the middle of the night, I have a CPAP machine to filter out his dander! :P

So anyway, now I'm on two allergy meds (one morning one bedtime), a pill for restless leg syndrome, a pill for acid reflux, and my usual sertraline and adderall— which, yes, luckily the adderall no longer gives me heart palpitations, because I swear my ADHD is getting worse. Which fits with the getting old! Because apparently when your estrogen levels start dipping, it makes ADHD worse! Whoooo!

I have been struggling with burnout lately, and I don't think it's so much burnout with, say, work or household chores (though they certainly don't help), I've described it as burnout from trying to be normal. It's absolutely just too much dealing with my silly brain and too much masking of all the struggles. I've actually noticed, like, the triumphant return of my autistic symptoms, which I'd been dealing with so well for so long that I really had talked myself into believing all my social struggles were JUST the ADHD, but apparently I was just masking them from MYSELF as well, and when I got too tired of, you know, Trying to be Normal, I can't do it as well, and people catch me being autistic and think I'm being bored or uncaring or antisocial! I did find a really helpful video on how ADHD and ASD interact with each other in girls (and actually end up masking each other) that made me go OH, now THAT makes sense, and is so much more helpful than things that just list the similarities and overlaps. So I officially identify as AuDHD again now. I do wonder if it would be worth it to get a formal ASD diagnosis just to have it in my back pocket in case it causes problems at work (it ALREADY causes problems at work, but in case it causes POTENTIALLY LOSING MY JOB problems and I need ADA legal protection. I do have the ADHD diagnosis but I don't think it would necessarily be as useful. But that could be the internalized ableism talking. Or the familiarity with externalized ableism. You know, because ADHD symptoms are just widely regarded as bad work ethic! It's too ingrained in the culture! I'm just saying, autism gets more sympathy!)

So yeah, most of my Events of the Year are weirdly health-related. Struggling to think of more…oh, we painted Maddie's room a collection of bright colors and it's very happy in there! And Jason went archery hunting for the first time and got a nine-point buck his first day out and came home with a freezer-load of venison, and then my mom sent us Omaha Steaks for Christmas, so like WE HAVE THE MEATS as Arby’s says, although Jason is supposed to be cutting back on red meat. So if you want some meat, come over for dinner sometime! But ask ahead of time to make sure I'm not working evenings. And you're just going to have to deal with the wreck of a house. Unless you want to come over and clean it for me. That would be helpful.

OH, we also have a buttload of hot peppers. I totally struck out with my hot pepper harvest last year so maybe I overcompensated by planting more this year? I also planted them in a better location so they actually grew. So! Meat and hot peppers! What do you want for dinner, I'll cook! I do like cooking for people, I just don't like deciding what to make!

Library Happenings

So, my second year as head of the children's department! Work/Life balance is a lot harder when you work full-time and commute a bit. But at least I LIKE my job!

My part-time coworkers in the children's department are starting to feel like the Defense Against the Dark Arts position. Haley, who I worked with the first year, left to have a baby, and Vicki took her place: a retired teacher who is loud, energetic, and politically conservative, but she ALSO has ADHD, which we bonded over with much laughter and constant helping-to-find-whatever-each-other-misplaced. We had lots of fun despite our differences! But then, right around Thanksgiving, Vicki broke her foot, and was ordered to stay home for the rest of the year (being, you know, hyperactive-type, she was VERY BAD about staying off of it at first, ended up breaking it WORSE, and the doctor had to put her foot down. The doctor put the DOCTOR’S foot down about Vicki’s need to put Vicki’s foot UP, I mean). Now, I just found out, she's found a position working for a cyberschool (which she can do OFF her feet), so we'll be looking for another part-time early childhood specialist again! Meanwhile, we've been through MULTIPLE Family Literacy specialists since I've been here, who do mainly tutoring and Outreach but also help with summer programs— but now we've had Sarah for the longest we've had any of them in my time here… so knock on wood…

Special Events and New Programs:

Mock Caldecott! Not technically a new program, but it IS new to have my boss and coworkers excited about it!

Take Your Child to the Library Day!
Happens the first weekend in February! We had exactly one week of prep from when the boss said she really wanted to do it, and we threw together a scavenger hunt, button-making supplies, and Lunar New Year activities, and it was a pretty cool day!

Build It Make It Do It! A Maker/STEAM program for elementary kids, and they were really into it, too! We did papier mache, made slime, built non-electric robots and definitely-electric Squishy Circuits, and what else? Paper airplanes, too!

Rotating Thursday morning programming for early childhood, so they didn't have just the typical storytimes: I resurrected yoga storytime, dance party, block party, and Messy Art— the week before Halloween Messy Art scooped out jack-o-lanterns and BOY was that a treat! The Thursday that actually WAS Halloween we had a pretty rollicking Halloween party that went way overtime!

Christmas Around the World! The after-hours Holiday Party went over so well last year with Polar Express Night, but I didn't want to do Polar Express again so soon because that's boring, so Sarah suggested Christmas Around the World, and I did way too much research because that's me— my pride and joy was the Christmas in the Southern Hemisphere room, which was kept warmer than all the other rooms, and had sand play for the Australian Christmas Beach Party, and trees to decorate with cotton balls which is a South American thing, and this AWESOME baobab tree made of a folded room divider wrapped in table paper and topped with paper tubes, and glow sticks and fiber optic light toys. There was ornament making in the craft room: Ukrainian beaded spiders, Filipino parol— star lanterns, Danish woven hearts, and cinnamon scented cookie cutter ornaments we said were German but were kind of stretching it! And in the food room we had a tamale-stuffing station, and also a chocolate Yule log and a Three Kings bread and wassail and hot-chocolate. And the centerpiece of the evening was a (secular-as-possible) posadas procession, which was mainly everyone making a lot of noise from room to room (we even dropped in on the grown-ups' Bingo Night) until we ended up in the front room with a pinata, which was definitely exciting!
Next year I'm thinking I want to make it Nutcracker-themed, but ask me again in December.

Themes and Activities In Regular Programming!

For regular storytimes this year, most of the time Vicki came up with the themes, and often changed her mind at the last minute, so not too many are really sticking out for me.

1. The one exception was International Children’s Book Day, which sounds like a clunky not-kid-friendly title, but we read books from all over that all ages from toddler to grandparent really enjoyed, including Herve Tulle's latest, Tap! Tap! Tap! Dance! Dance! Dance! which inspired our art project of the week— fingerpainting to music!

2. Speaking of messy projects, the next week was time for the PA One Book which was Slug in Love, so we played with Metamucil slime, which is very sluglike.

3. Then Vicki found a way to make "mud" by adding cocoa powder to oobleck, and we used this so many times that our boss got sick of it and told us it was too messy, stop it.

I completely forget what theme we used that for. Oh, I think it was cars and trucks, and they played with cars and trucks in the mud.

4. For Bunnies we did the Bunny Hop, which was memorable enough that kids were still singing it weeks later. And they had an egg hunt that week, too.

5. Sarah had a template for an Old Lady Who Swallowed a Fly game, we put it on a box and kids would feed the Old Lady. With all the variations on that story out there (most by Lucille Colandro), we ended up using that poor Old Lady OVER and OVER.

Summer Quest Activities and/or Themes!

The Collaborative Summer Library Program theme this year was "Adventure Begins At Your Library!" so each week of Summer Quest (for ages 6-12) centered around a different kind of adventure!

1. Movie Making: for "Adventure In Your Own Backyard" week, I thought of storytelling/make-believe, and then I had the bright idea to have them make their own movies. It went so well (or I at least talked it up so well in my End of Summer Report for the State) that the project was selected for the Showcase of Awesome Programs (it has a more professional name that I can’t think of at the moment) that the Pennsylvania Education and Libraries Department puts out as training videos for the rest of the librarians in the state, so I feel like I’ve already described this extensively, because I have, so… anyway, let’s just look at the results, shall we? Everybody’s got their clearances signed. Here’s the 6-8 year old class’s, and here’s the 9-12 year olds’. They’re each about 8 minutes long and they are genuinely really enjoyable, despite some sound and other technical issues (like, if you’re going to use a blue screen, better warn your kids not to wear blue that day ahead of time).

2. “House of Danger” Choose Your Own Adventure Game: We had this game among our supplies that’s basically a Choose Your Own Adventure book adapted onto cards so it can be played as a collaborative game, and I said That would be excellent to use with the older group for "Adventure In the Dark" week. And it was! They got so into it that we ended up forgoing a lot of the other activities we might have done that day (even recess) just because everyone wanted to keep going to find out what happened next! We never did actually finish the entire game... I just looked at that link and it says "1 hour play time," HAH. Well, maybe if you split it into five one-hour sessions...?

3. Practically everything else from "Adventure in the Dark" Week: It’s funny, when I first started brainstorming for Summer Quest, I had doubts about devoting a whole week to "Adventure in the Dark," because I didn’t think I had enough activity ideas. Well, I was wrong! To start, the director mentioned to us, “You know, we have a fake ‘campfire’ around somewhere that you might want to use this summer,” so we found it and set it up in the storytime room (so add that bit of atmosphere to your imagining of the House of Danger game, too)! And we made s’mores (in the oven, not over the fake campfire), and one of our volunteers brought in her guitar to play camp songs! We played no-peek games like Guess the Smell and Guess the Sound in the dark, and ended the day with a glowstick party. And in the (properly lit and with tables) Activity Room we made glow in the dark art!

4. "Treasure Hunt" Week was full of good stuff, too: a Follow the Clues hunt around the Library, including secret codes; Digging for and identifying gemstones (in that cocoa oobleck mud from earlier in the year, see above—that was the moment our director couldn’t take it anymore and made us stop with it already); an obstacle course inspired by Indiana Jones; and, for the older group, very basic Orienteering with compasses to take steps around the park to where treasure was stashed, which happened to be small smash-your-own geodes.

5. I really wasn’t there for most of this, but when the older kids played Oregon Trail. July 4th fell on the older group’s weekly meeting day, so I said, ah, there will be a lot of people on vacation that week, let’s just invite EVERYONE to come on WEDNESDAY instead. It was, to say the least, chaotic. BUT, we had found a card game version of Oregon Trail (the 80s computer game) on the same shelf as the House of Danger game, and knew it would be too much for the younger groups, but when the OLDER group rotated to the Wild West room (it was "Adventure in the Past" week—the other rooms were Medieval Europe, where they made heraldic banners, and Ancient China, where they did printmaking and papermaking—that was my station, which is why I only caught the tail end of the Oregon Trail thing) we thought we could play that with them. The mechanics of the game were too confusing to figure out though, but luckily one of our teen volunteers—the same one who brought the guitar the other week, she was definitely a treasure—knew where to find the original computer game online, AND how to play it, and she loaded it up on the big smart TV and led the kids in a game they were THOROUGHLY into. When we brought the younger kids back to that room for our final activities, THEY got sucked in just as observers. The kids quite enjoyed dying of dysentery, really!


So speaking of adventures you can view safely from the outside, now it’s time for:

MEDIA REVIEWS

Books!

Top 5 2024 Picture Books

1. Up High, by Matt Hunt. It's funny, recently I'd forgotten I read this one, just looking at a list of new books we'd gotten in the past few months, but once I read the notes I wrote in the Book Riot book log — and saw how high I'd rated it!— I said "OH! THAT one!" As unmemorable as the title may be, there really isn't anything more appropriate. It's just a story about a little boy walking with his dad, but the pictures are full of really interesting exaggerated perspectives to show the boy's perspective feeling dwarfed by adults, then riding dad's shoulders, then being a giant compared to bugs and such.

2. Time to Make Art, by Jeff Mack. I just bought this for Jason's art-loving (and Maddie-idolizing) little nephew for Christmas, but it will be handy at the library next summer for the “Color My World” CSLP theme; it's a bit of a guessing game if you know the artists that make cameos throughout to answer questions about what exactly art is*— and if you don't, it's an introduction!
(*And I JUST got thrown 25ish years back in time to this Core Question— for the couple of people reading this who know what I'm talking about— man, wouldn't it have been interesting to explore the question from an "Elementary Education" perspective, and used a book like this as a reference?! …like I said, that's an iykyk comment. How many of you are reading this, anyway? I remember Tracie saying she looked forward to these once, and I can kind of see Brian reading it. Feel like Angie and Jen have commented on these in the past. But anyway, enough of that sidebar only a limited number of readers will understand! To the next title!)

3. Being Home, by Traci Sorell, illustrated by Michaela Goade. I do adore Michaela Goade SO MUCH, but I don't really feel this is her best work. The story doesn't give her as much opportunity for her sweeping beautiful landscapes. It doesn't stop her from doing nice (though less stunning as in, say, Remember, see below) things though. And it IS a nice story in general about moving to the country (a reservation) though. Happy and peaceful.

4.The Spaceman, by Randy Cecil. Another fun story about perspective, experiencing an ordinary park on Earth from the point of view of a tiny space explorer, who sees what's ordinary to us as something very extraordinary indeed.

5. Santa's First Christmas, by Mac Barnett, illustrated by Sydney Smith. Your obligatory Barnett for the year, though much less silly than the ones he does with, say, Klassen or Rex. But this story, right now: I feel this! My teenagers need to read it and really take it in: Santa needs time to relax and have Christmas, too! The actual target audience of the book probably will not make the connection to giving their mothers a nice post-Christmas break, though. But Mac Barnett dedicated it to his mother, so I have a feeling he knows what's up.

Top 5 2023 Books Crammed Right before the Mock Caldecott

1. Remember, by Joy Harjo, illustrated by Michaela Goade. I am such a Michaela Goade fanatic that I couldn't even look at this objectively for the Mock Caldecott. Halfway through part of my brain was like "you need to evaluate by CALDECOTT features" but the rest of me was like "NO! PRETTY! JUST FLOAT AWAY IN THE PRETTY!" This MAY be my favorite of her art yet. It leans further into the abstract (less on people's faces), and there's some very cool formline effects of Raven flying white over everything.

2. Simon and the Better Bone, by Corey R. Tabor. Built sideways like Mel Fell, but it doesn't turn: the book spine just marks the line of the pond/reflection. It doesn't have quite as much energy as Mel (who makes a cameo appearance!), and I wasn't sure if it's that award-worthy-- but the mirroring technique is fun, as is the whole book, and it DID end up winning our Mock Caldecott!

3.An American Story, by Kwame Alexander, illustrated by Dare Coulter. The text is a bit intense, because it seems to be intended to be used in a classroom to introduce the topic of slavery— as opposed to just a nice pleasant everyday read like Simon and the Better Bone, which is probably why I was the only one to give it much attention at the Mock Caldecott. But the art is really fascinating: mixed media, there are sculptures and paintings and, notably, the bits that take part in a modern classroom learning the history are just simple charcoal drawings on yellow, so the history parts stand out as far more real. There's a spread at the end where a sculpted woman is holding the chin of a drawn girl and it's totally seamless-- that was my wow pic that sold me on its award-worthiness.

4.Big, by Vashti Harrison. This turned out to be the real Caldecott winner, and good for it! At first glance it doesn't seem THAT impressive, but it sneaks up on you, the way she uses space (and the lack thereof) to show the girl's self-concept as the story goes along. And a good use of a gatefold! Also I'm not sure I'd ever seen this concept—a large child worrying about taking up too much space— explored quite so straightforward but tenderly.

5. Stars of the Night: the Courageous Children of the Czech Kindertransport, by Caren Stelson, illustrated by Selina Alko. More intense topics! This one made me cry, all the parents sending their children away in desperation. But making one cry isn't what wins Caldecotts, so shout out to the art, which is collage and somehow captures the feeling of this terrible time without being, like, too disturbing for children.

Other 2023 Picture Books (including easy readers), because my "Older Than" list was very long so I figured I'd give some more STILL newER books a little more spotlight:

1. The Skull, by Jon Klassen. Since he didn't illustrate the Barnett selection this year, he squeezes on with his own story instead! This is— really more of a very easy chapter book than a picture book? But I still read it aloud to the younger Summer Quest kids in one session (this is the story they got instead of the House of Danger game), so I'll count it here. And I love this one! Eerie and happy at the same time! Spooky but not scary! Klassen has just such a wonderful dry sense of humor that comes across through the simplest pictures and simplest word choices-- he's really perfected Less Is More!

2. I Will Read to You, by Gideon Sterer, illustrated by Charles Santoso. This one came and hit me out of nowhere— I hadn't heard of it ahead of time, my boss just bought it with a pile of other "Halloween" books to put on display. It's not so much a Halloween book, though, as a bedtime book that happens to have monsters in it. And it's so sweet! And the poetry flows really well, which is great because you want a story about reading all the monsters a bedtime story to actually be pleasant to read aloud!

3. Fox Has a Problem, by Corey R. Tabor. Dang, Corey R. Tabor, stop being so good at writing all-ages-accessible high quality books already! I opened this one up and laughed immediately. That's why it won the Geisel. Super easy and yet super entertaining!

4. Mr. S, by Monica Arnaldo. Very silly story about a teacher who is a sandwich. That's a spoiler. Sorry. Because you're left to assume through most of the book that it's just a misunderstanding. Dang, I should have gotten THIS one for J's nephews, this is just their sense of humor!

5. Once Upon a Book, by Grace Lin and Kate Messner. Pretty sure the art is straight up Lin's but they worked together on the rest of it? It's a fun trip through various settings, and the girl's dress blends with the surroundings like in Big Mooncake (the moon is very familiar too!) I like how the art starts as line drawings but becomes realistic as she enters each setting.

Top 11 Older Than That Picture Books, listed in order from newest to oldest because that's how I picked out the above 5, and I'd rated them all 4 stars and have no idea which one to kick off the list to make it an even 10:

Going Places: Victor Hugo Green and His Glorious Book, by Tonya Bolden, illustrated by Eric Velasquez, 2022. Interesting and readable, and strangely uplifting for a story that wouldn't have happened without depressing reasons.

Where is Bina Bear? by Mike Curato, 2022.  Sweet and funny! I like Bina's creative hiding places, and how she isn't shamed for being shy, but has her own quiet party with the friend that missed her.

The Circles in the Sky, by Karl James Mountford, 2022. Beautiful look at grief. It does make me wonder if it's one of those books that is really more for grownups, but I don't know. I don't think so, with the right kid at the right time.

Thao, by Thao Lam, 2021. Oh this is very fun! She combines photos (of herself as a child) with cut paper collage and a lot of word art. I wish I'd had it when I did my "Celebrate Your Name" Mundo video, but I definitely put it to good use in my "What's Your Name?" storytime!

Hugo and the Impossible Thing, by Renee Felice Smith and Sydney Hanson, 2021. I liked this way more than I thought I would when I saw it was by people who normally work in television and, like, wrote a picture book on a lark. It's saved from being overly simplistic by it's fresh take on the "nothing is impossible if you try" theme: that everyone has their own unique talents and can help each other with them, so the impossible thing isn't impossible when you try AND you have teamwork!

Every Little Kindness, by Marta Bartolj, 2018. A good wordless one for teaching cause and effect and illustration-reading. Also it's just so bright and happy.

My Name is Sangoel, by Karen Lynn Williams and Khadra Mohammed, illustrated by Catherine Stock, 2009. Another one I found for the "What's Your Name?" storytime, but just a bit too hard for preschoolers. It would be cool to use with older kids to make rebus breakdowns of their names, though!

Welcome to Zanzibar Road, by Niki Daly, 2006. Which by the way, who was going to tell me "Niki Daly" is a guy? All this time I just assumed it was short for Nicole until he went and died and I saw his obituaries! And on top of that, he was married to illustrator Jude Daly, who I'd always thought was a guy, but no that IS short for Judith! Anyway, though, this book is so much fun! Definitely more of a beginning chapter than a straight-up picture book, but I laughed out loud several times.

Dear Bunny: a bunny love story, by Michaela Morgan, illustrated by Caroline Jane Church, 2006. Aww, this is a sweet little age-(and ace-) appropriate love story. It's not QUITE overtly a Valentines day book but I'll have to remember it for Valentines day, since it's about love letters.

My Penguin Osbert, by Elizabeth Cody Kimmel, illustrated by H. B. Lewis, 2004. Speaking of not-quite-overtly-holiday books, this is kind of the opposite, a good Christmas book that isn't really a Christmas book— it's mostly a penguin book that happens to start off at Christmastime. It was a hit at storytime. I'd stuck it up on display back in the holiday section after we used it, and one kid came in with his grandma a week later and she said, "aren't these pretty pictures?" and he got really excited and said, "That was our storytime book! It was really good!" and that was heartening to overhear! Because pretty pictures it may have, but it also has a fun and slightly rollicking story!  

Rose Meets Mr. Wintergarten, by Bob Graham, 1992. One thing I appreciate about Bob Graham's books is he always throws in these matter of fact bits of realism, where you can see all his grownups are their own people who have lives beyond just what the kids see. In this book you've got the difference between the kids seeing their neighbor in a sort of fairy-tale monster way while their hippie mom's obliviously (yet accurately) all "just go ask him" about it!


Top Longer-than-Picture Books:

Okay, so, this year we fell out of our reading-together-in-the-evenings habit. I think it started when both the kids were on crews for the high school musical, but after that it seemed like Sam was always just too busy. Maddie has mentioned that WE could read, just the two of us, but somehow we never picked the habit back up. And since it's HARD for me to make time to read for MYSELF, this list is much shorter and can't be separated by new vs. not. Though I'll list these ones by date backwards, too, so I don't need to decide on an order.

The Tenth Mistake of Hank Hooperman, by Gennifer Choldenko, 2024. Made the mistake of opening to the first page while reshelving it in the "Best Books of the Year?" display and then couldn't put it down. So yeah, I see why it's making all the Best Books lists! It's totally award-bait-- it's Voigt's Homecoming for the 21st century— though personally I thought the middle dragged a little. But even with a slightly draggy middle I still couldn't put it down, and it's definitely a tear-jerker. And even just in this past month while that display has been up, I overheard at LEAST one young patron recommending it to another.

Enigma Girls: how ten teenagers broke ciphers, kept secrets, and helped win World War II, by Candace Fleming, 2024. I got sucked in pretty fast: it's an easy read and an interesting history. I'm disappointed in the author's choice not to share any pics of her protagonists since she couldn't find pics of all of them though.

The Mona Lisa Vanishes, by Nicholas Day, illustrated by Brett Helquist, 2023. This is one we read before we stopped reading in the evenings! We thought we'd mix up our mystery reading with a bit of True Crime. It's interesting history with a strong narrative voice (though he likes to repeat things too much for my taste which docked it half a star in my ratings). And we read this in January, but just the other day when Maddie was reading their cousin's new copy of Time to Make Art (see above), they broke in with "Oh, oh, they must say that because [facts we picked up from this book]" at daVinci's cameo.

The Clackity, by Lora Senf, 2022. This was a very Alice sort of fantasy-- very dreamlike, more eerie than horror, and kind of different, which really worked for us! One of the last books we actually finished together!

And then I have, hmm, a bunch of partially reads and cookbooks. Okay:

Quick & Easy Cookbook, 2nd Edition, by the American Heart Association, 2012. Because it happens to be the cookbook I haven’t returned to the library yet. Shout out to the Grilled Chicken Burgers on page 127, which we quite liked, although we did use turkey instead of chicken. Also, don’t skimp and use onion powder if you’re out of green onions, it’s not the same at ALL.   


Nothing for the Most interesting Rereads category this year, because I didn’t reread any novels or nonfiction, and none of the picture books I reread are standing out. So let us leave books for:


Moving Pictures

As with last year, I barely watched anything. I don't even know how to rank these so I'm just going to list them in the order I watched them:

Headless: a Sleepy Hollow Story (YouTube). Maddie is really into Team Starkid musicals, and I was like OHHH that gives me even more excuse to make you watch Edgar Allan Poe’s Murder Mystery Dinner Party, because they have overlapping cast members! And then Maddie sought out all the Shipwrecked Comedy videos and came back like “MOM! Did you know they have a NEW one out? I already watched it but I’ll watch it again with you!” So we did. If you’ve never experienced Shipwrecked Comedy, they basically produce extremely funny indie movies for English majors. This particular one is a modernization of The Headless Horseman, Sort Of. Tip: watch it with closed captions on. They were having entirely too much fun with the closed captions.

Percy Jackson and the Olympians, season 1 (Disney+). Speaking of things Maddie insisted we all watch (though without much protestation) I mentioned this last year because I got the round-up out so late that I nearly’d watched it all already anyway, but I also said, “Maybe I’ll say more about it in the 2024 roundup,” but I would have REMEMBERED more if I’d said it THEN. Or at least taken decent notes. Anyway, loved it. Just asked Maddie (who is following everything about it) when Season 2 will be out and I guess it won’t be until the end of 2025? Those kids are going to be ANCIENT by the time they get to The Last Olympian!

Fargo, season 5: (Hulu). I rank this season 4th out of the 5— it wasn’t exactly a fun watch, and I have no desire to watch it again, but I cared what happened and was much more interested in the characters than I was in season 3 at least. I liked the way it upended a lot of the expectations I’d perhaps unconsciously built based on previous seasons, and I thought the end was sweet. Also I thought it was funny that the guy who played Steve on Stranger Things ALSO played a guy in this one that I hated at first but then...at least gained a bit more sympathy for, in this case.

The Umbrella Academy, season 4: (Netflix). I wrote a six-part series of reactions to this on Tumblr, where I follow a lot of TUA fans (This link goes to part Six, which has links to the previous five parts. You can skip Part 2, because it's a rough draft of a scene that was improved and expanded and is now at the beginning of chapter 3 of #1 in "Fanfic I wrote," below. Which you shouldn't skip because it's my very good fic). Tl;dr I enjoyed it, though with plenty of nitpicks, but I do think they bungled the ending. Unfortunately the reaction from online fandom was a lot more negative, and it made TUA fandom a really uncomfortable place to be for awhile (and still is sometimes). I had to separate myself from the fandom and just enjoy my own fanfic writing on my own terms…anyway as I said, see below!

Only Murders in the Building, season 4: (Hulu) It always takes me by surprise that they keep coming out with new seasons of this every year—I guess because so many of the other shows I watch are effects-heavy so require more turn-around time? Mysteries are quicker! And the fact that it’s full of so many big name actors I guess is another reason it surprises me that it keeps coming out with new seasons! The humorous mystery—still the genre of my heart! I thought the season was kind of lagging toward the end, but still—I loved how many twists and turns it went through. And Steve Martin was breaking my heart with his grief-acting early in the season.

To make up for the brevity of that category, you know what category I haven't done in a few years?

MUSIC!

I did make several music discoveries this year.

First off, I decided to complete my collection of the Legion soundtrack, both proper background music and needle-drops (and the Noah Hawley/Jeff Russo covers in between)— just of the songs I liked, though. And then I got curious about some of the lesser-known artists of songs I liked, and what else they might have done, so I listened further, and I ended up buying entire albums by The Beta Band and Secret Machines

And then, after having used Spotify to explore those bands, I was like, you know what band I've always liked and have a feeling their lesser-known work is also good but I only ever hear their radio hits? Tears for Fears. So I went on a Tears for Fears binge. Did you know they are still making new music? And it's good? Here’s their album from 2022 I quite enjoyed, and in looking that up I saw they released one in 2024 I wasn’t even aware of? (What is WRONG with you, Spotify? Get ON these things! Though that may explain why they actually had a “Message from your top played band!” video to include in my Spotify Wrapped)—and the title track from their 2004 album might be my favorite new discovery of theirs.  


Fanfics (that I read)!

Early this year I finally finished browsing the Umbrella Academy tag in alphabetical order, and then I combed through all the Fiktor fics making sure I'd at least bookmarked for later if not read then-and-there all of them that weren't painfully bad, so my TUA reading still vastly outnumbers my every-other-source-material reading, so I'll split them into separate lists again.

Top Ten Umbrella Academy Fics That Aren't Tagged "Five/Vanya|Viktor," Although Admittedly Some May Be Tagged "5+7" In My Bookmarks, It's Just Platonic:

1. "If at first you don't succeed...” by destinyandcoins (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 13,421 words) Very fun time loop story! My bookmark noted, "this is up there," which I think was my way of saying I knew it would make this list immediately upon reading. Destinyandcoins writes truly creative and hilarious fics (when not writing complete tearjerkers see #6 in "Stuff I" uh "Wrote," below).

2. "I Don't Know Why I Bite” by acearcanum (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 2,723 words) This is very much one that I tagged "5+7." In fact it's practically like someone rewrote chapter 4 of "New World Symphony" (see below, even though I've only published two chapters so far— chapter 4 is mostly drafted, I just have barely anything of chapter 3!) but made it platonic, and I am HERE for it. It is exactly my jam! It is why I'm obsessed with Five-and-Viktor together! But without my inexplicable need to make it not-platonic!

3. "An A-Z Of the End of the World” by historymiss (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 7,080 words) An excellent collection of Five-focused-ficlets for each letter of the alphabet. Each of these little scenarios manages to pack a punch in just a few words. High quality throughout!

4. "Reading Between the Lines" by StardustInYourEyes (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 5,032 words) Heartwrenching but perfect unreliable narration of Lila getting to know Mom-Grace, her life with the Handler unknowingly tainting every interaction.

5. "Puzzle Pieces” by JBD302020 (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 89,045 words) This is my exception to "only including fics with less than 1,000 kudos on my list" (to give lesser-known fics more attention, and to help ME narrow them down a little!),— it's earned like two-and-a-half TIMES that!— because a) I think the fic earned most of those kudos in its early years when more people were reading; and b) JBD has been really supportive of me and my work, but lately has been avoiding social media, and I genuinely miss her, which makes updates to this fic even more exciting; oh and of course c) it's a really twisty time-travel-complicated mystery, so an absolute treat to read.

6. "Eye of the Tiger” by Gin_Juice (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 14,633 words) I am highlighting this story in particular from my possibly-favorite-fic-writer's Season 1 era series, "picture book," which I finally got into this year, because a) it DOES have the least number of kudos of all the fics in the series I bookmarked as stand-out; and b) I did also tag it "5+7" for a great if messy (platonic) scene between the two. And yeah, c) it's really funny! But that's also kind of typical for Gin_Juice!

7. "Some Things Just Take Time; Some Things Just Stay Broken” by MyDarlingClementine (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 56,376 words) This is actually the sequel to "Same Weird Family - New Weird Timeline,” which made it past 1,000 kudos and is mostly just Five Whump (with a really nice 5+7 chapter in there too), but I'm highlighting THIS story because (while also being a lot of Five Whump and having a nice 5+7 scene toward the end) it takes some very interesting, surprising, and compelling plot twists! Do you have to read the original story first? Might be best, but judging by the dates on my bookmarks, I'm not entirely sure I did to begin with.

8. "If I Fail You One More Time...” by faithfulcat111 (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 30,980 words) Excellent platonic 5+7 from the person who wrote the 5+6+7 that inspired one of my own fics (see #4 of Stuff I Wrote)— this is actually V/Sissy, but I can live with that :P (Sissy's very nicely written in this fic, too)! It's a mermaid AU, but it fits well with their powers!

9. "Half a person” by writerfan2013 (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 1,524 words) And hey, this is Five/Delores, so see, I'm being equal opportunity with other ships! ;) Delores is a special case anyway, and this story is written from her point of view. But not an AU!human Delores. Just Delores as she is! The wordplay, the double meanings in every choice of phrase, is what absolutely makes this fic. What a delightful point of view!

10. "Free-fall.” by WildfireWriter21 (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 6,614 words) A moving aching character moment between Five and Lila circa Season 3 (for clarity). I mean, if you want to you can definitely see the groundwork laid for their relationship in Season 4 (judging from the comments section, don't think the author really wants you to though), but even without that, it's powerful.

BONUS HONORABLE MENTION(S):"[Comic Adaptation] the end of the war" by Undercamel_of_Pluto for for e_va (The Umbrella Academy (TV), M, "0" words only because it's a comic) Pluto made a full-fledged comic of another person's fic for the TUA Masked Author event, and it's both wonderful and totally envy-inducing (if only someone loved "Exploration of the Astral Plane" that much! I say because that's the one I can best imagine as a comic). Pluto is fun to follow on Tumblr because they're always posting mini comics in a variety of creative AUs— they definitely have potential as a flat-out graphic novelist! They even posted a second straight-up-prose fic this year, "Ships That Pass in the Night” (The Umbrella Academy (TV), M, 7,615 words) which is so perfectly crafted it's very easy to forget that words aren't their first medium of choice!


Top Five Fiktor Fics (That Are Actually All Fiveya Fics, Because They're Old Not Because They're Transphobic, Where Have All the Fiktor Writers Gone, I've Almost Exhausted the Archive), That Are Good Enough In General To Be Appreciated By People Who Aren't Obsessed With the Ship

1. "Of Accord and Satisfaction” by luckubus (ghosty) (The Umbrella Academy (TV), M, 12,018 words) Look, I give a lot more leeway to fics that are not the BEST written when I'm plumbing the depths of the archives for my ship (though there IS a limit even there), so to find one that is genuinely SO well-written is downright intoxicating! Technically this WAS completed in 2024, but the author had been toiling away at this final chapter for YEARS (and V had already been firmly established as "Vanya" in it), and finally managed to get it out there, for which I applauded them! Anyway, it's an AU where Five is an obnoxious CEO and V's an employee who called him out once, and they bond together at a conference, and it's great. You can just read it as an unrelated rom-com if you want.

2."a storm you can weather” by rappaccini for fokse (The Umbrella Academy (TV), M, 18,489 words) It's a shame that people will avoid this fic based on the ship, when the ship doesn't even come into play until closer to the end, and they'll miss this truly excellent V character study in the meantime. It's what might've happened if he actually had managed to run away from home as a teenager. It's really sad but there's a happy (and shippy) ending. It's so in character and beautifully written and deserves to be read wider than by just shippers.

3. "Mistakes Are Best Made Moments” by NicePlaceToBe (The Umbrella Academy (TV), NR, 32,356 words) I bookmarked a bunch of NicePlaceToBe's fics, including a perfect Five-Makes-It-Home-From-the-Apocalypse-as-a-Kid-and-Changes-Everything-From-the-Start called "We're taught to live and loathe, but when do we learn to love?”, but I'm choosing to feature this one because it's had a little less attention, and is also another AU, so, more appealing for people who can't get past the pseudo-siblings bit in canon. This is, in fact, another Five is an obnoxious CEO and V is a person of lesser status who calls him out, but in this case that's as a journalist seeking to expose his company's corruption. You gotta love the trope! It all comes back to Pride and Prejudice! And it works so well for these two!

4. "Coffee Beats (series)” by ellaphunt19 (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 4 stories, 10,157 words total) The individual stories are more like chapters in the overarching plot, anyway. Ye Olde Coffee Shop AU— Five works at the coffee shop, V works at the music store across the street, they're college students. But it's just really sweet and left me just smiling softly for awhile. Much like Five when he looks at V, in fact.

5. "this time we will definitely be happy” by lowallthetime (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 12,015 words) This fic is, alas, incomplete as of years ago, and the author doesn't seem to be around anymore, so it might be too much to hope for an update someday (and it hasn't even gotten to the unequivocal Fiktor stuff yet). But again, a really interesting premise that transcends the ship— what if V's consciousness, after apocalypting, suddenly wakes up in the past in child-Number Seven's body? V's adult consciousness, determined to make everything Right this time around, still has to cohabitate with tiny 7's body and mind, and it's REALLY INTERESTING, and I genuinely hope the author is all right before even longing for more!

On to the REST of the Fics!

First of all, my Yuletide Exchange gifts, unranked with the rest because they’re my PRESENTS! So how can I be unbiased?

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On Families and Homes” by shnuffeluv for Rockinlibrarian (The Mysterious Benedict Society - Trenton Lee Stewart, G, 1,053 words) I’m so fascinated by Kate and Milligan’s relationship, and this fic picks up with them as they’re driving “home” for the first time after rediscovering that it exists. Nearly cried two paragraphs in. It's so sweet --- bittersweet at first and working its way to pure sweet by the end.

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Moose Lips Wink Tips” by misura for Rockinlibrarian (Truly Devious Series - Maureen Johnson, G, 898 words)  I got a bonus treat! Two fics for the price of one! This is pure silliness based on this sort of private joke Maddie and I have since we read Truly Devious—Maddie wanted to know where the moose was, I said That’s what fanfic’s for—so when I saw Truly Devious was among the nominated fandoms I just HAD to prompt the Moose Question. And someone ANSWERED! Or at least wrote a very fun dream sequence! It’s honestly so fun I’ve seen other people not-me put it on their rec lists!

Top Ten Non-Umbrella-Academy Non-Gift-for-Me Fics!

1. "known now in part, to be known in full” by raspberryhunter for hidden_variable (Kairos (O'Keefe) Series - Madeleine L'Engle, Austin & Murry-O'Keefe Families - Madeleine L'Engle , G, 7,155 words) You know, I offered to write this fandom for Yuletide, but I’m glad raspberryhunter* got this instead of me, because I don’t think I could achieve the sheer L'Engle-ness of this. It is SO. RIGHT. It left me in tears. It might as well have been a gift for me, too! Adult Meg meets an alternate universe version of herself whose life took a very different path—and you know, I’m a bit wary of people judging Meg for her adult choices, but this exploration is not like that at all—it’s very deep and thoughtful and did I mention RIGHT. It is just absolutely RIGHT.
*holy heck, I just clicked on their AO3 for the first time now that Yuletide authors are revealed, and this is the ONLY L'Engle they've written! How? It feels like they've been bathing in her style for years!

2. "Quartet for the End of Time”  by republic for laughingpineapple (I saw three cities - Kay Sage (Painting), Unspecified Fandom, G, 400 words) One of the most interesting things about Yuletide is that it’s not limited to what people think of as “fandoms”—not just people writing about the particular blorbos they always write about: people can request fics for songs, commercials, internet shorts, historical figure RPF, you name it. And someone can go, “Hey, check out this cool surrealist painting, what can you write about it?” and in return they get not only their assigned fic but three additional treats—including this amazing quadruple-drabble/poem that I have not stopped thinking about since I read it.  READ IT. NOW. It’s 400 words long and all the canon knowledge you require is to look at a painting. Actually, you probably don’t even need to look at the painting to appreciate it.

3. "Wander Everywhere” by Emily_grant (Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis, Midsummer Night's Dream - Shakespeare, G, 9,998 words) “Emily_grant” is the AO3 name of my friend E. Louise Bates, who is much too busy with her original writing nowadays to be writing much fanfic. But she’d uploaded this old fic, and it was hanging around in my to-be-reads for AGES until I stumbled on it again and FIXED that. Anyway, the Midsummer Night’s Dream element is Puck, who’s hanging out in Narnia being mischievous, and it’s a delightful story that made me smile and laugh and go “oh!”, and I need to keep chapter 4 on hand for whenever the misunderstood Problem of Susan comes up in conversation, because it’s definitely the best rebuttal I’ve ever heard.  

4. "The Real Actual Human Life of Michael Realman” by C-chan (1001paperboxes) for Kindness (The Good Place (TV), T, 1,726 words) This was one of the OTHER Good Place fics from LAST Yuletide, and it’s a really sweet and perfect look at Michael as a human, and come to think of it my Yuletide recipient this year would LOVE this fic, I wonder if he’s read it.

5. "The More Things Change” by UrbanAmazon for Venetia5 (The Mummy (Movies 1999-2008), G, 3,936 words) This Yuletide fic from last year has a spot-on and hilarious Jonathan-narrative-voice and an intriguing adventure that reminds me of one of J's pre-WWII-set Call of Cthulhu campaigns. I could see this being the start of a whole new movie to be honest!

6. "Human Resources" by scarvenartist (for the inklings-challenge on Tumblr, 3,370 words). I haven't had time to participate in the Inklings Challenge since the first year, and I haven't had time to read other people's entries, either. Some Octobers I scroll past so many entries that I'll never read that I wonder if I should perhaps unfollow the Inklings Challenge Tumblr and save the scrolling time. But something about this one caught my eye last year, and I opened it in a separate tab, and when I finally read it after a couple months (enough for it to be THIS year now) I loved it enough to say "Remember this for Best Fics of the Year, even if it's not TECHNICALLY a fanfic!" This is a story about making actual human connections in a mechanized megacorporation and it just feels nice!

7. "Replay” by curtaincall for heartofwinterfell (Only Murders in the Building (TV), T, 2,758 words) Only Murders makes for fun fics—this is a time loop story that manages to feel exactly in-character and is a quick, delightful read.  

8. "Things Janet Knows” by AngstBlanket for izzybeth (The Good Place (TV), G, 1,208 words) Another of last year’s Other Good Place fics (I think there are Others this year as well but I haven’t looked closely at them yet!). I love fics that play with format to attempt to translate what Janet’s “brain” looks like to our puny human perceptions.

9. "Let the Sun Set, Let the Day End" by Leng-m (for the inklings-challenge on Tumblr, don't have the wordcount)—another one from last year’s Inklings Challenge. I'm not sure what caught my eye about it since I didn't save the Tumblr post, but it was probably the voice. It's a Filipino-Canadian middle-grade about a curse brought on by tomb-robbing! It's basically a Rick Riordan Presents story in short story form!

This just reminded me that there was a really short Inklings Challenge story I read from THIS fall's event that absolutely should be on this list but I didn't save the link to that.

Well in the meantime:
10. "Pussy cat, pussy cat, where have you been?” by GlassHeadcanon for twistedchick (Alice In Wonderland - Lewis Carroll, G, 2,049 words) This “sequel” feels like it could blend right in to Wonderland seamlessly.

BONUS HONORABLE MENTION: I found the one from this year's Inklings Challenge:
"Warning Signs" by bookshelf-in-progress (for the inklings-challenge on Tumblr, no exact wordcount but it's really short, a ficlet really) It's just a bite of delightful time-travel paradox weirdness, which is one of my favorite tropes…if you couldn't tell from the several time loop fics on these lists already!


Stuff I wrote!
 

Stuff I Wrote, Here on Dreamwidth Edition:

I actually have TWO other posts besides last year’s roundup!

There is of course my Yuletide Requests letter.

There’s also “You Should,” another prose poem thing that is me expressing my neurodivergent burnout. I wrote a similar one right before I was officially diagnosed with ADHD, and I’d brought it to my shrink to share with her, so maybe if I go for that ASD diagnosis I’ll bring this one along.

Stuff I Wrote, GeekMom Edition:

I’m just leaving this category in here on the off-chance I ever write for them again. They haven’t taken me off the masthead yet.

Stuff I Wrote, Fanfic Edition:

1. "The Beginning of Something Else Entirely" (The Umbrella Academy (TV), Legion (TV), M, 18,377 words) I started noodling around with this crossover early in the year, after seeing a comment on someone else’s fic suggesting that the Hargreeves should have been taken in at Xavier’s School for the Gifted. But then, the second TUA S4 ended, my brain went “Oh that’s a letdown GOOD THING THEY ENDED UP AT SUMMERLAND!” and it became a S4 fix-it—and a bit of a Legion fix-it, too, though I thought that one pulled off its ending better. But these two groups of characters were always meant to meet—they have so much in common and can help each other grow! And are fun together! And admittedly a good portion of why this is my favorite fic of the year is just I really enjoy getting to write Legion characters again so much.
1.5 "Did Anyone Ever Tell You You Look Just Like Aubrey Plaza?" (Legion (TV), The Umbrella Academy (TV), NR, 332 words) This is a cracky bonus scene taking place in the same crossover, and it’s just Klaus and Lenny (who yes are definitely new best friends) watching TV while Klaus comments about how practically everyone at Summerland looks like somebody he’d seen on TV or movies.  Really just me amusing myself. I also might eventually share the proof-of-concept scene I wrote of Five and Kerry meeting on the astral plane, and I probably will write a bonus optional chapter to “Beginning” that makes it Fiktor because I can’t help myself; but who knows, I could keep throwing up random scenes of these two groups of characters hanging out indefinitely, because they really do mesh so well.

2. "New World Symphony" (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 12,655 words) Honestly this is how I would have wished the show to go after Season 3, if it was reasonable for Fiktor to become canon at least (and if it had much less of a plot—this is more like adjusting to a happy ending than an actual potential TV season). I think what I decided would happen to the characters between seasons makes a lot more sense than what happened to them in canon. Oh, and also it turns out that, in a universe where they’d never been adopted, Five and Viktor would have been married. Because. I really love this fic though! And it actually turned out to be my most popular fic of the year so I’m justified!

3. "The Contractualism of Fair Play and Hot Wings" (The Good Place (TV), G, 3,084 words) I got The Good Place for my Yuletide assignment again this year! And as long as it keeps qualifying (it still only qualifies because so many of its fics on AO3 are less than 1000 words), I will keep offering to write it, because I love writing in this universe SO MUCH, I just don’t have any really pressing story ideas for it! This year my recipient was a Michael fanatic so was looking for something highlighting his fascination and often misunderstanding of humans, so I was out harvesting all my hot peppers (see way back at the beginning of this roundup) and pondering ideas and I thought, “Hey, hot peppers! That’s something seemingly nonsensical that humans like!”  This is yet another Reboot fic that takes place during Season 2 Episode 3, because you can canonically write like 800 completely different stories that fit there.

4. "What's in a Name?" (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 1,876 words) The TUA Masked Author event theme was Remixes, so everyone was encouraged to write (or draw) something inspired by an old fic. I browsed through all the works by people who’d volunteered their works for remixing, sorted them by the ones that had gotten the least attention in the past, and started picking out the ones that caught my attention now. faithfulcat111 had written a drabble called “What If?” that wondered what would have happened if Five Ben and Viktor had never been adopted but managed to meet by chance and bond anyway, and this image of an international conference for gifted teenagers popped into my head. I noted it as a possibility and continued my browsing, but my brain kept trying to work out the details of this conference, so I realized my decision had been MADE, and so I wrote their AU meeting there. (The title is because being frustrated with their given names is the first main thing they bond over).

5. "Brother and Also Brother Home For Christmas" (The Umbrella Academy (TV), NR, 319 words)  Emmett had prompted a dare on the TUA Discord: "five/viktor but as that one folgers incest christmas coffee commercial" which IS indeed practically a ready-made Season 1-era Fiveya fic; and being the only Fiktor shipper there just then I took that dare and wrote this in an hour. It’s just silly. Also I should point out that this happened in July.

6, technically "happy birthday" (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 0 words) Remember how the TUA Masked Author event theme was Remixes? It occurred to me that typically one has to be able to draw characters to make fanart, but if I drew something based on a specific FIC, I COULD potentially pick something to draw that was NOT characters and therefore I could do it. I’d always found this image from destinyandcoins' "Notes from Nowhere" haunting, and it only required drawing bricks! So I entered a fanart, too!

If you’d like to read more about the stuff I wrote (though I really appreciate it if you just plain read the stuff I wrote, and comment on it!) I also have an “AO3 Writer Wrapped” year-end write up just about that on Tumblr!



 And that’s it! Comment on something! Anything! You know!
rockinlibrarian: (rebecca)
Hello, Yuletide Writer! Welcome to my request letter!

EDIT: OH YES, I'm more than open to treats!

My overarching DNW is smut-- in fact with these particular fandoms I'm not interested in any shipping whatsoever, besides acknowledging the existence of canonical relationships (ie, Melanie and Oliver in Legion). Otherwise I'm pretty open. I am a fan of quirkiness, so don't be afraid to be silly or out there or meta-- I have nothing against and in fact often enjoy crack, AUs, and crossovers, as long as the characters themselves are true.

LEGION: as usual (for the whole two years I've been doing this), I'm hoping to get to read a Cary and Kerry story that I don't have to write first (click on Legion in AO3. Click on Cary or Kerry. Note who wrote most of the fics about them in the past five years). I'd particularly enjoy some Summerland-set fics-- there's so much that could have happened there between its founding and closing (and heck, no reason to keep it closed-- AU of D3 never finds Summerland, yay!)

The Unbeatable Squirrel Girl: Here's your chance to lean in to the quirky. If you can capture the off the wall tone and Doreen's energy and optimism, yay! Be funny! I would also not be adverse to you bringing in references from Shannon Hale's middle grade Squirrel Girl novels.

The Mysterious Benedict Society: I know I technically can't Formally Request what I most want from an MBS fic since one of the characters in question isn't on the list, but here's my suggestion I'm putting out there: I am fascinated by Kate and Milligan's relationship, and would love a story about their trying to work out how to be a family again. Of course, there's a found family theme with ALL the characters so you won't be lacking for tying in the theme a bit at least.

Okay, as of my writing this I still haven't decided if I want to genuinely request this or if I just want to throw the suggestion out there as a possible Treat, BUT:
Truly Devious: When we finished reading the original trilogy, my teenager had just one question: "But what about the moose?" WHERE ARE THE MOOSE? I started to attempt to answer this question in fanfic myself and got as far as the opening paragraph:
"The moose of the Green Mountains knew to avoid the place they called the Unstable Slope, or “oooOOOOOOoooo” in their native tongue. Ninety generations had passed since the first BoomQuakes broke the mountain, and still young moose were warned away, despite tales of a mythical lake that appeared suddenly there for several years, only to just as suddenly dry up again." So consider that a prompt! I'd be happy with any story of Stevie and friends solving a mystery, but if they're solving the mystery of where the moose went, that's even better!

PS: If the person who nominated Sal and Gabi last year is out there reading this, you have sparked a need in my soul. Why is there not Sal and Gabi fic? I need more Sal (and Gabi) in my life! I can't possibly pull off Sal's voice though so I'm dependent upon people more fluent in Cuban-American Spanglish than me!

You Should

May. 14th, 2024 08:57 am
rockinlibrarian: (toothbrush)
Wake up bright and early.

No, wait, feed the cat is first.

Feed the cat.

Wake up bright and early.

Give your spouse physical affection.

Help spouse get ready for work.

Clean the poor cats' food area sometime.

Throw out old food before it gets bad. Or maybe even eat it first.

Get dressed. Your clothes must be clean, wrinkle-free, appropriate for the needs of the day and for the weather, and they must fit properly and be flattering.

Well why HAVEN'T you been to the bathroom yet?

Get the kids up for school. They should be getting themselves up for school, they won't live with mom forever. If they don't get up on time, well, why didn't you get them up?

Take your medication. Make sure the kids take their medication. They should be taking responsibility for their own medication, they won't live with mom forever. If they don't take their medication on schedule, how do we know what's actually working or not?

Get the kids breakfast. They should be getting their own breakfast, they won't live with mom forever. If mom doesn't get them breakfast, they forget to eat. Also it should be a balanced breakfast, never mind the picky eaters. If they don't eat breakfast, they fall asleep in class. Why aren't they getting their work done in first period?

Make the kids do the chores they should have done yesterday. Yes, before school. Don't let them miss the bus. Your kids should be at the bus stop ten minutes before it is scheduled to arrive. Don't let them stand out in the cold.

Sign this paper for school. It was due yesterday. Also I need money for this, too. Why is it taking so long, we're going to miss the bus!

Get breakfast. It should be a balanced breakfast. Don't eat your kid's abandoned half-bagel. Don't let food go to waste.

This is the school calling. Sign this paper your kid should have given you two months ago. Do we need to send another copy?

Make doctors appointments. Make dentist appointments and also separate orthodontist appointments. Make counseling appointments and also separate psychiatric appointments. Make vet appointments. Make optometrist appointments. Make an appointment about your car. But not at that place, the other place, that specializes in that other thing. Our office is open between the hours of 9 AM and 4 PM, and is closed for lunch between 12:30 and 1:30. Please call back during our regular office hours.

Feed the cat. It's too early to feed the cat. Don't ignore your poor cat who is obviously in need of your attention.

You forgot your breakfast.

Stay up to date with current events. Call your senators. Volunteer. Give money to this cause. Give money to this other cause. How can you let such atrocities exist? Why are you not protesting? Amplify marginalized voices! Not those ones, THESE ones! Also, raise your own voice! Except not yours, we don't actually care what you have to say. Why aren't you contributing your voice? Don't like, REBLOG! Likes do NOTHING! Why does nobody ever like what you post? Maybe because nobody cares what you have to say. Why do you never post? Read everything. Leave comments. Care about your friends' lives. TALK to your friends. Nurture your support system. Get off of social media. Find new friends, then.

Time to go. What do you mean you have to go to the bathroom again? Why didn't you go before? Get more water. NOW feed the cats. Weren't you supposed to bring something? Find your keys. Put them in the same place every time and you won't have this problem. Make a homemade lunch, those frozen meals have too many preservatives. What do you mean you're late?

Don't speed. Don't be late. Call if you're going to be late. Don't stop now, you're going to be late. Don't use a cell phone in the car. Get gas yesterday.

Why are you out of breath? Wait to sign in. Sign in on time.

Keep a tidy workspace. Don't forget anything. Your ADHD brain needs visible organization techniques. Other people don't want to see that.

Stay up with correspondance. Don't email, phone. Don't phone, email. Talk to me in person. I'm busy right now. Why did you never tell me about that? Why don't you communicate better?

Plan programs that are engaging and educational! You're running too long! You're letting them go too soon! Clean and shelve and research grants! Don't spend all your time at the desk. The desk must be staffed.

Greet everyone who comes in. Chat! Respect their needs! Don't bother me! Be friendly! Talk! No, talk about NORMAL things!

Keep the collection up to date! Don't weed anything! It's too crowded and messy! Why don't we have the latest and greatest new books?

If you can't handle it, maybe you shouldn't work.

We don't have enough money, and you're smart, you should have a good job.

Go shopping! In person! Don't spend a lot. Don't waste money on junk. Why do we never have anything I like?

Make homecooked dinners. Make  healthy dinners. Not that. No one but you will eat that.

Lose weight. Buy more dessert. The emphasis on weight is misdirected and doesn't really affect health. All your health problems would be eased if you lost weight, including your breath, balance, and bad foot. Exercise. Get your foot checked out by a doctor then.

Did you make that appointment yet?

This house is a pigsty. Then make the kids do it. Don't do it for them. Why is everything piling up?

You're always tired. Call the doctor.

Why don't we play games as a family?

You NEED to watch this show and/or movie.

Why don't you write books like you always said you would?

Make time for yourself.

Shower. Brush your teeth. Clean the bathroom.

Get to bed early.

Don't snore.

Feed the cat.
rockinlibrarian: (christmas)
I’m here! I’m finally getting this out!

What happened is, I got a new computer for Christmas! I set about transferring files and downloading preferred software–Firefox, Scrivener– but I decided to upgrade Scrivener to the newest version, which meant all my files got upgraded, too. And THEN my new computer promptly stopped working two days later.

Well, yay for staying firmly in the warranty period!

So for the whole between-Christmas-and-New-Years (and a week or so beyond) that I USUALLY spend pulling my Annual Roundup together, I had, well, my old painfully slow computer, which also pertinently would now no longer open my Scrivener files (which luckily were all still saved on the cloud. And most of my other files were also still saved on my old computer. So I didn’t LOSE any information luckily).
So now I no longer had ACCESS to my file of Notes on Stuff that I keep throughout the year!

But wait. That’s not all.

I finally got my new, WORKING computer back, so I opened up my Scrivener file– only to discover that I’d never MADE a 2023 Notes on Stuff folder!

So if the only really great detailed stuff in this update is the booklists, you have the BookRiot Reading Log spreadsheet stored on Google Docs to thank! Because I DID take thorough notes when it came to stuff I READ this year!

Anyway, here’s my 2023, don’t forget to comment and converse with me about it!

STUFF THAT HAPPENED
Life Events in no particular order

1. So, if your last contact with me was LAST year’s roundup, you may have noticed how depressed the library-related write-ups sounded. My job was getting pretty miserable, and I wasn’t doing what I loved anymore, and it wasn’t like I was even getting paid well for it (though I couldn’t just quit, because we couldn’t afford that, either). But it was draining on my self-esteem and I didn’t believe I COULD get a new job, either. With a lot of vital encouragement from former coworker Dana, though, I finally got up the courage to at least LOOK what was out there, and wouldn’t you know it? There was a position for an actual Children’s Librarian in Waynesburg, just under a 40-minute-drive-mostly-highway away. So dangit, I applied, and dangit, I got the position.

Here’s the thing. Eva K. Bowlby died back in the 1950s and left her house/estate to the city of Waynesburg with the CLEAR STIPULATION that it would be used as a CHILDREN’S library. Oh sure, there’s a grownup library too, and grownup programming, but the FOCUS is Youth Services, which means our professional goals actually align! And I was going from being constantly belittled, doubted, and having responsibilities taken away from me at the Sarris library, to being IN CHARGE OF THE MOST RESPECTED DEPARTMENT of Bowlby Library– which was a little daunting! But you know? I’m doing all right. I’m not perfect, and the job isn’t perfect either, but I am SO MUCH HAPPIER now and the patrons are apparently happy, too. More in the Library Happenings section.

So like I said, I forgot to note the exciting things happening throughout the year AS they happened, so what sticks out are the BIG things. Like that.

2. Oh, and since I’ve only met her twice, I nearly forgot another big change in the EXTENDED family: in July, Maggie– my 39-year-old apparently-child-free sister–had a baby, Betty. I gave her a stuffed Betty Lou for Christmas. 5mo baby looking at a Betty Lou from Sesame Street doll her dad is holding out for herMaddie goes into fits of hysterical shrieking because her baby forehead is so big. Anyway, I’m convinced my Dad had something to do with this development, from beyond, because of the timing (she got pregnant as soon as possible after his death)– if not just to reincarnate himself back into the family, at the very least just as a sign, a reminder, that life goes on.

3. Uh, Sam got his driving permit. Yes, I’m the mother of a driving teenager. This is less scary than you might expect, Sam being Sam and A) obsessed with cars from toddlerhood and therefore learning everything possible about them, so INTELLECTUALLY knowing what he’s doing; and b) from the same age, spacially gifted– innately knowing how to make machines work; and most importantly, c) also from the same age, being a very CAREFUL, RULE-CONSCIOUS kid. I mean he already MIGHT be a better driver than me. He only just qualified to take his test, but he still hasn’t learned how to parallel park. But soon, I’m sure.

Okay. Oh!

4. Jason brought home a semi-wild pig! This is totally one of those weird little things that would have made the list if I was keeping track of everything as we went along– it happened early in the year, before I was even looking for a new job. Not a pet pig, he went on a pig hunt. Yes, these things exist. And it was GENERALLY slaughtered and quartered beforehand, but I had to cut it into serving sizes myself. After almost a year, we are now down to two racks of ribs, which we still haven’t QUITE figured out how to cook properly. I am kind of happy to not feel compelled to have pork three times a week any more.

5. Oh, I’ve got one more thing to round this off, even if it might not FEEL like a real life happening to anyone but me. I participated in Yuletide, the annual massive fanfic exchange dedicated to giving fic in “rare” fandoms a boost– what qualifies as “rare” is a fandom with 1000 or less fics of 1000 words or more on AO3– I clarify this because I was genuinely shocked that the fandom I was assigned still qualifies– but, see more below! The whole experience was super fun for me as a writer (and reader!) on many different levels, so I think it deserves this last bullet point!

Christmas

This is where I normally talk happenings and famous presents, but the happenings feel too far gone now, and you’ve already heard about my biggest present. Oh, we were laughing because Jason’s presents for me almost all had to be sent back! The computer broke, the underwear was too small, my brother got me the clock the night before! The only one I got to keep and love unconditionally was a nice throw blanket he’d gotten as a freebie sample at work! (It could be personalized with the company name, and J was doing the buying of Personalized Company Stuff to give employees, so the personalization company was like “buy this blanket for your employees!” and J was like, “Nah, but I’ll give it to my wife, okay?) It IS a very nice blanket.

Library Happenings

This is of course extra big this year. It seems so long since I even had library programs to talk about, and now all of a sudden I have a whole department in my hands.

Top Regular Programs I am Now In Charge Of
1. Summer Quest: I only ever marginally pitched in with Summer Reading programs at the old library, and I STILL occasionally had Summer Reading-related stress dreams. Now I was in charge of the whole thing! Worse, my only adult helper (I had several teen volunteers as well, some of them more actually helpful than others) got a new job and left two weeks in! And yet, despite the occasional chaos, I think it went very well. Summer Quest was the day-long weekly program for elementary-aged kids– younger ones on Wednesday, older on Thursday. Everyone seemed to be happy with it, and I heard lots of stories about kids talking excitedly about the things we’d done, like:
–Top Activities from summer quest. Apparently a lot of other librarians were complaining that the Collaborative Summer Reading Program theme of “All Together Now” was hard to plan programs and activities around, and honestly I do not get that. This theme cries out for teamwork building and getting along, and there are SO MANY fun activities to do with that!

  1. Improv Games: The subject of “kindness” made me think of good listening which lead me to “Yes, and–” which led me to a ridiculous afternoon of improv games. After some large group warmups (Walking in different imaginary settings, coming up with a unique use for an oddly-shaped block), we used a set of customizable dice to roll different improv games for randomly chosen kids to do. At the end I had them act out the Three Little Pigs (plus more) like I used to do at the Children’s Museum, and it was hilarious.
  2. Robotics and coding: This I came to on the subject of “Making a Difference” – though admittedly also because my boss had also gotten a grant for BristleBot kits that we were required to use this summer. But when you’re coding, every little step makes a difference, right? We read “How to code a sandcastle,” then used the Primo Cubetto robot we have to practice programming. Then we built the BristleBots, which converted even the most “This is stupid” kids by the end, and they spent recess making their Bristlebots dance together. Or fight. One or the other.
  3. Multicultural Cooking Activity: The obvious choice for the subject of  “Crossing Borders,” it did get pretty chaotic, but resulted in lots of kids trying– and liking!-- new foods and a few deciding they liked cooking, too. We split everyone up and assigned everyone different tasks. Would definitely have been easier with another adult. My own kids even came along that day to help out.
  4. Build the tallest tower out of weird supplies: The subject of this week WAS straight up “Teamwork,” so it was filled with team-building challenges like 60-second Lego builds and round singing and, memorably, making a Rube Goldberg Machine. That last may have been a little TOO complicated (and it was very hard to convince them that it wasn’t a marble run and they physically COULDN’T make one marble do everything); but the tower building challenge was just the right amount of challenge, and was very exciting.
  5. Telephone on paper/Painting relay: Two more activities from “Kindness” week also stemming from the concept of “Yes, and”ing, though not improv. The painting relay required the group to try to paint a scene, one person at a time for one minute each, so you had to play off whatever the people before you had done. The younger group took this more seriously than the older group, who were prone to Pollocking the whole paper on their turns just to be obnoxious; but all groups had a wacky time with Telephone on Paper, where you pass around a strip of paper, folding it over each time, alternating between guessing what the person before you just drew and trying to draw what the person before you wrote that the first person drew.


2. Ready for Kindergarten: On Mondays during the summer, for less time than the elementary kids but still three hours, I led preschoolers through school-readiness exercises. I was nervous about this, because I’m not certified in early childhood education or anything, but really it was a storytime taken through the next level, and whatever activities I came up with weren’t hard to tie to school.

3. Storytimes: of course there’s basic storytimes throughout the year. I have a part-time coworker, Haley, who actually IS an early childhood educator (but she has a 1.5 year old so she doesn’t want a full-time job. In fact half the time her toddler comes with her. Which makes me jealous in retrospect at how much my kids were unwelcome at my last job), who mostly covers the baby and toddler storytimes, while I take the preschool and evening ones.
--Top themes from regular storytimes

  1. Election Day: this will probably be even more interesting this year. It’s really a delightful way to teach kids about the election process without the baggage of grown-up Politics. We read two books: Clifford for President and Duck for President. Then the kids took turns voting by circling their choice’s picture on the ballot and put the ballot in a toy mailbox inside a Voting Booth (a three-sided poster board), while everyone made “Vote For” posters while they were waiting their turn. Then we counted (counting practice!) the votes together. I caught this conversation on the way out one of the days: 4yo, with mild disgust: “I voted for Clifford, but Duck won.” 4yo’s mom: “I know the feeling.”
  2. Sharing: I always like to focus– or broaden– themes during holiday weeks to something related to the holiday, but not necessarily ABOUT the holiday, and “Sharing” is one of my favorite Thanksgiving topics. We read Around the Table that Grandad Built (see below) Feast for Ten (more COUNTING PRACTICE!) Thank you, Omu! (see some previous year’s list, I love that book), did an interactive flannelboard of The Doorbell Rang, and a magnet board activity of working together to put pictures together (each child had, say, a window or door but only together could we all build a house). And then we did snack time by making a fruit salad together. The smallest kids dumped in berries, the slightly bigger kids chopped bananas and strawberries and pre-peeled apple slices with butter knives, and everyone took turns mixing it up. “I didn’t know I could DO that!” one 3yo exclaimed proudly, and isn’t that just what we’re going for?    
  3. Lights and Candles: Another example of broadening your “holiday” themes– the last storytime in December– this community has like NO religious diversity, it is frighteningly Evangelical Christian, so nobody would have a problem with the library doing anything straight-up Christmasy– but there already WERE like three straight-up Christmasy events going on that month (see below for some of them), so I’m sticking to something more universal for this storytime. We started with The Dark by Lemony Snicket, then read a board book called My First Chanukah and did a lighting-eight-candles fingerplay, then read a Disney Frozen board book that had real twinkling lights in it that end up on a tree, so we really covered all bases. And THEN they covered pieces of contact paper with scraps of colored tissue paper and we wrapped it around electric tea lights, so they had their own little “stained glass” nightlight decorations, which they all thought was the coolest and made an excellent grand finale to storytime season.
  4. Berries: Honestly I wanted to do Berries just so I could read Berry Song, and We Wait for the Sun and Jamberry and The Little Mouse, the Red Ripe Strawberry, and the Big Hungry Bear (which was probably the winner)-- we did NOT have time for Blueberries for Sal but I pulled it just in case. And then we painted with berries! And also ate berries!
  5. A Two-fer: “Superheroes” and “Boo! Monsters”:  I’m just putting these together because the craft was variations on the same, and it never ceases to amaze and delight me how you can give kids all the same art supplies and they’ll all come up with something totally unique if you let them. We have Ellison die cutters with both mix-and-match superhero paper dolls and mix-and-match monster parts, and the results were always just special. LOOK at all these wonderful monsters! 

4. Family Place Play: The new library is a Family Place Library, a system of libraries focusing on early childhood development through giving families the resources they need to help their children thrive. All Family Place Libraries have to host relatively regular Parent/Child Workshops, which are developmentally-appropriate free play sessions with special guest community experts in to answer grownups’ parenting questions. We expanded the 5-session minimum Parent/Child Workshop into a ten-week regular playtime for three-an-unders and their families. Now, my biggest role in this was just setting up. Since the playtime was MEANT to be between the child and their caregiver, or sometimes with the other kids, I was kind of the third wheel in the room, just watching. But watching is interesting! People who don’t spend much time with babies tend to forget, or not ever realize, that babies (and toddlers) are not just blank slates before they can talk– they have opinions and great big feelings and they are FIGURING OUT SO MUCH STUFF, and when you watch them in a situation like this, you see all the gears turning and the revelations happening and it’s cool. And I keep wanting to talk about my own kids when they were very small, because it reminds me of the unique things they did that proved they were certainly their own people right away.

Top Special Events

1. Polar Express Night: I’ve never been in charge of such a successful program, at any library. 48 people turned out in their pajamas (well, SOME were in their pajamas) for hot cocoa and cookies and the Polar Express movie and leftover gingerbread house decorating– I had had a specific gingerbread house workshop the week before, but there were a bunch of no-shows, so I just pulled the leftovers out again here and boy were they popular– and there were simple craft paintings and a fake-snow-made-of-baking-soda-and-conditioner sensory box and wooden trains and a very weird set of snowglobe crafts and an engine you could go inside to drive! (Observe photo collection here). Everyone raved about it, even the families who left early because their kids got tired! It's already in the album linked above, but please again admire the Polar Express I built!
Polar Express made of cardboard, with a glowing headlight on front

2. Fetch’s Sleepover: first time I ever got to do one of those taking-pictures-of-inanimate-objects-goofing-off photo shoots, check it out.

3. Turkey Trot: So every year the library has a 5K the weekend before Thanksgiving as a fundraiser, and it’s massive, and all we (Haley and I) were told was that we needed to have activities for kids for when they finished the kids’ race and were waiting for their growups to finish the 5K– not when or for how long. So it turned out about an hour in, we got COMPLETE CHAOS for an hour, and then everyone went home. But at least everyone was occupied (with games, snacks, and crafts) during that hour of chaos.

4. Teddy Bear Picnic: This apparently was also originally a fundraiser, but now it’s just an annual tradition that again Haley and I were thrust into in hopes of living up to everyone’s expectations, which luckily we did. We had stories and a teddy bear parade and a stuff-your-own-plushie activity and bear masks and bear food like berries, (swedish) fish, honey (grahams), ants on a log, and peanut butter and jelly because of course they do, and now the pictures from this event are my work computer screen saver and it’s a good time (sorry, I don't actually have a LINK to those pictures).

5. The Summer Quest Field Trip: Wanted to tie the field trip to something Teamwork related to fit the theme, and finally the improv activity made me think, A SHOW. The nearest community theater doing a children’s matinee was an hour away, but we went anyway, and saw a play called “Cinderella Caterpillar,” which I think my fellow coworker-chaperone laughed way harder at than any of the kids did. The kids got to get all the players to sign their programs as a souvenir, and then we had a picnic, because it was an outdoor theater, and then they spent at least an hour playing on stage themselves. That in itself was cool! But like two days before, my boss said, “There’s some more money in the budget for field trips, you should stop and get ice cream for everyone on the way home.” And I looked at the map and wouldn’t you know it, exactly halfway on our route was a restaurant attached to a dairy farm that makes their own ice cream and has a playground with big slides built into the hill– it’s a great place my own kids have been to on field trips too. So we stopped there and had MORE fun! There was a perfectly timed rain shower for exactly the amount of time it took to ride the bus from the theater and to eat ice cream inside the restaurant, that then immediately cleared up.

Top Other Stuff that Happened at the New Library
1. Sorting the Closet: there was a chaotic supply closet that I used my first break between programming seasons to completely reorganize and inventory and I’m PROUD of that, baby!

2. Sorting the Office: this one’s a bit trickier and I’m still working on it! It involves lots of old files, some of which are useful, and some of which are completely out of date! There are books of literal Clip Art, the kind you had to photocopy, before you did that sort of thing on the computer! There are shelves and shelves of old Mailbox magazines! There’s a lot of stuff I’m not supposed to get rid of because it actually belongs to my boss, who started out as the children’s librarian there, but I don’t always know WHAT! It’s quite the interesting treasure horde!

3. Collection Development: if there’s one thing that frustrates me about my new job compared to the old, it’s that my boss does NOT like to weed anything, and there is NOT a lot of room. And there’s some seriously out of date stuff in that collection. But I am doing my best within my parameters to get the collection a LITTLE less chaotic and easier to use!

4. Christmas party: One very long day I was in town for something like 13-14 hours, starting with a Family Place Play session in the morning, a regular in-library workday in the afternoon, then making Frosty the Snowman buttons at a booth at the town Light-up Night celebration in the evening– I couldn’t just GO HOME in between because it’s a 40 minute commute one-way– and then we had our staff Christmas party at a small local combined pottery-shop/restaurant, which served us THE most comfort-foodish Baked Potato soup as well as a meat and cheese board and wraps; and we had a secret santa exchange and the girl who had me made me a gift basket of all sorts of random treats named after Beatles songs, it was great; and then we played a Murder Mystery Roleplay game (though it wasn’t murder, it was non-lethal poisoning) and I solved it, and we LAUGHED a LOT, and afterward somebody or other asked if I’d had a good time and I was actually a little stunned. “YES,” I realized. “Yes, I really did!”

So now it's time for everyone's favorite section:

MEDIA REVIEWS

Books!

2023 Picture Books
1. Nell Plants a Tree, by Anne Wynter, illus. by Daniel Miyares. Oh this is lovely! Poetic and flowing but simple enough for even a toddler storytime, though older kids will more appreciate how the pictures show time going by and how Nell was a girl when she planted the tree and a grandmother when the tree is full-grown.

2. Mister Kitty is LOST! by Greg Pizzoli. I am looking forward to using this in a story time. There’s counting, guessing, and subversion of expectations– a perfect recipe for child interaction and all-ages entertainment.

3. Stranded! A Mostly True Story from Iceland, by Aevar por Benediktsson, illus. by Anne Wilson (not the rock star). What sold me on thinking libraries need this technically-nonfiction book was that it kept making “great read-aloud” lists. And it does seem to be perfect for next summer’s CSLP theme, “Adventure”-- but I actually bought it as a gift for J’s nephews before I bought it for the library, and got distracted reading while I wrapped it. It is a wonderfully fun book, delightfully told, and with illustrations that add a literally-mythic quality to the author’s grandfather’s unbelievable (but mostly true!) story.  

4. Evergreen, by Matthew Cordell. This book made me wish I had more elementary aged storytimes because it's just a bit too long for preschool. Then I realized this will fit next year's summer theme, too, as it’s about a shy (not quite as much as Scaredy) Squirrel having an Adventure, and I can read it to my elementary group then!

5. How Does Santa Go Down the Chimney? by Mac Barnett, illus. by Jon Klassen. Remember there was awhile there I had like three Barnett/Klassen books per year-end list? It seems like a long time since I did. This is an excellent book to share with thoughtful kids who like to examine all options. Klassen's work always makes me smile, and the words are straightforward but fun, and are just slightly rhythmic with some internal rhymes, so, a good read-aloud. The part about dogs got me and was what tipped me over into “okay, I love this.”


2022 Picture Books I Crammed for Mock Caldecott Time, which happened before I even considered I might have a new job in just a few months so feels ages ago:
1. Action! How Movies Began, by Meghan McCarthy. A simple (enough to read aloud) yet thorough (enough for even grownups to feel like they’re learning something) history of movie making. It ties the first times various innovations were used to more recent movies to show the parallels, which is very cool, and the illustrations highlight parallels as well, which is how it got on the mock Caldecott lists! And it got one of my votes, along with Blue and Berry Song (see last year’s list of New Books).

2. Color the Sky, by David Elliot, illus. by Evan Turk. I remember “arguing” with a kid about why this was on the Mock Caldecott table, because they were “just scribbly crayon drawings.” But oh, the ENERGY those crayon drawings capture! There’s a lot of energy in the verse (about birds of many colors) as well. You could take off flying with this book yourself.

3. Nigel and the Moon, by Antwan Eady, illus. by Gracey Zhang. Sweet story about a kid who whispers his dreams to the moon when he's shy to share what he wants to be in the day. The pictures are sweet, too, if not quite what I’d deem Caldecott-worthy– it was the story I liked most!

4. The Three Billy Goats Gruff, by Mac Barnett, illus. by Jon Klassen. Here they are again! This is a worthy addition to the folktale collection, and a lot of fun. Barnett adds some fun food rhymes to the traditional refrains, and Klassen continues to draw the best expressions. There’s an interesting use of space, as well. Great example of why Klassen is one of my absolute favorite illustrators despite (or because of?) his deceptively simple style!

5. How to Eat a Book, by Mrs. and Mr. MacLeod.  It’s a mildly silly story about the joy of getting sucked into a book (literally), but the cut paper illustrations are a little mindblowingly psychedelic. Curious what the authors might do next.

What’s funny is this is being posted so late that I have already done my Mock Caldecott cramming for THIS year, too. So theoretically I could make next year’s list right now. But I won’t, because spoilers.
(PSST: Remember, Simon and the Better Bone, An American Story, Big, and Stars of the Night– descriptions and ranking subject to change depending on the rest of the year, but those are the ones I liked best, if you’re using my opinions to do your own purchasing and really want to know. Edit to add: Simon and the Better Bone just won our Mock Caldecott. Edit again to add: Big just won the real Caldecott. Yay, month-late roundups!) (Incidentally, I can't remember what won last year's Mock Caldecott. I have looked it up on the FSPL Facebook page but apparently that didn't get posted).

Older Picture Books, which may include 2022 (but I don’t actually think do. Oh, there’s one):
I’m having trouble ranking these: they might just be a ten-way tie. Or they might go something like this.

1. A Polar Bear In the Snow, by Mac Barnett, illus. by Shawn Harris, 2020. And Barnett squeezes on a third time, but the pictures are definitely the real star here. Harris could have gone the easy route: I have no doubt Barnett was thinking of the joke when he came up with the title-- but the artist instead has done some really cool things with torn white cardstock and a sparing use of black and blue ink. It immediately gave me Story Time Art Project ideas. Unfortunately I read this at Sarris like a week before leaving, and we haven’t GOT the book at Bowlby. (Gee, who has the power to change that, anyway?)

2. Around the Table that Grandad Built, by Melanie Heuiser Hill, illus. by Jaime Kim, 2019. Nice Thanksgiving book: it manages to be very classic in tone and themes while showing a diverse family with a variety of foods. An excellent addition to a Thanksgiving collection.

3. The Christmas Mitzvah, by Jeff Gottesfeld, illus. by Michelle Laurentia Agatha, 2021. Speaking of good additions to holiday collections, this is a really lovely story! When I first read reviews of it back in 2021, I remember not being sure how a story of a grownup doing grownup things would be accessible for kids (though it didn’t stop me from putting it on the wish list. Can’t remember if I ever got around to buying it for Sarris. It was already at Bowlby though). But this book pulls off just the right tone, and the pictures help, too. It's just a big smile in a book.

4. Bartali's Bicycle: the true story of Gino Bartali, Italy's Secret Hero, by Megan Hoyt, illus. by Iacopo Bruno, 2021. Fascinating story about a champion cyclist who secretly worked for the Italian Resistance in WWII.

5. My Baby Blue Jays, by John Berendt, 2011. This is apparently an adult-focused Pulitzer-winner, but when he decided to chronicle the family of blue jays outside his window with photographs, then describe what he saw, he explained it on a kid level very well! I always like having simple real-life nonfiction sorts of things like this to sprinkle into storytimes, and the preschoolers all diving forward to get a closer look at the pictures is exactly the sort of reaction I’m going for.

6. Ways to Welcome, by Linda Ashman, illus. by Joey Chou, 2020. This is simple and sweet and exactly what it says on the tin–ways to show kindness, as well. Perfect choice for the All Together Now Summer Reading theme, and unlike a lot of these kinds of everyone-getting-along books, the rhymes actually scan really well.

7. Super Sloth, by Robert Starling, 2019. A very cute everyone-is-talented-in-their-own-way story.

8. The Happy Day, by Ruth Krauss, illus. by Marc Simont, 1949. I found this among the Big Books on one of my first days at the new library and felt called to read it immediately. Indeed it fit my upcoming spring theme storytime, and amused me with its unique refrains (who thinks to include SNAILS in a story like this?). I mean, I know Ruth Krauss knew what she was doing (and Simont’s no slouch either), but I’d never heard of this book before, so who knew it stood the test of time?

9. Mushroom Rain, by Laura K. Zimmermann, illus. by Jamie Green, 2022. Fascinating facts about mushrooms presented in poetic prose with very pretty pictures.

10. Time is a Flower, by Julie Morstad, 2021. Wonderous poetic and artistic musings on the nature of time. The pictures themselves are poetic too.


2023 Longer Books
1. Huda F Cares? by Huda Fahmy. This was hilarious. It's a not-very-wordy graphic novel, so I read it in one sitting (accidentally), when someone accidentally put it on the Children's New Book shelf instead of the YA, and I just flipped it open as I started to carry it away and started laughing out loud immediately. It is cataloged as YA (and I haven’t read the first book in the series to say if this applies there, too), but if this one had stayed in the children’s section, it could have been perfectly appreciated by a middle-grade kid, too, since it's about that universal wonder, sibling relationships (and bc it's a very conservative family– the not-as-universal theme is of being Very Visibly Muslim In Public– it hasn't got the "naughty bits" you might find in a lot of YA, either).  It verges on uncomfortable cringe humor– I kept tensing for disaster!-- but everything works out in the end, so it’s pure delight.

2. The Chalice of the Gods, by Rick Riordan. It’s fun to read Percy and Co. have an adventure that's not world-shattering for once. This is actually taking place in the months between the end of Heroes of Olympus and the beginning of Trials of Apollo, so you canonically know nothing HUGE happened in that time– it’s just a series of fun, funny, often dangerous hijinks– not will he get out of this, but how will he get out of this?

3. The Night Raven, by Johan Rundberg, trans. from the Swedish by A.A. Prime. To be perfectly honest, I’m still not quite sure what to think of this one. I wonder if some subtlety of the plot was lost in translation, because I'm still not entirely sure what happened and why; and the young main character’s relationship with the police detective gives me slight predator vibes even if that's not what’s intended. But Mika is a great protagonist, headstrong and sort of surprisingly snarky (the kind of person who will just say something ridiculous straight-faced and throw you off for a few seconds to a minute), and the kids and I are definitely looking forward to the next English translation (there are already four books in the series out in Sweden). And just as far as well-writtenness goes, it beats out all the other contenders for third place here. It's objectively good! I'm just a little confused by it still!

4. Deephaven, by Ethan M. Aldridge. Pulled this off the New shelf– it was part of the Junior Library Guild shipment, so I hadn’t read much if anything about it beforehand– and went WHOA, if this doesn’t have Maddie-would-like-this written all over it. Mysterious boarding school? Dark occulty secrets lurking? Nonbinary, slightly-autistic-coded protagonist has to solve the mystery before someone else gets hurt? The plot is a little simpler/more middle-grade than some of what we’ve been reading lately, but as we were approaching the last quarter of the book I said, “You know what? I have a feeling this is just the start of a series.” And while the immediate plot was firmly wrapped up, and there's nothing explicitly STATED about a series, there are still plenty of hints that there could be lots more mysteries in the future.    

5. The Sun and the Star, by Mark Oshiro and Rick Riordan. Sorry, Oshiro is no Riordan– it just didn’t have the same gripping narrative style as the rest of the Riordanverse. And I kind of take offense of their portrayal of Hypnos because I’ve already started writing a fic in which Hypnos is way more interesting (but still true to the original myth!). But there’s still lots of fun mythological details, and a particularly lovely scene between Will and Persephone that I really enjoyed.

Honorable Mention: Simon (sort of) Says, by Erin Bow. I started reading this on my own because I knew my kids wouldn’t be interested (they weren’t), and while I really enjoyed what I read, it’s a lot harder to make time to read just for me (hence, the one book on this particular list I DID read just for me was read in one sitting at work), and I never FINISHED it before I realized I needed to stop hogging it and just return it to the library already. I have a feeling it would be higher on this list if I had finished it, but since I didn’t, I’ll settle for the honorable mention. (Edit: it just won a Newbery Honor so I was glad I'd taken it back so I could put it on my winners' display!)


Older Longer Books

1. The Astonishing Chronicles of Oscar from Elsewhere, by Jaclyn Moriarty, 2022, whom I adore so very very much for her kindred ADHD brain. Oddly there is outright acknowledgement of ADHD in this one, even though every one of her characters seems to have some neurodivergent aspect or another. It’s just there’s one character from our world (the eponymous Oscar), instead of from The Kingdoms and Empires, so he gets a proper diagnosis.

2. Hello, Universe, by Erin Entrada Kelly, 2017. I was looking for long reads to "introduce" to the older Summer Reading Quest class by reading first chapters–I mean, I read the first chapters TO them to introduce them, AND I was reading first chapters myself beforehand just to find the books in the first place. This was the first one that jumped out and made me want to keep reading! It was a sweet story and an easy read with memorable characters. Not quite sure about the bully character's development, but otherwise.
    
3. The Lockwood & Co. series, by Jonathan Stroud, 2013-2017. My kids were really into horror in at least the first half of the year (carrying over from last year), and there was a show of this coming out– what’s funny is we completely forgot to watch the show after we finished. Took awhile to read, but we thoroughly enjoyed it. I had started to read it myself years ago but didn’t get past the first chapter– the voice just wasn’t holding my interest. This time I was hearing Lucy with entirely new ears or something– I got her this time around.

4. Ophie's Ghosts, by Justina Ireland, 2021. Pittsburgh history, Black history, ghosts and lore and mystery: a little something for everything we were in the mood for, and educational, too. This book managed to be both sad and fun.    

5. The Truly Devious series, by Maureen Johnson, 2018-2020. Speaking of Pittsburgh not-history, the main character of this series is from Pittsburgh and we totally didn’t know until we read it. But most of the story takes place at a remote mountain boarding school in Vermont, and there’s a modern-day mystery and a past mystery being told in alternate chapters. Maddie said the historical parts were the more interesting ones, but I think that’s because those stuck closer to the mystery itself, while the modern parts also dealt a lot of regular realistic (relatively) teenage social interaction– I found those bits fun, but then, I don’t have to BE a teenager any more, so I dig that my kids are more into escapism– so was I at their age!

Notable Rereads:

Yeah, somewhere along the way we crossed over from horror to mystery, and I decided it was time to introduce my kids to Agatha Christie. We read two:
1. And Then There Were None, by Agatha Christie– my personal favorite, and I thought it would be a good start since it’s got a major horror trope (everyone dying one by one!) at its center. And wow, it really hit me just how many common tropes come from this book right here. I ended up getting sucked into its many many citations on TV Tropes (one trope of which– Ten Little Murder Victims– even gets its name from this book. Technically). The kids' reactions were fun– I enjoyed Maddie’s early, “They’re ALL terrible people! They ALL DESERVE to die!” And they kept making predictions and I was bursting with knowing exactly how close and/or not they were.

2. Murder on the Orient Express, by Agatha Christie–on the other hand, I actually forgot how this one ended (I remembered in PART, but ONLY in part, so it was a fun reread for me just for that). This was the first straightforward detective-interviews-suspects-and-thinks-a-lot type mystery my kids ever read, very different from their usual thriller-type reads, and I was pleased how interested they stayed regardless. Maddie was extremely satisfied with the ending. Also, when we read Truly Devious, which were the two Christie novels directly referenced in the story? These two! I kept being all, “Ah-hah, you SEE? Aren’t you glad I read those books to you?!”

Onto something completely different, 3. Coraline, by Neil Gaiman. From back in the horror era– in fact this was the very first book on my reading log spreadsheet for the year.  This is a good read-aloud: I appreciated the classic feel of the book better than I ever had, reading it in this capacity.

Moving Pictures!
I watched VERY LITTLE this year. Of course I could be missing some on account of having not kept track, but I don’t think I watched a single movie (for the first time at least), and I started several shows that I forgot to finish (granted, two of them WEREN’T finished by the end of the year). But here are the few notable exceptions:

Two I watched in full!

Muppets Mayhem, Disney+: I think I’ve said before that the Electric Mayhem is genuinely one of my favorite bands– certainly my favorite FICTIONAL band at least. So much that a friend called me out on Facebook: “You ARE watching this, aren’t you?” It managed to be the one thing I binged when I was down with COVID in July (OH! That was another happening. Apparently COVID went around Maggie’s baby shower. Sam got it there and maybe Maddie– or Maddie got it from Sam at home– then Jason got it from those two, and I think I held out because I was the only one to have gotten a booster in the past year, but finally after a week of everyone else being sick they wore me down, too). Anyway, so, the Muppets Mayhem was, like most Muppet shows, kind of a mixed bag, but it quickly became so loveable you don’t care about the weaker parts anymore. The music of course rocked, and the jokes were on the whole funny, and the Get Back episode– because of course I’m going to mention the Get Back episode– was absolutely perfect.

Only Murders in the Building
, Hulu
: Maybe thanks to reading so many mysteries with the kids this year, I kept having the urge to watch this again. I hadn't gotten around to watching season two, and then when I heard season three was out, I said, well that SETTLES it! And I finally binged both those seasons while making Halloween costumes. The humorous murder mystery is one of my favorite genres, but I always forget until I’m in the middle of one again!

Three I watched in part!

Loki, Disney+: It’s funny, I saw season one before I saw the Umbrella Academy, and now I was kind of curious how the TVA would hold up against the Commission in my perceptions– but Loki definitely holds its own as far as pure time hijinks go. I love time hijinks! (See #1 on the Fanfics I Wrote list for MORE fun with time hijinks!) And I love the Legionesque aesthetic of the show! It’s so many of my favorite bits of television all at once! But I started my binge of Only Murders in the middle of the season, and that put my viewing routine off-schedule, and I never caught back up…

Fargo, Hulu: another one lost to a put-off viewing routine! I saw the first episode– and it turned out two episodes dropped on the first night! But I only noticed the first one! Before I could even catch up with the second, the third dropped during Thanksgiving Vacation when everyone was home and cutting into my viewing time! So… I still have to catch up. So far from one episode, Season 5 seems more promising than Season 3 was at least, but since every season is completely different, I won’t really know until I WATCH THE REST, now, will I.

Percy Jackson and the Olympians, Disney+: Now, I HAVE watched every episode of this so far, primarily because Maddie won’t LET us miss a single episode, but considering it only started at the end of December, most of it has been watched THIS year. Absolutely confusing the statistics, getting this out so late! But it’s very enjoyable. Maybe I’ll say more about it in the 2024 roundup.

Top Fanfics I read!
I’m still– but more sporadically– reading Umbrella Academy fic in alphabetical order by author, so again that’s where most of what I read and bookmarked this year comes from. I thought I’d read a lot more fandoms after Christmas (when the Yuletide gifts all went online), but it turned out a) I’m still confused from writing this in mid-January, and I read a lot of the Yuletide fics in 2024; and b) I went through and marked a whole lot of Yuletide fics “For Later,” but haven’t actually gotten around to reading them yet. So those will show up next/this year, I guess. Meanwhile, here’s five non-TUA fics I did read, and loved enough to bookmark to perhaps tell you about:

Top 5 Non-Umbrella Academy fics I actually read IN 2023:
1.No Reservations: Narnia” by Edonohana (Anthony Bourdain: No Reservations RPF, Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis, T, 6,228 words) – This is one of those “famous” fanfics that people-who-don’t-make-a-habit-of-fanfic-reading have read– Anthony Bourdain himself apparently read it even, and enjoyed it a lot. Someone linked to it on Tumblr and I finally joined the crowd as well– it’s great fun, imagining Bourdain and his crew exploring the cuisine and cultures of Narnia! The sensory details are exquisite. Pretty sure I smiled the whole way through.

2. Five Subfolders of Existence” by storiesfortravellers (The Good Place (TV), T, 1,536 words) –  storiesfortravellers was my Yuletide recipient, so in deciding what to write for her I clicked to see the sort of stuff she’d written. The answer was “a lot,” so I narrowed that down to just Good Place fics, because that was, spoiler alert for the “Stuff I Wrote” section below, what she’d requested (that I could write. It was the only thing on her request list that I’d seen!). This is told in lists, a look inside Janet’s…brain seems too small of a word, but it’s a human’s feeble attempt (or not so– seems a pretty good attempt to ME) to express all that goes through Janet’s figurative head during a simple fleeting moment with Jason. It’s a fun format that manages to express a lot of emotion in a very not-a-robot way! I left a note in my bookmark to come back to kudo and comment on it later so I wouldn’t give away that someone was snooping around her old Good Place fics before the Yuletide reveals, and luckily saw that note while putting this list together so I could actually do that!
    
3. You Can't Find the Woods (When You're Hiding in the Trees)” by panAcademic (Legion (TV), X-Men - All Media Types, M, 14,448 words so far) –New Legion fic? Is it possible? Yes! panAcademic was on a roll earlier in the year (and also incidentally inspired my own Greatest Fic of the Year see below), including this wildly layered trip through David’s system’s inner world– which, it turns out, takes place during the middle of season 2. The season that makes the least amount of sense anyway! But seriously, you’d be hard pressed to figure that out in the first few chapters, which all take place internally and are appropriately surreal. David’s got some interesting new alters with some unique roles. And I hope they keep going because supposedly when we get out in the real world we’re going to see the other characters we know and love too (ie Loudermilks). So far there’s just Lenny, but Lenny is written so very Lennyishly.

4. “1/3 Of What You're Saying” by pale_and_tragic (Only Murders in the Building (TV), T, 4,810 words) –I’d only just started my Only Murders binge when Yuletide requests went out, and I noticed a few Mabel/Theo shipping requests, and I said, “Oh, that’s an interesting ship, I can see that I guess,” but by the time I was halfway through the binge I’d decided “Oh I totally get what they’re saying now, I am fully on-board Team Theo,” and I was almost tempted to comment on all those requests congratulating them on their good taste. Anyway, this Yuletide fic is not only a lovely slow-burn Mabel/Theo friends-to-lovers, it’s also got an actual murder mystery to solve, and dream imagery, so an excellent time and my favorite of the Yuletide fics I actually READ in 2023!
    
5. miscommunications” by carterhaugh (All the Wrong Questions - Lemony Snicket, G, 1,314 words) –  This was the Yuletide fic written specifically for ME! It’s an utterly Snickety conversation between young Lemony and Moxie from within the course of the story, all about the nature of Truth. Which is itself an extremely Snickety topic.

Top Five Returning Favorites from ANY Fandom (the ones I’ve got on Subscribe so I catch each new chapter as it comes out) that I Feel Like I Must Also Mention:

1. When My Fist Clenches, Crack It Open” by versaphile (Legion (TV), Mature, 876,030 freakin’ words) – And that’s 229 chapters…out of 229! YES! They did it! The most epic Legion fic has come to an end at last, and if I MAY have cried a little just knowing I wouldn’t have a new chapter (particularly a new chapter involving Loudermilks that I don’t have to write myself) possibly waiting on the horizon to surprise me? Yeah, so?

2. Through Every Open Door” by Gin_Juice (The Umbrella Academy (TV), Not Rated, 165,004 words so far) – I am reasonably certain Gin_Juice is my favorite fic writer. Every update is just pure awesome from start to finish. I haven’t even read all of her really old stuff yet! This ongoing fic is an alternate season three where, instead of eating itself up, the multiverse has started throwing up anachronisms all over reality, and there’s only one screwed up family– or two– who can fix it.

3. Joining Together” by sharkneto (The Umbrella Academy (TV) , T, 185,149 words so far) – a physics professor takes a didn’t-get-lost-in-time Five under her wing and it’s absolutely the best thing that could happen to him. It’s a prequel to “Holding It Together” which I think made my list last year? Yes it did. Sarah and her husband Rob are seriously the most loveable OCs and deserve recognition for that.

4.Apollo and the Aftermath” by ceruleancats (The Trials of Apollo - Rick Riordan, Percy Jackson and the Olympians & Related Fandoms - All Media Types, T, 35,249 words so far) – Did this one make the list before? Well anyway it’s got an excellent Apollo voice narrating, and its latest developments involve Dionysis, being the god of madness, taking on the role of therapist for Apollo, which is something you didn’t know you needed to see until now, didn’t you.

5. Little Soldiers In A Row” by damagedpickle (The Umbrella Academy (TV), M, 65,141 words so far)  –the Subscription feature is the handiest part of reading on AO3. You must subscribe to anything unfinished, no matter how long it’s been, because you never know when suddenly something will update out of nowhere (yes, everyone who’s been waiting on “Tesseract” since December of ‘21, I’m talking to you). This one pulled that on me this year, and I hadn’t linked to it in the past, so have some now, if you’d like something really depressing and angsty but in a good way! This is an AU where there are no superpowers, but Reggie adopted everyone and treated them pretty much the same way he did in the universe where they DID have superpowers, as a psychological experiment, and it’s remarkable how removing the supernatural element just makes the whole thing seem that much worse. But, you know, in a well-written way.

Top Five Umbrella Academy Fics from the TUA Masked Author event, because I reread them more times than the rest in an attempt to guess the authors (which I didn’t. Well, none of THESE five, I don’t think: I actually was like the third-best guesser overall), which gives them an unfair advantage:
1. To Resurface an Acorn” by glimmerglue, (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 2,923 Words) -- So imagine that when Five takes everyone back to the ‘60s, they arrive as only voices in his head? On the plus side, they’re all together! On the downside, they’re all stuck together in one already-maddened guy’s head! There’s so much interesting potential posed in this fic! I respect the author's decision to leave it at this, but that doesn’t stop me passionately wishing for more.

2. Grace Through the Doorway in Time, and what she found there” by Undercamel_of_Pluto, (The Umbrella Academy (TV), Alice In Wonderland - Lewis Carroll, T, 9,398 words) -- First let’s enjoy that for the second year in a row someone has chosen one of my favorite books as the framework for their TUA Masked Author piece. Then, after the author reveals, let’s appreciate that Pluto is a well-known fan ART maker, and had actually never WRITTEN (or at least posted) a fic before. But mostly, let’s appreciate this fic itself, which has ‘60s human Grace fall into a metaphorical rabbit hole that turns out to be just a totally realistic (for them) day at the Umbrella Academy, but certainly SEEMS all topsy turvy through the looking glass from her point of view! It's such a fun twist!
 
3. “Deep Down” by KawaiiCommunism, (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 1,035 words) – Poor Allison often gets turned into either “the mom” or “the villain” depending when a fic was written, so I found this a refreshingly balanced and believeable look inside her psyche a couple of years before the show takes place.

4. Of Monsters and Men” by MyDarlingClementine, (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 1,516 words) -- An excellent exploration of character development– I know a lot of people want Five to be the uncontrollable killer he is in the comics, but I think the guy who will listen to his (still messed-up) scruples is a lot more interesting.

5. Scales and Scars” by rebel_by_default, (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 5,708 words) – Look, this fun-yet-deep “conversation between two emotionally stunted former assassins” was on my shortlist of POSSIBLY being rebel, whose work I’ve read a great deal of, (shout out to “Life is Just This (It's Living),” which ALMOST made the below list on account of being perfect platonic 5+7 content),  I just didn't make that my final guess. I had a lot of little triangles of possible authors for possible fics and I just picked the wrong ones, you know?  

Top 10 OTHER Umbrella Academy Fics, I think, not counting ones that have continued from last year, and not counting fics with over 1,000 kudos because in effort to narrow down my options I figured they didn’t need my advertising:

1. Certain Ends” by frimfram (The Umbrella Academy (TV), M, 20,144 words) --full disclosure, I beta’d this one, which is why I’m ranking it first: I’m not going to bother trying to be objective about it. This is a delightfully evocative Christmas Carol-full ghost story, and it didn’t get enough hits, being that it’s a Christmas story that finished updating in February. If I had gotten this roundup written AT Christmastime…! But seriously, read this one whatever time of year. The sensory details are scrumptious and spooky. And there are Muppet references.

2. The Art of Memory” by redaurorarora (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 22,210 words) --I looked back at my bookmarks and said, “I REALLY should have sorted these better,” because I couldn’t tell which ones were REALLY GOOD vs. ones I just enjoyed a lot, to pick out which would make the list, but this bookmark was just straight up gushing so here it is. It’s a post-Season 3 reboot where Five is now apparently Reggie’s only son, and how much does he remember? The characterization is spot on, the word choices elevate everything even more. There were so many really good lines. Top of the pops.

3. The Time Traveller's Life” by LittleRit (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 169,165 words so far. It totally just updated while I was writing this) --first longfic I tackled this year—last year—was LittleRit’s still-in-progress epic supposing what would happen if Five kept randomly and uncontrollably popping back and forth through time—how would that affect canon? How would that affect his apocalypse experience and relationship with the Commission? There are a LOT of timeline shenanigans to keep track of in this, and Rit keeps dropping in all sorts of details that suddenly mean something many chapters down the road, so, hooray for keeping that all straight!

4. Where You Gonna Run To?” by ToriAnne (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 52,264 words so far) --It’s a what-if-they-hadn’t-been-adopted fic, but events are transpiring to bring them together anyway; and their stories for what happened with them instead all just make so much sense. I had not bookmarked this one, but as I was attempting to make this list I kept thinking “But what about that one where…?” and the clearer it was that none of the bookmarked fics fit the bill, the more I had to just dig back in my history until I found this. It sticks out that way.  
 
5. why'd you look so tough?” by myeyesarenotblue (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 2,286 words) --now, I can’t speak for the writer, whom I don’t know at all, but this fic was written in between when pictures from Season 3 were being released/Viktor’s transition was announced, and when Season 3 actually came out, so I imagine they just saw those pics of freshly-transitioned Viktor and said, “Hey, it looks like he’s raided Ben’s wardrobe”—and from that tiny observation they wove this beautiful little scene of grief and self-discovery twisting together, wrapping up so many layers and tiny canon threads together in Ben’s old leather jacket I mean a story.

6. Two Steps Forward, One Step Back” by RaspberrySwish (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 11,297 words) – Is it kind of obvious yet that I’m a big fan of absurd humor? I had forgotten this one, and ignored my bookmark, confusing it with an earlier fic I’d read, so I’m glad I clicked through to read it again just to be sure. This one supposes a hypothetical point when the Hargreeves are facing something like their seventh apocalypse and, after a stupidly entertaining scene of them making bets on what’s going to cause the next one, they decide to go back in time to when they were teenagers, murder their dad, and kidnap I mean adopt themselves. It’s ridiculous. I love it.

7. My Brother's Brother” by spyspyspyder (The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 1,765 words) -- yes, to my own bewilderment I’m still obsessed with the relationship between Five and Viktor—no that’s wrong. I’m bewildered by my brain’s need for them to be kissing. Their relationship IS fascinating enough platonically, and I wish I could gush about it more objectively because for some reason a lot of people just stop listening to you the moment you start shipping adoptive brothers. So I appreciate this fic so much for doing what I cannot: showing bits of that fascinating relationship through glimpses caught by other people over time, keeping it strong and inevitable and ironic but also still platonic.  I brought this up in the comments, and the author replied, “I definitely see them as two planets set to orbit each other in any universe, in whatever relationship context,” and that is so perfect and correct.

8. (Feels Like) Heaven” by Melivian (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 34,795 words so far) --More The Good Place sneaking in to these lists, as this is a Good Place AU, and nicely done, too. The humor is spot on and appropriately quirky, and the casting fits in ways I never would have thought of. I don’t care about Klaus and Dave as a ship really—I feel like Dave was mostly in the show just to inspire Klaus to sober up—but it works perfectly and rather beautifully here as they become the Eleanor and Chidi of this neighborhood.

9. He Sleeps with the Fishes: The Hoffa Job” by Stephsageek (The Umbrella Academy (TV), M, 29,048 words so far) –I almost forgot this one actually started this year, not last, as it’s a continuation of the series Steph started last year about Five and Lila being Commission partners pre-show era. There are so many moving pieces in this absurd encounter (multi-chapter, but it’s all happening in one scene, basically!), including a cameo by Carrie Fisher; and she keeps hinting there’s a sea monster, too, but the sea monster hasn’t shown up yet.

10. “Learning Fear” by Repeatinglitanies (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 30,638 words) --now this is unabashedly a Fiktor fik (or Fiveya, it’s from 2019), but almost—almost!—incidentally: there are cults and vigilantes and completely chaotic convergences of secret organizations! I did not expect a “Five-and-Vanya-raised-separately-meet-as-teenagers-and-bond-while-trick-or-treating” to develop into the wild ride this one turned into. It makes the list on uniqueness alone. Again with the absurdity. I have a (story) type.

Stuff I wrote!  


Stuff I Wrote, Here on Dreamwidth Edition:
Only my “Dear Yuletide Writer” Letter, designed to give whoever was assigned to me for Yuletide an idea of what I’d like. The way Yuletide works is, starting in September or October, they collect nominations of “Rare” fandoms, then put out the list, and you have to choose between 3 to 5 fandoms that you’d like someone to write for YOU, and then you ALSO choose between 5-10 that you would be willing to write for OTHER people. But you only write a letter about your requests, since what you WRITE will be a surprise. Anyway, I nominated, requested AND offered Legion, just because the idea of someone ELSE writing Loudermilk fic for me to read was so lovely; but then I saw someone had nominated Sal and Gabi??!?!?!?!?! I wish I knew who, because in the end nobody else requested or even offered that one, and there ISN’T any fic already written, and I CAN’T write it myself because I am not fluent enough (at all) in Cuban-American Spanglish to do Sal’s voice justice! SIGH, I want more Sal and Gabi in my life. I did finally match on my THIRD choice, though, as you saw above, and incidentally was assigned something I only offered, not requested, because I figured enough other people would request it because it apparently only still qualified because half its fics on AO3 were less than 1000 words, but SEE BELOW…

Stuff I Wrote, GeekMom Edition: Um, I occasionally participated in the threads in the GeekMom Talk Facebook Group. Do you think if I ever get the motivation to write something GeekMommish again, they’ll take me back?

Stuff I Wrote, Fanfic Edition:

1. The Magic Man of Oz” (Legion (TV), T, 15,004 words, but only 9,000 of those words are story, the rest are bonus features, so you can skip those if you want) – This is my masterpiece of the year, and it breaks my heart there aren’t more people who can appreciate it! Someone on the Legion fan Discord server posed the idea of a Wizard of Oz AU, and we all started casting the characters, and as soon as someone suggested that Oliver should be the narrator I HAD TO WRITE IT. I worked really hard! Legion meshed beautifully into the Wizard of Oz! Oliver as narrator made it cracky and 4th-wall-breaking! The union of Flying Monkeys and Time Eaters made for the most tripped-out wild fight scene I have ever attempted to write! Please, please, send this to everyone you know who has watched all three seasons of Legion for best effect but you know what my beta reader hasn’t watched ANY Legion and still enjoyed it so MAYBE YOU WILL TOO! (I even wrote an Answer Key to explain all the references, if it helps!)

2. In Which Jason and Chidi Rob a Bank” (The Good Place (TV), G, 2,785 words) – Now, if you want something a little more mainstream... I say jokingly, as yes THIS was my Yuletide assignment. YEAH I KNOW, rare? But I’m not going to argue, as I’ve always wanted to write the novelization of this show, and when I got into the writing I was honestly surprised I HADN’T ACTUALLY written any of these characters (except Vicky oddly enough) before, because it felt so natural! The recipient wanted something about Jason and Chidi, so I asked the kids what Jason and Chidi should DO together, and Maddie said “They rob a bank” and that WORKS. I LOVE this absurd show! Anyway, to my absolute delight, not only the recipient but also LOADS OF OTHER PEOPLE loved it, leaving comments to the effect of “This is like watching an episode of the show!” which has to be one of the highest compliments a fanfic writer can receive. And in just the short time since Christmas, it has already become my second-highest kudoed fic ever! But don’t let that keep you from reading it, too! It is, if I do say so myself (because lots of other people said so!) quite funny.

3. A Captain With Seven Children...What's So Fearsome About That?” (The Sound of Music - Rodgers/Hammerstein/Lindsay & Crouse, The Umbrella Academy (TV), G, 14,754 total so far but that’s 3,354 words posted this year)   – Before “The Magic Man of Oz,” this was my I-worked-really-hard-please-appreciate-this Masterpiece of the year– not the first three chapters, which you might have read last year (and WERE pretty good, dangit, so if you haven’t read them you can do that now, this is one you actually DON’T need prior canon knowledge to appreciate), but the FOURTH chapter, finished and posted THIS year: “High on a Roof Stood a Lonely Seven,” which is the Big Turning Point in the Story, in which Maria’s meddling pays off and the Big Secret about Viktor-then-Vanya blasts its way out into the open! I mentioned the unusual fight scene in “Magic Man,” but THIS was the work for which I first had to teach myself how to write fight scenes in the first place! Still a highly unusual fight scene (if not as unusual as the one in “Magic Man”)-- I don’t think I COULD write a NOT-unusual fight scene. Why bother if you’re not going to go all out?

4. How to Catch Up with your Therapist after a Couple of...Busy Months” (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 9,322 words) And before I participated in Yuletide, I joined a totally different fanfic event, The Umbrella Academy Masked Author event (where people had to guess the originally anonymous authors)! And because I didn’t have time to get to a completely NEW fic to submit, I ended up submitting something I had already vaguely alluded to writing on the TUA fan Discord server, convinced my General Invisibility would keep anyone else from remembering (though one person, who wasn’t actually participating, DID therefore guess by title alone!). There’s a line in the next fic on this list implying that Viktor convinced Five to start seeing his old therapist, and when I wrote it I went “Wait, that implies VIKTOR is HIMSELF seeing his old therapist again. Bet THAT was an interesting catch-up session.” So I wrote it out, a basic dialogue between the two, Viktor describing the whole first three seasons of the show from his own viewpoint, and the therapist getting more and more shell-shocked. By the end I figure it may be just as difficult to convince the therapist to take Five on as a patient as it would be to convince Five to see her, and that’s saying something.

5. Morning-After Meltdowns” (The Umbrella Academy (TV), M, 3,930 words) – So right, I’ve grown no less obsessed with this non-canonical pairing between adoptive siblings, and the joy of working with two highly-emotionally-repressed characters is figuring out how to get them to actually admit anything to each other. Last year I wrote a flashback-induced mind-meld; this year I took the more realistic path of drunk sex (which also theoretically takes place the night of the flashback-induced mind-meld). As usual, I do not write onscreen smut, so sorry– it’s basically trying to piece together in the morning what happened to get them into this place the night before. It’s much better than the title. And I hated the title I first posted it with even more.

6. “Anonymous: Renegade Teenage Hormones” (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T though the second chapter should probably be M, 5,688 words) – Okay, this one is STILL on AO3 anonymously because I don’t necessarily want someone seeing it on my dashboard without warning. This is me giving you warning!* It’s still not smut, but when you obsessively ship messed-up-adoptive-siblings sometimes you do have to read smut in order to get your fill, and this story was inspired by– in fact is a direct sequel to– someone else’s story that was apparently written to fill a Kink Meme. But that story was (I know this may be shocking to some people) technically a scene from a theoretical YA novel! It was the sort of awkward thing that would HAPPEN to a couple of horny teenagers (when the story took place) in a YA story, and I couldn’t help pondering the awkward teenaged angst that would surely transpire the next day. And so I wrote it! I just didn’t want a link to a Kink Meme right on my AO3 front page so you'll have to get it this way!  
 
7. Not Just Stupid Kids” (The Umbrella Academy (TV), T, 5,388 words total but just 1,025 posted this year) -- And last year’s FIRST venture into Fiktor-writing bumped back up my recently-posted list this year, again because I was reading someone else’s fic and got, not what happened next, but what happened before in my head, so right in the comments I started writing this little scene of Klaus taking advantage of that nice long Pennsylvania Roadtrip to needle Five over/fish for clues about his feelings toward Viktor’s announcement, but then I decided it fit nicely into THIS fic, too, as a BONUS SCENE taking place soon after the first chapter! I was surprised that this was the most of adult Klaus I’d ever written, too. Some characters just have voices that flow.

8. The Pipeweed Mafia Epic” (The Lord of the Rings RPF, The Hobbit RPF, Inklings RPF, TOLKIEN J. R. R. - Works & Related Fandoms, Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis, T, 8,986 words) – YES, THIS IS IT, the Infamous Pipeweed Mafia Epic! I got bored, and since I figured out how Real Person Fic worked on AO3 (and considered there were FAR worse things done with the real people in AO3’s RPF collection than just drug dealing and putting Andy Serkis in a coma), I figured I would finally put it up for the world. With a few additional lines added, too! Not remotely COMPLETE or anything. It probably never will be. But this was the silliness I started writing to prompts on the day Diana Wynne Jones died, convincing me that I COULD write again, if I just allowed myself to stop taking everything so seriously! It’s incomplete nonsense, but it’s MY incomplete nonsense! And there’s an Aslan in a Bucket!

*By the way, you do realize this post is full of a WIDE VARIETY of appropriate-for-audience ratings, right? Please mind the ratings! Just because I reviewed Mr. Kitty is LOST! does not mean EVERYTHING on these lists is appropriate for fans of Mr. Kitty is LOST!

Works in Progress

As I did last year, I filled out an “AO3 Writer Wrapped” on Tumblr that went into statistics and favorites and things about the years’ works in a little more detail. I answered a question about Works in Progress there that was pretty much the SAME works in progress I had LAST year, but I’d like to add at least one more here:

I spotted a Yuletide request that made all the neurons in my brain light up at the same time, and said, “Oh I HAVE to write that one: if I don’t get assigned to, I’m writing it up as a Bonus Treat!” I didn’t finish it in time to post with the rest of the Yuletide gifts (I barely finished my ASSIGNED fic in time), and then I had those Computer Issues, but this is really cool and I’m pretty much called to write it– it’s based on a picture book, relatively well-known in kidlit circles but not so much in the Outside World, and is exactly the sort of twisted brain challenge I am so excited by after writing “The Magic Man of Oz.” I will say no more than that since it’s still technically a gift, but I am really excited about it, and I’m sure you’ll see it soon! Well, relatively soon. For me.


So, as usual, that’s the round up! I know it’s long, but please comment and chat with me about anything here that caught your attention!

rockinlibrarian: (rebecca)
I've been seeing references to the Yuletide Fic Exchange for many years longer than I've even been interested in fanfic, but I didn't really understand what was up with it until I saw a Tumblr post outright defining it the other month. Wait, it's a fic exchange focused on "rare and obscure fandoms"? Like 278-works-posted-on-AO3 rare? Only 57 of which even feature my favorite character(s)? And I've written 19 of those? I can request a Loudermilk story to read that I don't have to write MYSELF first?!

So first of all, of course that's what I'm requesting first, a Legion fic starring the Loudermilk Twins, since that was my nomination (and being that my four nominated characters are the only characters on the Tag List, and none of those are supposedly-main-character David, I'm guessing I'm the only one TO have nominated Legion!) I'm going to guess also that the chances of someone matching me to WRITE such a fic are also going to be slim. But don't be discouraged! Look, I've already even written a guide to writing the Loudermilk Twins to help you! (This was actually written just so I could blabber on the subject, not specifically to help you-- I don't want you to get the impression I'm obsessively controlling about what you write or anything!)

I would love to have a story exploring Cary and Kerry's life pre-show, especially their pre-show life at Summerland, which I haven't written ALL that much about myself yet. I didn't CLICK Oliver and Melanie's names because they're optional, but I definitely WOULD like to see their friendships/partnerships with them in there, too. As I said on the form, "Stories about the early years or development of Summerland, psychic shenanigans with Oliver, what their day to day lives are like or special occasions at Summerland..." there's like 40-some years you can work with there (minus 21 if you include Oliver)! I said "DNW: romanced-focused storylines," but emphasis on the "focused": Oliver and Melanie being Together in the background is certainly accepted. In fact, I always thought that their wedding, with Cary and Kerry in the "Best"s roles, would be a fun setting to explore!

Note on DNWs: "Smut" is the one across the board, so I've included it as my DNW even for stories that are not likely to tempt smut writing in the first place. I've also included "angst/hurt-no-comfort" as a DNW on the Legion one, since Legion storylines do have a lot of potential to be sad, but in this case, I want happy!

But, like I said, I know it's unlikely that anyone else has picked that to write about.

Luckily, I spotted Sal and Gabi Break the Universe in the Tag Set. Mijos, I freaked. My favorite middle-grade novel of the past decade! One I had even somewhat randomly shouted out to in the "Guide to Writing the Loudermilk Twins" I already linked to above! It hadn't even occurred to me that someone might have written Sal and Gabi fic! That I could get a taste of Sal's deliciously enthusiastic storytelling and absurd multiverse-jumping plotlines somewhere else now that I even took the trouble to track down Carlos Hernandez's book of grownup short stories through interlibrary loan just because I heard grown-up Sal was in one (GABI, as it turns out, is in SEVERAL, though she's spelling her name "Gabby" in the future, apparently. Or, in that universe. You know how it goes)!

So if you can give me some Sal and Gabi crack (I mean, though, what's "crack" in other fandoms is basically canonical for Sal and Gabi), I will squeal just as loudly as I would have to read a Loudermilk-fic-I-didn't-write-myself!

I do have a "romance" DNW on them as well. I mean, Sal IS canonically ace and as a fellow aspec I respect that.

Going through the Tag Set alphabetically, though, the first one I hit that set off the "YES GIMME!" vibes was All the Wrong Questions, which I need to read again because I enjoyed it, *gasp*, even more than Series of Unfortunate Events, and I feel like it could spawn such awesome side fic if I'd read it enough to write it myself. Now I ASSUME you are not Non-Plutonian-Druid offering to write a prose exploration of your brilliant AtWQ/Umbrella Academy mash-up, so barring that, I'll take whatever absurd eldritch noir you can give me! (If you ARE in fact Pluto hoping for an excuse to do this very thing? I am not going to stop you). No DNWs here beyond the blanket "no smut"-- I'm open to romance and angst and whatever, because this is noir, pile it on! With the humorous touch, of course.

Speaking of humorous noir, I debated whether or not to add anything else to my requests lists, because I didn't want to distract from my chances at the ones I REALLY WANT that other people aren't likely to ask for, and though I had a list of about 15 I went "I want to read that!" over, most of them I thought I'd be happy just reading someone else's gift-- it wasn't MINE, you know? The one I was most on the fence about though was Fargo the TV Show. I mean, Fargo was how I discovered Legion, after all! In the end I left it off my requests, but I'll drop it here as a backup or if someone wants to write a bonus something or something. I'd love a Mr. Wrench and Mr. Numbers off on a job having their side conversations in sign; or Rabbi and Mike/Satchel Milligan having some happier foster-father/son bonding time than they really got a chance to in canon.

So, a general overview? Hi, I'm a children's librarian who likes absurd gen fic, how are you?
 

EDIT: Having read some other letters, should I make it more explicit that I love the idea of treats? YES, PLEASE! If that wasn't obvious by my adding a bonus request in the first place. And other people had a lot more specific DNWs but I think most of them would fall under "NO SMUT" for me so I think that's fine. And yes, I do love crossovers and AUs and crack, as long as you're true to the root of who the characters ARE.
rockinlibrarian: (christmas)
Life

This year exhausted me. But I have been diligently keeping track of experiences all year so as to give you this recap now, nonetheless! Someone asked last year if I work on this all year or do it all at once at the end of the year, and this year is exactly an example of why I keep notes all year long (it’s not full out WRITTEN so much until the end of the year, but it’s relatively outlined). If I hadn’t, there’d be no way I’d REMEMBER what I’ve read or watched or done this year, because my brain is fried. So, read on for us both to be reminded! Also, leave me comments! Discuss this with me! So it doesn’t feel like a waste!

 

Life Events NOT in Chronological Order this year because some are actually bigger than others

1. My dad died on November 6. I don’t know how much I’ve said about my dad’s health online in the past few years—he was diagnosed with Parkinson’s about…four years ago? And that developed a side of dementia, which worsened quickly. The worst part of the past three years of pandemic was that it kept interfering with my ability to visit my dad, who I was losing. Anyway, both Parkinson’s and dementia are the sorts of diseases that don’t outright kill you, but kill you anyway? As was the case with my dad. He couldn’t walk safely anymore, he was supposed to stay in his chair, but he couldn’t remember that. He fell and hit his head, and didn’t wake up. They put him in hospice care at the hospital and we hung out there. On November 5th it occurred to me that this man who’d passed his love of music down to me so thoroughly NEEDED to have music, so I went through all the music on my computer and put together a playlist of all the stuff I knew he particularly liked, and we listened to it all that day in the hospital and honestly, it was SO GOOD for all of us. We’d keep telling stories about the different songs that would come on and how they’d remind us of him. It was a good way to spend our last day together. I kept playing that playlist the next few days, too.

 

2. On the opposite end of the gaining-and-losing-family-members spectrum, in April we took the kids to the Humane Society for their birthdays to adopt a cat. They picked this absolute monkey of a kitten named Hoagie (his litter were all named after deli orders)— we thought of renaming him— I was all for Monkey Joe but nobody else liked that— but Hoagie ended up sticking. I’m pretty sure he believes he’s actually a mountain lion. He climbs, he stalks, he attacks. Tuxedo cat sitting behind a bunch of stuff on a countertop by a windowBut while we were there, I fell in love with this shy but polite old gentleman named Sir Ralphie, who’d had a bit of a rough time. And while we were waiting for Hoagie to get big enough to bring home, I read stuff on cats and watched Sir Ralphie and said, “You know, the cat books say kittens adjust better with older cats to look up to. Also cats are better about being left alone when everyone goes to work or school if there’s more than one to keep them company.” So my point is, eventually I convinced Jason that we should also adopt Sir Ralphie, too. The poor traumatized kitty hid for the first couple of days, but eventually realized we were nice, and now he sleeps beside me and is definitely MY kitty, thanks. Brown and white tabby staring soulfully at the camera

 

3. Part of my rationale for letting the kids adopt a kitty was the idea of it acting as a sort of therapy animal for Maddie, who was having a REALLY rough time with Middle School. Because they were just MISSING so much school, I figured that until meds and therapy took hold, it would be better to pull Maddie out and enroll in cyberschool instead. Maddie was in no state to employ the self-discipline required for cyberschool, so I basically had to sit there and walk them through it. But it worked, and was kind of fun at times, but really took up way too much of my time and energy. Luckily, by the fall, Maddie was ready to go back to public school, and has been doing pretty well all things considered.

 

4. Sam, meanwhile, has been involved in SO MUCH STUFF. He started Vo-Tech at school (cars, obvs), but also kept up with light-and-sound crew, helped start an e-sports team, and JOINED MARCHING BAND. But Amy, you say, didn’t both your kids disappointingly quit playing instruments after elementary school? Why yes they did! But one of Sam’s best friends is co-captain of the colorguard, and convinced him to go out for flags! He’s the only boy on flags but that doesn’t seem to bother him. It has been fun for me to go cheer on the band— it’s the only time I’ve ever felt nostalgic for high school!

 

Christmas

 Like I said, I’ve been beat and time-crunched, so made the executive decision not to make home-sewn gifts this year. I also decided I didn’t have the time and energy to decorate to the extent I do usually. Besides, we weren’t sure how the cats would react to the decorations. As it turned out, the cats were surprisingly indifferent to the decorations, with the exception of Hoagie and jingle bells, so we’ll probably go back to full decor next year assuming my energy returns. Anyway, it was a good call, because I’m the most Christmasy person in the household anyway, so we were all content.

 We had Christmas Eve at my sister’s house, because Mom certainly couldn’t be expected to have us over. The big Christmas Eve House Party had always been my DAD’S thing, you know. It was good for us to do something entirely different, because Christmas Eve WILL never be the same again, and it’d only hurt to pretend otherwise. There were some must-haves— an early dinner of meatball minestrone, punch and mini hot dogs and chocolate covered oreos later— and that was good. My cousin Monica— who would have attended the Christmas Eve House Party if it had existed— had dropped off surprise presents for everyone earlier, Lego sets across the board. How fun is it to get a Lego set? She got me this amazing succulents set. My siblings, independently of each other, got me various seasons of The Good Place on DVD, all except Season Three which was out of stock, which I had put on my wishlist because we got rid of Netflix, seeing it was simultaneously the most expensive and yet the least used of our subscription services. Guess I can get rid of it if I get a hard copy of my favorite show on it, first!

 I had wrapped up a tube and a box with catnip and treats and lots of curly ribbon to theoretically keep the cats occupied with their own “presents” so they’d leave ours alone, and this worked (when they finally broke through to the catnip they were pretty amusing about it, too). Both the cats and kids actually let us sleep until 7:40-something, which Maddie informed us was officially sunrise according to the Weather Channel. Everyone was amused and pleased and content with their gifts, though I mostly got towels. Honestly, though, I know not to expect much from my immediate family! Because my sister-in-law’s family couldn’t make it out until later in the week, we had the rest of the day to just chill, which was good because I’d developed an awful sore throat. Nonetheless I spent a good portion of the day making dinner, because I wanted a festive dinner, and we didn’t know we weren’t going to my inlaws until after I was NOT going to the store anymore before the holiday, so I was proud of myself for the deer roast—the recipe of which I even switched at the last minute when my defrosted roast turned out to be bone-in and I’d first picked a recipe that had to be boneless— and green beans amandine and homemade rolls and chocolate pudding pie. Yeah, it was good.

We finally met up with J's family this past Friday night, where Max, the youngest nephew who exudes ALL the ADHD and adores Maddie, had developed the hobby of taping everything to everything. This was the highlight of the evening, although maybe we shouldn't have been encouraging it.  I of course always get books for the nephews, and was gratified when the oldest immediately sat in the middle of the chaos to read them. I myself got some nice shirts and this great Shaun Tan book.

 As has become our habit, we spent New Year's Eve eating way too much party food and forcing the children to watch movies they'd never seen before. This year it was Austin Powers (which Sam was a little embarrassed by and Maddie simply proclaimed "dumb"), Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory (which went over better, and Maddie recognized "World of Pure Imagination" immediately as something I randomly sing a lot), and Arsenic and Old Lace (which the kids enjoyed more than Jason because he apparently can't handle black and white?) Well anyhoo. That ended at exactly 11:57 PM, so Sam put on Animal Crossing for the countdown.


Library

Stuff that Happened With the Library In Not Exactly Chronological Order:

 Library stuff. Hmmm. Library stuff mostly made me sad this year. We lost SO many staff members— not to death, to other jobs— and everyone new we attempted to hire quit within a week. EVERYONE new. This happened MULTIPLE TIMES this year. And no wonder, because we’re all overworked because we can’t keep staff. Because we’re underpaid, but that’s nothing new. And to be honest, I’m NOT overWORKED as much as I’m forced to spend almost all my time doing the not-fun things I did not sign onto librarianship for. I’m actually more BORED than overWORKED. Because I have to keep my cheerful public servant face pasted on for more hours a day than I used to, and because we no longer have a children’s desk (which STILL sucks), the majority of my interactions are now helping people with computers, unlocking the dang bathroom (WE SHOULD REALLY KEEP THEM UNLOCKED, WE ARE TOO UNDERSTAFFED FOR THIS), and enduring small talk (and not-so-small talk, not sure why so many people feel the need to tell you their entire life story when they return a book a day late, WE DON’T EVEN CHARGE OVERDUES ANYMORE) from grownups. OCCASIONALLY I get to help people with kids’ books and my life has meaning again. OCCASIONALLY I get to do programs. I deliver outreach books, but haven’t started outreach story times again, because we need people on-desk too much to pay me for time OFF desk, even though I outlined how I could schedule outreach to not interfere with library opening hours anyway. I really miss outreach storytimes. They gave me life. Anyway, the fact is I am unhappy because I no longer love my job, but I don’t know what to do about that.

 

Programs

As I hinted, not much in the way of programs. I continued to do the Bedtime Story videos through May, then we stopped that. I was supposed to do two days of storytimes in the fall, then we hired a new program specialist (because Barb left), and that got cut back to one, and when ONE of those weeks the director noticed I had only one person show (which was by far the slowest week all season) she even batted around the idea of cutting THAT one, too— I think she just doesn’t want me on storytimes? But I CANNOT spend THAT MUCH FREAKING TIME on circulation desk. YES I’m good at it, because I’m good at putting that friendly face on, but it’s TIRING. I AM NEURODIVERGENT FOR GOSH SAKES, IT’S MASKING AND IT’S EXHAUSTING AND ALSO IT’S BORING.

Anyway, though, so on Mondays I’m doing Yoga Storytime again, which is fun but a little redundant because I’m cycling through the same books over and over; and an all-ages storytime, which ends up being mostly babies when I prep for preschoolers. I miss the actually-all-ages Family Night evening storytime I used to do. 

The cool new program, though? A monthly Saturday Sensory Storytime. This has been a great success (and since numbers at sensory storytimes HAVE to be low, so as not to be overwhelming, nobody holds low numbers against me). The parents and kids have been very happy with it, and it really HELPS that I’m neurodivergent with two neurodivergent kids— I’m on the same page as my families, and they’ve thanked me for my understanding.

This is normally where I’d list my top favorite storytime topics of the year, but I’m tired and sad.

 I kept reading picture books in the hope of actually doing a variety of storytimes again, though, which brings us to:

Media Reviews!

BOOKS:

Top 10 2022 Picture Books

1. Field Trip to Volcano Island, written and illustrated by John Hare. As delightful as Field Trip to the Moon, slightly more delightful than Ocean Deep. The little twists weren't obvious and made me smile.                                                          

2. Berry Song, written and illustrated by Michaela Goade. Michaela Goade is officially one of my favorite illustrators now. Because Water Protectors and I Sang You Down… (see below) have very blue-heavy covers and I’m susceptible to blue, and this cover had no blue and was a close-up of people, I was like, "surely it's not as pretty as her others," and then I'd turn a page and gasp. No, this book is definitely as pretty as her others, and the words (her first words credit!) are musical and joyful.                                             

3. Blue: a history of the color as deep as the sea and as wide as the sky, by Nana Ekua Brew-Hammond, illustrated by Daniel Minter. Speaking of being susceptible to blue, of course I’m going to like a book dedicated to my favorite color. But it’s not just pretty pictures, it’s a very interesting history-- I feel like blue has earned its place as my favorite just for being interesting now!                                                              

4. Pina, written and illustrated by Elif Yemenici. Pretty stop motion models! I’m such a sucker for model/miniature illustration, but these are particularly good. And this is a really sweetly told story about a socially-anxious little cat who has to venture outside— it’s a story that respects introversion while showing it’s okay to step out of your comfort zone sometimes.

5-10. I can’t choose between or sort these ones, so here, have a bunch of new picture book recs:             

 

Top 5 2021 Picture Books In General Because I Did Not Have a Mock Caldecott to Cram For

*Sigh* I’m setting up a passive Mock Caldecott display for January, though, so next year you can have this category back!

 1. Moon Pops. Written and illustrated by Heena Baek. And as it happens my number one on this list wouldn’t have even been eligible for the (Mock) Caldecott, as it’s a Korean import. I read a couple of Heena Baek’s books this year, and her collage/model pictures are both ingenious and hilarious. I want to stare at them for a long time. This one was my favorite of them as it has the best story.                                                       

2. I sang you down from the stars, by Tasha Spillett-Sumner, illustrated by Michaela Goade. HAVE I MENTIONED HOW MUCH I LOVE MICHAELA GOADE? Her art is so swirly and ethereal. This book is a lullaby to a new baby with Indigeonous tradition woven in. And the beautiful young Native mother on the cover reminds me so much of Irma Loudermilk— OBSERVE:
Cover of 'I Sang You Down from the Stars' illustrated by Michaela Goade, a picture of a young native american woman cradling a baby in a quilt, hair full of starsScreenshot from the tv show Legion, 2016, of a young native american woman cradling a baby in a quilt
--that I am extra fond and I have decided it is fanart in my mind, if the baby was only a skinny blonde white-looking boy (See "Stuff I wrote, Fanfic Edition" #5, below, if this makes no sense to you).

3. We wait for the sun, by Dovey Johnson Roundtree and Katie McCabe, pictures by Raissa Figueroa. Lately there’s been a call for more stories of BIPOC joy, to counteract that so much BIPOC fiction focuses on pain and injustice. And I’m shamed into understanding that firsthand when I hear about a book that’s a true story about the author’s formerly-enslaved grandma and sneaking around and I immediately assume it’s a serious slice of oppression. But instead this is an absolutely joyful, lovely story about going berry-picking (which makes it the SECOND lovely joyful story about berry picking on this list), with gorgeous deep colors in the illustrations.

4. Bathe the Cat, by Alice B. McGinty, pictures by David Roberts. I was doing a bathtime storytime and pulled this out and was disappointed to discover that it wasn’t actually about bathing the cat so was not thematically appropriate, but it’s a very funny read aloud that I’m going to HAVE to find some other thematic excuse to use in a storytime. The cat, in order to AVOID a bath, has mixed up the family chore list to humorous results. In a subtle note of diversity, the family happens to have two dads.

5. Out of Nowhere, written and illustrated by Chris Naylor-Ballesteros. Sweet friendship story with a contrast between narration and pictures-- a beetle is looking for their friend the caterpillar, who, unbeknownst to the beetle, has metamorphosed. There’s nothing trite about the resolutions, either.                                                    

 

Top 5 Older than 2022 and 2021 Picture Books I First Read This Year

 1. We Are Little Feminists (series). Okay, this is an absolute (and pleasant!) surprise of a top choice. You would think books, especially board books, published by an independent grassroots organization with a Mission™ —to be as Inclusive™ as possible-- might skimp on actual writing, but these board books have not only lovely-and-very-diverse photo illustrations, but the texts are simple, effective, and flow really well. These are dang good little board books! I would not be adverse to reading them over and over.

2. Warbler Wave, by April Pulley Sayre. Sayre died recently and that's such a sad loss because she's such a treasure, making science so beautiful and poetic in these photo books. I love to pull them out for storytimes when I want to stick in some learning-about-nature. This one I almost used in a storytime about bird migration, but only just didn’t.    

3. How to Give Your Cat a Bath (In Five Easy Steps), by Nicola Winstanley, pictures by John Martz. THIS one WAS actually about giving the cat a bath (although failing), and it made for a delightful read aloud at that aforementioned bathtime storytime. It got some hearty laughs from both kids and grownups.

4. Circle, written and illustrated by Jeannie Baker. Also considered for the aforementioned bird migration storytime, but ultimately out of that day’s audience’s attention span, this feels slightly upside down to a North American, because it starts in the south (the book’s from Australia, it turns out), and goes— not just north, but the entire length of the globe. The pictures are a cool multimedia collage.  

5. Pepper & Boo: A Cat Surprise! written and illustrated by Charise Mericle Harper. To be honest, I have been more drawn to cat books in general since becoming a cat owner. I picked up and randomly read this easy reader a couple weeks after getting the cats, and decided, yep, accurate cat portrayal here.

 

Top 5 Longer than Picture Books of 2022

1. Akata Woman, by Nnedi Okorafor. The "woman" in the name worried me, and Okorafor herself when I asked on Twitter didn’t really clear it up— Sunny’s growing up, was this going to be “more mature” than the previous books? What I was really asking was, will I be embarrassed reading it to my children? Well, I DID decide after reading it that that it would definitely need to go in YA instead of Intermediate where the first two were, but the only embarrassing bits were swears that I could skip. Otherwise, it was the same creative storytelling as the rest of the series, if not even more creative. So much great imagery that still sticks with me, even though this was one of our earlier reads of the year!

2. Gallant, by V.E. Schwab. Old-fashioned gothic horror. We all enjoyed it, if you might not think so because somehow with just two chapters left we got distracted and didn't finish for months— it was atmospheric and Maddie left a series of illustrations on post-its in the library copy, and afterward asked for MORE like that. Didn’t quite hit the exact mood again this year, but I did find a genuinely scary middle grade horror series:   

3. Spirit Hunters: Something Wicked, by Ellen Oh. The third book in this series, but it’s the one that came out in ‘22 so it’s the one getting listed first. One thing about this series is that it does the horror genre trope of the characters making what the audience knows are bad decisions, and the kids kept yelling at the book. Maddie was very annoyed with the characters for not making connections as quickly as she does. I was worried maybe the kids disliked the books from these reactions, but then they very enthusiastically demanded the rest of the series and were disappointed that this last was just published so the next one won’t be out for awhile.

4. Aru Shah and the Nectar of Immortality, by Roshani Chokshi. Time to say goodbye to the first of the Rick Riordan Presents series, and we’d enjoyed it so much. This last book was a lot of fun, although it did leave a few loose ends.

5. Amari and the Great Game, by B.B. Alston. As fun as the first book, though not quite as good— it seemed like it was trying to tell two different books at the same time and not quite perfecting either. But I’m still looking forward to the next one!

 

Top 5 Longer than Picture Books Older Than 2022 I First Read In 2022 (most of these are from 2021. In fact we started the first one almost as soon as it went through processing, that just happened to be at the very beginning of 2022)

1. Tristan Strong Keeps Punching, by Kwame Mbalia. First of all, Gum Baby. She has got to be one of my favorite characters of the past few years. Second of all, reading this while people are attempting to ban "CRT" books was really poignant. Stories are important dangit!  

2. The Last Cuentista, by Donna Barba Higuera. Um, speaking of which, this one’s a bit devastating-- though it wouldn't have phased me as a kid! The symbolism of the stories, and Dreamers! I wasn’t sure it was quite Newbery quality across the board, but the mind library chapter was so absolutely stunning I decided it earned the Newbery on the strength of that chapter alone. (The other night I dreamed a story about parallel universes and was enjoying it so much I started, in the dream, writing my Newbery Acceptance speech about the joy of another science fiction book winning, anyway).  

3. The Troubled Girls of Dragomir Academy, by Anne Ursu. Maddie left post it illustrations of this one in the library book, too. Great voice, reads aloud well.  

4.Spirit Hunters and Spirit Hunters: Island of Monsters, by Ellen Oh. I pretty much said it all in the third book’s annotation above, but they’re genuinely creepy middle grade horror which the kids spent yelling at the characters to make better choices.

5. The Cursed Carnival and other Calamities, edited by Rick Riordan. This collection of Rick Riordan Presents-related short stories most notably reminded me exactly how much I flippin’ love Sal and Gabi*— their story opened the book and introduced the concept in general, seeing that they’re all about crossing over multiple universes. There were random crossovers scattered like easter eggs between many of the stories, not just that one, though I think Carlos Hernandez and Kwame Mbalia were teasing each other specifically with theirs (there was lots of unexpected GUM BABY which made us all laugh so hard). We didn't read all the stories since we didn't know some of the series— that pointed out the holes in the library collection for me! Riordan also includes a stand-alone about Finn MacCool which was also, um, cool. Cumaill?
*putting this list together has reminded me AGAIN to check Access PA and have my coworker who does ILLs ILL me Hernandez’s collection of grownup short stories, because that voice is worth dipping into grownup books for, and supposedly there’s a story about a grown-up Sal in it, too. I’ll tell you about that next year, supposedly.  

 Top 5 Rereading Experiences

Actually, I can’t think of any really memorable rereading experiences this year. We started A Christmas Carol again last week, but even that broke off when I got a sore throat.

 

Moving Visual Media:

I have no idea how to sort this. There are only two movies on the list, a couple of the “TV Shows” are really more mini-series, only two of the others count as “returning favorites,” plus a reboot— there were several of my previous favorite mini-series shows, particularly Only Murders in the Building and Breeders, that I didn’t even get around to watching this year to BE “returning favorites”— I don’t know if I should cut it down to five, I’m not even sure what order to put it in. So here, brief reviews of everything I watched, in the order that I watched it:

  •  Black Widow I loved the family aspect of this movie— how it was ABOUT family, I mean, and how what makes a family “real” is about more than just blood. A lot of refrigerator logic plot holes— one character was clearly supposed to die but the threads leading there just sort of stopped, instead, as if The Powers That Be said, “No wait, we might want to use them later.” But it was all so delightful I couldn’t mind.
  • Hawkeye I wanted to watch this before Christmas was over since it was set at Christmas. I got to it while sick on January 9, while our tree was still up and the Matviyas hadn’t yet had Christmas anyway, due to everyone being sick. It was a lot of fun, and I really liked the background Christmasness of it.
  • Umbrella AcademyActually having a deadline to watch all the Netflix-exclusive shows we’d always wanted to see but never gotten around to made us each go on our own binges in late May when we canceled it. This one I’d often seen compared to some of my other favorite shows (maybe because a friggin’ lot of the crew has worked with Noah Hawley), but honestly I had no idea what to actually expect from it going in, and I was delighted by it. There was just the right amount of quirkiness to elevate the suspense (and, just like Black Widow, is ALSO about forced non-blood “family” becoming FAMILY). I had to make a new burner/trial Netflix account just to watch the third season when it came out a month later (ALSO that random part 2 of Stranger Things, coincidentally, so I guess that was timed well). Most notably, it really lends itself to entertaining fanfic, and I swear that’s where the vast majority of my reading-for-fun has gone this year: Umbrella Academy Fanfic. See below. Actually, that’s probably also why I haven’t watched as much as usual this year. Because I was too busy reading Umbrella Academy fanfic in my downtime.
  • Stranger Things You know how the kids on Stranger Things tend to name the monsters after the D&D monsters they’re currently battling? We actually played the Vecna campaign a couple years ago— it was one of the first major campaigns we played with the kids— so we found it very amusing. This season itself was kind of scattered, as if the writers couldn’t decide what to focus on, but still fun. Also, having watched Black Widow earlier in the year, I was amused thinking that Hopper had actually spent his time in the gulag filming Black Widow. Also-also, Sam’s MARCHING BAND did a Stranger Things-themed show this year and it was good. The band arrangement of “Running Up That Hill” is actually loads better than the original.
  • Ghostbusters Afterlife— we checked this out of the library for a family movie night, and indeed one of the things I loved most about it was how kid-centric it was— the most truly family movie of the franchise. Though, I mean, OLDER kids. The kid actors were terrific. Podcast was totally channeling Dan Ackroyd and they weren’t even playing relatives. Also I cried at the end.
  • Ducktales 2017 reboot— Maddie fell in love and got Sam and I into it too. Since the original was my favorite TV show as a kid, I really appreciated all the callbacks scattered throughout like inside jokes. The reboot keeps the adventurous feel of the original while leaning into the silliness, and I enjoyed recognizing a lot of voices from other favorite shows of mine. It’s great sharing this with my kids now. Oh, I got Maddie so much Ducktales stuff for Christmas, too.
  • Andor: is it bad that my two biggest takeaways are a) the title sequence is REALLY COOL/WELL DONE, and b) Cassian Andor is an Extremely Handsome Man. He’s got this 1970 Paul McCartney look going. Also, J and I were discussing just how rich and familiar the Star Wars universe is and how we wish our kids were into it so we could play more of the RPG.
  • Mysterious Benedict Society: The second season was fun, though not quite as well-done as the first season (also strayed farther from the books). The kids are still perfect. I appreciated all the bits of Kate and Milligan trying to figure out Family— they’re like my OTPlatonicP— I needed more of that last season AND in the books. There’s a running theme of people trying to figure out Family in these Moving Visual Media reviews this year, isn’t there.
  • The Afterparty: Maddie developed this obsession with Ben Schwartz— in part because of the Ducktales reboot, actually— and through that discovered this GROWNUP miniseries and correctly determined that Sam and I would like it, too. Its concept is a bit better than the execution— a murder mystery, with each episode focusing on the testimony of a different witness, but each witness’s story takes on the trappings of a different film genre. I think they could have leaned into that concept a little harder. But it was still rather delightful.

 

The Top Fanfics I READ— makes more sense to take them out of the “stuff I wrote” category that I put them in last year.

As noted, I read a crapton of Umbrella Academy fic this year. So let me divide the Top read fics into “Not Umbrella” and “Umbrella” to be fairer to the other fandoms:

Top 5 Non-Umbrella Academy Fanfics I read

 1.  “Back in the (US)SSR” by Ginevra_Benci (The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Agent Carter (TV)) Be not fooled by “Avengers Movies” being listed as the first fandom here, even though every other chapter or so is from Natasha Romanov’s POV: this is straight-up like getting to watch Agent Carter again. The voice and banter fills a hole in my heart! I just feel like I’ve got a friend here: you clearly know My Show! Thank you for returning it in part to me! 

2.  “Advisory” by hhertzof (Kairos (O'Keefe) Series - Madeleine L'Engle, Young Wizards - Diane Duane)   I have often said that the Young Wizards series is one of the few true read-alikes to Wrinkle and the other Kairos books, and this fic takes that to the logical conclusion: Nita finds herself in New England, seeks out a local Advisory wizard for help, and guess what, it’s Meg! Obviously. Conversation reframes the Kairos books as Ordeals and it honestly makes so much sense. 

3.  “Death Rode Into Hell” by OldToadWoman (The Good Place (TV), Discworld - Terry Pratchett)    The tales of the multiple times Discworld’s DEATH met (or nearly met) Jason Mendoza before their final encounter at the safe. The senses of humor mesh perfectly. Jason IS a Pratchett character, if Pratchett had ever based anything in Disc-Florida. 

4.  “The Farm House” by Wholesome_Soup (Doctor Who (2005), Doctor Who, Time Quintet - Madeleine L‘Engle)    In which the Doctor strikes up a passing friendship with Charles Wallace. Fun fact, the only full season of Doctor Who I’ve ever watched was Eleven’s first, and it was because the first episode was pitched to me as “Wrinkle In Time-feeling.” This captures that energy, although not Eleven.  

5.  “Your Beguiling Personality” by half_a_glass (Howl Series - Diana Wynne Jones, Howl's Moving Castle - All Media Types)   You might recall that the majority of top-fics-I-read last year were DWJ-related, and as “The Invitation: an Epilogue” is STILL going strong as my most popular fic, I had many opportunities to click through and see what new has been posted, that captures the book characters and not the sad excuses for them from the movie (SORRY I’LL STOP). Here is just a snippet of Howl and Sophie being Howl-and-Sophie-ish at each other, which is reason enough to read it.

 

Top 10 and Some Bonus Umbrella Academy fics I Read This Year

 1. “Broken Clocks” by Gin_Juice (a two-part series of “Broken Clocks” and “Lost & Found”)  Probably I wouldn’t have gotten so completely sucked into Umbrella Academy fic if this hadn’t been one of the first ones I found. Gin Juice (who you’re safe reading anything by, these only make the list instead of any others because I read them first) writes stories that feel just like watching the show at its best: funny, twisty plots and absurd details, hitting the emotions in all the right ways, perfect.

 2. “Klaus's Moving Castle” by destinyandcoins and LittleRit. Hey, let’s combine last year’s fandom-I-read-the-most-from with this year’s! I cannot get over how well this works. Five is Sophie with the opposite problem, and Ben is Calcifer to Klaus’s SO perfect Howl that I found myself unable to even read my OWN Howl fics without picturing him looking exactly like Klaus now. I’d also like to point out that it’s clearly based on the BOOK not movie, and they’ve got the DWJ voice down. Funnily enough, both authors wrote concise, poignant, beautiful and completely-not-funny short pieces of Five in the Apocalypse (epistolary by destinyandcoins and Prose poetry by LittleRit) that both also made my notes of possible best fics of the year, as completely opposite in mood as they are from this!

 3. “Fighting (Pre)Determinism” by chibi_tantei. One of the best things about Umbrella Academy fic is how many writers really take the challenge of exploring time travel seriously, and this story is mindblowing time storytelling, with a great take on Delores that stands out (I kept looking back at my read history thinking “Which was the one with the Delores…?”).

 4. “Lonely Man (i am so lonely too)” by Celestialfeathers. This is a GORGEOUS and moving story about Claire turning out to have prophetic powers and dealing with that and with what “real” is, particularly when Allison does not want to deal with it at all. I knew it would make this list the moment I read it.

  5. “Holding It Together” by sharkneto, who has created an alternate timeline where there's a psychologist and an astrophysicist who genuinely help the Hargreeves with their myriad issues (while throwing in some nailbiting plot too). They’re one of the rare instances of original characters in fanfic that are lovable enough that recently Sharkneto posted a snippet of story just about THEM, before they even met the Hargreeves, because people were asking for it! Sharkneto generally specializes in Five-centric insightful character-studies-with-plot, which I appreciate since we have the same favorite character and all—Seriously, Number Five Hargreeves, you and Gum Baby, welcome to the Newest Inductees to my list of Favorite Fictional Characters of All Time, emphasis on the “All Time” on his part. I love me a mad genius, and this takes a mad genius and piles on SO MANY MORE LAYERS, so traumatized it comes out the other side as absurdity, probably the reason Umbrella Academy lends itself to such great fanfic because he’s a never-ending well of convoluted plot potential who is next to impossible to tie down with any boring SHIPPING plots because he’s really impossible to ship— upon deciding which I somehow almost immediately started shipping him with his adoptive brother—but that’s beside the point. No wait, actually, it’s not, because it’s that the friendship between him and Viktor can just be SOO TENDER that I am a sap for it whether it’s platonic or not, and anyway I think the first Sharkneto fic I read was “Sometimes Age Comes Alone” which features a great amount of that tenderness, platonically, that I bookmarked it under my “5+7” tag anyway. And for something less angsty, here’s Sharkneto exploring my favorite definitely platonic pair-up with Five (yeah, look, no problem shipping him with an adoptive sibling, but with his sister-in-law? That’s just going too far), Five and Lila do a train-heist-esque plot in “Cease-fire on the Cleveland Express”!

 6. “The Best of the Best. Well, Except for Us” by Stephsageek. Also taking the best best frenemies and giving them lots more time to get into hijinks together, let’s pair Five and Lila up as partners at the Commission from the start! You get a buddy-assassin adventure with historical facts mixed with complete absurdity! I would laugh out loud over the twists each new episode would bring and Maddie would always give me this look and I’d be like, “It’s the new chapter of that fic, again! Yes the same one it was last time! Now the Nazi Werewolves she teased are here!” (Note that the sequel DOES ship the two romantically, but technically this Lila hasn’t even met Diego so it’s not so bad).

7. “Lucidity” by BrokeTheLights. This was one of the very first UA fics I read, because I looked them up in the first place because I finished Season Two and thought, “I wonder if anyone has written any good fics exploring the relationship between Klaus and Ben?”— purely platonically, because it was an interesting enough relationship as is! (Season 3 has inspired an uptick in Klaus-slash-Ben fics, on account of Sparrow-Ben, but, no, I’m looking for the Ghost and the Medium Putting Up With Each Other, not shipping). (I also read the comics this summer, but they did not make my list of top books read because really the show took all the best parts of the comics and made them BETTER, with the exception of Diego and Viktor’s— Vanya’s, she’s not trans in the comics— punk band, that was the only thing the comics did better— anyway, the thing that made me saddest in the comics, even beyond that Five and V weren’t even FRIENDS in that one, was the very sad lack of Ghost Ben. GHOST BEN IS IMPORTANT). ANYWAY, so I found this one and it was EXACTLY what I was looking for. And so I kept poking around and got sucked in and it’s been taking up my free time ever since.

 8. “Long Overdue” by BubblyWashingMachine. Okay, I probably shouldn’t admit how morbidly satisfying this one was. And that has nothing to do with it technically being a Fiktor— or in this case Fiveya, it was pre-transition*— fic, because that’s more of a background deal though it’s partially motivational. No, it’s just pure, violent revenge fantasy in which Five has gone back in time to brutally murder Harold Jenkins— brutally, I say! It’s cathartic, delicious, and darkly funny. I KNOW! Gratuitous violence AND pseudo-incest in one fic, I’m such a sicko! (*this is why my bookmark tag is just “5+7,” I don’t care what era it’s from—I DO give a side-eye to anyone not using Viktor’s preferred name and pronouns in anything that was written and takes place Season 3 or later, but otherwise, it’s 5+7, I’m not splitting hairs. Also, “5+7” is very short. Just like them!)

 I feel like I’m being untruthful by not including more 5+7-tagged fics in this list, but I keep looking at them thinking “Is that objectively GOOD or is that the 5+7 talking?” So okay. Here’s a few disgustingly romantic ones, here’s a couple nice post-or-during-season-3 ones so these don’t all say “Vanya,” here’s a user that writes platonic 5+7 so tenderly the voice in the back of my head shouting “NOW KISS!” won’t shut up. Okay, happy?

 9. Okay, let’s counteract that with two completely crack-hilarious ones I can’t decide between: “Twenty-three minutes and thirty-six seconds” by DemonaHW is a very funny and delightfully random adventure about an unexplained temporal anomaly at the Academy; “Open Twenty-Four Hours” by Feech is the iconic diner fight scene if Pinky Pie— yes, the My Little Pony (in Equestria Girls form, but that still gave my mind’s eye a Roger-Rabbitty headache)— happened to be there. Made me wish Maddie had seen Umbrella Academy so as to appreciate it.

 10. And finally for the holiday season, “I’ll Be Home For Christmas (If Only In My Dreams)” by disco_tea is how you WRITE a Christmas in the Apocalypse story. You know you can’t fix everything, but you still need that touch of Christmas Miracle, and this pulls off that bittersweet balance PERFECTLY.

 

Stuff I wrote! 

Stuff I Wrote, Here on Dreamwidth Edition:

The only thing was my pseudo-eulogy for my dad, which I already linked to. But I got a lot of positive feedback on it, from people who’ve probably never read a single other thing I’ve written, so it’s pretty good, I guess.

 

Stuff I Wrote, GeekMom Edition:

I think I’ve pretty much given up attempting to write for GeekMom on the whole, but when an actual science fiction book won the Newbery, I HAD to spit out my used-to-be-annual Youth Media Awards announcement for all the geeky parents.

 

Stuff I Wrote, Fanfic Edition:

 1. “Exploration of the Astral Plane: An Immersive, Multidimensional Study, by Cary Loudermilk, PhD, and Oliver Anthony Bird.” (Legion (TV)) - #1 because I FINISHED it! After YEARS! (well, two years) Nearly a whole year of which was being blocked on how to actually get Oliver lost! But I finally did and it’s pretty good! It’s also sad, but it has to be. :P I mean, the end does. The first four chapters are a lot of fun. The last few chapters have fun bits, too, they’re just also sad.

 2. “A Captain With Seven Children...What's So Fearsome About That?” (The Sound of Music - Rodgers/Hammerstein/Lindsay & Crouse, The Umbrella Academy (TV)) —Despite my having started READING a buttload of Umbrella Academy fic, I had no plans to write any myself until I found myself dreaming about these seven superpowered kids whose father was played by Christopher Plummer, and I went, Oh, My Brain, I See What You Did There, that is… that is actually a very brilliant crossover, thank you, Brain, I shall have to write this now. Christopher Plummer is NOT in my version, but Julie Andrews is— Maria has been plucked out of 1930s Austria and sent to nanny a DIFFERENT seven children of a overly strict father. IT IS SO MUCH FUN TO WRITE THIS. You will not believe how well it fits until you read it. 

3. “Not Just Stupid Kids” (The Umbrella Academy (TV)) —So this was a surprise on several levels. First of all, I never expected to become such a passionate Fiktor shipper— or any kind of shipper; and so I wrote this in an attempt to settle my I-only-like-canon-ships mind by showing how it could fit into canon, in the background. But it was embarrassing, so I posted it anonymously. And then, surprise again, it became my most popular fic of the year. Anonymously. Not sure what that says about people’s opinions of ME. So then, surprise again, it inspired me to write MORE:  

4. “On Soul Mates and Nemeses” (The Umbrella Academy (TV)) —Kind of a sequel, this one is me exploring the inevitability and symbolism and just WHY I feel so strongly about this stupid ship. It’s quite long for a one-shot, but I enjoyed it.    

5. “Everything I Know About Writing the Loudermilk Twins” (Legion (TV)) —Let’s counter that with the utterly platonic super-close pseudo-sibling relationship that holds the number one place in my heart! Being one of the only people writing Legion fics, and currently pretty much THE only person focusing on the founders of Summerland, I just felt like I wanted to ramble about all the Loudermilk headcanons I’ve developed, but there’s no one really to ramble WITH. So instead, I wrote this sort of writing-guide thing that spells it all out. Shockingly, people have actually read and kudoed it. You should too! Because I don’t know, why the heck not?

 6. “Introduction to Infernal and Eternal Crossover” (Community (TV), The Good Place (TV)) — Back on the Random Crossovers I Actually Dreamed theme, my subconscious mixed up my two favorite sitcoms of the 21st century one night and I was like, That works. The actual dream I had wasn’t much of a story I could grasp, but I COULD write Dean Pelton pitching the concept of it (Community College Is the Bad Place) to Shawn at a demon meeting. So I did. Now I’m calling on other people to actually write stories in this shared universe for me, it’d totally be fun.   

7. “Chapter 19.5: Hidden. Safe. Somewhere.” (Legion (TV)) —This is a little missing-scene fic that fixes what I always felt was a loose thread at the end of Legion season 2, and is quite sweet. Unfortunately, what I can only assume was a weird glitch that kept randomly guest-kudoing it kind of soured it for me. I know, you’d think lots of kudos would be a good thing, but it’s too obviously an artificial glitch, because Legion fics just don’t GET that kind of attention, particularly not random little throwaways like this. So I got annoyed that it technically got the most kudos of the year, and came dangerously close to even tying “The Invitation: an Epilogue” for most kudos ever, because it’s not TRUE. I’ve gone back and reread it again now and it IS very sweet, if not deserving of 83 kudos, so I’m rather sad the stupid glitch ruined my feelings toward it. 

 

I filled out an “AO3 Writer Wrapped” ask-survey thing on Tumblr, further exploring various things I wrote this year, which includes some samples and stuff too. You can click through and read more. I mean. I suppose I’d REALLY prefer if you clicked through TO AO3 and read my ACTUAL FICS and also LEFT COMMENTS on them. But hey. If you’re bored or love me very much.

And that's a wrap! That's all I have for you this year! Or last year now! Anyway, this is again a reminder to LEAVE ME A COMMENT! Here? On my fics? On Facebook or Twitter or Tumblr? Anywhere! I just want some sign I'm not talking into thin air! Anything you might have had a thought about in the course of reading this, I want to hear from YOU! YES, YOU!

 

rockinlibrarian: (the end)
old photo giving off waves of "late 70s early 80s" of a man who here looks remarkably like a Sgt-Pepper-era Ringo Starr, sitting at a baby grand piano with a baby (younger than a year but older than 6 months) on his lap. The baby has her hands on the keyboard, too, and is looking suspiciously at the cameraI’ve told this story before, but it was, although I don’t technically remember it, a deeply formidable experience. When I was a colicky baby— which is basically infant terminology for “highly sensitive and prone to overstimulation, this child is probably neurodivergent”— the only thing that could soothe me was my Dad taking me on his lap while he played the piano. I know why it worked because it still works on me, the soothing power of music, and the sound of a piano especially instantly comforts me. The part that stood out most about the earliest dream I remember (I had to have been no older than four), besides the basic concept (that there was a secret door to a literal toy land behind the wall quilt above my bed), was the soundtrack, my dad playing “The Toyland March” out of an old Disney Music book on the piano. A few years later he’d come home with a flier about music lessons and asked if I wanted to play the piano or the violin. I honestly don’t think I realized “neither” was an unspoken option, but maybe it wasn’t, because “piano” was the only true option after all.

Anyway, that’s the biggest thing about my relationship with my dad— it’s also my relationship with music.

He was always singing—I’m always singing. He made me want to sing in front of people, as I watched him in the church choir and the Westmoreland Choral Society. It normalized and made me really appreciate guys who sing, as I joined school choral groups and the girls always drastically outnumbered the boys. Stop being stupid, boys! Guys do so sing!

He was also always playing music, not just on the piano—and frankly, I only realized years later, he wasn’t even that good—but recordings. We always had music on in our house, and I’m still stunned to realize this isn’t a universal thing— my own family seems to disbelieve in it, even! (*cough cough*SAM and turning off my kitchen radio*cough cough*) My dad’s favorites were Classical and 60s rock, and so I got to know those best, too, though it took what must have been a frustratingly long time for him. I distinctly remember asking once how he even could tell the difference between the Beatles and Beach Boys, which naturally gobsmacked him. Granted, NOW I can not only tell you the difference, but I might also go into a treatise on exactly how Rubber Soul begat Pet Sounds begat Sgt. Peppers…. And yes, when I, in my own time, suddenly became a Beatlemaniac at the age of fifteen, Dad very enthusiastically dug deep into his vast vinyl collection to let me explore and introduce me to the rare and weird and wonderful of classic rock. And when I hit college, I took a bit of that vinyl collection with me to deejay on WIUP-FM, just as my dad had done 30 years before.

He truly took it upon himself to make us culturally literate about music. He made sure to take us to classical concerts and the ballet and musical theater. One summer he came to my room and asked if I wanted to go see Chicago (the band) or the Four Seasons in concert with him. It was the “piano or violin” thing repeated, I don’t think I realized “neither” was an option, but again there really was only one option, since I’d only recently decided “Saturday in the Park” was the happiest song in the world and I didn’t even like the Four Seasons, sorry, Dad. So began the first of at least five summers of an annual trek out to Star Lake for the Chicago concert, including one year my dad couldn’t go because it was the same day as the Legendary Gundy Family Reunion, so I took a bunch of cousins with me instead.

Music and my Dad are just linked. To say he encouraged the music in me is an understatement.

And that, of course, brings us to marching band. My dad was a legend of a Band Parent, with his ubiquitous camcorder and friendly banter. He made a point of learning everyone’s names and instruments and personalities. And there’s me, the nerdy introvert eventually voted shyest in my class, looking around the band room before an event and realizing, “My dad has more friends in the band than I do.” I was ignored, my dad was adored.

Which is really the most important thing about my dad, for the rest of the world: his genuine kindness. It wasn’t just particular instances of sometimes being kind, like an average person has: he exuded kindness. You could feel it immediately. When a friend of mine heard that Dad was in hospice, she immediately responded, “He is an amazing guy,” and I did a double-take—not that I didn’t agree—but when had she even met my dad? There was my wedding (which was busy enough for everyone already), and one D&D session we’d had at my house just after college— and those were both nearly twenty years ago—and reading my mind, she continued, “I know I only met him a couple times, but he always was so welcoming and full of joy and love.”

I thought of all the times random people would join us for dinner. I thought of Christmas Eve, the parties we had that were truly open house parties, where all were welcome— so many guests would bring friends that had nowhere else to go— he was chatting with an old lady at church an hour before, found out she was spending the evening alone, and look, suddenly that old lady is at our party, too. That happened at a lot of parties, actually, not just Christmas Eve. Another Christmas Eve he took us to deliver a tub of my mom’s traditional Christmas Eve minestrone to a sick neighbor.

I mean, I was a bit spoiled growing up, in a way I didn’t realize until I joined the Real World, and discovered most adults were NOT as intrinsically GOOD as my parents are. My dad, especially, is a treasure, in our culture so tainted with Toxic Masculinity. Too many men are cold, unfeeling, heartless. I was always a little annoyed by the prevalence of Dead Beat and even Downright Abusive Dads in stories growing up— it was practically an archetype—the Darth Vader of the Hero’s Journey— but it was so NOT my experience with my own father—and yeah, there are also plenty of Good-Dad father-figures in stories, but they’re still a minority. And the sad thing is that IS a reflection of our society. Too many men seem unable to show love, some to the point of hate, instead. My dad was always there as a brilliant example that this was NOT just “the way men are,” “boys will be boys” or whatnot. He was a man who showed the world just how good a man could truly be. Kind, accepting, genuinely interested in each person he interacted with— embodying namaste— the Divine in him zeroing right in on the Divine in each person he met.

I’m not as good a Catholic as I used to be, but my dad’s faith has always been my inspiration. In our society, politics and religion have gotten tangled up in confusing and dangerous ways, and if I had been raised by anyone else, I may have lost faith entirely. But I had Dad’s faith as my example, a faith based not in dogma and judgment, but in love and relationships. With his—and admittedly, also Madeleine L’Engle’s—influences, I could confidently accept that Creationism, homophobia, and to be honest the vast majority of what is professed by the political beast known as the Christian Right, were not what Christianity is to me at all. Christianity is endeavoring to be Christ-like— loving, forgiving, perceptive, welcoming, not hesitating to break the rules for the sake of mercy— you know, treating people the way my dad does. He always said the Prayer of St. Francis reminded him of his dad:

Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace;
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
And where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,
Grant that I may not so much seek
To be consoled as to console;
To be understood, as to understand;
To be loved, as to love;
For it is in giving that we receive,
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
And it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.
Amen.


But my Dad lived by that prayer, too, and I, in turn, have tried to adopt it myself. I wish I was as brave about it as my Dad, though— I’m not quite sure it comes off as strongly in someone as introverted and scatterbrained as myself.

There are more things I can say about my dad— the way we had to stop at every Civil War battlefield we came near on any of our road trips, the way he checked every time he visited me at the library to see if anyone had found the self-pubbed local history book he’d given them years ago (because it’s not in our catalog any more, at least), the way he always somehow instinctively knew when I was interested in a particular guy and would tease very gently, the huge hilarious belly flops he’d do in our wading pool, the year or two I spent following baseball just because he was such a big Pirates fan, the energy he’d put into MCing his kids’ birthday parties, the sound of his voice when he’d announce things. But the music and the kindness are the two things that stick out the strongest, so that’s what I’m writing about today.
rockinlibrarian: (christmas)
   Well, invisible internet friends! Another year draws to a close, which means it’s time again for the annual roundup of What I’ve Been Thinking About This Year, As Told Through Events That Happened and Media I Consumed and Sometimes Created! I ask ye kindly to read or at least skim through this beast of a thing to make me feel interesting, and to please leave a comment— here, on Facebook, on Twitter, wherever— so that I know you did, because my love language is External Validation. Actually that’s Words of Affirmation, but let’s be honest, it’s really External Validation. Anyway, we begin as is often our wont with:

Real Life Stuff

 Life Events In Mostly Chronological Order

 1. In March, while the library was in another period of Curbside Only Services, I was weeding the juvenile nonfiction section with the aid of a rolling stool— for sitting, not standing— but nonetheless I SAT on it wrong, it shot out from under me, throwing me backward into the bookshelves where I conked my head and got a concussion. So whoo, me.

 2. So, like, I’m enough of an out of shape klutz that I don’t need to take any MORE avoidable risks with my health, so as soon as we each were able to— the youngest turned 12 just days before vaccines opened for 12yos!— we all got vaccinated against Covid-19, and just in time, because I surely would not have felt comfortable with the next item on this list if we hadn’t been:

 3. In June we drove down to Jacksonville, FL, home of the immortal Jason Mendoza, to visit with my sister-in-law and her family. The little cousins loved the big cousins something fierce. We took some hikes, went to the beach and got really really sunburnt, and took a day trip a little further south to see the Daytona Speedway— which turned out to be interesting even for the non-car-people among us, but was heaven for Sam— and St. Augustine, which I enjoyed more than the rest of my family, although we all enjoyed Cousteau’s, a waffles-and-ice-cream place.

 4. Then in August we FINALLY went camping again after two years missing it, to Gettysburg. We took lots of tours, which reminded me of my dad, who used to be able to GIVE most of those tours by heart— except for the Ghost Tour, which I’d never done before, and proved to be really interesting!

 5. But generally, health around here kind of sucks, mental health particularly. Maddie’s anxiety is at crisis levels but it’s hard to get help when EVERYONE is stressed and all the potential resources have enough else to be dealing with, anyway. Which includes me. Honestly, I could use some help. But so could EVERYONE, so how can I even ask? But maybe being stressed is why Maddie and I have both been the ones in this household to get Breakthrough Covid… TWICE. At least, assumed twice. The first time, in October, I tested positive and Maddie tested negative, although we had the exact same symptoms. The second time, this past WEEK, MADDIE tested positive and I tested negative, although Maddie is much sicker than I am. But NEITHER of us got as sick as we COULD have gotten, because VACCINES DO WORK, DANGIT— maybe they didn’t stop us getting sick, but they DID stop us getting BADLY sick. In fact if this WASN’T a pandemic, none of my symptoms either time might have even convinced me to call off work, that’s how mild they were. Maddie’s current bout is definitely miserable sounding, at least, but no worse than a bad cold. GET VACCINATED.

  

Christmas

 This is usually the portion of the roundup where I go into everyone’s Christmas Loot for the year, but nothing’s jumping out as particularly exciting. I’ve gotten lots of nice sweaters. I made clothes for people, as usual, too, including a wolf hoodie for Maddie, and then I had a lot of faux-wolf-fur left over so I made another for little cousin Max, so that Max can wear his wolf suit and make mischief of one kind and another (Max really is a wild thing, it’s very appropriate). He looks pretty cute in it, according to the picture I was sent, because while we were supposed to have Christmas with J’s side of the family on Monday, by then Maddie had already tested positive, and although Max is a wild thing, he is too little to be vaccinated and he has asthma, too, so we couldn’t risk it. My family, on the other hand, was supposed to get together on Christmas Eve, but even before Maddie got sick, my sister postponed that one because, although SHE felt fine, there had just been a massive Covid outbreak at her workplace. She never did test positive, herself, but it turned out to be for the best since Maddie ended up getting sick the day before Christmas Eve! So as of this writing, we have not yet had Christmas with the Matviyas. But we WILL! It’s only been postponed! We’re getting the full twelve days and more out of this Christmas, I tell you!

  Library Happenings

Stuff that Happened With the Library, Besides Me Bumping My Head, In Not Exactly Chronological Order:

 1. At the beginning of the year we were in Curbside mode, which meant no in-person programs, which meant still lots of video programs! I don’t know if I mentioned last year that the children’s department was switching off Saturday video storytimes, too? Anyway, that was how I squeezed in my annual Mock Caldecott, through my January “Saturday Family Storytime” slot. I only got three responses, including my own, but that was enough to name a clear winner (The Oldest Student, see below for more reviewiness) AND a clear Honor book (We Are Water Protectors, which of course went on to win the REAL Caldecott and which I reviewed in LAST year’s roundup. Oh yeah, and I did use it for Mundo later, but in March, not April, for "World Water Day").

List within a list: My Top Only 5 Saturday Family story time videos!

  1. Mock Caldecott 
  2. Happy Birthday Fred Rogers! 
  3. World Whale Day  These last three are kind of tied for third place, but the Whale one got two Likes on YouTube…
  4. Earth Haiku  …The Haiku one Like…
  5. Pets  …and this one no Likes EVEN THOUGH IT’S QUITE NICE ENOUGH THANKS, so I’ll just let the discerning public put them in this order, here.

 2. I also took the Bedtime Stories video for the Spring season, then Anne took it over in June, but she left in October so now I’m doing Bedtime Stories again. Here’s a link to the entire Bedtime Stories playlist, because none of them are sticking out enough for me to pick my top five.

3. But in June, the library opened up to limited in-person services again, and most earth-shakingly, the whole Childrens/YA Department moved downstairs to the main floor. YA got tagged onto the end of the Adult books, and Children’s moved into the downstairs meeting room. The idea is of course to save money by only having the upstairs open for special occasions— now EVERYTHING is a meeting room— and because we’ve been short-staffed, we don’t have to worry about staffing upstairs, or just one person being upstairs alone which is a safety concern (and I’m worried my concussion might have had something to do with pounding that line of thinking in, because I HAD been up there alone and it WAS just luck that someone else happened to come up within minutes for me to say “help” to). Our director did her best to spin this as a positive move, but after half a year I’m still convinced it sucks. Teens no longer have their safe hangout space (not that indoor hangout spaces are currently safe at all, but POST-pandemic!), and small children don’t have the same freedom to be kids (ie, loud), butted right up next to the quiet grownup library like this. And there’s no more play area, which has disappointed many a group of young visitors and their harried grownups— which, again, is understandable in a pandemic, but AFTER??? And most selfishly, I used to RULE the upstairs. I knew where everything was and what to do in every situation and ALL THE BOOKS— but now I’m in the Grownup section, because there’s no reference desk in the new children’s room, and yes I get to help people with children’s stuff occasionally but I mostly have to do grownup stuff which is NOT my area of expertise, and I STILL don’t know where everything is (not book-wise, I know where the books are; but like, where-is-the-masking-tape-stored-wise) or all the grownup desk policies after half a year and I JUST MISS having a whole children’s library, OKAY?

 4. In person programs also returned, though during the summer we had the benefit of doing them all outside. “Outside,” though, was a park ten minutes away. This wasn’t a problem for the Summer Quest camp so much, because it’s a big enough deal that people sought it out, but I supposedly had an evening storytime at the park this summer, too. No one EVER came. I couldn’t even get rare passers-by to come. But come fall, we’re back indoors, in the now wide-open upstairs “meeting rooms,” in which I took up Yoga Storytime on Monday mornings again, and started a Thursday morning storytime that our director really wanted to be INTERACTIVE!!! and Ms Barb and I were like Isn’t that what we already DO? but anyhoo so I put together a booklist that really leaned INTO interactiveness and for about a month I did that and it was great fun, but then we had like a mass exodus of staff and no longer had enough staff to HAVE Thursday story times, so that was that.

 5. I also staffed two EVENT programs this fall for which I got to dress in costume. Wait, THREE event programs, but I reused the first costume for the second. Fan Fest, our library Not-ComiCon, came back, and I made an awesome Squirrel Girl costume, and manned a Shrinky-Dink making room. Then I wore Squirrel Girl again for our Halloween walk-through trick-or-treat. Then we had storytime with Mrs. Claus, and guess who was Mrs. Claus! (sorry, no pic). Fun stuff. But is it a coincidence that BOTH my bouts of breakthrough Covid set in within a week of both Fan Fest and Mrs. Claus’s storytime? HMMMMM.

 

And most importantly, library-relatedly:

 Top 5 Mundo Monday Episodes!

I thought maybe I’d do a top 10 for Mundo since I love them all so much, but it turned out there were exactly five in the Must Include category before I got into a much murkier which-ones-are-REALLY-the-best next five, so top 5 is what you get. I mean, watch all of them, I worked really hard, but here’s the cream of the crop:

 1. "Everybody Counts"  As soon as I started flipping through this wild Norwegian “counting book” I knew I needed to use it on Mundo, but how? It’s a complicated seek-and-find you can study for hours? That didn’t stop me giving at least an OVERVIEW (for half an hour) of how it works! It’s super fun, and now you need to find the book yourself so you can find all the secrets and hidden storylines and so forth!

2. "Dayenu!"  This was pure joy to make. I THINK I’d heard this traditional Passover song before, but I had to look it up first— whew, good thing I didn’t have to do it ALL in Hebrew!— but then I got the hang of it and learned to harmonize with myself (and WHY the heck did I give Mundo such a high-pitched voice!) and it’s just a very joyful video, you should watch it just to smile.

3. "Black History Month"  The endpapers of today’s book, Carter Reads the Newspaper, are stuffed full with Black historical icons, and librarian that I am, I felt compelled to identify every one and tie them— when possible— to at least one other book we have in the library. SO many great stories! You will learn (just hints of) so much!

4. "Celebrate Your Name"  When you grow up in the 1980s with a name like “Amy Matviya”— a first name second only to “Jennifer” in commonness, a last name unpronounceable by pretty much everyone you meet— you have a lot of feelings about names. When I found out “Celebrate Your Name Week” exists, I KNEW it had to be a Mundo episode, with Alma and Your Name Is a Song being such perfect stories for it. AND THEN, someone took out Your Name is a Song and KEPT IT OVERDUE! “Celebrate Your Name Week” was technically long gone by the time I got my hands on it, but I made this video anyway, because NAMES!

5. "Going to School"  Mundo went to once a month in the fall, and the videos were allowed to be longer, too (”Everybody Counts” and “Black History Month” were outliers in the earlier part of the year because I JUST COULDN’T HELP IT), so I got to use more books. My First Day had JUST arrived and I stole it before it even finished going through processing, because it was such a perfect opener. Then I found This Is the Way We Go To School which was PERFECT, thematically, but it was also thirty years old, and I could already see at first glance-through that some of it was out of date (THERE WAS STILL A USSR!), so I ended up doing a lot of research so I could annotate with updated information and that was very interesting!

 So we’re not doing Mundo anymore in the coming year, because it takes up too much time now that we’re back to in-person services AND short-staffed, but honestly, I wonder if this might not be my calling? Sharing stories through education and puppetry? I mean my whole working for Sesame Street obsession paired with my story obsession? I was listening to Matt Vogel’s Below the Frame podcast (which I mentioned last year) a few weeks back and, you know, a lot of his guests do several different things for Sesame Street and/or whatever, most commonly puppeteers AND writers, and one of them a few weeks ago said something like, “Well, I had experience writing for puppets,” and I was like THAT’S A THING!?! I now have experience writing for puppets! And truly I’m only middling at puppeteering and video editing and acting on camera, but if I could get a real job WRITING something like Mundo Monday, I mean, that’s what I’m aiming for, isn’t it? 

 But in the meantime, speaking of sharing stories:

  Media Reviews

BOOKS:

Top 5 2021 Picture Books

1. My First Day, by Phung Nguyen Quang and Huynh Kim Lien. I bought this Vietnamese book with the thought of possibly using it for Mundo, and it really did come right on time and was PERFECT for opening the “Going to School” episode. I love how the whole journey is told through school metaphors, even though it doesn’t explicitly SAY that’s where he’s going until he gets there. I love the pictures so animated and flowing!

2. The Rock from the Sky, written and illustrated by Jon Klassen. Have I mentioned lately that I love Jon Klassen? I love Jon Klassen. I love the way his seemingly simple illustrations have such hilarious expression. I love the dry, absurdist humor. I love that his vision exists in the world.    

3. Milo Imagines the World, written by Matt de la Pena, illustrated by Christian Robinson. Have you seen that Christian Robinson has designed a whole line of kids decor and junk for Target this year?  That’s awesome. Christian Robinson needs to be all mainstream like that. I meant to use this for Mundo sometime, but never got the chance.

4. Wonder Walkers, written and illustrated by Micha Archer. This would have been a perfect book to use at my outdoor summer storytime, if anyone had shown up. I probably like this best of all Archer’s books I’ve seen. A lot of them seem too sentimental to me, but the level of, well, wonder in this one is just right.

5. The Octopus Escapes, written by Maile Meloy, illustrated by Felicita Sala. I brought this to Florida to read to J's nephews. They ARE like escaping octopuses.     

 

Top 5 2020 Picture Books I Crammed in January In Prep For the Mock Caldecott even though it was just a video this year                              

1. In a Jar, written and illustrated by Deborah Marcero. I love this delightful friendship fantasy so much— I mean described like that you already know it’s my sort of book: Delightful. Friendship. Fantasy! I stubbornly dragged a box of jars (and this book) to the park story time every week hoping someone would show and we could make Memory Jars together.

2. If You Come to Earth, written and illustrated by Sophie Blackall. She may already be a multiple Caldecott-er, but I’m not really a huge Blackall fan generally. THIS book, though, is epic! It’s basically a letter to potential alien visitors about what to expect from our weird human society, and it’s ironic that THIS one isn’t one of her winners, because the pictures do a LOT.    

3. The Old Truck, by Jarrett and Jerome Pumphrey. I mistakenly judged this by its cover until multiple mock Caldecott lists made me open it! The artwork is actually made with handmade stamps, which is kind of mindblowing when you see it. And the story itself is beautifully circular between a girl and the truck.

4. The Oldest Student: How Mary Walker Learned to Read, written by Rita Lorraine Hubbard, illustrated by Oge Mora. I love Oge Mora so much, the marvelous things she does with collage! This as I said WON our Mock Caldecott, and I don’t know how much that has to do with my glowing description in the video. I mean I tried to be balanced about every book and what was Caldecott-worthy about it, but it’s possible I wasn’t ENTIRELY objective in my enthusiasm!   

5. Honeybee: the busy life of Apis Mellifera, written by Candace Fleming, illustrated by Eric Rohmann. No shade to him but I actually liked the words better than the pictures in this Mock Caldecott hopeful— they caught the FEEL of bee life! It’s the sort of nonfiction that reminds you that just because something is factual doesn’t mean it can’t be art.                                   

 

Top 5 Older than 2021 (and some might be 2020 but I didn’t read them for the Mock Caldecott) Picture Books I First Read This Year

1. Everybody Counts: A Counting Story from 0 to 7.5 Billion, written and illustrated by Kristin Roskifte. This book is just mindboggling. And hilarious. It starts out looking so simple and then you start to see how it all intersects, and HOW many stories are playing out in the background, and even when you turn to the so-called “Answers” page it gives you even MORE to discover. I have scanned and studied each page for that Mundo episode and I’m still certain I’ve missed a lot.

2. Tiny Feet Between the Mountains, written and illustrated by Hanna Cha. Actually, I’m almost certain I read this last year but forgot to put it on the spreadsheet, so it didn’t make last year’s roundup. Which is WRONG because it's delightful and definitely one of my recent favorites! I read it in my “Not So Scary Scary Beasts” Mundo episode, which was definitely a contender in the possible top ten Mundo episodes, along with The Girl and the Wolf which just missed making THIS list, but hah I just snuck it in now, look at that.    

3. The Boring Book, by Shinsuke Yoshitake. This isn’t actually a boring book, although it might be mistaken for such at first glance since it’s a little wordier than most modern American picture books (this is from Japan. I’ve got a lot of imports in these lists today! So far we’ve had Vietnam, Norway, and Japan. We’ve got Canada, Australia, and the UK coming up, too, but I guess those don’t count so much since they didn’t have to be translated!). It’s subversive. I cackled aloud sometimes. I read it in a Bedtime Stories video to allegedly put my audience to sleep.     

4. My bed: enchanting ways to fall asleep around the world, by Rebecca Bond, illustrated by Salley Mavor. Speaking of which, this was actually the FIRST book I read for Bedtime Stories. I was kind of channelling Mundo into it since it’s a Mundo-like subject in a bedtime book. I am most taken not with the words, though, as much as the very pretty handsewn models that make up the illustrations.

5. What's My Superpower? By Aviaq Johnston, illustrated by Tim Mack. Here’s the Canadian one— Inuk, specifically. I have used so many books from this publisher, Inhabit Media, which specializes in Inuit authors and storytellers, in my Mundo vids. This one isn’t, like, an Inuit folktale or anything though, it’s a modern story that just happens to take place in an Inuit community— but I still finally found a place for it in my “You Matter” Mundo episode! I love me a super-positive character that’s written in a fun way— Janet from The Good Place? SQUIRREL GIRL? Which, speaking of which, positivity IS really Squirrel Girl's true superpower, what she actually uses to defeat bad guys, so maybe this story’s heroine isn’t so far from being a superhero after all.

 

Top 5 Longer than Picture Books of 2021

 1. The Stolen Prince of Cloudburst, by Jaclyn Moriarty (and this is the Australian one). I am convinced more all the time that Jaclyn Moriarty is a kindred spirit and also totally has ADHD. That’s part of where that comes from, of course. I feel like she really ought to be my best friend. The latest Kingdoms and Empires book to hit American shores (there’s apparently a newer one out in Australia ALREADY though!), and it’s as unexpected as all the rest, making me laugh and cry in equal measure.

2. Amari and the Night Brothers, by B.B Alston. This was sold to me as “A Wrinkle In Time meets Men in Black,” and I can see both influences. It also feels a lot like those certain boy wizard books in tone, and will most definitely appeal to fans of the same. Honestly, it just feels like a Classic, and I feel like I’ve been TRYING to get everybody at the library to try it without success, which is wrong, because it NEEDS to be a story every fantasy-loving kid reads!          

3. Broken (in the best possible way), by Jenny Lawson. Somebody snuck a grownup book in here! But who isn’t a fan of Jenny and her equally-ADHD twistedness, though ADHD is the least of her issues…which of course is the point of the book, finding humor in even the darkest places. I laughed out loud more at this one than I had at Furiously Happy, but not quite as much as Let’s Pretend This Never Happened— but that’s still an awful lot!

4. City of the Plague God, by Sarwat Chadda. There’s a last-minute author’s note at the beginning saying we totally didn’t mean to release this book about a supernatural pandemic during an actual pandemic, but, um, here it is? And okay, the real-life parallels occasionally inspired shrieking in my audience! And the magical plague-ending was far too good to be true! But this was a fun read regardless, full of cool Mesopotamian myth and creative twists-- you just have to imagine it happening in a parallel universe that hasn’t gone through the past two years. Note: his sequel, which is something about a Chaos God, is still set for upcoming release and I’m like, Can you just, maybe, NOT? Just in case??

5. Kiki Kallira Breaks a Kingdom, by Sangu Mandanna. The last import on the list, the UK one. It involves Indian mythology, but being that we’ve been reading all the Aru Shah books (the latest of which JUST missed this list), that feels more familiar than the Britishness does! Unfortunately the MOST familiar thing about this book is that it’s about a young artist with severe anxiety, like someone else I know. But it’s delightful fun nonetheless, except for ONE particular loss that made Maddie up and say, “Okay, I don’t like this book anymore!” No really, it’s good.        

 

Top 10 Longer than Picture Books Older Than 2021 I First Read In 2021, because the last six are pretty much tied for fifth place.

1. Little Leaders: Bold Women in Black History, written and illustrated by Vashti Harrison. It’s a collection of one-page biographies, written on a simple reading level and each illustrated with rather chibi-esque portraits, which is why it’s mindblowing how much genuinely fascinating information she managed to cram into each one. I was just looking up a few of the people for my Black History Month video (see above) and got sucked in. I kept saying WHOA! and REALLY? I need to get the rest of the series now.

2. Tristan Strong Destroys the World, by Kwame Mbalia. Loved it maybe more than the first one. Also cried again. The power of STORIES!!! And there’s still Gum Baby!

3. The Witch's Boy, by Kelly Barnhill. For some reason we had two copies of this at the library— I think I bought it twice by accident— and in the process of moving everything downstairs I had to weed one copy out, and since it seemed like something my kids might like I kept it for myself. Then promptly forgot I’d done so until we needed a new book days before my next library shift, and then it was like, Oh, hey, look at this! A unique sort of fantasy, and some of the imagery still pops into my head without prompting months later.     

4. Ghosts of Greenglass House, by Kate Milford. Maddie brought the first book up in conversation right at the beginning of Advent, and I went, hey, there’s other books in that series, and the sequel takes place at Christmas, too, want me to pick it up for us? That was a yes. So we read it this past month by our tree, and I kept seeing stuff about the Waits everywhere, and it was great fun, possibly even more than the first one?

5. When You Trap a Tiger, by Tae Keller. I was all Hey kids, let’s read the Newbery winner, it’s a fantasy for once! It’s actually more magic realism than fantasy, but I for one really appreciated that the tiger WAS real (though a ghost), not just a dream or hallucination, at least.  

6. The Ambrose Deception, by Emily Ecton. One of Maddie’s online friends recommended this, so Maddie was like, Hey, can we read this book? And I was like, I’m pretty sure we have that at the library, I’ll bring it home. And it’s a lot of fun, a quirky, Westing Game-like puzzle mystery. It really should get more attention!

7-9. The Kane Chronicles, by Rick Riordan. What? A Riordan series we hadn’t yet read? We quickly fixed that once Maddie got the whole series as a birthday gift. Or Christmas gift. Some kind of gift? Must have been birthday, because we were reading one of them on the Jacksonville trip in June. Anyway, that’s beside the point. I went in afraid these would feel formulaic— Percy Jackson but with EGYPTIAN gods!— but he really did shake things up enough that it felt exciting and new and just as much fun as his other books.

10. Solutions and Other Problems, by Allie Brosh. Another grownup book! Which is also another humorous memoir from an ADHD woman with mental health issues! This one was somehow both simultaneously funnier and sadder than Hyperbole and a Half was— she was clearly writing out of a very dark time, but found the humor in it nonetheless. And the funny bits were REALLY wheeze-inducing funny.     

 

Top 3 Rereading Experiences, because although I’ve reread many books for storytime, none of them are sticking out, so I’ll just go with what I reread with MY kids:

The Dark is Rising series, starting with The Dark Is Rising, because we actually started it at the end of last year and it’s another Christmas-set book. I forgot how trippy some of these books get! Love it. And I don’t get why The Grey King won the Newbery because it’s actually the most boring book in the series. Silver on the Tree is wild, though. That one should have won instead. Yes I know it doesn’t work that way.

Nation by Terry Pratchett. Okay, I remembered objectively that this was a great book, but when I read it again to the kids? OH, this IS a GREAT book. Intense and devastating yet humorous and hopeful. This was the only book on this year’s BookRiot spreadsheet that I gave a full five-star rating to. I’m stingy that way. But books don’t get much better than this!

 The Graveyard Book, which I think we started during our first covid isolation when I couldn’t go out and GET a book so I checked what was available on Libby that they might like? And it was Halloweeny, too!

 

 MOVING VISUAL MEDIA

 I had to make a spreadsheet to figure out how to sort these! There was overlap between movies and series, not enough “returning favorites” to make that a separate category; I thought of splitting them by streaming service but Disney+ dominated and we got ONE count em ONE DVD out of the library… anyway I’m going to go with “Movie,” “Limited Series”— for multipart movies and series that aren’t coming in multiple seasons; and “Series,” because that seemed to work out most evenly, giving lists of five that weren’t unfairly excluding anything super important.

 

Movies

1. Tick Tick Boom (Netflix)—  Confession: I never got into Rent. It hit just as I was getting OUT of my Broadway Musicals Phase. So I didn’t go into this with any preconceived feelings toward Jonathan Larson, it just seemed interesting. And I unabashedly loved it. I loved the storytelling of it— the narration stringing together the scenes acting it out; I loved the music— better than anything from Rent, I thought actually (*gasp*); I laughed and cried! I’m kind of freaked out that he wrote about feeling like a time bomb was ticking down in his brain and that actually turned out to be basically true! It was wonderful, I definitely recommend checking this one out.

2. Muppets Most Wanted (Disney+)— I never got around to actually seeing this when it was new, which I feel mildly guilty about because apparently that was a common thing and the movie bombed at the box office even though it is both objectively and subjectively better than The Muppets 2011 was. It was delightful, hilarious, and actually focused more on the Muppets than on the humans, yay.

3. Captain Marvel (Disney+)— I forget what I was doing when I went through catching up a bunch of Marvel movies on Disney+ that I’d missed. It turned out I enjoyed this one the most— I honestly thought I’d be into the Ant Man movies but they ended up getting kicked off this list by Encanto this week because the only really memorable part of them was Luis— yeah, he really is the best and should narrate everything— but when I went from them to Captain Marvel something switched in my head and went, “Yeah, this is more like it.” And I don’t know why! It just gelled more for me! Also, Coulson was in it. I miss him. Is this the first year in a long while I haven’t had a season of Agents of SHIELD in this roundup? But oddly, both this and the Ant Man movies both filled in backstory I was missing when I watched WandaVision (see below), AND ended up adding detail to a fanfic I would start writing even later in the year (see belower). Turns out the Marvel parts of that story would be influenced most by Agent Carter, Ant Man, and Captain Marvel. Who knew.

4. The Lego Movie 2: The Second Part (the library)— it’s weird how long it takes to get around to something when it isn’t on your streaming services. Sam has been saying, “Why haven’t we watched the 2nd Lego Movie yet?” for YEARS. Or, since whenever this came out. I FINALLY brought it home from the library one day and we FINALLY sat and watched it and it’s ALMOST as good as the first one. Also the mom is played by the Judge from The Good Place, which totally went right over the kids’ heads.

5. Encanto (Disney+)— Maddie had seen bits and pieces of things online, so when we found ourselves stuck at home on Christmas Eve and decided to watch a movie, Maddie demanded this one! It was fun and visually stunning, though maybe not the most memorable of recent Disney movies on the whole. But we enjoyed it a lot, and Maddie is obsessed. 

 

Limited Series

1. Get Back (Disney+)—You’d think Beatles things wouldn’t excite me any more. I’ve seen it all, I know it all? But there was stuff in this that felt new anyway! And it was great just to sit there being there with them! And funny to watch them just working out songs that I have so memorized, like, how do they not know the words to this one? Oh because they HAVEN’T WRITTEN THEM YET. And I kind of dug having so many other non-Beatlemaniacs getting into this at the same time. This guy came into the library, rough-looking older man who doesn’t know how to wear a mask correctly, but he checked out the companion book to this special and I said, “Oh, I was just watching that before I came here today!” and we got into an enthusiastic discussion about it— who would have thought we’d have anything to talk about? 

2. WandaVision (Disney+)— Oh yeah, my kind of TV show. If anything I wanted it to be WEIRDER (I am a Legion fan, after all). But the way they played with genre and format for the sake of telling a particular story was totally awesome. And I loved the eerie theme music at the end so much I’d sit and watch the whole credits every time even though they were really long— besides, I was never ready for the episode to be over!

3. McCartney 321 (Hulu)— Speaking of which, when this ended I also went “that’s all? No, I want more! So what if it’s just my favorite composer talking about his songs, he has A LOT MORE SONGS STILL!” I read a review that said, “This is for the real music/Beatle/McCartney nerds out there,” and I was like, “Whelp, that’s ME!”

4. Over the Garden Wall (Hulu)— No wait, this we definitely watched in place of our evening read-aloud during the covid quarantine in October, the nights my voice was too scratchy to read. I was like, “I’ve always heard this was good and perfect for Halloween-time,” but I must say I didn’t know what we were getting into. It was very funny and very weird, and Sam’s review sums it up best: “I have no idea what the freak I just watched, but I loved it!”

5. Marvel’s 616 (Disney+)— I was just looking for something short to fill a bit of time and found this series of documentaries. I was thoroughly sucked in in just the first minute about Japanese Spider-Man (and laughed a lot). Each “episode” is totally different in style and some are more compelling than others, but on the whole they were fascinating and fun.

 

Series

1. Only Murders In the Building (Hulu)—I binged this on the October covid sit-in, too, just for me. My mom is always asking what I’ve watched good recently and I’m always like, I don’t know, but I saw this and was like MOM! You would totally love this one! It is a humorous mystery starring some of your favorite actors! It’s on Hulu though! And I’m not entirely sure my mom totally understands what Hulu IS? Anyway, side note: the actress who plays Jan looks EXACTLY LIKE JASON’S AUNT BUT BLONDE. I was going nuts trying to figure out why she looked so familiar, and felt even more nuts when I looked at IMDB and there was NOTHING there that I would have seen enough to inspire THIS level of familiarity, and then it hit me! And we’ve now got their Christmas picture hanging up and every time I see it I’m like “OMG it’s Jan from Only Murders oh wait that’s still just Aunt Lynnie.”

2. Loki (Disney+)— This is the first and so far only MCU show I’ve watched with my kids! Maddie pointed out how awesome the title fonts were every time! They’re familiar with Loki mainly from the Magnus Chase books, and that was apparently enough to appreciate the MCU version. It really was a delightfully fun show. And we are all team Alligator Loki. And Mobius better get his jet ski next season.

3. The Mysterious Benedict Society (Disney+)— Speaking of books and my kids, I asked them some months back what their favorite thing we read together was that was NOT Harry Potter or Lemony Snicket or Rick Riordan, and I was surprised and delighted that this was the immediate answer. Such that when they saw ads for this D+ series they were messaging them back and forth to each other and not even remembering to include ME in the excitement until later! I am surprised that this series got almost NO buzz— I heard about it when my kids told me, which was the day before the first episode aired— but it was really good! And almost surprisingly true to the book! The casting of the kids was EXCELLENT (though I never quite adjusted to Constance’s accent— and I understand WHY they couldn’t actually cast her to age but still that would have been fun) and everyone else was pretty good too. I wanted more to a certain reunion at the end, but that part makes me inordinately sappy anyway. I assume next season will be the next book!

4. The Babysitters Club (Netflix)— Whereas each season of this is several books and seems all too short! I’m still impressed with how they managed to update storylines while keeping it feeling absolutely true to the originals, to the point where you forget what did and did not actually happen in the books! But I can’t believe they killed off [redacted] BETWEEN SEASONS! I was like WAIT, he’s just GONE??? He was barely THERE!

5. Breeders (Hulu)—Probably because they jumped ahead a few years and the kids are closer in age to my own, a lot in this season hit a little too painfully close to home, so the drama outweighed the comedy for me! I mean I cried more than I laughed and this is supposed to be a(n admittedly dark) comedy, but it was in a good way? But speaking of great casting of kids, I could have sworn the kids from last season just supernaturally matured extra fast instead of that they just cast older kids, because MAN. Those ARE the same kids, just with different names. And they aged really fast.

 Honorable Mention: I put a lot of CrashCourse (YouTube) on while I was sewing this year. Psychology, Philosophy, all the Literatures, History, Film, Geography, Intellectual Property… uh, yeah. A LOT of CrashCourse. Because it’s halfway between a podcast and a thing you have to WATCH, so it’s good for sewing.

 

The Podcasts, by the way

My favorite podcasts are still Fuse 8 and Kate, Movin’ Right Along, and Below the Frame, but the podcasts I added to my rotation this year are:

Muppeturgy, an analysis of each episode of The Muppet Show by Real Theater People. I tend to glom onto Muppet podcasts, don’t I. The Movin’ Right Along folks do other podcasts in shorter seasons, too, that I like— I particularly enjoyed To Introduce Our Guest Star earlier this year.

The Secrets of Story Podcast, run by Fuse 8’s husband Matt and author James Kennedy, who mostly argue with each other, which can sometimes get annoying, but other times they do make funny or rather brilliant observations about story structure. The episode that likened sucking an audience into a story to recruiting them into a cult was particularly wild.

 
Other Stuff I Wrote

My Single Solitary 2021 GeekMom Article

"Speak Up for the Freedom to Read!" Nothing like the combination of being angry AND knowledgeable to break ones article-writing block. I am still so bothered by how much power totalitarians are gaining simply because the rest of us are just too dang tired to fight back. Book banning is at least something I feel competent enough to keep speaking up against.

 

The Grand Total of my 2021 DreamWidth Posts

Both of them (not counting last year’s Annual Roundup, which was actually posted January 1st) are actually about the same subject as this portion of the roundup:

"I Wish I Had a Critique Group. Too Bad I Have Nothing to Critique,"  was actually more about feeling lonely for creative companionship than particular writing, but

"Unfinished Stories and Other Notes of Scatterbrained Life" goes into quite a lot of what I’m going to write updated notes about from here on in in this section:

 

The Top (all) 10 Fanfics and Related Stuff Published in 2021

On the other hand, I DID write a lot of fic this year. These are in order of how badly I want you to read them. Read them, please do, and leave me comments! I’m needy like that!

 1. “Two (or Three) Mutant Freaks Against the Fourth Grade” (Legion (TV)) --  I will keep harping on this one because it is objectively one of my MOST FAVORITES and yet SOMEHOW has gotten the least number of hits of any of my fics except my latest (see below). And you don’t even need to know anything about the show to appreciate it! It’s just a sweet middle grade story about a new kid with ADHD trying to make friends with the class weirdo with ASD and they end up bonding over the HUGE SECRETS they both are harboring! How can you not love it? Please shower love over my favorite story, please?

 2. “Tesseract” (Kairos (O'Keefe) Series - Madeleine L'Engle, Marvel Cinematic Universe) -- Now, this may soon become my favorite of my own fanfics, and it is the newest so that could account for it having currently the least number of hits, but on the other hand it is NOT a cult fandom but two rather big ones so why HASN’T it gotten many hits, but on the other other hand, I admit this is only the first of several chapters and perhaps people don’t want to be left hanging, although of course it is backstory and everyone who knows the original story (one half at least) knows where it’s going. ANYWAY, so when two of your favorite stories both incorporate the same not-exactly-common concept into their story lines, you end up making up headcanons like “It was totally SHIELD that hired Mr-Dr. Murry to study the Tesseract,” and maybe you don’t automatically start writing a story for the headcanon, but a couple months ago I said, “Hey, why DON’T I write a story for that headcanon?” and it’s really fun and I can’t wait to post ie finish the rest of it because Chapter 3 has already made me cry several times, it’s great! So check out Chapter One and tell me how excited YOU are for me to finish the rest, too, because that will give me more incentive to overcome my executive function disorder!

 3. “A Strictly Scholarly Collaboration: the Original Romance of the Mind” (Legion (TV)) --  Another one that MAY be fanfic for a cult TV show but it can totally stand alone for people who don't know the show, as a bantery college romance with psychic shenanigans! In which the hero is the ADHD kid from story #1, all grown up and rakish! But you don’t even need to read that one first! Although you should have since I told you to read it! And then you can read:

 4. Or 3.5 “Two (or Three) Mutant Freaks and the Strictly Scholarly Collaboration” (Legion (TV)) --  …because it’s basically bonus scenes for #3, that place it into the universe of #1, ie, the universe where Cary and Oliver became friends in elementary school and so would already be besties when Melanie eventually came into their lives! It doesn’t QUITE stand alone, as it basically dovetails into #3, and assumes SOME basic understanding of Cary and Kerry’s relationship, but you’ll have that since you’ve already read #1!

 5. “Two (or Three) Mutant Freaks and the Adolescent Melodrama” (Legion (TV))--  Or maybe you’ve even read this one, which takes place BEFORE that in the Childhood Friends AU, Cary and Oliver’s high school years! It’s also kind of my treatise on asexuality through fiction! This also has the highest ratio of kudos to hits of all my fics so you know at least other people think it’s a good one!

 6. “Exploration of the Astral Plane: An Immersive, Multidimensional Study, by Cary Loudermilk, PhD, and Oliver Anthony Bird.” (Legion (TV)) --  Okay, this one DOES assume previous knowledge of the characters, but only what you would have already gleaned from reading #1, 3, 4, and 5. It directly leads INTO show canon events, but still 20 years before the show actually takes place, so all the prerequisite you need is in what I already told you to read, and it’s worth it because this is delightful and stuffed FULL of psychic shenanigans! On the negative side, things ARE about to go bad from a fictional standpoint, and from a real life standpoint I’ve been kind of STUCK on the next chapter for… many months now. Which is surely frustrating if you really want to get INTO the story!

 7. “The Invitation: an epilogue” (Howl's Moving Castle - All Media Types) --  This is lower in the list because it’s quietly becoming my most popular fic, kudos-wise (just one short of my Endgame fic already!) (WAIT, last minute update! Another kudos just came in today! It’s now TIED with Endgame!), so it doesn't really need extra advertising, but still pretty high because anything Diana Wynne Jones is wonderful and, dare I say, there’s a REASON for all the kudos? This takes place mere minutes after the end of the book— so you do need to have read the book— and yes, I honestly believe Howl and Sophie decided to get married immediately, for all the reasons Howl ends up listing in this story but ALSO because he knows in his heart this is the best way to keep him from slithering out of it at the last minute!

8. “The Puppy-Fly Effect” (Back to the Future (Movies)) --  Yes, and this is only lower in the list because it’s the first fic I’ve posted this year, which increases the likelihood that you’ve already read it! It’s another headcanon backstory! I suppose it’s mostly still understandable if you haven’t seen Back to the Future, but who hasn’t seen Back to the Future?! If you haven’t, go fix that first, THEN read my stories!

 9. “The Fall of [Spoilers Redacted]: a Freestyle Ballad by Lester “Apollo” Papadopoulos” (The Trials of Apollo - Rick Riordan) --  This is my attempt at writing a proper funeral ballad! I don’t know why I thought I could, but it was sure fun trying! And it’s not ACTUALLY that bad— some of it is even pretty good! As for whether you need to have previous knowledge of the books, hmm, well it definitely has SPOILERS for the first three books of The Trials of Apollo because it’s basically a RECAP of the first three books of The Trials of Apollo, so basically it’ll TELL you the story you’re not reading? Although there are also more than a few vague lines that are basically inside JOKES if you’ve read the books. So, I guess that’s why I haven’t listed this one higher. I don't know whether or not you had to have read the books before. And I'm also self-conscious of my poetic abilities. Although proud of them at the same time.

 10. “Rewind” (Original Work) --  Now technically I should have listed this one at the top, because it requires no previous fandom knowledge AT ALL since it’s an entirely original story! But I’m also less attached to it that way, since the characters— well, the main character doesn’t even have a name! It’s more of a plot-based writing exercise than a character-based one. I signed up for a fic writing challenge— such a challenge was how I got into fanfic in the first place— though this one is only tangentially related to fandoms— it hearkened back to a challenge the Inklings had once given each other. The challenge was that you have to explore a theme from a Christian worldview— mine is mostly about Humility (”Let go and let God” was my basis) with a touch of Stewardship and Grace— through a particular genre category— as Team Tolkien I had to do either High Fantasy or Time Travel, and I went with Time Travel, because it’s curiously a theme that shows up a lot in my fic! It’s much more PLOTTED OUT than I usually write stories, because it had to be, so, it’s pretty cool, you should check it out, even if I did list it last! This is still the list of TOP ten stories, even if there WERE only ten!

  

This Year’s Works In Progress:

 Obviously, the end of “Exploration of the Astral Plane” and most of “Tesseract.” I’ve got a few more Legion one-shots, too, with a small one that takes place in between seasons 2 and 3 that is almost complete.

 All the DWJ fanfic reading—see below-- inspired me to write my own headcanon crossover between HMC and Chrestomanci, in which Chrestomanci strongly suggests that Cat take on Morgan Jenkins-Pendragon as an apprentice. I don’t have much, but what I have is kind of perfect. I want to reread some more Chrestomanci to get me back in the voices, though!

 I’ve also made an attempt to wrangle my long and complex Ghosts I Have Been headcanons into a simple fic. Written in first person voices of hundred-year-past young adults in Missouri. Really have to do some rereading to make sure THOSE voices are right, too, before I share!

  

The Top 10 FanFics I READ

I guess this actually belongs up in the Media Review section, except it’s so closely tied to my writing fanfic. Usually, to find fics, I’d just click on the fandom name on one of my own fics and see what showed up that was interesting, which is why most of these are from fandoms I have fics in. But reading fanfic in general is something I’ve definitely done more of this year than I ever have before. Here’s the ten that, when I looked back through my AO3 history, stuck out as most memorable (in a good way). 

 I am not sure what order to put these in so let me split it up by fandom?

 I probably read the most in the various Diana Wynne Jones fandoms, which often cross over:

 “Little Saucepan,” by Batastrophe, a work both funny and touching in which Howl takes Sophie and Morgan to a real Welsh rugby match.

 “In Which Sophie Questions Howl's Hobbies,” by HannaM-- This has no right to work so well. It’s a meta crack fic in which Howl writes fanfic and somehow it’s both ridiculous and PERFECTLY PLAUSIBLE.

 “a map of those who used to live here,” by Pieandsouffle-- Lovely HMC backstory of how Michael came to be Howl’s apprentice. It may never be finished, but what is there is wonderful, so I hope it will be someday!

 “A Tale of Too Many Worlds,” by Rhymer23 --a Howl’s Moving Castle/Chrestomanci crossover that manages to be epic, in character, funny, and moving all at once.

 “Letters between the Related Worlds,” by Maman --  Another, much simpler HMC/Chrestomanci crossover told as a series of notes between the characters. I commented that I just wanted the letters to keep going!

There’s not enough Legion TV fic, especially fic that actually deals with MY favorite characters (Summerland Generation One! The Birds and Loudermilks! The ones that were created especially for the show and so don’t appear in the comics and that’s sad!), and when you take out sex-heavy fic there’s even less, but here are three I really loved this year:

 “Phenomena,” by Thornvale -- The most surreal and confusing yet gripping and in-character Legion fic I’ve read. And actually starring Summerland Generation One, for once! I LIKE when people put this much effort into Legion backstory!

 “Enter the Maze,” by Hexiva  -- Lovely surreal and twisty little brainwarp that also contains a bit of Oliver being delightful! YAY! Sometimes fics based at the time of the show DO feature delightful Oliverness!

 “When My Fist Clenches, Crack It Open,” (specifically chapter 187) by Versaphile -- Okay, while Versaphile is my #1 fic-writing cheerleader and I like to support what they do, I will admit this is an insanely long fic and I don’t expect you to read it unless you’re a Legion fanatic or someone who really wished Season Three could have just been David getting the therapy he really needed; BUT I have to shout out to this chapter, chapter 187, which is not only intense and surreal and amazing, it also uses one of my favorite picture books as a really appropriate basis, and it is absolutely the best thing I read in fanfic this year!

 It occurs to me that MOST Legion fic writers actually write fics that are surreal and trippy like the show, while here I am writing middle grade about people making friends. OH WELL, such am I.

 I have read bunches of Trials of Apollo fic, including some ongoing ones that are STILL ongoing, but only one made this top ten when I set out to pull the BEST ones out:

 “see you yesterday,” by JustMcShane -- Lovely post-series adventure for Apollo and Meg, that manages to bring in more and different mythology!

 And occasionally, through clicking on other users and such, I do end up reading fics in fandoms I HAVEN’T written for. I have no idea how I stumbled on this one now, but it IS probably my favorite of those I found:

 “Happily Ever After,” by PenguinsOnJumpers  --They haven’t finished with part “After” yet, but the first two parts are a rather brilliant mashup in which the Marauders of Harry Potter backstory find themselves in The Good Place as run by Michael and Janet. It really works and will satisfy fans of both properties!

And I think that's it! That's all I have to round up this year! And I'm actually publishing it IN 2021 this year! Normally we'd be watching a movie as a family at this time, but Maddie claims not to want to. Sam and his dad and I did have a family Mario Kart match or two this evening, which I was very bad at but was fun. There's still three more hours of 2021 and maybe we'll find something else holiday-esque to do, but for now, I will just publish this and say See you next year! like I'm being clever and all.

Oh yeah, and again, I'd REALLY LOVE for you to comment on something in this post!
rockinlibrarian: (rebecca)
 Hello, my electronically-accessed friends! I am writing to you today because that's how I organize my thoughts and bounce them off people when I have lots of potentially useless things bouncing around my head and the vague sensation that other important things keep slipping through unnoticed. I think it's that school starts in a few weeks. I'm lucky in that both my kids are twelve-and-up and they're both vaccinated, so I am not as apprehensive about school starting as I imagine parents with younger kids are (or at least should be). No, I'm pretty sure this is all the regular parent-with-executive-function-disorders school-is-starting-soon-so-what-are-you-forgetting-your-kids-need-to-do-first apprehension. Like my oldest who insists he's doing cross-country again but now he'll be in the high school (THE HIGH SCHOOL!) and the high school cross country coaches do a lot less hand-holding and the kid hasn't been running at all this summer and I have a feeling school will start and it will be WHY DIDN'T YOU DO ALL THESE THINGS FOR CROSS-COUNTRY FIRST and I'm already overwhelmed. Then there's the youngest with their currently untreated anxiety disorder, who is on a waiting list for therapy and refuses to take any sort of medicine in the meanwhile, and I'm like IS THERE SOMETHING I'M MISSING THERE, and then those are only the thoughts that HAVEN'T escaped me, so there's also AND WHAT ABOUT THE THING YOU FORGOT ABOUT???? WHAT THING IS THAT???? I reply. I DON'T KNOW, YOU FORGOT ABOUT IT.

Sometimes I feel like I should be crying, without any trigger. But it's not depression as much as Hello, The World Is a Mess and Everyone Is Just Trying to Hold It Together, Doubly So When Your Executive Functions Sucked To Begin With.

But that sounds moderately depressing, and I'm not depressed. I would actually be quite amused with my life if I had no responsibilities or potential-responsibilities-I-probably-forgot-about. 

(Also, I just looked down at myself and noticed I'm wearing this t-shirt, which is appropriate. But then, this t-shirt is always appropriate for me. That's why I bought it). 

For the past ...since April of 2020, I've been channeling my Sesame Street Staff Wannabe into my Mundo Monday storytime videos. Here's the whole playlist! Check them out! BUT, despite the Delta Variant and the fact that our audience can't get vaccinated, the plan is, still, to return to in-person storytimes at the library next month. Yeah, just typing that out feels weird. I will have you know that not only am I vaxxed, but I plan to invest in some clear face masks, to mitigate at least what I can? Anyway, though, but that means, as I say in my most recent and, for now, last video, I won't have as much time to devote to Mundo Mondays, so that's dropping back to, say, one episode a month. 

Thing is, Mundo has been sucking up most of my creative energy for the past year. And now it ISN'T. So guess what. NOW I CAN WRITE LOTS AND LOTS. 

I mean, theoretically. 

It's been almost a year since I've written for GeekMom, and recently I started thinking of actual GeekMom articles to write. I have several. They have several disconnected paragraphs each. It was a little over a month ago that I announced on GeekMom Slack that I think I might be coming back. I am, right? I think so?

And then I've got fanfiction. WAYYYYY back in my first few months on LiveJournal, I posted a whole thing wondering why I'd never gotten into fanfiction (this is the DreamWidth copy of the LiveJournal post). Well, it's 16 years later, and apparently I am now Into fanfiction. I kind of wrote about THAT before, a couple years ago on GeekMom, but I feel like this summer it's exploded. It used to be just a fairly focused compulsion to chronicle the coming-of-age of the Loudermilk Twins, with the occasional detailed rant explanation of why the writers of the MCU don't understand their own time travel rules, not to mention a few bits and pieces I'd written for my own amusement but never shared...or, for that matter, finished. And also, I didn't really READ fics. I mean I had enough trouble making time to read actual published books. 

Okay, so you note the past tense there? Yes, I've been reading a lot of fanfic this year. It's easy to get sucked into. And, being online, it's harder to notice just how long something is-- oh sure, the word count is there, but that's not the same as holding a big thick book, you know? And writing? I've been writing a lot. I just...haven't been finishing. 

For crying out loud. Now this blog post has the same problem. What was I talking about, again? What was my goal in writing this? Oh. To make my scattered thoughts more concrete and have other people look at them and say, "Yes, you have thoughts here, it isn't just your imagination." 

I have approximately 11 fanfics in progress. That isn't a wild and-possibly-exaggerated guess, that was me counting but being unsure how to count several things, which is the only reason it's "approximately." 

The majority of them remain Legion FX based, most massively two multi-chapter fics that are both being irregularly serialized on AO3 as we speak:
  • "Exploration of the Astral Plane: An Immersive, Multidimensional Study, by Cary Loudermilk, PhD, and Oliver Anthony Bird," which is basically the story of how Oliver got himself lost on the Astral Plane to begin with (for those not familiar with the show, Oliver is a character we only hear about, at first-- before he arrives in all his glory I love Oliver so much you have no idea-- because he's already been lost on the Astral Plane for 21 years). I have four of six chapters posted. Both chapters five and six are nearly done, except for the very end of chapter five, because the very end of chapter five is the moment Oliver finally goes and doesn't come back (for 21 years) and it's heartbreaking and perhaps that's why I'm avoiding writing it down. (THAT PART is. It's a story with a sad ending but honestly getting to that part is a lot of fun, not a downer at all).
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  • But much less heartbreaking is "A Strictly Scholarly Collaboration: the Original Romance of the Mind," which is the story of how Oliver learned to control his telepathic powers and fell in love with the help of his eventual wife, Melanie. It's a delightful bantery and actual-friendship-based rom-com that you really don't need any show-familiarity to appreciate, being that it's an origin story. There's only one chapter up yet, because somebody commented on one of my other fics and said Melanie is their favorite, and I was like, well, I'm almost done with chapter one of this Melanie-POVed fic, let's polish that up and post it! But chapter 2 is when we really start to dig into Oliver's psyche and that thing is COMPLICATED (by "that thing," I am of course referring to Oliver's psyche), so it's taking awhile, too. But that isn't to say I haven't written a lot of the stuff to come already, and I am so in love with Oliver, I'm serious, I can't wait to share this with the world, if I could JUST FINISH.
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  • Technically, I still have a bit to fill into "The [aforementioned] Loudermilk Chronicles," although that's a series of interconnected fics rather than one work with multiple chapters. I even have a placeholder for it in the series that says "Unwritten College Story." I must assure you that this story is more than theoretical! It has its own Scrivener file as well, with 681 words in it! It's going to tell about that period of time when Cary started taking Being a Grownup seriously while Kerry was still like, but wait, I'm developmentally 11, why can't you just be a kid like me still. But I don't actually have a plot to go with it, yet.
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  • So briefly, earlier this year, I thought, "So, when I finish these three, will I be done with Legion fics? I mean, it's not like it's still on the air, why would I keep getting inspired?" My muse immediately laughed at me and said, "But what if Cary and Oliver met when they were KIDS?" And so I had to start a whole Alternate Universe thread going down THAT path, which begins with one of my favorite fics I've ever written because it's basically just a story of two neurodivergent little nerds who also happen to be mutants (and the one's secret sister/alter/other-half) making friends-- you totally need no show preknowledge to appreciate it-- and yet it has gotten the LEAST number of hits of all my posted fics, which still makes me sad, so you should read that one. So anyway, I wrote them meeting, then I looked at adolescence and noted that their extreme distance from each other on the asexual spectrum might be a source of potential conflict in high school so I wrote THAT one, and then I said, "How does MELANIE fit into this timeline?" and as I'd already started writing "Strictly Scholarly Collaboration" I couldn't see that playing out any other way, but then I thought, well, it's the opposite now, I have to figure out how Cary and Kerry would fit into THAT story, and so I wrote a series of extra scenes that will slot INTO "Strictly Scholarly Collaboration," but of course I actually have to FINISH that story before I can finish the bonus scenes, no?
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  • And then I had a couple of Legion dreams that I thought would actually make decent fics, so I started jotting them down, too.
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  • And then out of nowhere I started jotting down a couple unseen scenes from within the show proper, too. So no, I'm not running out of Legion fics anytime soon. I just have to finish them.
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BUT. My taste for opening my gmail and seeing a notification from AO3 awakened a need for MORE. If you recall, in my End of Year Roundup I listed my works in progress (including the two multichapter Legion fics already mentioned here), I mentioned a Back to the Future backstory that I was only literally two sentences from finishing. It turned out to be two PARAGRAPHS (short ones, though), but still I DID manage to finish them and that became the first fic I posted this year. It had, as I said, been based on the headcanon backstory that had been living in my brain for years (and I had started to write down several times). And being that it's the most mainstream IP I've ever written about, it keeps getting read and racking up kudos (and some really nice comments, too-- I love comments. HINT, HINT). So I was like, "This is great! I have lots of other headcanons that could possibly be turned into stories! Maybe I should write THEM down, too!"

Do you know how many little headcanons I have for Diana Wynne Jones' Howl and Sophie? LOTS. That, also, is one of the many stories that fell victim to my Fictional Wedding Planning phase I had as a teenager (although I read it as an adult. Old habits die hard, okay?)-- but it was a delightfully madcap Fictional Wedding. I decided there would have been no engagement, and the wedding itself would have happened directly after the end of Howl's Moving Castle, because everyone was already there, including a Prince who could do all the legal stuff, and Howl wouldn't trust himself not to try to slither out of it if he put it off any longer. But I couldn't see him not wanting his sister and family at his wedding-- he loves them very much even if they fight all the time-- and they were the only people NOT there, for obvious reasons, so GETTING them there would be-- well, that would be a story in itself! Which is why THAT was the NEXT headcanon I decided to write down, and posted just the other week

And THAT was what got me addicted to READING fic lately. I mean, I was already reading more than I have been this year, but ever since I clicked through to see what else had been written about Howl and Sophie? Okay, it takes some filtering to avoid the ones from people who only know the movie-- because in that case they're writing about different characters entirely, let's be honest-- but once you find the book fans, you find a lot of DElightful little twists sometimes even worthy of DWJ herself. Also, even better, Howl and Chrestomanci crossovers! I love Chrestomanci, remember-- he's one of my top fictional crushes (hmm, have to add Oliver Bird to that list)*-- and good in-character fanfics remind me of that fact!-- and those crossovers also reminded me that I've always had another headcanon that Chrestomanci eventually wanted to take on Morgan Jenkins-Pendragon as a potential Chrestomanci, so then I started writing THAT fic. I haven't read the Chrestomanci books as recently or as often as the Howl books, though, so I really have to go back to that to make sure I'm getting the voices right, though some lines seem to be writing themselves --"“Why’s he a he?” “I’ve never known him by any other pronouns, and it’s not my place to inquire further.” “I mean why does the Chrestomanci always have to be a he? Why can’t Cat find a girl apprentice?”" You can tell that's an exchange between Janet and Chrestomanci, can't you? I could. I was very pleased that a Janet line popped into my head unbidden-- I don't think I could have defined A Janet Line directly. And then I thought of that and said, "Oh, that's very Janet. And also very Chrestomanci." Also there's this exchange:

“Hello, Morgan. I’m Cat.”

“Really?” The boy grinned and jumped down. “I’ve never met another one before!”

“Another what?”

“Another cat! Besides me!”

“I thought your name was Morgan.”

“It is. What’s your name?”

“Cat,” said Cat, who was becoming very confused. “Actually, Cat is a nickname. My proper name is Eric.”

“Oh. Why doesn’t anyone call me Cat?”

“I…don’t know?”

I MEAN. I can't help thinking of my feelings when DWJ died, that I had to somehow keep the flame alive, that I was being called to Keep Writing In My Own Unique Way because it's the uniqueness that's needed. Which may actually be a little bit of an awkward thing to point out when I'm talking about people channeling HER style? But no, it still feels kind of appropriate. Like she'd be proud of me for writing these silly little fics. Do you know what that writing prompt was that I mentioned, in that post, getting carried away with on the day she died? Ye old "you get into a fender bender with your favorite actor and discover he has a dead body in his trunk." A few of you already know the significance of that (the few of you who have actually read the results), but, DO YOU KNOW THE SIGNIFICANCE OF THAT? THAT, my friends, was the prompt that launched the Pipeweed Mafia stories, another unfinished epic of fanfiction.

I thought of putting the Pipeweed Mafia stories on AO3 recently, too, but on reread decided that no, I am still uncomfortable posting fanfic of Real Living People online for the public** (I mean, at least I didn't write SMUT about Real Living People. But I did put Andy Serkis in a coma, and I'M SORRY, ANDY). And also, they're still not finished, either. It's amazing how attached I still am to Fictional Billy Boyd when it turns out I only have like half a page of him written. 

ANYWAY, so, before I started spitting out a Howl/Chrestomanci crossover, I'd already started another of my solo-Howl headcanon stories, too, ie, what happened at the Rugby League reunion the night before-- I've just always found amusing what kind of weird seemingly-nonsensical things a drunk How[el]l might let slip to his Welsh mates in his current state of high agitation. So there's that.

And when I started writing "The Invitation," I was thinking, you know, I should just embrace my tendency toward Imagining The Wedding and make a whole collection of fics called "How They Got To Married," although the actual interesting stories tend to be the How They Got There and not the Wedding itself. I can even put the "Strictly Scholarly Collaboration" in there, and maybe that'll inspire me to finish "A Guy That Can Make Her Laugh," my Zoe/Wash Firefly fic, too. And I remembered another such story that has actually survived in my head since my adolescence because it's just so complicated-- that would be How Blossom and Alexander from the Ghosts I have Been books Got To Married-- though so far that makes them the only couple in my How They Got To Married that DIDN'T canonically actually get married, although there are hints throughout the books that they COULD end up there eventually. But it's still far enough off that my path to get them there was REALLY complicated, which made me extra proud of it, which is why it has survived in my head for decades, so I started writing THAT one, too, or at least a scene that tied it all together. Extra fun because it's in Blossom's voice. I haven't really done a lot of first person fiction since I was a kid (and those I've done as an adult, such as certain scenes of the Pipeweed Mafia Stories, are first person AS MYSELF), so, fun! And then I decided to tell another bit from Alexander's side.

And yeah, if you looked at the list of WIPs in the End of Year Roundup, yes, I still have yet to finish "The Fall of [Spoilers Redacted]," which I'm totally leaving that "[spoilers redacted]" part in the final title because it's amusing to me, which is the ballad written by APOLLO THE GOD OF POETRY in the fourth Trials of Apollo book, because I am NOT Apollo and poetry is HARD. But I will do it someday, I promise. 

And if anyone's offering, I am still very willing to write the novelization of The Good Place. I've written a lot of that one in my head, but not down on paper. I'm not sure what the legality of that would be to share online, anyway. I mean I used real dialogue in my retelling of Legion episodes 6-8, but that wasn't the ENTIRETY of episodes 6-8 and was from a different pov and had a lot of made-up-by-me dialogue in it, too. Whereas my mental novelization of The Good Place is pretty much just The Good Place. 

And you know what? SOME times, I jot down random original scenes from completely original stories, often from dreams I had, but fleshed out into a proper scene. They kind of sit in my binder, seeds for something potentially bigger. Some of them are quite intriguing. If only I can just make an actual plot for them. 

So yeah, that's what I'm posting about. All the little threads of unfinished story in my brain. 

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*Looking at that old post, I have made a few interesting observations: I was talking about GeekMom as if it was all Other People, which it was, at the time; apparently Oliver Bird doesn't belong on this list anyway because I only allowed book characters; I am stunned and delighted that there are so many people in the comments specifically agreeing with me about Chrestomanci; speaking of the comments, it looks like this actually may be when and where E. Louise Bates and I became friends (her saying she had just followed me over from Kate Coombs' blog, which I guess would have been WHERE we met, but STILL-- this is an eventful thing, then! She's still one of my best friends-I-never-actually-met!

**I will share with you directly if you ask. I just don't want them OUT THERE.
rockinlibrarian: (rebecca)
 Well, everyone, suffice it to say I have been more than a little off this week. Last Friday I conked my head on a bookshelf at the library-- I'm not even going to attempt to describe here HOW I managed to conk my head as hard as I did, because I have a concussion and that story is way too complicated for my current executive functions to handle. So anyway, I have a concussion now? And the good news is, they ran all sorts of scans and stuff, and I haven't got anything scary like a broken skull or internal bleeding. I apparently don't even have any noticeable neurological damage-- my wackiness is no more than the usual ADHD (I joke, above-- it's possible my executive functions have been running slightly BETTER than usual, but for lack of proverbial Spoons). What I do have has been, basically, a weeklong migraine. It's also, naturally, That Time of the Month. So is my mood a little unstable? Yes, yes it is. 

But that just means I'm thinking of you. Yes, probably you, specifically. I'm not sure, since this is the internet and I'm never sure who's reading anything here. But probably, I'm thinking of you, and how much I MISS YOU.

Social media is good at keeping you vaguely in touch with people. But, first of all, THIS week keeping UP with social media in the first place isn't exactly regular since scrolling through it involves bright images moving past my eyes really fast which just is NOT COMFORTABLE when you have basically a weeklong migraine. But even without the concussion, social media depends on other people actually using it, and them having the Spoons themselves to interact with you; and most of my real life friends keep themselves to Facebook, and Facebook? With its wacked out algorithms and the fact that you can no longer read curated lists in chronological order? Half the time you don't KNOW what your friends are posting about, and if they've even SEEN what YOU'VE been posting. 

But it's also hard to have a DEEP conversation on social media. To really get into it. Now, the weird part is I'm terrible at having actual out loud conversations to begin with, so I wouldn't be entirely sure what I'm talking about right now, except that it DID hit me, yesterday, just what it is I'm feeling. I'm lonely for writing companions.

It was posting a fanfic that triggered it. First of all, the simplest factor was that the fic itself was about being a high schooler platonically in love with your best friend but the sexual attraction not matching up, WHICH, although the situation and story itself is quite different, did REMIND me of how I've similarly always been platonically in love with my high school best friend, too, and THAT reminded me of us IN high school, exchanging our writing and talking about creativity and building off of each other's weird ideas, so I got all aw, I miss you, Ang

The ironic factor is the weird thought progression I got into while posting it. This mean little negative voice in my head was like, "Why are you bothering to share this on social media? Nobody cares. Nobody's even going to look because it's Legion stuff again and nobody cared about that weird show but you, and even IN the itty-bitty Legion FX fandom, nobody cares, because they're all way more interested in the actual supposed MAIN characters of the show and you're the only one going on about Those Old Founders of Summerland and ignoring the main characters; people are just going to be ANNOYED by you posting this" (which, irony number one, I'm not even sure anybody on social media SAW it, social media being like it is)-- and then the mean negative voice softened into somebody a little more hopeful and said (and this is where the REALLY ironic part comes in), "What you really need to do is write ORIGINAL fiction again. Then people will read it." 

Which, what? I mean the benefit of fanfiction is that it comes with a built-in audience. You post it on AO3 and tag it with the fandom and the people who want to read about that fandom will COME TO IT. You've got to work a lot harder to get people to read your original fiction. So what was I talking about?

But, being that I already was thinking of Angie, I already had the answer. I was thinking about sharing writing directly with other writer friends, encouraging each other and exchanging ideas. What I wanted was a critique group

Ah, but critique groups are for SERIOUS writers, like I USED to be over a decade ago. People trying to get Published. YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO PUBLISH. Ah, but I'd like to! Wouldn't it be fun to work seriously again, with Goals

Well, what are you going to write about?

*crickets*

Honestly. At nighttime, when I dream, my brain makes up countless really creative stories (and, yeah, a lot of the truly boring same one about being in school and having no idea what your schedule is, THAT one is, I don't know, I don't want to read that one, either). But in the light of day when I try to think of something to write about, That Voice-- it's probably the same Voice, too!-- just keeps butting in with, "No one cares. No one needs your stories. You have nothing to say." 

I've even had the same problem trying to get back in the habit of writing GeekMom articles. I used to come up with a topic every week whether the Muse was biting or not (does that metaphor even make sense? I don't know, it just came out of my head that way. I have a concussion, remember? Yes, I'm totally using that as an excuse). Now That Voice is all, "Why start now? What have YOU got to say? You don't have anything to say." Frustratingly enough, I wrote this Facebook post the other week trying to explain why Dr. Seuss is not "Cancelled," and it kind of went viral, but it only occurred to me after it was no longer the Topic du Jour that I really should have written it as a GeekMom article. UGH, brain. I swear it's just trying to self-sabotage me. 

So I guess this other weird voice in my brain is convinced that IF I had something to say, THEN I could have the sort of friendship I'm craving, the kind where we inspire each other's creativity. And conversely, if I DON'T say something unique and necessary, then I DON'T deserve such friendship. 

I still get EnneaType Daily Reminder/Inspiration/Whatever emails, though I haven't given my Nineness as much thought ever since I found out Nineness and Inattentive Type ADHD were basically the same thing. But the other day it reminded me of a Nine thing that isn't so much an ADHD thing, but really describes what my brain is doing. Nines are so afraid of being cut off from people that they ironically cut THEMSELVES off from people first, before other people can do it. Oh. You ever THINK that you're lonely BECAUSE you don't put yourself out there? I mean, whodathunk? If you want people to write you letters you've got to write THEM letters? What's UP with that? 

So I guess this has been an attempt to put myself out there. Hi. I'm lonely. Will you be my friend? I have no idea what I'm doing and will probably do a crappy job at it, but I'm here, lost and just calling "Hi!" to the universe.


rockinlibrarian: (the end)
Well, hey there, everyone! Although I keep notes for this roundup throughout the year, I still didn't manage to get it edited together by the actual end of 2020 so I'm afraid it's going up AFTER the turn of the year. In case you feel that's an issue. Anyway, I look forward to these, so I hope you'll actually enjoy it too instead of ignoring it because it's so long (the hypocritical part being, of course, that *I* might not have the attention span for it if somebody ELSE wrote it, so I'm always self-consciously like "PLEASE  READ THIS THING BECAUSE I WROTE IT FOR PEOPLE TO READ!" even though I'm terrible at doing that myself). I make sure to use lots of strategic bolding and font-size switching to make it look less overwhelming than the huge block of text it could be, right? You could just scan for parts you're interested in. Although then you might miss parts you COULD be interested in if you just TRIED. I am a terrible ADHDified role model for you all. 

It is full of links to things I have previously written, things that tell you more about the topic (usually the book in question), and in some cases to the things in question themselves. Follow the links! 

 Life Events

Stuff that Happened In This Household This Year

     1. Um, there was a Pandemic? Though, being a homebody, I kind of like being locked down. The first couple of weeks when nobody had a plan it was like a vacation! I got so much writing done! Then Society started expecting things of me again and we had to do things like keep school and work schedules at home and attend Zoom meetings and suddenly it got stressful again. But I've still been taking advantage of avoiding going out the best I can. I use Instacart an awful lot now, for one thing. 
 

     2. And how this affects my children: Sam has had trouble regulating emotion and fitting his ADHD brain into a school setting for years, and early in 2020 he was really struggling, to the point that we FINALLY got wrap-around services-- in-home family counseling, which we had been trying to get for years. We had one meeting and BAM, LOCKDOWN! So we reverted to Zoom sessions, but the guy in charge had a very boring voice, and nobody wanted to participate in the sessions except me. And ironically, the switch to at-home schooling took away most of the stress Sam had been under that was causing the struggling in the first place! As it turned out, by the end of the 6 month program, Sam was doing great again, in school and out. MADDIE, on the other hand, was NOT adjusting well to remote schooling, and being remote from PEOPLE has made her social anxiety flare up, and stress makes her migraine and digestive issues flare up, which just makes her anxiety flare up more, which... anyway, it's like my kids just switched who's having the most psychological issues, which is nice in a way because at least they're not both having issues at the same time.

3. J’s knee surgery: speaking of early in the year medical issues that got COVID-delayed, Jason "hurt" his knee exercising in January-- I use scare quotes because he'd really hurt his knee 11 years before in a car accident, and the exercising had just reaggravated it. The doctor regretted to inform him that it would only get worse over time, and he'd never have a fully-recovered knee again, but he could make it a little better with some meniscus surgery. This was scheduled for, um, late March. So it didn't happen in late March after all! It got pushed off a month at a time but finally happened in June, which, no matter how the kids try to blame ME for not making proper PLANS, is the real reason we didn't go camping this summer for the second year in a row. Speaking of last year's excuse, though, we DID finally get our new

4. Retaining Wall by the driveway put in! And we went ahead and replaced the sidewalk all around the house, too! I did lots of flowery landscaping that I of course later forgot to water once the weather dried out!

5. Also, we realize we are very fortunate, and neither Jason nor I had to even worry about losing our jobs this year. And not going much of anywhere saved us money. So when my used-car-we-bought-from-a-friend-for-the-cost-of-the-insurance-money after MY last car accident two years ago broke down again, we decided it would be more worth it to buy a new one even though we hadn't yet paid off Jason's car. But Jason really wanted a pickup truck, so we crunched the numbers and guess what, we could do it, so not only does Jason now have a truck, but I've instead got Jason's old car, which is quite nice and has radio controls in the steering wheel. That's an important feature. 

In other fun things we spent money on this year news, I got a multipurpose "Air fryer toaster oven" for Christmas, which we have been playing with quite a lot this past week. It's not only good for crisping up leftovers and "fried" style foods, but has also been used to rise bread dough and make fancy garlic cheese toasts, and WILL be used to dry herbs and rotisserie-cook a chicken or two. I often include a "Christmas Loot" category in these roundups, but though there have been many good presents all around this year, that's the only one I really feel like going into, so let's move on.


Stuff that Happened With the Library, In Chronological Order:

1. Stupid Outreach cancellation: At the beginning of the year, the one township that gave money for me to do outreach visits to preschools decided not to give the library that money, so Peggy said Well then you’re not getting outreach visits, so for January I was feeling miserable and all the classes I usually visited were miserable and it was annoying. Finally enough people complained to the township that they relented and gave us the money again. So I got to go back on my outreach visits for like two weeks— or a month, two visits each?

…and then the pandemic hit so I haven’t done outreach since.
 

2. Mundo Mondays: And so we delve into the world of online storytimes. At first we tried Facebook Live readings, but I kept having ill-timed technical difficulties and Peggy got furious with me and it was just kind of disastrous, but once I proved I could do an AWESOME job if I PRE-RECORDED the storytime videos…things kind of snowballed. Peggy wanted me to do a storytime based on the “Mirrors and Windows” collection she’d had me work on last year, a storytime focused on “cultural literacy.” It would be on Mondays, and I thought “Mundo Mondays” sounded cute and was appropriate since Mundo means “World.” Eventually Mundo developed into a character, a puppet character like a globe with a face, representing The Whole World, because I’ve wanted to work for Sesame Street since my research paper on it in 11th grade and I guess all my pent up desires worked their way out into this. I was reading stories, I was puppeteering, I was writing a clever (I hoped) script for each week’s theme, I was RESEARCHING each theme each week to make sure I was getting things right, I was editing the videos, I was learning new tricks and special effects each week. In the end, Mundo Monday has been the single largest part of my year… and to be honest, I’ve loved it.

 
3. Escape Rooms: Peggy wanted to go ALL OUT with online programming, beyond just storytimes. Peters Township Library had gained a bit of viral fame with an online Harry Potter-themed “Escape Room,” so WE (read, “I”) had to do online escape rooms TOO! For multiple ages! With new ones every month! Well, I was already spending every waking minute on Mundo Mondays, and the Escape Rooms were even more complicated— not SO much, technically, they were just interconnected Google Forms— but I had to make puzzles and find appropriate Creative Commons images and hook it all together with a theme and THAT TAKES TIME. I was all set to argue that I couldn’t possibly come up with three escape rooms every month AND do Mundo Mondays, but as it happened no one TRIED my first batch of three, so the whole enterprise got pushed aside in the end, anyway. But the puzzles are still there! You can try them! Here’s a Three Little Pigs one for “families,” a Rumpelstiltskin one for school age, and a Greek Mythology one for teens and adults! Some of my coworkers think that last is too hard, but that’s the point! Have fun!
 
4. Undoing Grable kits: we had these toy kits— thanks to a grant from the Grable Foundation, hence the name— in big plastic bins, and they took up a lot of space and some were a real pain to transport, so in the fall I was given a lot of time off-desk with the orders to shrink the kits down, somehow, while they weren’t going out. So I took out the toys that weren’t circulating, put all the supplementary books and DVDs and stuff into the regular collection, and condensed everything else into smaller boxes, and I think I did okay, yeah? Plus, it was nice working alone in a back room uninterrupted— it was a little too quiet actually so I listened to podcasts (see below) and music, which was even better! When the time came for me to edit all the catalog records, my ADHD brain was unhappy with the tedium, but that only lasted a few days, so on the whole it was a fun task.
 
5. Okay, let’s round it off with 5 things, my current project is weeding juvenile nonfiction. But I really don’t have much to say about that.
 

 Top 5 Mundo Monday Episodes! If You HAVE to pick just five!

 1. November 2, “World Communication Day”: This was the real test of everything I’d been learning about editing: I had to make excellent use of green screen, timing, and positioning of illustrations to make Mundo and I have an ongoing back and forth discussion about the book, Du Iz Tak?, which if you don’t know is written in Bug Language and therefore must be deciphered through the pictures. It’s one thing to read this book live in person with kids you can actually ask questions of and hear answers; when you can’t actually interact with your audience, you’ve got to work out something like THIS. I say this is the top episode, and yet there is an editing error in which about a minute of Mundo monologue is missing, but still, when you think of everything else going on in this episode? I'm still proud.

2. May 11, “No Kimchi for Me!”: This was the first episode I prerecorded, which allowed me to basically turn it into a cooking show and add music. That’s probably why Peggy came back with “Let’s make this a THING! You need a mascot character of some sort!” and then I decided to embrace my Sesame Street geek fully and things quickly got out of hand….

 3. August 24, “Arabian Nights”: Being that the Collaborative Summer Library theme was “Imagine Your Story” I’d spent the summer on folk and fairy tales from around the world; it only seemed right for the grand finale of summer to be literally ABOUT the power of storytelling. So it’s Scheherazade time. Because I wanted to focus on the framing story of Scheherazade herself, it required a “telling” more than a “reading.” And I used illustrations from two different editions of the Arabian Nights, and turned it all into a sort of play between Mundo and I.

 4. The entire month of October, “Mundo Monday’s Monster Month!”: Okay, I’m cheating, picking four episodes at once. Strike that, five, the second week had a bonus episode because I couldn’t decide on a story and they were too long to do both. While the summer had focused on fairy tales, Mundo Monday the rest of the year tends to be a bit more realistic. But all my coworkers were doing Halloween stories for their October videos, so not to be left out I decided to highlight monster stories from particular cultures. I did chupacabras, the chenoo, Aglebemu, masquerades, and golems, and they were all GREAT fun. 

 5. September 7, “Neurodiversity”: in which I finally go #OwnVoices, and I enjoyed getting to poke fun of my own wacky brain. I mean, Mundo, being the Whole World, gets more leeway to tell all these stories of all the people all over the world, but I’m a naive little white lady sharing other people’s stories, mostly. But on this topic? I’ve got this. 

 Whew, that’s hard to keep to just five, even cheating and making it nine instead. Check out ALL the Mundo videos! I don’t know how long they’ll be up: technically the publishers will want us to take them down once in-person storytimes can start back up, so we’re not stealing their audiobook sales or whatever. So watch them while you can!

 Media Reviews

BOOKS:

Top 5 2020 Picture Books

1. You Matter, by Christian Robinson. I mean, yeah, a book all about how you matter, that could be trite. But it’s NOT, it’s PERFECT and DEEP and will make you cry with joy! If I was still doing my Happy Monday program this would be a clear pick for it.

2. We Are Water Protectors, by Carole Lindstrom and illustrated by Michaela Goade.  As an adult I know this is technically about the Dakota Access Pipeline and the Standing Rock protests, but the book is so much bigger, more epic, and by the end I’m all “YES! YES I WANT TO BE A WATER PROTECTOR, TOO!” I am most definitely using this in a Mundo Monday in April for Earth Day/Week/Month.

3. Joy, by Yasmeen Ismail and illustrated by Jenni Desmond. Again with books I would totally use in my Happy Monday program, which had been all about positivity. This is positivity with cute little animals!

4. Hike, by Pete Oswald. There are a lot of recent books called "Hike"? And so Junior Library Guild messed up and send us two of the same book called "Hike" and it wasn't this one, and so I sent one back and said No I want the OTHER Hike book. So when this one finally came I was glad because it was surprisingly epic. It looks small but it crams in so much, and wordless, too! 

5. Where’s Baby? by Anne Hunter. This one came in the Junior Library Guild subscription and I grabbed it off the new book shelf for a quick storytime and it was perfect, because it was both silly and involved a baby fox the audience could point out. Obviously this was in February when I actually had an audience at storytimes to interact with.

 

Top 5 2019 Picture Books I Crammed in January In Prep For the Mock Caldecott and Mock Geisel

1. The Important Thing About Margaret Wise Brown, by Mac Barnett, illustrated by Sarah Jacoby.  I am not entirely sure you can appreciate this book to its proper extent if you’re not familiar with Brown’s The Important Book— I am very familiar with it as it’s one of the main read-alouds in our Outreach collection. Barnett has captured the cadence and tone of Brown’s writing in his, and somehow manages to tell a proper complex biography of a proper complex woman in this format. It’s a feat, I say! Especially for someone who’s usually more prone to sarcasm in his writing like Barnett is! I was cramming for the Mock Caldecott, and the pictures are nice, too, but it was the words of this one that I really fell in love with.

2.Saturday, by Oge Mora. —You know, I don’t think this book is as perfect as her Thank You, Omu!, at least not as a read-aloud, but that isn’t to say I don’t absolutely love it, the bittersweet (and somehow more sweet than bitter) story, the collage illustrations— it’s just a beautiful book.

3. ¡Vamos!: Let's Go to the Market! by Raul the Third. This is one that requires much further study. I happened to be working with our Spanish Storytime lady the shift I read this, and I ran out to her like, “OMG I have no idea how you’d use this in a storytime but you HAVE to see it!” and she looked and had a similar reaction. It ended up winning our Mock Caldecott, but admittedly it was our two votes that tipped it over the edge. I can’t take credit for the description “Hispanic Richard Scarry’s Busytown,” but that is a very dead-on description, as is the lady at the Mock Caldecott storytime who pointed out that it’s a bit like Where’s Waldo. Endless fun exploring these pictures for sure.

4. You Are Home: An Ode to the National Parks, by Evan Turk: The title is kind of appropriately ironic for this year looking back at it: “You are stuck at home, so why not explore the National Parks through this book instead?” You almost CAN, the pictures are so epic and evocative.

5. My Heart, by Corinna Luyken: Okay, basically the title can be the description: “Oh, my heart!” It’s an absolutely SWEET little poem in words and pictures, and I wondered why I’d heard nothing about it beyond it making somebody else’s Mock Caldecott list.

 

Top 5 Older than 2020 (and some might be 2019 but I didn’t read them for the Mock Caldecott) Picture Books I First Read This Year

1. It Began With a Page: How Gyo Fujikawa Drew the Way, by Kyo Maclear, illustrated by Julie MorstadThis is all about nostalgia for me. My two favorite picture books when I was a very small child, the ones I could stare at over and over, were both by Fujikawa (Animal Babies--no wait I think it's this one, perhaps it was published under several different titles/editions?--and Let’s Eat). I knew nothing about her— not even that she WAS a her—until I read this, and it was fascinating, and I felt kind of amazed and lucky that I’d had two of her books in the 1970s in a Pennsylvania town with next to zero (if not zero) Asian population, considering how much she fought for inclusivity. Thank you for being one of my only two sources (with Sesame Street of course) of multiculturalism in my early childhood!

2. El Chupacabras, by Adam Rubin, illustrated by Crash McCreery: One interesting side benefit of us scanning the illustrations of our storytime books for videos is that I ended up studying the pictures way more than I normally would, and the more I looked at the pictures in this bilingual book, the more I was amazed by them. They’ve got that Adam Rex style of hyper-realistic surreal cartoon (as if that combination even sounds possible written out like that). And it’s a genuinely funny story. I was glad I didn’t shy away from the bilingual aspect to use it in the Chupacabras episode.

3. A Friend for Henry, by Jenn Bailey, illustrated by Mika Song: Aw, sweet little Henry trying to make sense of his neurotypical classmates! I love his observations, and especially the way his new friend at the end nonchalantly responds “I don’t like broccoli” to his seemingly random pronouncement of his dislike of triangles. That line just made my life. Made for some nice discussion of friendship in that Neurodiversity vid, too.

4. Meet the Latkes, by Alan Silberberg: The problem with Mundo Mondays, if there is one, is that since the focus is on ACTUAL PEOPLE AND CULTURES, there tend not to be very silly cartoon character voices to do (besides Mundo). I was delighted that this book seemed to be the best way to introduce my Hanukkah episode! It teaches but in the silliest way! My family maybe does not appreciate all the random bee references I have made this month! Watch my Hanukkah video so that you may appreciate them!

5. Riding a donkey backwards : wise and foolish tales of Mulla Nasruddin, by Sean Taylor and illustrated by Shirin Adl: Another opportunity to plug another of my favorite Mundo episodes that didn’t fit into the Top Five! Watch the Wise Fools episode! I am always a sucker for multimedia collage illustrations and these ones also have delightfully goofy expressions. And they’re funny stories. Um, also, watch the video.

 

 Top 5 Longer than Picture Books of 2020

1. The Tower of Nero, by Rick Riordan: Okay, I guess I’ll get to the whole of the Trials of Apollo series in the next category. I loved this series so much, probably most of all Riordan's series, and I kept rereading the end here and getting all teary-eyed over how much I love Apollo and how proud I am of his growth over the course of the series. We bought it just so we'd get it as soon as possible, so now I have it to occasionally turn back through and get teary again.

2. Sal and Gabi Fix the Universe, by Carlos Hernandez: Oh geez this book. You know how much I adored the first book in the series, last year. This book I adored less because the plot seemed to be all over the place, and one nightly reading session we read three chapters and I said at the end, “You know, I don’t think there was a CONFLICT in that entire section!” “So WHOLESOME!” Maddie said. Because you know? The characters and the plain uniqueness were all just so delightful, who needs a plot?

3. Race to the Sun, by Rebecca Roanhorse. Yes, okay, nearly everything in the “Longer than Picture Books” sections is either written by Rick Riordan or part of Rick Riordan Presents. My kids had their tastes, you know? And I didn't really read much that I didn't read to my kids. That's okay I guess, because I haven't yet met a book connected in any way to Riordan that wasn't fun (I was so-so on The Dragon Pearl, but that one was Sam's favorite, so it all evens out).  The little brother character in this one is very Maddie, so that amused us the most. 

4. Aru Shah and the Tree of Wishes, by Roshani Chokski. I didn't like this one as much as the second book in the series, but that might have been because I was anxious to get back to the Trials of Apollo? It was still full of fun surprises, and when I think back on it, the more bits and pieces I remember fondly, so I think I was just anxious to get back to Apollo.  

5. Memory Work: A Legion Fanzine, by, uh, various people including me. I'm sorry, if I didn't include this I'd have only 4 2020 longer-than-picture-books! And I'd put this on my spreadsheet at all mostly so I could get credit for "Read a literary magazine" on the Read Harder Challenge! --um, that's the spreadsheet I downloaded from BookRiot that's supposed to help you keep track of your reading for the year (Here's one for 2021!). It comes with a built in "challenge" of various types of books to read-- I got 16 of the 24 topics, so that's pretty good. Anyway, so right, it's a Zine full of stories so that technically makes it a literary magazine, right? Granted, there are more pictures than stories because there are only like five people even writing Legion FX fic, one of whom is me? I have an essay and a story in it. Somebody else besides me even wrote a Loudermilk-centric story too, though it is heartbreaking because they imagine them separated and fighting, my god, but anyway. I read the whole thing when I was at the hospital making sure my tailbone wasn't broken. Oh yeah, that happened to me this year, too. My tailbone wasn't broken, though, I just have a bad back and gave it a bit of a shock while trying to get down off the garden wall and missing.

 

Top 5 Longer than Picture Books Older Than 2020 I First Read In 2020

1. The Lost Girl, by Anne Ursu. There is certainly nothing wrong with a book being very commercially appealing, and the Riordan books are masterworks of entertaining storytelling and that's great. But I did notice a difference when we took a break from those to read this one, that the level of poetic-ness in the writing I guess was just that much higher. Oh, right, books don't necessarily have to JUST be a good story, they can be "literary," too! It helps if they are beautifully written AND have a good story, like this did. Even if the stakes may not be as dramatic as in most of the stories we've read, I was still pretty worried at many points!  

2. All the rest of the Trials of Apollo series, by Rick Riordan: Okay, as I said. There was something about poor fallen Apollo. He's so stuck-up as a god that I always brushed him off, but when all that is ripped from him, leaving him just a melodramatic teenager (though one with a LONG memory/history which leads to interesting incidents like Hanging Out With Ones Children Who Are Now Technically Older Than You)-- such a narrative voice! I really enjoyed reading it aloud. I wouldn't say I fell in love with him as that has too much connotation of Crushiness, and this was far more motherly of me-- but man I love that 4000-year-old kid. Yeah, he might be my favorite Riordan character-- just edging out Leo Valdez see below-- and his narration definitely makes this my favorite Riordan series. 

3. Tristan Strong Punches a Hole In The Sky, by Kwame Mbalia. So let me tell you about Gum Baby, speaking of voices. Gum Baby is SQUEAKY SASS. I had SO much fun reading Gum Baby that it'd get out of hand and I'd just start talking like Gum Baby randomly in real life. Judging by what I've seen of Kwame Mbalia's Twitter it's possible that he himself has the same problem. The book is very funny and also made me cry (Tristan is dealing with a recent trauma that I swear made me tear up every time the person involved is MENTIONED) and is about STORYTELLING and ANANSI is in it so allow me to plug yet another Mundo vid! (One in which I even recommend this book! And there was a reference to randomly going into Gum Baby voice but I think that's only in the outtakes, which I don't believe are online).

      4.Heroes of Olympus/Magnus Chase: Two series, I'm putting them both here in their entireties, because it mainly just sums up how we've read and enjoyed an awful lot of Rick Riordan this year. And we still haven't read the Kane Chronicles, and have more and more of the Presents books coming out! I wrote a bit about deep diving back into the Riordan-verse this year on GeekMom (and let me reiterate for the record, I AM a child of Hypnos, though I've changed my mind after spending more time at Camp Jupiter and Jason MAY be a child of Mars. Or still Athena). The Magnus Chase series turns out to be loosely connected to the Greek/Roman Riordanverse even though it's about the Norse gods-- do you know how long it took me to make the connection between Magnus and Annabeth Chase? Turns out they're cousins. And their family just seems to attract immortal-types. This is another great opportunity to plug another of my favorite Mundo vids, because I had Norse gods coming out both my reading sides at that time! The Magnus Chase series struck me as somehow just the slightest bit more YA than the other series? But it's Maddie's favorite, possibly because she (they) identifies with antisocial genderfluid artist Alex Fiero so much, but also probably because Vikings are just so stabby. 

5. Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States for Young People, by Roxanne Dunbar-Ortiz, adapted for "Young People" by Debbie Reese. This fascinating and shock-and-occasional-anger inducing book had a big effect on two pieces of my writing this year, this piece, "Who Tells Your Story? Acknowledging Bias in History," on GeekMom, and the essay I wrote for the above-mentioned Legion fanzine, which I'll go into more detail below in my Stuff I Wrote section. I feel both extra-interested and extra self-conscious about Native American issues since I've started spending so much of my writing energy on fanfic about characters who happen to incidentally be Native American, wanting to be conscious while at the same time knowing I'll never be right enough for it for Dr. Debbie Reese's tastes (she even takes serious issue with Rebecca Roanhorse, mentioned above, for not being Navajo ENOUGH). So that's the main reason I grabbed this book, but it's really good, see the GeekMom article for further thoughts!

 

 Top 5 Rereading Experiences

1. Lord of the Rings, by JRR Tolkien. I introduced the kids to Madeleine L'Engle several years ago, finally this year I felt they were old enough to meet Samwise Gamgee. Maddie maybe was not so much ready? "I just couldn't connect to it." But I'm okay with that because my SAMWISE enjoyed it. We finished last night, which is perfect, because as I'm typing this we're marathoning the movies just as we used to do on New Years Eve pre-kids. Maddie still isn't really paying attention, just looks up occasionally and says "Oh wait, what?" (Oh, here's a comment about Eowyn: "She's the only one I like." That's absolutely fair, she SHOULD be!) But Sam is appreciating Sam (and the rest-- well, he HATES Gollum, but as his namesake does, too, that's only proper) and that's all I need. 

2. Ghosts I Have Been, by Richard Peck. I can't remember exactly why we read this-- I think I pulled several books from my shelf I thought the kids might like, when we needed a new story but I wasn't going to the library for a few days, gave them an overview and had them pick. And I seem to recall Sam was the one who was most interested in this one, although I thought Maddie would be into it more. But every time I read this I'm struck anew how deeply it stuck itself in my creative subconscious! 

3. Mufaro’s Beautiful Daughters, by John Steptoe. I never really got the big deal with this book until I read it for the Cinderella episode of Mundo Monday (HAH I'M DOING IT AGAIN) and suddenly I was like, oh, this is LOVELY, I want to find ANOTHER excuse to read it for a storytime! I think part of the problem was that I'd first found it among a list of Cinderella read-alikes at a time when I was looking for it to be like Cinderella in OTHER ways from what it was, so I brushed it off then. But for this Mundo episode it was EXACTLY what I was looking for in a Cinderella story, and that allowed me to take the time and appreciate it for what it is.

4. Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland, by Lewis Carroll. I never get tired of reading this, seriously. I'd already read it to the kids, but Maddie ran into some fanart/vid/fic online and so she asked if we could read it again, and it's relatively short compared to most of the books we've been reading, and seriously, I just never get tired of reading it, especially out loud. And the kids COULD appreciate more things that they hadn't gotten the first time around. 

5. The Day You Begin, by Jacqueline Woodson. This was actually the first book I read for Mundo Monday, but you can't see that now because that was back when we were attempting to do storytimes over Facebook Live. I remember a comment on the Facebook post that said something like "What a lovely book!" and I agree (you may have noticed it made the top of one of my lists on LAST year's roundup. Or the year before? What is time?). Partly because that first storytime had been lost to the digital ether, I decided I could use it again in a Back to School episode (look, just binge them ALL) where I paired it with Woodson's Each Kindness, which feels like the best way to do it, totally, as they both deal with accepting your classmates but Each Kindness has a sad ending and The Day You Begin has a happy ending. And they both always make me cry. "It's always okay to cry if you feel like crying," Mundo says in this episode, speaking to the world something I wish I had heard more of as an oversensitive child! 


EPISODES:
 

Top 5 Television/Streaming Shows I Watched for the First Time:

 1. Gravity Falls: The kids and I binged this while we were all home sick right before the pandemic shutdown, when being all home at once was pretty special. As I pointed out to Jason, one of the writers is Matt Chapman of the Brothers Chaps of Homestar Runner fame, and it definitely has a similar sense of humor, but with a much higher animation budget.

2. Breeders: Co-created by and starring Martin Freeman, he liked to market it as “the dark side of parenting,” which belies the fact that under the yelling and swearing it’s actually really sweet. I got really fond of this sorry family by the end, and am happy to hear that they’ve managed to film a second season this fall to air next spring.

3. The Babysitters Club: What amazed me about this show was how true to the books it managed to be while still being up-to-date in ways that felt so natural you could swear that WAS how it originally went even though you know with your brain it’s not (like I KNOW a viral YouTube video had nothing to do with Stacie leaving her old school originally, but how else COULD it have gone? And I’m still not convinced Morbidda Destiny hasn’t always been Dawn’s aunt. Also, Mary Anne is biracial, which completely explains why she always wore her hair in braids, because it was “the only [black] hairstyle” her mom taught her white dad* to do before she died! *(Who is played by Marc Evan “I play Shawn” Jackson who is so perfect for the part I knew exactly who he was going to play as soon as I saw his name tied to the show.) And it’s funny to see these stories unfold as an adult now, too— completely different understanding of things now!

4. Muppets Now: Collected a bunch of new Muppet sketches and, while like all sketch shows it’s a mixed bag of quality, it all feels genuinely Muppetty, which is an improvement over many current Muppet things. But I really need some of the actual recipes from the Swedish Chef cookoff show, Disney, come on.

5. Staged: While I was cutting cloth for Christmas sweatshirts, I had caught up on podcasts, and wanted something I could watch a LITTLE while I worked, but everything on my long to-be-watched lists seemed to be more visual than I could multitask to comfortably. I opened Hulu and there this was on the “suggested for you” spread, one of those Lockdown Zoom shows, except this had been made by David Tennant (whose last name by the way I have always apparently been pronouncing wrong in my head? The accent according to this show is on the first syllable? And it still sounds completely wrong to me?) and Michael Sheen playing basically caricatures of themselves in quarantine, and since it’s mostly them talking and being Britishly Humorous it was pretty perfect for my exact needs— though there are a few great visual gags in there, too. And some amusing guest stars. Seems like they had fun making it, and that carries over. It was a bit like watching the last “podcast” I’d gone through, “The Darkest Timeline” with Ken Jeong and Joel McHale, which to be honest was less a podcast and also more of a recorded Zoom chat, but unscripted, which reminds me:

 

The Podcasts Category This Year Is Mostly Me Continuing My Faves From Last Year, But Here Are Two New Ones I Picked Up:

”The Darkest Timeline with Ken Jeong and Joel McHale” as I mentioned, which completely reminds me that I need to introduce my children to Community some time. They already use the phrase “Darkest Timeline”/various scenes from “Remedial Chaos Theory” memes without knowing the very important context!

”Below the Frame with Matt Vogel,” who is, if you don’t know, the current performer of both Big Bird and Kermit the Frog. He interviews fellow puppeteers and related professionals, and listening just further reminds me what a complete puppet geek I am and that I really am just acting out my fantasy of working for Sesame Street through Mundo Mondays. Also, I found out Stephanie “the new Prairie Dawn” D’Abruzzo is from McMurray, which must be a sign, right?  

 

Top 5 Returning Favorite Television Shows

 1. The Good Place: This was just a perfect show in its completeness and I not only want it in book form I want to WRITE the novelization of it, I don’t know why. “’Welcome! Everything is fine.’ The words were the first thing she saw when she opened her eyes, blaring off the wall in front of her, in bright green letters that almost seemed to glow. ‘Oh,’ she thought, ‘THAT’S good,’ and she smiled, even though she had no idea where she was or how she had gotten there. Everything was fine. The wall said so.”

2. Agents of SHIELD: This show decided to go down swinging, knowing it was the last season and that the MCU had abandoned it in some other timeline, so they just went all-out with ambition and twists and fun. And much as part of me refuses to accept their explanation of the fate of Daniel Sousa since it goes against my very determined headcanon, I can hardly fault them too badly since what they did with him (see footnote of linked GeekMom article for general spoilers) was so great. That was only vaguely spoilery because you know already that he’s in this season, right? I’m going to miss this show. This team has been my friends.

3. The Mandalorian: Which means I was happy to see Ming-Na Wen back in this season AND that, vague spoilers, she may become a regular in a spinoff series, even if she isn’t Melinda May— I can still hear her voice and feel weirdly comforted by it. BESIDES THAT, it’s good solid Star Wars-y fun, which reminds me of playing the RPG, as you’re in this familiar universe but on the outskirts of the Main Action.

4. Fargo: While I’ll agree with critics who complain the plot was lacking something this season, on the whole I enjoyed it far more than season 3. I was way more interested in the characters— though there were a LOT of them and therefore none of them seemed to get enough attention— and cared more about what was going to happen next than I ever did in the third season. Still the first two were the best, but I’m not going to forget the fourth anytime soon, either.

5. Animaniacs: It’s rare for a revival to feel exactly the same twenty years later, with updated lyrics in the theme song and thankfully less fat jokes in the content. It’s like it picked up exactly where it left off, though. And now I’m watching with my kids and we’re ALL laughing. I do wish they’d kept all the weird little interstitial bits narrated by Tom Bodett though. “Good Idea/Bad Idea” and the like were my favorite parts of the original.

 

MOVIES

I saved this section to write up last in my notes in the vague hope that I might actually watch some more movies this year than I have. I have such a long want-to-see list, but I can never bring myself to sit and watch any! But I got a few in, though I'm not sure how memorable most of them are to me.

     1. Hamilton: I mean, talk about one I already know word-for-word from the soundtrack. But it was fun to see how it actually plays out on stage, and the artsy-ness of the choreographed effects, and also Maddie watched with me because she independently decided she likes Hamilton now because her friends do. I was like WHAT? When you used to COMPLAIN ALL THE TIME? and she's like, "I only don't like it when YOU play it."

2. Knives Out: I hate the word “Knives,” (sorry Maddie-- though Maddie's favorite word is actually "knife," singular, which doesn't grate on the ears in the same way) but I powered through one day while I was sick and lying around, for the sake of this movie seeming to be right up my alley. Which it was. It was delightful. I always forget about how much I love mystery as a genre --especially quirky ones-- until I'm in the middle of one again.

     3. Rise of Skywalker: Eh you know, I think this is a bit unfairly maligned. It did feel pasted together and a little improbable, but it was enjoyable, and there’s nothing I’m really unhappy about that could have been changed without bringing Carrie Fisher back to life. I mean every thing I'd most definitely change would have required that.

4. Two different recordings of stage Much Ado productions: I really don't know why I felt compelled to watch two different stagings of the same play (even if it is one of my favorite Shakespeares and probably the one I HAVE seen the most different productions of at this point) in the course of this year, particularly when there's so many other movies I've never seen before on my want to see list. And I'd have no idea how I'd rank them against each other when they each have different positives and share the same unavoidable negative (I always forget how badly you want to SLAP some sense into Claudio until you're stuck watching him be an idiot for way too long again)-- on that point, the 2019 Shakespeare In the Park production that aired on PBS had a slight advantage, because Claudio* was played with just the right amount of naivety and gullibleness so you felt a little sorry for him instead of JUST wanting to hit him. That production--set in an African-American community in modern-day Georgia-- also had an excellent Beatrice, an interesting--and female-- twist on Dogberry, and a lot of fun audience interaction. The other production was one set in the '80s starring the aforementioned David Tennant and Catherine Tate-- now, I know they used to star on Doctor Who together but I've never seen those seasons, so I had no pre-bias of them together coming in, but the main positive from THAT production was, WOW, their chemistry. They just played off each other astoundingly. They had better B&B chemistry than Branagh and Thompson did who were even MARRIED at the time. *(Who was played by Ptonomy on Legion. I kept staring at him the whole time going "where do I know him from?" and only figured it out when I saw his name in the credits. I brought this up on Legion fanwriters' Discord and we all agreed that Ptonomy played a very good Claudio, but that Dan Stevens had also played Claudio once and the whole idea was moderately horrifying).

5. Tie between Frozen 2 and To All the Boys: PS I Still Love You because neither of them are standing out much particularly so I guess they both make the list. The former was still extremely good, though, and the latter was fun and still puts me firmly on team John Ambrose. So that's that.

 

 Other Stuff I Wrote

Here’s the problem with this year and writing. From May on, I was writing Mundo Monday scripts. I didn’t have to write scripts for regular old storytimes, but when you’re working with a puppet, things get a little more complicated. I discovered that all my creative juices were being sucked up by Mundo, and even when I had time to write other things, more often than not I didn’t have the brainpower. I all but quit blogging, for both GeekMom and this personal blog, and I started lots of fics but rarely finished them, including a very short one I even began some years ago, wrote the bulk of this year, and now there’s like, two sentences left that I can’t seem to just knock out because my brain is annoying like that.

 

The Best Of My 2020 GeekMom Articles

 A few of the bests, such as "Who Tells Your Story?" and the Agents of SHIELD celebration, have already been linked in prior sections here, so this list is just of articles I HAVEN'T linked yet. Even though those two should be on this list.

1. "Bound Only By the Limits of My Imagination,"  In which I compare myself to Leo Lionni's Frederick and rejoice in that first few weeks of blissfully uninterrupted lockdown being rather nice for my creative mind. 

2. Conversely,
"
There’s Too Much to Do During a Quarantine," in which I really don't understand why so many people think being stuck at home is "boring" when I can't even decide what to start with!

3. "Tricks to Play on Your Brain," in which I trick my brain into writing an article by writing an article about how to trick my brain into writing an article. It's brilliant.

4. "How Do You Find a Word That Means Disordered?" In which I think about the many terms used to refer to people who probably had ADHD over time, and realize that Oscar Hammerstein II already wrote this article in song form in 1959.

5. "A Reminder About Story Middles: Heroes Don’t Give Up,"  in which I talk about Samwise some more, actually. And related stuff. 


    

The Grand Total of my 2020 DreamWidth Posts

1. "IMPORTANT PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT," in which I am waiting for COVID testing results and I warn everyone to take stuff seriously. I turned out negative for COVID-- and again when I got tested again in the fall, and now I'm just grudgingly accepting of the fact that I have a chronic dry cough and that's going to be disturbing for awhile-- but the points I made in this post still stand!

     2. "Reminder about Who Tells the Story," which is DIFFERENT from the "Who Tells Your Story?" GeekMom post but is still about stuff I KEEP SAYING, which is pay attention to where you're getting your information and how the information you get can sway your opinions!

     3. "It's Kind of Like a Really Long Twitter Thread," which is basically stream of consciousness and in which I actually mention a lot of the things I've mentioned in this round up, now that I look back on it.

 

The Top 5-- actually only-- Fanfics and Related Stuff Published in 2020

Sorry, it’s still all Legion-based. No, I’m not sorry, deal.

1. “We Will (Not) Always Have Each Other”: In the first few weeks of lockdown, when everything really WAS locked DOWN and conversely up in the AIR and I therefore blessedly had NO RESPONSIBILITIES BEYOND FEEDING MY FAMILY, I hunkered down and wrote this masterpiece (I know, but it is the one of my fics I most enjoy rereading. I keep getting sucked in)—basically episodes 6-8 of the actual show, but from the point of view of the Loudermilk Twins as they are in my head with the long coming-of-age backstory I’d written for them. It helps that they actually DO have a clear story-arc across these episodes, just for them. Now, obviously, this is a retelling of actual canonical stories so there ARE spoilers, though honestly? If you never intend to watch the show? I’m curious what it’s like to read this without knowing ahead of time, I did my best to make it self contained. SO READ THIS IF YOU HAVEN’T WATCHED THE SHOW, I WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE TO READ THIS WITHOUT ALREADY KNOWING WHAT’S GOING TO HAPPEN/IS HAPPENING. Obviously a lot of the dialog is lifted directly from the show, but because I show some different scenes and start or end actual scenes in different places (and in fact DON’T show scenes if they lack sufficient Loudermilk content and even a few that do), I have written much of my own dialog also, and CAN YOU TELL WHICH LINES ARE MINE AND WHICH ARE HAWLEY’S? IT’S A FUN GAME!

2. “The Social Experiment”: Part 5 of the Loudermilk Chronicles, aka the high school story (the parts are chronological by age of the twins, not by when I wrote them), I did the bulk of the writing for this one last year, but only finished it in February, and it’s dear to my heart, because it’s the token Awkward High School Dance incident that every coming of age story apparently needs, but better because I put a lot of my own teenage feelings and issues and events into it. It just so happens that they all make sense for a 15-year-old Cary as well. We need more awkward high school stories from the point of view of introverted gray-ace nerds! It was kind of cathartic, really.

3. “The Necessity of Relational Differentiation”: Part 8, age 25, though Kerry is developmentally 12 and that’s more relevant for this one. I decided I wanted more stories about Cary and Oliver being Science Bros together (see below in the “unfinished” category), and I wrote the first two paragraphs of what became this, but then I realized I was writing it from Kerry’s point of view and she was jealous. So, there ya go, another for the coming of age series. It’s sweet, and you get to see Melanie go into therapist mode too. 

4. “Finding Mama Loudermilk”: So, the Legion Zine, Memory Work, mentioned above! I knew I wanted to submit something but I wasn’t sure just one ordinary little fic would be worthy. But the submission guidelines also suggested essays, and I thought, I’ve got it, I want to write about everything I’d gleaned and inferred about Cary and Kerry’s mother in the course of writing their backstories. She’s an interesting character when you think about her, even if you only get a brief unspoken flashback of her canonically! I got to write about everything I’d learned about the Residential Indian School system in the Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States I mentioned above, history that had a huge effect on what Mama is like in my stories even if I didn’t realize it when I was first writing it! I swear it all existed independent of me and I just uncovered it in my writing! I mean, it’s weird how I’m convinced everything I wrote about her is True even when very little of it actually shows up in the show.

5. “The Principle of Bygones”: Part 9 and the final part of this actual coming-of-age Loudermilk Chronicle business— I’m writing other stories but this concludes the arc of their childhood, even though it happens when they’re 52, because it’s about closure with their parents. BOTH parents. It seemed like the natural story to pair with my essay about Mama in the Zine, so you’ll find it there as well as (now) on AO3.

 

The Best fics I Put a Lot of Work Into This Year But Haven’t Finished yet:

This is the section you can read and say, “Hey Amy! That one sounds cool! I want to read that! You’d better finish it for me!” and maybe that will be the shot of accountability I need to do so!

 “The Puppy-fly Effect”: The very short fic I started several years ago and have SERIOUSLY LIKE LITERALLY TWO SENTENCES I CAN’T SEEM TO KNUCKLE DOWN AND PUT INTO WORDS, but they’re the inciting action so I definitely need them, is also the most mainstream fanfic I’ve ever worked on (even the Endgame one was based very much in Agent Carter, which not nearly enough people— but I’ve said that all already), so that means maybe you’ll all care! It’s my Back to the Future how-Doc-and-Marty-became-friends fic! I spent a day researching electric guitars for this thing, so I’d better finish it! And when I do, if I put it on AO3 before the next fic on this list, that means ALL THREE of the separate fandoms ON my AO3 will have alternate timeline storyline fics! I am not sure if this says something about me!

“The Fall of [Spoiler Redacted]: A Freestyle Ballad by Lester ‘Apollo’ Papadopoulos”: so at the beginning of the fourth book in the Trials of Apollo, Apollo— the GOD OF MUSIC AND POETRY MIND YOU— launches into an epic funeral ballad, but the ballad itself is not written in the text since it’s basically a recap of the first three books. But it’s described in such a way that my masochistic brain for some reason went, “Hey, that would be fun to write!” even though I am NOT A POET AND THIS IS SUPPOSED TO HAVE BEEN FREESTYLED BY THE FRIGGIN’ GOD OF POETRY EVEN IF CURRENTLY IN A FALLEN STATE. That said, it HAS been fun to write. I have about three verses left— of about 18-20? —and some of it is actually pretty good. So I’ll get it to you eventually.

And then, I regret to inform you, the bulk of my fanfic writing has STILL been Legion-backstory:

“Exploration of the Astral Plane: An Immersive, Multidimensional Study, by Cary Loudermilk, PhD, and Oliver Anthony Bird.” I like to give all my Cary-fics titles that sound like scientific principles but I went straight up research paper for this one. The story itself does not READ like a research paper though, I promise. It is at times very funny even (although it will, by nature of canon, have a sad ending— UNLESS YOU READ MY ALTERNATE TIMELINE LEGION FIC THAT HAPPENS TO PICK UP RIGHT BEFORE YOU GET THERE!). But there is just so much potential to write about Oliver’s early Astral Plane discoveries that this thing is really long, so much that I’ve decided I’ll probably end up putting it on Ao3 in chapters. EXCEPT I HAVEN’T EVEN MANAGED TO COMPLETE ONE CHAPTER YET. Which is annoying because so far Chapter 3 is my favorite and I can’t wait to share it with the world.

Untitled Melanie and Oliver Love Story: Yeah, I’m definitely not the sort of person who got into fanfic for the shipping (even less for the smut), but this is the sort of love story I like— all mental rather than physical, rooted in BANTER— seriously, when you pair this with the only other romance fic I’ve ever written, which is the Zoe/Wash Firefly one (also not yet finished), you kind of get the picture that the only romance I write is banter-ful hate-to-love backstories for canonically married couples in cult sci-fi TV shows. I don’t have a problem with this. Anyway, I don’t know what inspired this, maybe that the Birds never got enough happy time together in-show, and the hints Melanie gave that she had a big part in helping Oliver learn to control his powers, and the fact that I’m pretty sure Oliver has ADHD, made me go hey, there’s a story here, and there is. It’s sweet, and someday I might finish it.

 

 So, there's all that! I know it's long, but I invite, nay, beg you to comment on things! Argue with me on my opinions! Share your own thoughts! Thank me for recommending things! Whatever! I like to hear from you!


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 First, I apologize for people who might only follow me through this blog, and not on social media or elsewhere. I realize I last left you here with the statement that I probably had COVID-19, and then you never heard from me again for two whole months! What the heck?! Well, obviously now that I AM here, I am better now. The test incidentally came back negative, though my basic message stayed the same, ie BE CAREFUL. I’m really kind of concerned about how people are acting around here just because we were on “yellow,” and tomorrow we go to “green”— people are like “YEAH WE CAN GO OUT NOW, LET’S GO EVERYWHERE, I HAVE NO CONCEPT OF SOCIAL DISTANCING.” And too many— it seems to be overwhelmingly men?— seem to think a mask is for protecting ones chin? This dang guy working at Lowes the other day, had his mask over, like, his lower lip?—he kept scooting closer to me than necessary to help me, and then he stuck his hand on the handle of my cart for awhile— I was really rather grossed out by that. Goodness knows what he thinks NOT social distancing looks like.

Anyway, I’m here today to talk about a different matter of current events, although some of what I say can also be applied to pandemic information.

You know how yet another black man was murdered at the hands of the police and there’s protesting going on?

You know how I’m a white woman who grew up in an extremely white community and I have absolutely no credentials to be talking about race? And whenever well-meaning white people try to find something to do in situations like these they hear seemingly contradictory advice, both “Shut up and let the people affected talk! Don’t center the conversation on you!” and “You need to speak up! Silence is acceptance!” and people like me (not white, but shy with deep self-esteem issues) who have always had issues believing anybody ever needs to hear them anyway are like, “But, but…WHAT?”

See, the thing is, majority people shouldn’t speak FOR minority people. Majority people certainly shouldn’t pretend to be experts and TEACH the people actually experiencing the problems about their own problems. But majority people SHOULD speak to others in their majority. And it occurred to me that I DO have a certain expertise about one ASPECT of all this, and it’s my vocational DUTY to speak up

Look, I may be clueless about a lot of stuff, but I have a Masters degree in Information and Stories. And what I see a lot of majority (in this case, non-Black, but in other cases it could be Straight, Middle-Class, Non-Immigrant, Mainstream-raised-Christian, whatever) people getting stuck on, over and over, are matters of Information—what information you have and whether that information is valid-- and Stories— the narratives woven based on whatever information is presented, personal experience, and, most importantly, who it is telling the story.

To be honest, I’ve talked about this before. I wrote about how history is taught with bias here, and specifically how both news stories and our own perceptions can bias what we understand here. But I feel it’s worth bringing up again, before the point is lost in the fog of side arguments and defensive reactions.

In this case, we as non-Black people have been privileged to not experience the systematic injustices and the countless microaggressions, so it’s easier to believe the people who say “It’s not really that bad, they’re just being dramatic,” or “White people get killed by police, too!” or “But not all cops!” or “These protesters are looting and destroying property and that doesn’t make it right!” We have to be aware of who we’re getting our information from and who’s pushing certain narratives over others.

The fact that people on the scene have noted that the protests are primarily peaceful, and violence is either found to be incited by outside opportunists who come in just to start trouble, or by overarmed “peacekeeping” forces— militarized police teams and National Guardspeople— who attack the crowds with violence over the slightest excuses, well, it shows how necessary it is to look carefully. Are you being swayed into writing off all protesters as violent, so you don’t take their message seriously? (Remember how the football players tried to peacefully protest this very issue by taking a knee during the National Anthem, and people were like “Well, that’s just DISRESPECTFUL!” and then when people protest the issue in a more disruptive way people are all like, “Well they should find a more PEACEFUL way to protest, we’d have listened!” and you’re like “But they DID! And you didn’t listen then!”) Is your attention being drawn away by the “Not ALL white people” or “Not ALL cops” or whatever pleas? (Yeah, you SHOULD note that there ARE good cops out there, and the good ones have been spotted standing in solidarity with the protesters, not saying they shouldn’t bother protesting!) Do you latch onto evidence of anything the protesters do wrong as justification for the excessive force used by the police? (Remember the other week when people protested lockdown restrictions by storming government buildings with guns and spitting on people during a pandemic, and law enforcement did NOT subdue them with tear gas or rubber bullets? Also, did you notice THOSE protesters who the police did not violently subdue were all white?)

I thought this was an interesting observation. Three sentences in a tweet from the NYT describing violence at protests, and the sentences are structured differently depending on who’s doing the violence. The one sentence describing an injury caused by protesters themselves is in active voice— “Protesters did this”— but the two sentence describing (incidentally more serious) injuries caused by police are in passive— “Person WAS HURT in protests.” The result gives the impression that the protests themselves are violent, but NOT that the supposed “peacekeepers” are the primary instigators of the violence. You see how this subtly reinforces the notion that the protesters are responsible for the violence by protesting, even though the facts say otherwise.

So, that’s me speaking up in a way in which I have authority, to people I have the right, nay, responsibility to speak up to. Don’t let the spin keep you from seeing what is truth and what is propaganda. Listen to the stories of those whose voices have been written off by the primary narrative.  (And I’ll link to this article one more time): be aware of biases and don’t let the biases make your decisions for you.
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IMPORTANT PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT: Maddie and I are now officially mild but Presumed Positive cases of COVID-19. Before you freak out, I said MILD. We’re going to be fine. This isn’t about us. I make this announcement so you have a better understanding of what this social distancing stuff is all about. To protect OTHER people, and to share points I wish I had known that were getting lost in the general panic.

The TL;DR of it is: most people who get this are not going to die, true. In fact, they MAY NOT EVEN REALIZE THEY HAVE IT. Which is WHY EVERYONE, regardless of relative healthiness, needs to practice social distancing/self-quarantine, because you could think you just have a little cold and then you go out and KILL PEOPLE FOR WHOM IT IS NOT JUST A LITTLE COLD. It’s not about you getting sick, unless you ARE in an at-risk population of course—it’s about you not getting OTHER people sick. Also, you can’t come visit me and/or take me out for my birthday. Unless you want to like, bring me a couple bags of potting and/or garden soil, leave them on the patio, and yell “HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” in the window, and I’ll yell, “THANKS YOU’RE AWESOME!” from inside, and that’ll work. Not sure any garden stores are open right now, anyway.

Here’s the full story/details, so you can see how this is happening:

We got sick at the beginning of the month. Maddie had a fever for a couple of days—I did not, in fact I only took the opportunity to stay home from work because the kids were sick (Sam was also sick at that time, but his symptoms are all gone now), because I felt like I was just coming down with a cold. I had a sore throat and a little fatigue, a lot of coughing but sneezing, too, and everything that was coming out on the news said COVID-19 didn’t involve sneezing. Besides, there wasn’t a single known case in the entire state of Pennsylvania at that time. When Maddie’s fever had been gone for the required at-least-24-hours, she went back to school, because she’d already missed a huge chunk this year from her recurring migraines, and it was JUST a little cough, right? Being that I never developed a fever, I went back to work as soon as I could, too. I wrote this article about this, about how our society trains us to JUST KEEP ON PLUGGING if you can get out of bed: https://geekmom.com/2020/03/family-sick-days-can-be-good/ I still figured WE didn’t have the Big Scary Disease, though, and it wouldn’t hurt to go out in public. Long as we’re practicing good hygiene and whatnot.

After a week or so I developed the Red Flag symptom, the one thing on the “COVID vs Flu vs Cold” charts that only showed up in the COVID column—shortness of breath. Here’s the thing. I’m out of shape. I’ve let my exercise routine slide for the past half a year or so. I figured it was just because I WAS out of shape, and felt ashamed. Too ashamed to admit to anyone I was even HAVING this problem. It wasn’t BAD, it wasn’t like a full-on asthma attack or anything. Just a constant tightness in my chest. Earlier this week I carried a bunch of laundry baskets upstairs, and that did me in. I laid on the bed with my heart pounding, trying to catch my breath, feeling AWFUL, and that knocked some sense into me—maybe it was MORE than being out of shape.

By that time the school and library had closed. They were still working at the library, behind-the-scenes stuff, and I tried to go in, but when everyone realized I wasn’t feeling that well they were like “NO, GO HOME,” and I didn’t argue. I wrote THIS article about the relief I felt when everything closed, then how that relief started to fade as I realized people expected us to still DO stuff: https://geekmom.com/2020/03/theres-too-much-to-do-during-a-quarantine/ In retrospect, of COURSE the thought of Doing Stuff exhausted me. I AM supposed to be resting, not keeping busy!

Maddie, for the record, wakes up every morning and just says “I hurt.” I try to get more specifics than that, but that seems to be what it comes down to. Her throat hurts most, and occasionally her head, and often just everything. I keep asking about her chest/lungs, but that doesn’t seem to be bothering her. She often has no appetite, which is not something I’ve noticed in myself. And we both have wildly fluctuating energy levels—one moment we’ll feel almost-fine and be hopping around as usual, the next moment we’ll be falling asleep in our chairs (or in her case, often, on the floor).

On Tuesday Jason came home from work early because a guy he’d worked closely with was now being Presumed Positive, too (I’ll get to the “Presumed” stuff in a minute), and now everyone who’d had contact with him was on self-quarantine/work from home. That guy had also gone to work for nearly a week before he felt the need to stay home. This was the same day I did myself in by carrying laundry baskets, so I started to get suspicious.

There was already a little bit of news out there that people could be asymptomatic carriers. Couldn’t we therefore assume that many people might be PARTIALLY-symptomatic? Not following the exact description, but partially? Having every dang symptom but the fever?

On Thursday I read a Twitter thread from a young, generally-healthy person who had tested positive, but with a mild, non-life-threatening case. So much of it—all of it except the fever, which I STILL haven’t noticed in myself—was EXACTLY what I was going through, what Maddie was going through. UH-OH. First thing Friday morning I called the doctor. She agreed—a mild case of COVID-19 sounded exactly like what it was. She said that Washington County had set up a drive-through testing site, but that tests were limited, and so doctors were being really picky about who they gave them to. Jason’s coworker wasn’t given one—he was told to just ASSUME he was positive. My doctor decided, based primarily on how much social contact I get up to working in a public library, that I, on the other hand, SHOULD be tested and confirmed—and she still wasn’t even sure the testing clinic would agree when she sent them the scrip. But they did, and I drove through, and they stuck squabs up my nose that SERIOUSLY made me want to sneeze, and I will get the results, uh…sometime in the next week. So there are people running around out there who may have been exposed to me but I still can’t give them a definite—BUT THAT’S MY POINT!

THINK how many people out there have symptoms and are not getting tested at all! THINK how many people have been exposed but don’t have ANY symptoms, like Jason, whom I started calling Typhoid Mary until he corrected me that his name is actually “Corona J.” Don’t pay attention to the numbers on the news, because too many people may have the virus who are not getting counted! The doctor told me that they weren’t wasting tests on people who were already deathly ill, and if they died, their cause of death would be chalked up as “pneumonia.” Numbers mean nothing.

Ideally, it should be the people who AREN’T sick getting tested. The people who think they’re just fine, but will end up spreading their germs. But there aren’t enough tests for that.

So that’s what’s up. That’s why everything is closing. It’s not that we’re all gonna die, it’s that it’s too hard not to spread it to the people who WILL die. And I go back to that first article I posted: how HARD it is for us as a society to just stay home when we’re sick. This is what we need to be mad about—how we’re conditioned to work work work. We need to fight for paid sick leave, and ENCOURAGED TO USE IT instead of to save it. We need to fight for medical care that people aren’t afraid to use because of dang deductibles, and that makes a real effort to be preventative instead of just reactive—because in this case reactive is too late. I spent a week at the public library—luckily not on circulation duty—but still potentially spreading this to a wide variety of people, because I thought it was just a cold and I’d already taken three days off. I feel bad about that. The doctor read my mind and reassured me thus: “It’s not worth looking back and trying to figure out who you might have contacted and what you might have done differently at this point. There’s just too much going around to track. We can just do the best we can from this point forward.”

So from now on, let’s as a society allow ourselves and each other to TAKE A FRIGGIN’ BREAK.

And you’re allowed to laugh. Here’s a really amazing thematic Twitter thread you should check out: https://twitter.com/daniAWESOME/status/1240713705517539332

And again, don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine. I don’t need sympathy. But I WOULD like some fun birthday greetings in about ten days, so you can keep that in mind.

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 Hello, general public. This is a public freewrite. I could have a private freewrite in my journal but then I couldn't have anybody chip in and cheer me on or point out my logical fallacies or otherwise be my therapist. Sorry, no, wait, I can't legally expect that of you. But my therapist was sick and cancelled this week and I wanted to talk to her about my What Next issues lately. Like, I got that nice planner for Christmas and I put a lot of schedules and to-do lists in it and such, but I got to the point in the to-do lists that I can't figure out what to put on the NEXT to-do list, and even then I don't know what order to put them in, and even then I'll probably find out that the real reason I can't decide what to do is because my number one priority is something I just have no motivation to do and that's freezing me up on all the rest as well. How to ADHD just put out a new video on the Motivation Bridge that I just watched while eating lunch. What timing! I must incorporate a sense of urgency, novelty, or interest into whatever, I suppose. EXCEPT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT WHATEVER IS.

On my list I have projects-- things that get done once and have a beginning and end basically-- and chores-- things that need to be done regularly. I know "chores" has a bad connotation but I'm not necessarily thinking of it in a bad way-- in this case, the chore with the biggest sense of urgency attached to it is writing my weekly GeekMom article. The projects on the list either have no sense of urgency whatsoever or require the kids to be home which they aren't yet (and those don't have a screaming sense of urgency either). The other chores? Nothing to worry about until the "make supper" one. Which will probably also be impossible to decide on when it comes around, but I've chosen not to think about it yet because it's too far away. Anyway, so I feel like the thing I "SHOULD!" be doing right now is an article but I have NO IDEA WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT. I mentioned this in our Slack channel and after a few suggestions were made, I realized my brain is basically just yelling "NO." at every tiny embryo of an idea, so it might go even deeper than simply having no idea.

Hence, me deciding to publicly freewrite. If I just basically allow whatever IS in my head to come out, maybe some tiny idea-embryos will sneak out and turn into idea-fetuses before I can stop them. Is this language in poor taste on Roe vs. Wade Day. I DON'T KNOW, BRAIN, SHUT UP, YOU'RE BEING JUDGMENTAL AGAIN.

So, here's what's up with me lately, in backwards chronological order:

I may not be writing an article, but I HAVE gotten writing done. There's this Loudermilk fic I've been working on since...September?... but I've managed to fill in all the large gaps in the story and there's just a couple small gaps wherein-I-even-know-basically-what-has-to-happen-I-just-have-to-write-it. And it's now to the point where I'm going to call it a complete draft. But I've been working on it SO LONG that I basically need to see it fresh. I compiled it from Scrivener into Word and honestly, just the change in format makes it easier. I actually plan to print it to do edits, but I want to put SOMETHING into those aforementioned Small Gaps first. But when I got to this point today, my brain was like, "uh, go do other things for awhile, you're just staring at screen and not even thinking." Which is when I went off and tried to figure out what else I have to do. By the way, it turns out this fic is 22 pages long in Word. Dang.

Kids and I are reading The Lost Girl by Anne Ursu. It struck me as a step more poetic/artsy/award-worthy than the books we usually read. I'm kind of scared of the ending as the narrator keeps alluding darkly to it. Before this I read them Ghosts I Have Been and I still find myself lost in Blossom-y daydreams again. Gosh I love her so much.

Anyway, last night was MOCK CALDECOTT FAMILY NIGHT at the library which I say is my favorite program of the year, but it wasn't so much last night because I had a really hard time getting people to participate, and passions were evenly spread between so many books that it didn't feel like we had one true winner. The good news is that *I* don't have one clear favorite, either, so I probably will not be disappointed by the real winners this year, as opposed to last year when I DID have a clear favorite that didn't even Honor. Anyway, our winner last night, determined mostly by the votes of me and my coworker who happens to run Spanish Storytime, was Vamos! Let's Go to the Market! since after I read it in my pre-reading I ran out to said coworker and said "Check out this cool book, it's bilingual, you can use it for your program, but it's just fun to look at too!" I mean, some kids voted for it, too, but it only WON because WE also voted for it. So I'm rooting for it, A Stone Sat Still, Saturday, You Are Here: an Ode to the National Parks, and My Heart I think. And I adored The Important Thing About Margaret Wise Brown, but less for the illustrations as much as the words. Other books that the kids who were at the library really liked were Sea Bear, Spencer's New Pet, The Undefeated, Home In the Woods, and The Donkey Egg. Also Field Trip to the Moon, which you might remember was my favorite new picture book of last year, see last entry. I'm excited for the real awards. I think I've stocked the library appropriately this year. But then, I always think that.

In other library news, we had a funding problem recently that may have added to my general sense of anchorlessness. The township money that has been funding my outreach storytimes was cut, and suddenly I didn't have them. The director was going to fight the decision, though, and today she called to say they'd reached a tentative agreement and I could contact the place I would have been going this Friday and let them know I'll be there. Hooray! The teacher said the kids have missed me. But anyway, support your public libraries, again. And also, maybe don't earmark funds for specific things we might not need the funds for when other things could really use the funds. For example, we have all this money for Summer Reading Programming that we don't really need for THAT, and we were discussing things to do with it at our last meeting, like buy T-Shirts, and I'm like well DANG how about put it into Outreach storytimes, or the children's book budget? (The Junior Library Guild subscription went up this year, but the overall children's book budget did not, so my monthly budget is now $50 less). But it don't WORK that way. And we have SO many freaking Outreach Launchpads, and they're only used by one of the places that still hasn't been negotiated back into the schedule. 

Jason and I had a lunch date yesterday, because my appointment had been cancelled and I'd been planning to go to the grocery store after my appointment so now I had, YOU GUESSED IT, motivation trouble to get myself out the door, so he said Come and we'll go out for lunch, so we had tasty Chinese I haven't had in awhile. And Saturday we had date night, too. We went to this place at the mall we used to go to all the time when we were dating and it was nostalgic, and we finally saw Rise of Skywalker. It wasn't an objectively great movie, but I enjoyed it, and I'm honestly not sure why some people seemed so disappointed in it. 

Where am I in my review of life. It's Girl Scout Cookie season. You can actually order from Maddie online right here. I am not quite as excited as I used to be ever since discovering that Aldi's sells a variation of Tagalongs that actually taste BETTER than the Girl Scout ones for 1/5 the cost, BUUUUUUTTTTTT there are still Trefoils and stuff and they still have the best Thin Mints. 

Did you know Book Riot has a Google Spreadsheet template you can use to keep track of your reading for the year and also keep lots of stats on it? Click on that then save a copy. There's a video that shows you how to customize it but I don't have that link anymore. I obviously customized mine to handle the many books I read for work, which means I did have to add a picture book category, and that is definitely the category I have read the most of. It's fun. It comes with a reading challenge that I can't even imagine trying to complete-- I don't see myself picking up any plays, and I outright AVOID doorstoppers. Except I DO plan on tackling Lord of the Rings with my Samwise and his sister this year, but the doorstopper in the book challenge is supposed to be published after 1950 by a woman, so? But I even have two adult books on my list already, if you can believe it. Nonfiction, of course, but still. I'm only a couple chapters in to the one, but I sped through the other because it was short and I felt I might need to learn something from it, particularly as I was writing Loudermilk fanfic and it was making me nervous that the Loudermilks are Native American and I am very much not and I'm like, why'd the heck I have to pick characters to dive into the backstory of that have issues in their backstory I have absolutely no experience with? Not that I have experience with sharing a body with my absolutely-not-identical twin, either, but that's kind of the point of the book I read, it's called—the book I mean— Writing the Other. And it's really interesting, but I found I didn't really learn anything from it, which makes me paranoid that I'm wrong and I just think I understand already but I don't actually know anything, because people are always making mistakes writing cross-culturally so how can I claim to know something so many other people don't? But maybe they know, too. Mistakes still happen even when you might "know" theoretically how not to make them. Actually the authors say you WILL make mistakes but that's no reason not to try. Which is my problem, because I'm just terrified of mistake making which is why I never get anything done. That, and, you know, other large gaps in Motivation Bridge. 

I don't need to tell you that the Senate is being scary right now, as well as most of the rest of the world. That's always, well, there. But life goes on. In this house last week all the girls had migraines, the older male had a pulled neck muscle and the younger one had a cold (and he never gets sick). So we were all kind of blah there. I got all the Christmas stuff packed up now. It's still not in the attic on account of the pulled neck muscle, but the house has moved on into the next stage of the year. It's still dark out, though. Christmas should go on until March. My foot has fallen asleep as I sit here. 

My son has just reminded me that it is NOW time for that "make supper" chore to suddenly jump to the top of the priorities list, so I must now devote my indecisive mental energy to THAT question. I think something with potatoes, just because potatoes are soft and warm. I don't know what else to make besides potatoes, though. I would ask, but by the time you would be able to answer me, it will be too late. Okay, for tonight's dinner. Tell me what to make for tomorrow night's dinner. And before you get too self-confident about your answer let me remind you that I have three different picky eaters and they are all picky in different ways. Yay. So anyway. 


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It’s time again for a run-down of the year5842448 —isn’t that the year The Time Machine takes place in? Sam just reached over and typed on the number pad to be obnoxious, but I’m leaving it because it looks like I’m talking about the year 5842448. 

Stuff That Happened This Year

2019 wasn’t an abnormally eventful year, so I’ll just list the top five non-library happenings in chronological order since none of them stick out as bigger than any others.
 
1. Maddie, as did her brother before her, signed up for the 4th grade’s traditional Battle of the Books. Unlike her brother, she and her team decided that, me being a children’s librarian and all, I should be their coach. This stressed me out more than I thought it would, but it’s still a good experience, and Maddie’s team conveniently came in 4th, the highest they could get without having to go on to the district-level rounds.

2. In continuing attempt to actually treat my ADHD, since stimulants work on my brain properly but apparently also give my body panic attacks, I started Strattera, a non-stimulant, that worked okay for awhile, except I felt more depressed again, and then after several months I had a delayed allergic reaction or something, which was very frustrating and scary as everyone was like “How can you have a delayed allergic reaction?” but what else explains that it was making my throat swell up? And also making me dizzy and shaky? It was a mess. The psychiatrist said, well, I guess all we can do now is double down on therapy, and he signed me up with a counselor in his practice, but she only really had experience with mood disorders and addiction and I found myself educating her about ADHD, so I sought out a new therapist on my own, and found a lady who not only has experience as a life coach for ADHD women but she HAS ADHD HERSELF, and that level of understanding is MUCH more useful.

3. So, we didn’t take any trips this year, in part because of the stupid retaining wall. The retaining wall beside our driveway has been slowly collapsing for years and now there's a big railroad tie sticking flat out into the driveway. We reserved enough of our tax refund and Jason's yearly bonus to get the retaining wall replaced, and I started a time-consuming but not unpleasant process of transferring all the bulbs along that side of the driveway (we have a LOT of daylilies) to other places and to pots for replanting once the new wall was finished. Unfortunately, that dang wall was still sticking into the driveway, and ironically I managed to dent up Jason's car on it, which we had to spend part of the money we'd saved on fixing, so we had to POSTPONE replacing the wall because the wall in its broken condition made us spend the money to replace it! For the next few months, we were in limbo. The guy who would replace the wall didn't know when it could fit into his schedule, so we didn't make camping plans because that MIGHT be the week he could do the wall. We kept trying to build up the savings again, but too many times we had to dip into it because we couldn't stop doing everything else just for a wall that might or might not happen. In the end, we put it off until next year. It was THE MOST frustrating aspect of our year. I mean, personally. Not counting the wider world being a mess!

4. In happier news, I wrote a freaking lot of fanfiction. This may not seem much in the way of Happening to you, but it occupied a good and pleasant chunk of my life this year. I am buoyed up by writing it. Here’s my AO3 page, and there’s more to come!

5. Sam, to everyone’s surprise, started cross-country. To even more of everyone’s surprise, he loved it, and now he’s going to do track in the spring. Normally I stick to writing about my own personal happenings in this section, rather than on the kids’ (unless, like Battle of the Books, it directly involves me), but this may actually have been the most interesting thing to happen in this household this year. I’m really proud of him for trying something new and persevering at it even if he wasn’t immediately good at it. It makes up for him not doing music.


Note: You might notice there are some LINKS in the paragraphs above. I'm going to put a lot of links throughout this post, if you find any of these things interesting. The links may go to more detailed things I've written elsewhere (usually GeekMom), or they may go to pictures (because I cannot get Dreamwidth to actually display any pictures I try to put into these posts DIRECTLY for some reason). OCCASIONALLY, usually in the case of the books, it'll go to a not-me link so you can find out more, but most of the time it's stuff I wrote and I'd love for you to continue reading my stuff by clicking through, if you haven't read said links before! 

This next bit, though, the links are specifically all pictures:

Top 5 Interesting Presents:

I normally do a little bit of a Christmas present roundup each year, but it doesn't seem exciting enough to do several different lists for different recipients and such, so, just highlights:
1. I got a new desk set up. This was actually a birthday present, last spring, but it is so awesome and I didn't take a picture of it back when I finally finished, that I'm going to highlight it now. I really feel it is a space of my own-- not least for all the personalizing I've done to it. Also, the roll-out table/desk part really proved itself useful this past month for both cutting out sewing patterns and wrapping gifts!
2. I never knew before a few months ago that Travelers' Notebooks are a thing that exists. They're like a wallet that you can put various refillable notebooks into, so you can have a journal, a calendar, a to-do list, a sketchbook, a whatever all in one that you can replace individually as you need to. This is so perfect for me! NOW I don't have to carry around a huge bag to carry all those separate things! So my in-laws got the one I put on my wishlist for me.
3. I'd seen some good reviews for a game called "Throw Throw Burrito," and when Maddie saw it in a store and was completely tickled I knew it must be our family's Pickle Present (the gift for the whole family that the person who finds the pickle ornament gets to open). It's basically a cross between PIG/Spoons and Dodgeball. It's ridiculous and everyone had a good time playing it after Christmas dinner, even the grandparents.
4. I saw this shirt online and knew there could be nothing more Maddie. Judging by her expression I think she agreed. Don't know if the school dress code allows it though.
5. I also made the kids Marauders Map shirts, and a bunch of other clothes, and a hat for my mom based on a hat I have that she liked, and a really fuzzy pair of Star Wars sweatpants for Jason, which he's really pleased with. 

Stuff That Happened: Library Edition!

Top 5 Family Night (My weekly all-ages storytime) Themes

1. Time Travel: This is an example of me going completely overboard, which almost turned out to bite me in the butt because none of my regulars showed up. Luckily there was a girl really bored waiting for her brother to finish an assignment who I could recruit, and she got to enjoy it thoroughly. I have put lots of pictures and description in a Google Doc.

2. Smelly Storytime: What’s great about this was not the plan, but the results. I’ve done Smell Bingo before at programs, though I don’t know if I’ve written it up here. That’s where everyone sniffs a canister with a familiar scent and has to mark it on their bingo sheets? But it turned out there’d been a candlemaking program in the storytime room the night before. A SCENTED candlemaking program. And basically? We almost had to cancel Smelly Storytime because the Storytime room was too Smelly! Luckily we were able to move it out into the play area, and everyone found the irony really hilarious, so good stuff, after all.

3. Shakespeare Day: Never let anyone tell you you can’t do a Shakespeare program with young kids. I found a picture book retelling of The Tempest that was actually still too long for my crowd, but that’s okay, I’m good at simplifying on the spot. So basically what I did was read— er, TELL— the story and had the kids act it out as I went. The kid in the tube is Ariel stuck in the tree, by the way. It was hilarious and fun and I highly recommend it.

4. David Wiesner: I like to spotlight picture book authors whose birthdays happen to fall on Family Night days. I didn’t want to NOT salute the master of wordless books, but what should we do for an activity? What I ended up doing was printing and cutting out various frogs from Tuesday, had the kids choose a frog or five and draw a place for them to fly to, then glue the frogs in. Awesome.

5.Dewey Decimal Day: I stubbornly keep taking every opportunity to try to get people to understand how Dewey works— it’s really not that complicated!— but I never had the success I had on Dewey Decimal Day this year. I assigned the kids numbers, one at a time, for them to find in the nonfiction section, like a scavenger hunt. And not only did the kids keep running back for more numbers every time they found the first ones, every family there ended up checking out a STACK of books they’d found at each number in the game! It warmed my geeky little librarian heart, let me tell you!
 

Special Programs and Projects, not really Top 5 as much as What Was There

I wasn’t involved with too many new or unique programs this year, so I’m including non-programming projects, too, like
1. The Awesome Space Wall! Kids could fly their rockets up through layers of atmosphere as they completed Summer Reading challenges. And I put this sky up all by myself!

2. Fan Fest: this was our remarkably successful attempt at throwing a mini ComiCon in the library. And I got to dress up as Peggy Carter! And we’re totally making it an annual thing now!

3. Being Clifford at the Halloween Bash: I did NOT get to make my own Halloween costume this year, because instead I was recruited to be Clifford. This was an interesting experience.

4. Peggy’s Mirrors and Windows Project: For the past couple of years (yeah, you'll notice that article is from last year) our director has been trying to get a “Mirrors and Windows” multicultural collection development project of some sort started. At first it was about trying to secure a grant, and it was going to be some kind of outreach program; now she’s settled for doing a presentation at a professional conference. But for all of these potential outcomes, she wanted me to put together the actual booklists of multicultural books. At first she seemed to be under the impression that we could somehow gather ALL the multicultural picture books that exist into one collection— I guess the variety was just that much scarcer back when she was a children’s librarian. My job actually turned out more to be making sure we had the widest variety of identities represented, and well, on the list. In effort somewhat just to get MY thoughts organized I ended up writing some really nice annotations, but in the end she asked me to send her a new file with JUST the books listed. Nyah. But I did some very nice work on her behalf, thank you very much.  

5. This isn't anything I was really involved in, but while I was getting the links to the photos on the library's Facebook page I saw the FRIGGIN' ADORABLE picture of little Henry and his new easy chair bear friend, and decided to link it just because it's that friggin' cute.
 
It's Reviews Time!

Books!

Top 5 2019 Picture Books

1. Field Trip to the Moon, by John Hare: I almost missed this delightful wordless scifi because I hadn’t seen any reviews for it when I was placing my All-the-Space-Themed-Books-for-Summer-Reading order, so thank you Junior Library Guild subscription for coming to my rescue. It’s about a kid who gets accidentally left behind on said futuristic field trip, but ends up sharing the Wonder of Crayons with a group of aliens. It’s awesome.

2. When Aidan Became a Brother, by Kyle Lukoff: “When Aidan was born everyone thought he was a girl” is just such a perfect sentence to describe his situation as a transgender boy: so simple! So straightforward! To think people struggle with how to explain such things! But this is not a message book about what it means to be transgender. This is about Aidan wanting everything to be perfect for his new baby sibling: because he’d been so frustrated early on with people getting things wrong about him, he’s extra-worried that he’ll make a mistake about the new baby, and it’s just really, really sweet. You want to cuddle him up and tell him it will be okay, just as his own parents finally do.

3. Chick and Brain: Smell My Foot! by Cece Bell: It’s such a ridiculous title that it made me laugh out loud, on a bad day, when I first saw it in the upcoming releases announcements. The actual book doesn’t disappoint in its ridiculousness. Yes, the order to “smell my foot!” does actually carry an entire plot through four or five chapters of easy-reader simplicity (I put it under “picture books” because I did actually read the whole thing at Smelly Storytime), though maybe it also includes stuff about manners and misunderstanding and not getting eaten. It makes me happy purely by existing.

4. Truman, by Jean Reidy: This is about a tiny turtle deciding to go rescue his Person who has disappeared for an entire day (at school), though by the time he gets moving she’s back home again. It’s the thought that counts, and Truman has a lot of thought! It’s great!

5. Birthday on Mars!  by Sara Schonfeld: The thing with nonfiction books, there aren’t a lot that make good storytime selections, and for our space-themed summer reading, there were all these great space books that I just couldn’t use. So I was really excited that this existed, explaining what a Mars rover does simply and like a story, based off the time it really did sing “Happy Birthday” to itself. I may have used it more than once this summer.
 
Top 5 2018 Picture Books I Read At the Last Minute for our Mock Caldecott

1. Dreamers, by Yuyi Morales: I love Yuyi Morales already, but this one made my jaw drop. The wonderful library-loving details! The sheer perfection! I normally don’t have strong opinions about what does and does not win the Caldecott, because everything is wonderful, but this one was ROBBED, ROBBED I say! (Though it IS possible it wasn’t eligible? It turns out she’s living in Mexico again, and maybe she never actually became a US citizen at the time of the immigration depicted so wonderfully in this book? Could that be the only reason this book was TOTALLY ROBBED of the Caldecott?)

2. The Stuff of Stars, by Marion Dane Bauer but more importantly in this case illustrated by Ekua Holmes: Holmes has evoked the whole swirling dance of the universe into her paintings by incorporating marbling into the collage. You can get completely lost staring at these pictures, they're breathtaking. This was obviously my second place vote in our Mock Caldecott, and it also didn't actually get a Caldecott, so nyah. Both this and Dreamers did win the top illustrator awards specifically for the illustrators' ethnic identities, which makes you wonder if the Caldecott committee was like, "oh, they'll get the Belpre/King, obviously, they don't need the Caldecott, too" but they DID, you see, see?

3. Alma and how she got her name, by Juana Martinez-Neal: now this one DID get a Caldecott honor, but I wasn’t so much impressed with the art, myself, as much as I love the story, about a little girl who learns family history through her many given names, and finds a way to connect to each ancestor she’s been named for. It’s really sweet.

4. Imagine! by Raul Colon: Okay, this is bad, but although I loved this wordless book enough to make it my third place vote in the Mock Caldecott, I can’t actually remember anything about it now! I give it my stamp of approval, anyway! I trust me! Oh, I remember now that I've seen the link, it was because he uses a lot of different art styles to make paintings come to life. That was pretty awesome.

5. A Big Mooncake for Little Star, by Grace Lin: this one was almost my third place vote, instead— I love how the black of her pajamas blends in with the night sky! But it’s also a great story that I ended up using at several different storytimes this year. The first storytime I read it at, in fact, was the morning of the Youth Media Awards announcement. DURING the Youth Media Awards announcement! I left off watching to go do the storytime, then got back just in time for the Caldecott announcements. I excitedly dashed back to the play area to catch any storytime attendees who were still hanging out there. “Guess what! The book we just read just won a Caldecott Honor!” Everyone agreed it was well-deserved.
 
Top 5 Other Picture Books Older Than 2019 I Read For The First Time This Year

1. Thank you, Omu! by Oge Mora: This 2018 book didn’t come off backorder in time for our Mock Caldecott, but when it did (having already won a Caldecott Honor by that point), I was pleased to discover that it not only had delightful illustrations, but it’s also a perfect storytime book! With a rolling rhythm and cumulative repetition and the opportunity for knock-knock sound effects and a great story about sharing! I used it for several different storytimes over the year!

2. Don’t Throw It To Mo! by David A. Adler:  I did not expect a fun little easy reader about football to be so touching, and I appreciated how it managed to be a completely new take on the “underestimated little kid wins the game” trope. I mean I guess it DID win a Geisel for a REASON. Goes to show what can be done with the easy reader format and that’s amazing.

3. Someone New, by Anne Sibley O'Brien: As a whole with I’m New Here, I studied these for the Mirrors and Windows project, and appreciated the way they showed that immigration is an anxious enough experience even without overt xenophobia. One thing I liked especially about this book is that it’s told from the point of view of ordinary, nice kids, who don’t need to be told to accept the new “different” kids, but still need to learn exactly how to overcome the awkwardness that comes with the language and cultural differences. It’s very hopeful yet realistic.

4. This is a Ball, by Beck and Matt Stanton: one of a series of interactive books, including This Book Is RED and Did You Take the B From My ook? that encourage listeners to argue with them— which you definitely have to have the right audience for, they don’t work so well when the audience is too shy to say that the book is obviously wrong! I think I like this one the most, for the cumulative wackiness as each misnamed object interacts with the others.

5. Earthrise: Apollo 8 and the Photo that Changed the World, by James Gladstone: Like I said above, it was hard to find nonfiction space books that actually worked in a storytime. This one might have, but it was still too long for the audiences I happened to have when I needed it. No matter, it’s a lovely story to think about, the first time the whole world was captured in a single photograph, at Christmastime, no less— peace on earth goodwill to all!

Top 5 Long Form (as opposed to picture books and easy readers) 2019 Books

1. Sal & Gabi Break the Universe, by Carlos Hernandez: Normally I’m remarkably patient when reading a new book with the kids, perfectly willing to wait to the next evening to continue all together. THIS one captured my need to keep going the way books used to when I was a bookworm. I love this book. It is so completely unique, humorous yet occasionally heartbreaking scifi with really memorable characters. I also appreciate how our title characters are totally poised at the beginning to be archetypal rival frenemies but instead are just like, screw that, let’s be flat-out friends instead! And that even though there is teasing going on and there are obviously interested classmates, Sal himself has no interest in dating or the like, which makes perfect sense in middle school but I’m extra for it. I just really, really loved this book, definitely my favorite of the year. Note that link goes to the "Between the Bookends" with my much more descriptive writeup.

2. The Whispering Wars, by Jaclyn Moriarty: I am very pleased that Jaclyn Moriarty is writing middle grade books now. It’s got all the quirkiness I love about her YA but even more fun because middle grade! I am glad that my kids are enjoying her, too. This one, a prequel to Bronte Mettlestone (see below), inspired Maddie to yell at the characters a lot. I want to link to my Between the Bookends review, but the link doesn't go live until the 1st.

3. Aru Shah and the Song of Death, by Roshani Chokshi: Of all the Rick Riordan Presents books we’ve read, Aru Shah most closely captures the feeling of reading Percy Jackson, but somehow funnier. We were in the middle of reading the first book when this one came out, so I ordered it immediately and then we just donated the copy to the library. Maddie was not happy with me donating it but it would be forever before we got it on the shelves if I didn’t, so there. I did not know that Hindu and Greek mythology BOTH have love gods who use arrows to spread amorous feelings! I would like to know the history of that development!

4.Mysterious Benedict Society and the Riddle of Ages, by Trenton Lee Stewart: This one also inspired Maddie to yell at the characters a lot. She was also yelling “I love this!” a lot. It was very interesting to me how well the three older “kids” were written in this because technically they were now young adults, but even though they had young adult concerns it still felt accessible to middle grade. More than accessible, relevant.

5. Riverland, by Fran Wilde: for once I’ve read a lot of brand-new books this year, and I have four more that could have jostled their way onto this list. But I think I’ll give #5 to this one because of the fun personal connection: the kids helped me review it and then we got to chat with Fran on Skype—or Google Hangouts?— I forget what we finally used because we had a lot of technical difficulties— for GeekMom, so, bonus!

Top 5 Long Form Older-Than-2019 Books

1. The Faithful Spy: Dietrich Bonhoeffer and the Plot to Kill Hitler, by John Hendrix: This book is frightening in an important way, as you get a good inside look at how Hitler rose to power and anyone who hasn’t been fed propaganda for years can see the modern-day parallels (if you read some of the reviews you can see some people take offense at the author suggesting there ARE modern-day parallels in the afterward: “Now, why did he have to go an ruin a really good book by making it political?” Sigh). And as a progressive Christian I find his story super-inspiring, his determination to stand up for what he knew was right even though his church cared more about placating the earthly authorities. Go, Progressive Christianity!

2. The Extremely Inconvenient Adventures of Bronte Mettlestone, by Jaclyn Moriarty: see above for the prequel. In fact see directly above for the link, I covered both these last two on Between the Bookends the same month. It was while reading this book that I decided Jaclyn Moriarty must have ADHD, because so many of her characters seemed to have various aspects of it, and anyway it makes sense because she’s clearly an out of the box thinker, and that might be why I adore her so much.

3. Aru Shah and the End of Time Also see above. I don’t think I have anything else to add about this one that I didn’t already say about the sequel.

4. Akata Warrior, by Nnedi Okorafor: When the kids and I finished Akata Witch (see below) we just had to dive into this one, but I had never read this one and was a little worried to discover that it’s a bit more YA than the first one was. Luckily, my ten year old is morbid and was undisturbed by the occasionally very disturbing violence, and the occasional innuendo either went right over their heads or they ignored it. I actually may have enjoyed this one even more than the first one, despite the occasionally terrifying parts, and Maddie for one LOVED it.

5. Walk Two Moons, by Sharon Creech: Nah, I’d never read this before, because it’s well-known to be chock full of tragedy, and in fact, after we’d already discussed it for Battle of the Books, a parent complained that it was too traumatic for fourth graders and the school quietly removed it from the competition. Yes really. But of all the books I had to read for Battle of the Books, this one ended up impressing me the most. And the kids and I still refer to it on occasion (Sam had read it for HIS Battle of the Books, too. Nobody complained that year, apparently).
 
Top 5 Most Interesting ReReading Experiences

1. The Chrestomanci books: I swear, reading Diana Wynne Jones out loud gives you a whole new way to appreciate her. I had actually started to read Charmed Life to them a few years ago, but they apparently weren’t quite ready for it. This year, however, they were all in, and the books totally came to life as I read them out loud, and I also remembered why I’ve always had a crush on Chrestomanci.

2. Anne of Green Gables: Maddie was really reluctant to start this, but it didn’t take long before she realized she IS Anne, and she was thrilled to get an Anne T-shirt for Christmas.

3. The Mysterious Benedict Society series: I think my kids loved this series even more than I had. I’d thought it might be too nerdy for them, but it was the exact level of nerdy they liked. I was really excited to let them know that there was actually a new addition to the series coming out this fall, see above, and when I gave them the option of several new books for us to start and included that one, they picked it before I could even finish speaking.

4. Akata Witch: I didn't realize how much I'd forgotten. I forgot about the artistic wasp! I love the artistic wasp so much!  And of course Maddie loved the artistic wasp, but she also glommed on harder than I ever expected she would to the rest of it.

5. The Ear The Eye and the Arm: Although this takes place in Zimbabwe instead of Nigeria, reading it somewhat soon after the Akata books surprised us with some of the cultural overlap. Like creepy Masquerades and even some similar words. I did not know there was that much similarity across the continent, there. But then, I don’t know much about Africa, period, crappy colonialism hiding these great stories from us. (Ooo, that link is over a decade old now, and still relevant! Luckily a little LESS relevant, as can probably be seen in the very variety of books I've just listed here).
 
Recorded Media!

TV!
I’m splitting TV into two categories this year, because it seemed odd to pit returning favorites, which I was judging based on only this year’s episodes, against new watches, which I was judging based more on the show itself. Plus, I tended to like my returning favorites more than my new shows this year, which was kind of unfair when new shows are probably more interesting to talk about. So, to begin:

Top 5 Returning TV Favorites:

1. The Good Place: this is still just a perfect show, hilarious and heartrending, ridiculous and profound, and I realized that I actually want it in book form: each episode IS referred to as a chapter, after all, and something about the arc of it, I just want it all in one nice package, like a book. If I could get a hold of all the scripts to use as an outline, I’d turn it into a book myself. Anyway, this year it got some added fun, because my kids now watch it and love it WITH me!

2. Legion: Speaking of shows that refer to their episodes as “chapters”…is this saying something about me, perhaps? Anyway, the third and final season definitely recovered from the frustratingly uneven second season, so much that I was kind of in a state of joy about how very much I was enjoying it. It wasn’t perfect, and left a lot of loose ends, most glaringly WHAT ABOUT CHARACTER I WON’T NAME EVEN THOUGH THEIR NAME IS KIND OF IMPORTANT TO ME that’s kind of an obvious clue if you’ve seen any of the previous seasons whatsoever so so much for being spoiler-discreet, but seriously IT KIND OF NEGATES THE WHOLE PREMISE OF THE RESOLUTION TO FORGET THEM, REGARDLESS OF THEIR NAME, but it was an emotionally satisfying ending if not logically, and there were not any large Loudermilk-free chunks this year, either. And I wrote a lot of fanfic, speaking of which.

3. Drunk History: We cut cable the other month, because our bill kept going up and the only thing we actually watched live (now that Legion was over) was The Good Place. But now we needed a way to WATCH The Good Place, so we subscribed to Hulu, coincidentally at the time Disney+ was coming out, so we got the bundle of both. And with all those fabulous new things to stream, what was the first thing I sought out? All the episodes of Drunk History I hadn’t been able to access for free on Comedy Central’s website. Sometimes you’re just in the mood for a good story told well, you know? Or, not well, with a lot of FEELING and slurred words. I enjoy laughing and learning at the same time (see also The Good Place)! I watched the Agatha Christie one twice. Coincidentally both Ed and Peggy Blumquist from the second season of Fargo were on that one. There’s a surprisingly high percentage of Noah Hawley show alums on Drunk History. I think Aubrey Plaza is the only one I’ve seen from Legion, but still.

4. Agents of SHIELD: This season felt a little like, oh, we thought last season was going to be the finale, so now let’s just have fun and do whatever we want with it! Luckily the fun carried over into most of the episodes, even if they didn’t always make sense. The show’s like a comfortable old friend by this point. When we were watching The Mandalorian the other day (see below), we got to the episode that Ming-Na Wen’s in, and I just got so nostalgic all of a sudden, I miss Agent May. I guess we still have one more summer season left, and if the rumors are true, it may even include some closure for Agent Carter!

5. Series of Unfortunate Events: The problem is we saw the third and final season of this one way back at the beginning of the year, so it’s not as fresh in my memory. But I know I enjoyed the way it played out, and all the little Easter eggs for book fans, and Beatrice being Inara (why am I so amused by actors crossing between my favorite shows? It seems to be a recurring theme, here), and everything with Beatrice II as a resolution.

Top 5ish TV Shows I Saw For The First Time, Even If They’ve Been Around Awhile

1. Stranger Things: It had been on our radar ever since we’d resubscribed to Netflix, but it wasn’t until Megan informed Jason that a minor character reminded her of him that he watched it, and then immediately binged it a second time, and then pulled me to the couch the moment the kids were in bed to watch at least one episode a night together. It was indeed great fun, though we disagree about Jason and that side character, who distractingly on my part appears to have been played by the Henchperson of Indeterminate Gender from Series of Unfortunate Events (I’m going to keep these cross-actor references up this WHOLE POST, watch me!). But Max, who shows up in Season Two, is the TOTAL CLONE of one of Maddie’s friends. After awhile I was like, “What have I seen her in before?” and looked at IMDB, but I HADN’T seen her in anything else, she’s just friggin’ Avery! Avery seems to have been informed of this herself, and had become quite well-versed in Stranger Things for a ten-year-old, and this made Maddie want to watch it. We decided she is morbid enough to not be too disturbed, so we let her, and before we knew it Maddie was going as Eleven for Halloween. Avery went as Max.

2. The Mandalorian: We got a Roku for Christmas because our “Smart TV” is now too old to support the software of most of the streaming services we can USE to cut cable, so for this past week Jason and I have been watching this. It’s quite delightful (though I don’t like the drums in the theme music), very Firefly-esque, being a Space Western and all, but with the familiar trappings of the Star Wars universe. ALSO, keeping up my theme here, besides Agent May showing up in an episode, Pillboi from The Good Place was in an episode, too! I yelled “PILLBOI!” out loud, which confused Jason, as the only person in the house who does not watch The Good Place, even though Pillboi’s best friend is also named Jason and we rib him about this quite a lot!

3. Good Omens: this was delightful, too, with some definite brilliant moments and some fun effects and bits that I couldn’t remember if they were in the book or not but being on screen certainly brought them to life. A lot of people seemed crazy obsessed with it, though, which made me feel a little disappointed that I was not crazy-obsessed with it. It was simply good. Oh, since we’ve got the theme going, when Michael McKean showed up on The Good Place last fall I was like, “Now WHERE do I know him from?” only to find out that the answer was “EVERYTHING.” So having so recently learned that, I was amused that of COURSE he even showed up in THIS, inexplicably when the production and nearly everyone else involved in it was British!

4. Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance: Look, I can’t keep the thing up here, although I’m AWARE that many interesting people did voices for this. Because they were simply voices their existence didn’t jump out at me. Sorry. But you know what this show was? Beautiful. Just a treat for the eyes, basically, that’s what it boils down to. Just pretty. I barely remember the plot, but it was sure gorgeous to look at.

5. Awkward tie: Schitt’s Creek and Crazy Ex-Girlfriend: Here’s the thing about these two shows. I really enjoyed Crazy Ex-Girlfriend: I laughed out loud frequently, I immediately recommended it to a friend who I swear the show is MADE FOR, and also guess what PILLBOI WAS IN AN EPISODE OF THIS, TOO, and that amused me. But I watched about four or five episodes and felt like, eh, I don’t need to watch any more. I’ve seen enough to get the gist, but I don’t really care to keep going. On the other hand, I didn’t particularly enjoy Schitt’s Creek, despite many people whose TV opinions I trust adoring it. I just found it slightly amusing at best. But whenever I stopped watching it? I wanted to keep going. It stuck in my head, and I just got too curious not to turn it back on. So I don’t know what’s up with me and new shows this year. If I could combine the positive aspects of both these shows, maybe I would have found something new to love. Instead I just found a couple new things to like.

Only 5 Movies I Saw This Year
I really didn’t see many movies this year. This is pretty much the entire list. We eschewed going to Rise of Skywalker on our anniversary in favor of staying in and watching more Mandalorian. In fact I didn’t see any of these movies with Jason. He’s not interested in Marvel movies anymore and somehow, well, I don’t know. I watched most of these while sick with the flu.
 
1. Avengers: Endgame: but this one I did something crazy for. I went to the movie theater by myself! During the day when everyone else was at school or work! There was just too much chatter online, and Amanda-from-Buffalo had specifically said she wanted to get MY opinion on certain aspects of it, but Jason just wasn’t interested so I said, Well all right then I’m doing this myself, and I’m thoroughly glad I did. I DID have quite strong opinions on it that I needed to discuss on the internet immediately, which developed into my only piece currently on AO3 that is NOT Legion-related. Luckily most of my opinions were good ones. I thoroughly enjoyed it. And JARVIS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which was pretty much all I wanted to say about it for like the next two days, until I had to start arguing about the ending.

2. Spider-Man: Into the Spiderverse: pulled this one out at the library when I realized my kids weren’t getting references to my original favorite superhero. They loved it, and I was very strongly reminded of why Peter Parker had always been my favorite superhero. This movie gets a lot of praise for its style, in how it really seemed to capture the experience of reading a comic book, but being that I have trouble reading comics, that may have actually been a slight negative for me. No matter, it was still awesome.

3. Avengers: Infinity War: since everyone who’d seen this in the theaters seemed to have left it slightly devastated, I was pleasantly surprised by all the purely fun and funny bits. And how devastating could the end really be? We all knew Endgame was coming. So I enjoyed Infinity War just fine.

4. Dumplin’: Sometimes I cheat and just watch movies based on YA books because it only takes two hours and then I know enough more about the book to talk about somewhat confidently to patrons (though I am pretty good at doing this just from reading reviews, sometimes, too). So I have done here, I admit. It was quite sweet and touching. Go it.

5. Solo: a Star Wars Story: this had gotten so panned, and unfairly, I think. I found it quite a lot of fun. Maybe I would have felt differently if I had shelled out for a theater ticket, but watching on Netflix while recovering from the flu was nothing but pleasure. Except for the flu part.
 
Podcasts:
Here’s a new category, though I don’t see it changing much from year to year. But I’ve gotten really into playing podcasts while doing chores and other-things-that-don’t-require-thinking-in-words (podcasts do NOT mix well with reading and writing). They have to be about something I’m genuinely interested in or it just seems like noise, and I’ve listened to a few that have definitely crossed into that territory, but here are the ones that actually made me look forward to cleaning so that I could listen to them!
 
1. Fuse #8 and Kate: despite the fact that I can’t stand their theme song (sorry. This is also a theme that tends to come up a lot in these yearly reviews, doesn’t it? Otherwise excellent things with crappy theme songs?), this is the one I look forward to the most, my first choice if faced with new episodes from several sources at a time. In this podcast, my longtime favorite librarian-blogger Betsy Bird hoists a Classic Picture Book on her completely non-child-literate sister, Kate, and together they argue over whether it should truly be considered a Classic. They are hilarious, and even when I don’t know the book they’re discussing (which does sometimes happen!), I love it. Granted, it’s probably a little MORE fun because I usually know the books so well, myself. But they just have a genuinely entertaining banter. Here’s a link to the episode in which, towards the end, they read the comment I left about Maddie’s compulsive artist tendencies—I wrote the words, but their interpretation of my words and description of this girl I know so well made me appreciate my own story all the more!

2. Clockworks: So when I friended Jan Moffett on Twitter, I thought I was just friending another children’s librarian who understood the importance of the Beatles, no biggie. But then I saw that she and her husband had created a podcast about my favorite weird little TV show, Legion, so I listened in. I also hate their theme song (but luckily it’s much shorter than Fuse 8 and Kate’s), but BESIDES that, their take on this show is exactly the discussion I want to hear! Not only do I almost always agree with one or the other of them, they study the show to an exceedingly nerdy level, deconstructing every symbol and theme, and while that sort of literary analysis gets on my nerves with most stories, it’s perfect for Legion. They catch things I never would have caught, and make connections that make me go “OhhhOHHHHHHHhhhhh!” out loud. I feel like I so thoroughly understand the show— well, better, anyway— after I listen, and it’s nice (I repeat this, because it’s much more common to find people who DON’T agree with me) to encounter other people online who seem to share my opinions about everything that happens in it. 

3. Movin’ Right Along: For the record, these theme songs— there have been two different ones— are rather nice, and impressive: the musician wife of one of the hosts composed these little variations that are highly reminiscent of, but not actually, specific Muppet movie numbers— enough to put the song in your head while completely avoiding copyright issues. Clever!  Anyway, for this podcast Ryan, Anthony, and usually a special guest (friends, mostly, though once they got the lady who plays Abby Cadabby!) watch exactly two minutes of a Muppet movie and somehow manage to fill a whole half-hour with fun facts, opinions, speculation, and general geekiness about just those two minutes. It should not work as well as it does! It has no right to be so entertaining! But I listen and laugh and sigh that now I am all caught up on their back episodes and must wait a week between each two minutes of movie!

4. The Good Place: the Podcast: the only Official Professional podcast on the list, so pay attention, people who make Official Professional podcasts! It’s hosted by Marc-Evan-Jackson-who-plays-Shawn, whose voice was just made for hosting podcasts, so that works out nicely, and gathers a variety of people who worked on each episode to talk about the things that went into making it. They are all, by nature of the show they work on, pleasant, funny people, so it makes for great interaction. And Marc-Evan-Jackson-who-plays-Shawn has convinced me that I need to take Improv classes. Everybody needs to take Improv classes. But I really looked into it, and our local theater does some in the summertime, and I put it on my Christmas list and Jason said, yeah, do that, so…?

5. Rewatchable: It kind of turned me off at first listen because it felt so loose, like a bunch of friends just chatting about episodes of TV shows for two hours, but after awhile that became exactly what was so good about it— like you were gathering with friends to chat about TV shows for two hours. I first tuned in when I heard they were going to be covering Agent Carter, then I went back and listened to all their Freaks and Geeks episodes, too. There are some other shows they’ve done in the past that I might check out sometime. I’ve yet to listen to their Firefly episodes, for example, but considering their theme song is the theme song of whatever show they’re currently talking about and I hate the Firefly theme… well I guess that’s just typical for a podcast!
 
Other Stuff I Wrote!

The Only Four Things I Posted Here
:
1. "A Day In The Life 3.0: July 11, 2019" : in which I wrote down every single thing that happened that day, and you know it was all really interesting, too.
2. "Here Is What Christmastime Means to Me" which is a poem I wrote ACTUALLY entitled "Yuletide." If you read it on a feed reader, you should click directly now, because it's actually a concrete poem with color, and that doesn't show up in a feed reader!
3. "Simultaneously Both the Stupidest and Most Traumatizing Aspect of My Life" is a personal look at my lifelong struggle with Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. But I actually wrote a more thorough and professional article about it on GeekMom soon after.
4. "Help My Brain Work" was basically me looking for prioritizing help after the Strattera had just started being ominously goofy. I've written quite a few of those article ideas now, so I've gone back and linked to them!

Top 5+ GeekMom Articles I Have Not Already Linked To Above:
1. There is no doubt, number one is "The Thorough and Pointless Results of My Radio Station Presets Study!" with bonus follow-up post, "The Christmas Edition!"
2. "Bored to Sleep: The Understimulated ADHD Brain" Honestly so much of my life makes more sense now that I know ADHD can cause "Intrusive Sleep/EEG-Negative Narcolepsy."
3. "Many Flavors of Neurodivergence" So many conditions are co-morbid that it can be complicated to discuss them sometimes, so this was my attempt to clear those discussions up a bit
4. "A Is for the Asexual Spectrum" because it's amazing how misunderstood it can be
5. And of course, "A Track-by-Track Trek Down ‘Abbey Road’ On Its 50th Anniversary" because some things are just important.

A Decade-Ending Survey!

When I was looking up old posts, I found an old Year-End Survey that I adapted into a Decade-End Survey. It's ten years later and I prefer my own format for yearly roundups as opposed to these surveys, but since it is a DECADE later, I figured it might be fun to do again.

One somewhat disturbing thing I noticed: THAT decade spanned a really dramatic bunch of eras in my life: from when I'd just started dating Jason to We now have two kids; from college through grad school through my failed attempts at teaching through finally getting a library job; from living at home to being a homeowner. The past decade seems really uneventful in comparison. Where has time gone? What actually HAS happened? Well, let's find out?

1. What did you do this past decade that you'd never done before?
Post on Twitter. Man. My answer to this last decade was "Give birth." Surely there's a better answer. OH, how about "collection development for an entire public library children's department"? Although I had collection-developed for school libraries before that, and purchased for a YA section in 2008 when I was subbing at Peters. Eh. Attended an IEP meeting as a parent. Put my kids on the school bus and wished them well! There was something just in the past few months I remember thinking, "Well, THAT'S a brand-new experience!" but now I can't remember what it was. Oh, you know something cool I did last year? Installed a floor. That's pretty impressive.
 
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
As I said ten years ago, "I can't see how to edit this question to apply to a decade easily." I guess it applies to goal setting and goal achieving. And I'm pretty sure the answer is No.
 
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Most of my friends from college and my sister-in-law, so that's a good bit, actually.
 
4. Did anyone close to you die?
The only person I can think of is Mim-Mim, my grandmother-in-law. OH, my own grandpap DID die this decade, it was just really early on, 2010. And to be honest, I still mourn Carrie Fisher, so I'm counting her as "close."
 
5. What countries did you visit?
Also as I said ten years ago, "Alas, the last I stepped foot on foreign soil was 1999." The farthest from home I got THIS time around was Orlando. Oh wait! That means I went to, let's see, Mexico, Norway, Germany, Japan, China, England, Morocco, ooo, even Mars! Um, yeah, the EPCOT versions thereof. Actually went to, let's see, was South Carolina this decade? New York, Virginia, DC, Ohio, and lots of times to West Virginia but that almost doesn't count. West Virginia's technically closer than my parents' house is.
 
6. What would you like to have in the next decade that you lacked in this one?
Financial stability? Moderately self-sufficient children? Brain power?
 
7. What dates from the past decade will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Not thinking of any. Oh, January 8, 2011. That's the day I imaginarily married Martin Freeman. Yes, that's the only date from this decade that is in my memory at all. What does that tell you.
 
8. What was your biggest achievement of the decade?
Installing a floor! No, not really. Becoming a core contributor at GeekMom, and more importantly, marginally holding up my end of the bargain as a core contributor by actually managing to (almost) contribute four articles a month!
 
9. What was your biggest failure?
Becoming a tidier person. Backing out of the garage while the stupid retaining wall is sticking in the driveway.
 
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
My gall bladder crapped out on me and I had to have abdominal surgery, which sucks. Then a year later the place I had surgery developed a hernia and I had to have abdominal surgery AGAIN, which STILL sucks.
 
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Ikea shelving. Full bookshelves make every room a better place to be.
 
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Sammy! He has struggled so much with his behavior but that just made every success that much more of an achievement. He's made great strides since preschool. 
 
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
The majority of the US Senate
 
14. Where did most of your money go?
Good question. Actually it's an approximate tie between the mortgage and student loans. 
 
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
OMG I almost forgot this. FINALLY GOING TO SEE PAUL MCCARTNEY LIVE IN CONCERT.
 
16. What song will always remind you of this decade?
"Raining Tacos" by Parry Gripp.
 
17. Compared to this time last, um, decade, are you:
a) happier or sadder? OMG happier! Ever since I got diagnosed with ADHD-- just to know exactly WHAT was wrong with me and WHY lifted a huge weight. I'm not a failure, I'm just neurodivergent!
b) thinner or fatter? Probably fatter? I mean I guess I settled into my current weight range somewhat soon after Maddie's birth, so, approximately?
c) richer or poorer? Probably richer. We were definitely struggling financially more at that time. We did get WIC checks after all.
 
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Read. Write.
 
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Okay last decade I had "wandering around and/or staring into space trying to figure out what I ought to be doing instead. Hey, I'm keeping this answer exactly from the Year-end survey!" Ah, poor me! I didn't know that was the ADHD! Now that I do know, I feel more forgiving of the times I've wasted zoning out. Still, I probably DO wish I'd managed to make a LITTLE better use of my time. But I think I more wish I'd done less feeling sorry for myself.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Not only was this an odd question when expanded to a decade, but it kind of loses something when you save your end-of-year reviews for AFTER Christmas, too.

21. Did you fall in love this decade?
Yeah, with particular books or movies or Martin Freeman, I guess.

22. How many one-night stands?
"Don't think even any of the Performing Arts variety, either," is what I said last time, and it still applies. I only made one appearance as Clifford but that was a matinee rather than evening performance, too. 

23. What was your favorite TV program?
Okay, I was actually thinking of this question before I even started doing the survey, when I was writing up my favorite TV shows of the year. The number one answer is probably Agent Carter, followed closely by Legion, The Good Place, and maybe Fargo if you don't count season 3. But I think if I had to pick one TV show to sort of BE MY TV show of the decade, it would actually be Agents of SHIELD. Certainly the longest running of all my favorite shows this decade, spans the broadest range of time. It was kind of like my TV touchpoint. The others were all short-seasons or recurring miniseries, special events, like, but Agents of SHIELD was always there waiting for me. 

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last decade?
Donald Trump. I mean I never liked him-- his similarity to Biff Tannen was never lost on me--but he gained power, which makes him ever more odious. Of course, the answer to #13 stands because THEY'RE the ones that won't do their job to keep him in CHECK....

25. What was the best book you read?
See, the nice thing about end of year roundups is being able to gather your lists from the past decade and compare them. I thought I would have to do Top Five, but then I looked and one title each category DID jump out at me, so: Picture Book: Journey, by Aaron Becker. I take it back, three-way tie for Middle Grade: The Inquisitor's Tale by Adam Gidwitz, both Squirrel Girl novels by Shannon and Dean Hale, and I think I'm putting Sal and Gabi in here, too. YA: Code Name Verity, by Elizabeth Wein.  Adult: Let's Pretend This Never Happened, by Jenny Lawson.
 
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
For the decade, huh. Hamilton? Maybe.
 
27. What did you want and get?
Complete control of the children's and YA collection!!!! MWAH HAH HAH! Well, not COMPLETE control, they'd give me more money for it if that was the case. 
 
28. What did you want and not get?
A solid fiction writing habit. Last decade it was "a book contract," so yes I've taken a step back here.
 
29. What was your favorite film of the decade?
Hmm. I think it's a tie between Captain America: The Winter Soldier and The LEGO Movie.
 
30. What did you do on your birthday?
Not much. Usually made myself a cake.
 
31.What one thing would have made your decade immeasurably more satisfying?
If my head was screwed on straight, but then I wouldn't be me, so-- if I'd written more of my own fiction.
 
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept this decade?
If I can make it myself it's even more awesome.
 
33. What kept you sane?
Learning about ADHD and how it applies to me.
 
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Uh, Martin Freeman. My last decade one was like, "I don't know, maybe this person or that person, it's been a long decade." This decade it's much more obvious. Since January 8, 2011 at least.
 
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Fox News being brainwashing propaganda. Really, all political issues wouldn't be QUITE so polarizing and dire if it hadn't been for that.
 
36. Who did you miss?
I don't know. My last decade answer was "all my college friends" and I guess that's still true. I haven't even seen a few of you at ALL for the past decade.
 
37. Who was the best new person you met?
I've made more online friends than real life ones. If you count that, probably E. Louise Bates. In real life, the families of some of my son's friends. I don't know why I've connected with them more than with any of Maddie's friends' families, but I have. The Russell/Ryans and the Borishes stand out the most.
 
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned this decade:
When I'm feeling lethargic, it usually means I need to exercise, not rest. It's strange but true.
 
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your decade:
"Everything is AWESOME!!! Everything is cool when--" okay sorry. Well maybe. I mean it can be used ironically OR earnestly, so...?

Okay, that's it! Please chat with me in the comments here, on Facebook or Twitter or wherever! Have a nice 2020!


 

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Yuletide

 

Religious holidays

Are exclusionary, they say

If one does not know this Christ,

Why should one celebrate His Mass?

The more some insist, Christ is the reason,

The more others feel, but I do not follow, why do you

Force your beliefs on me?

But I say,

You need not know Christ to celebrate his Mass,

All you need to know about Him:

The World was in Darkness

He brought us Light.

 

“Secular” is the wrong word.

It’s an everyday word.

A word of shops and sales

Of bustle

Of struggle

Christmas is too mythic to fit

 

Not for eras of peoples who gazed at the sky, asking

Where has the sun gone? Will it return?

So they lit fires

And hung evergreen

And slaughtered a beast

So that everyone could partake of its nourishing flesh

Together

They would gather

To dance and sing and share

Until the sun came back.

 

If you strip it away

The shopping, the proselytizing, the scolding,

The obligation

The disparity, the waste

Every Who down in Whoville

Continues to sing

 

We cannot afford to be exclusionary

In the cold winter storms

We must gather, and welcome, and share from the heart

We must kindle the Yule fire to warm each other

The World is in Darkness

Let us be Light.



Or, of course, Kermit sang it best: https://youtu.be/givAZ05_wJg Same meaning when you get right down to it. There's my wish to all of you!

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