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rockinlibrarian ([personal profile] rockinlibrarian) wrote2012-06-03 11:14 am

In Which I Catch You Up, and More Stuff That Needs to Happen More Often

Dear, dear neglected blogreaders. It's been a fascinating few weeks. I just haven't had the time to sit and type up a proper blog entry. Sure, I've been READING blogs-- or skimming-- but I can do that on my Nook. I've been Tweeting and occasionally Facebooking, but those are those in-between short-attention-span things you can do while, say, manning a reference desk or parenting small children. Within reason. At least much more than typing a proper blog entry is. So let me catch you up on the past, um, month. Ish.

In Which I Give You a Real-Life Update

First, the personal news: Jason has a new job, finally-- if you know anything about him, you've probably figured out that this has been something he's been looking for for a LONG, LONG TIME. It's still just machine operation, but the pay, benefits, working conditions, and apparently management is SO much better that we can't even fault it (much) for being 2nd shift. I'm working out a new work schedule-- since mine is based around him being DAY shift-- and if the 5-year-old goes to afternoon kindergarten in the fall (likely), we'll have mornings as our family time and lunchtime as our Dinner. At least until first grade.

In MY workplace, on the other hand, we have a new director coming in. I met her last week, and we pretty much laughed the entire time, so... that's possibly a good sign.

The bad personal news is I've had a mysterious and horrendously painful sore throat for the past week and a half, which two different doctors have looked at and determined that I, well, don't have any DISEASE that they can see, and the strep test was negative. The second doctor decided I probably just have something STUCK IN MY TONSILS which is being irritating, and I'm just supposed to gargle a lot and take painkillers when needed. This is NOT SOLVING ANYTHING. If it's still a problem by Monday I'm calling for a referral to an actual ear-nose-and-throat specialist. Jason said, "I hope you don't have tonsillitis," and I said, "I hope I DO have tonsillitis, so they can just take those tonsils out and BE RID OF THEM." Better than "gargle a lot and hope it goes away soon."

...in good personal health news, my antidepressants are back to being Straightened Out. Actually I'm not even sure I mentioned to you (on any of my social media outlets) about the week I got a dosage increase and started having anxiety attacks. Yeah, fun stuff. Told you, it's been an interesting few weeks.

In Which We Wander Into the Bizarre Depths of My Imagination

I had this great nightmare last night about a satanic cult posing as a church (of a completely different sort) camp, and there were exploding snakes and bloody demons and people who appeared to be nice who WEREN'T and undercover sabotage-of-their-facilities and rescue missions and dramatic escapes by boat and antique car and a secret meeting posing as a premature labor. It was really scary! But it was so very plot-filled that I really didn't mind, once I woke up.

See, my brain chemicals are balancing out, but I haven't quite rid myself of the Negative Thought Processes. I SEE, logically, that I can make up stories, that my subconscious mind is CONSTANTLY making up stories, but then real life intrudes and I can't justify it. There's always so much else I SHOULD be doing, and none of my story ideas is calling to me SO much that I can make myself sit still and focus. My husband, frankly, doesn't understand. He's not an artist, so can't believe that writing is anything more than a hobby, and why should I write when there are so many other things not getting done? His mother is even worse. And I just don't believe in myself anymore, period. I'm too scared to start again. I can't devote the time and energy to it because nobody really wants me to be a writer. That's one of those negative and probably wrong thoughts, but I have lots more concrete evidence to support my No One Needs Me To Be a Writer stance than I do concrete evidence that Anyone Cares For My Point of View, or even that Anyone In My Real Life Understands. But at least I can see where the problem is, now. Maybe that's a start.

In Which I Go Off on Librarianish Topics

On the other hand, I've been oddly aware of an actual skill I DO have, lately-- I'm a dang good reference librarian. I still feel awkward and like I ought to be coming up with more programs and that I'm just not AMBITIOUS enough (I've got a younger coworker, just starting library school, who is SUPER ambitious and is always starting projects and I always feel like she's looking at me thinking "Why aren't YOU doing all this?"). But someone needs help finding something? I am good. Not just talking a quick catalog search and a call number lookup. I'm saying, for nonfiction or topic-based searching, coming up with lots of different ideas of where to search and what to use. For fiction, excellently helpful readers advisory-- I find stuff people LOVE. In general, giving people a little more help-- and a lot of friendly respect-- than they're expecting (it's one of those times I'm actually good with people-- because I know what I'm doing). One thing about my new work schedule coming up-- I hope to still get to work some evenings, some after-school time, because that's when people really need help with the Finding Stuff... and dang, it feels good to have something I know I'm good with, when the rest of my life is a long hopeless process of convincing myself that I don't Suck.

In Which I Get On The Topic of My TRUE Self, Which Is General Fangirl

Of course, in real life, all these serious real life things take up most of my, well, real life. This is why I often distract myself by thinking about and caring about things that Technically Aren't Important In The Grand Scheme of Things, but Nonetheless Interest and Amuse Me. Take, for example, the subject of my last real post, The Fuse #8 Children's Book Poll Countdown. I am still obsessed with it, but possibly a little disappointed. I should have seen that coming, because I DID change my votes around from last time, and the WAY I changed them around was by adding MORE OBSCURE stuff I'd discovered, and stubbornly still voting for Ghosts I Have Been even though I was the only person who voted for it last time. But we're up in the 30s now, and there are a LOT of my votes I know I'm going to have to give up on showing up by this point. Now, there are votes I KNOW are going to show up later, way at the top of the polls-- I suspect about half my ten novels will end up in the top ten of that list (Wrinkle, Secret Garden, Anne, Holes, and Harry Potter, specifically. They were all in the top ten LAST time, at least), but so far not only have I only gotten ONE of my votes on that list (at #31... which still seems low to me. How is Alice not Top Ten for EVERYONE? This may be my own brain issues), and even my Almost-votes have been few and far between. Though, there's also been more titles I've never read... which may mean more exciting discoveries!

Anyway, I've had much more luck with the Picture Book list: I've had at least three votes make it already, and lots more I love. Though I know by now I probably need to give up on seeing my biggest new pick, Barbara Lehman's The Red Book, make it, and though I was shocked to see Daniel Pinkwater's Big Orange Splot actually make the list last time, there's no way it's getting past #30 this time. But that's only two of the picture books. The others I suspect I'll be seeing eventually.

...of stuff I've read lately...

But speaking of good books, I've had good fortune in the reading department lately, after my long dry spell of being burnt out. The LAST FOUR BOOKS I'VE READ have all been getting-caught-up-in, not-wanting-to-put-down, attempting-to-get-away-with-reading-at-more-times-of-day-than-just-before-bed books. It's been awhile since I've encountered even ONE of those in a row. Granted, it's still taken me an entire month to get THROUGH these four books, and actually I'm still not done with two of them (one's nonfiction, one's fiction, one's on my Nook, one's a real book from the library-- so they're two completely different reading experiences. That's how I can read them both at the same time).

There was, of course, The Dark Lord of Derkholm, which neatly encompassed everything that is so great about Diana Wynne Jones, and I have a bit of a new literary crush on Derk. Which is funny because my other DWJ crush is Chrestomanci, who, aside from being a magic user and a father, is UTTERLY COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. But Derk reminded me a bit of a character of my own that I've had brewing-- for that possibly turning The Pipeweed Mafia Saga into something Useful-- and in general that whole idea felt oddly DWJ-ish-- so as usual, she sparks my imagination. I LOVE THAT WOMAN. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE HER.

There was Akata Witch by Nnedi Okorafor, an upper-middle-grade fantasy that REALLY needs more attention, because it's so delightfully unique-- actually, speaking of which, it was blurbed by Diana Wynne Jones, and you can see why. It's thoroughly CREEPY (the bad guy is a serial killer, and there's something so REALISTIC about that in the middle of a fantasy that it makes it a thousand times scarier than some fantastic monster would be) and yet laugh out loud funny at times, full of unique magical twists. Also, it takes place in Nigeria. The only other SFF I've read set in Africa and incorporating African mythology (not counting Egypt-- Egypt gets done) is another of my favorites, The Ear, the Eye, and the Arm, which as I've said also makes me say "Why on earth is there not more SFF set in Africa?! It's so rich with possibility!"

The two books I'm in the middle of reading are actually adult books, because that happens sometimes. The one on the Nook-- which I try to confine myself to little bits of off and on, to make it last longer-- is the ever-delightful, unbelievably hilarious, kindredly (and vocally-supportively) mentally ill Bloggess's memoir Let's Pretend This Never Happened. And look, people, I was never AGAINST eReading-- using the Internet is, after all, eReading, and I do a lot of that-- but after only the INTRODUCTION I regretted not having the book in hard copy, if only because a hard copy is much easier to throw at Jason (maybe not literally) and say "READ THIS. Just this chapter at least. And the next chapter." Not so easy to share on a Nook. Unless the other person has a Nook. So somehow actually OWNING an eReader has made me MORE of a luddite about paper books. (Though I do love it for Internet reading, and interesting apps. I got a thesaurus app. It's pretty awesome).

The other book is kind of ironic because it's by Shannon Hale, who mostly writes YA, but somehow I've NEVER read any of her actual YA books (except the graphic novel Rapunzel's Revenge which is debatably Middle Grade anyway), but I've now, counting this one, read ALL her ADULT books. WEIRD. And this one is probably my favorite of said adult books, even over her Austen-themed ones: The Actor and the Housewife, which is, *ahem,* frighteningly similar to, uh, some of my own fantasies, only involving very different characters. Actually, just recently Hale blogged that the main character was probably her "most controversial character" and that lots of people didn't like her because she was "hard to relate to" or something. As I started READING the book just a few days later, I thought "WHAT?!" I friggin' LOVE Becky Jack! Granted, she might be a little much to take in person in real life (I would feel utterly inadequate in her presense), but as a book character she is hilarious and unique and I love her SO THERE, WORLD.

...and of film and such lately

Speaking of *muttering* inappropriatefantasiesinvolvingactorsandhousewives */endmuttering,* you do realize what television thing happened in this past month, right? I'M AFRAID MAYBE YOU DON'T. Sherlock series 2 finally made it to PBS! And now it's over again! It zipped by in three weeks with entirely not enough fanfare. Where WAS fandom? Oh, right, they'd all already pirated the show or bought UK DVDs for their Region-Free players. :P I felt utterly lonely-- once more, it was like nobody cared but me. BUT, somehow, I managed to get Jason hooked too. He probably STARTED watching just to poke fun of Martin Freeman whenever possible (he never stopped with that)-- also he claimed he was there to keep me from licking the TV-- but after very little time he was actually enjoying it properly, laughing in the right places, exclaiming about plot twists, and NOT BEING DISTRACTED BY ANYTHING ELSE, which in itself is amazing for Mr. ADHD. And no matter what Jason says, MARTIN WAS AWESOME. He was SO UTTERLY PERFECTLY WONDERFUL. That's how I review things, all balanced and objective, like. Anyway, I don't know why Jason was so offended when I burst out how desperately I wanted to hug John Watson at the end. WHO WOULDN'T WANT TO HUG HIM? I'm just saying. Anyway, so if you, once again, MISSED IT, I'm pretty sure PBS is still streaming it on their website. SERIOUSLY I'M NOT KIDDING, GO BASK IN MY IMAGINARY HUSBAND BEING AWESOME. And everyone else being pretty much awesome, too, but that's just a bonus.

Okay, right, in other TV news, sort of, did you know The A.V. Club is now retroactively reviewing Animaniacs? It is even MORE AWESOME THAN I EXPECTED, bringing back so many laughs I'd forgotten about. Like this one somebody brought up in the comments: "Okay one time, see one time, Randy Beaman's aunt was sitting on her porch, and she felt her dog licking her feet, only it wasn't her dog, it was some crazy guy who liked doing that. Okay, bye." I'D COMPLETELY forgot about the Randy Beaman bits, PERIOD, and THAT one was like my FAVORITE LINE EVER. I laughed so hard reading that comment that I was forced to de-lurk myself just to comment how excited I was about it. Seriously. Best cartoon ever. NO ARGUING.

In Which I Try To Wrap Things Up

So, is that it? Is that the past month, or at least, everything you need to know about it? Kids are all right. So's everybody. We's getting on at least. And now I'll go make sure the kids aren't destroying anything or each other. Maybe, MAYBE, I'll post more often after this.

Re: Becky from Twitter

[identity profile] rockinlibrarian.livejournal.com 2012-06-03 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
There's a children's writers' critique group that meets at the Big Library and is actually run by the head of the Western PA chapter of SCBWI (who is also, coincidentally, the first Real Author I ever met in person as a child). I attended once or twice, but they actually charge dues (and STEEP ones in my opinion), and lately it hasn't fit into my schedule, either, so... I haven't. I could use some more real life supportive people though. I could probably use some real life friends :P, but what. I would make excuses about it, anyway. Somehow I've got to get past the "I can't" phase.

I DID notice a shocking dearth of John Watson in the last half, or third, or something, of "Scandal," which did annoy me, but I wouldn't say there was noticeably less of him otherwise. Any part he WAS in was so utterly fabulous that it took up all my attention-- and the last one. Even I was impressed more than usual with Martin's acting in the last one. I know, Andrew Scott was incredible and it's nice he got to win the BAFTA this once since Martin got it last year, but I really thought Martin still deserved it more, in that last episode. Just because he's got the least FLASHY character of the show, so easy to be overlooked...! Speaking of being annoyed with fandom, I've noticed a severe lack of Martin EVERYWHERE. The other actors get all the attention and he just gets a passing mention. That's actually not so much a fandom complaint as just a complaint on media coverage of the show in general. Which was, in general, ALSO incredibly rare. Why wasn't it a cover story on TV Guide? SURELY it OUGHT to have been. It got SO much media coverage in Europe, and I wasn't expecting THAT much here, but I was expecting a little more than Basically Ignored except for a few odd articles on "Benedict Cumberbatch is So Up-and-Coming" here and there. Yes, I have a serious bias. I can't wait until The Hobbit starts getting Way Too Much media attention in the fall. As long as they don't spend all their media attention on those dang dwarves.

Oh, definitely have her read both Africa-set SFF books I mentioned, Akata Witch AND The Ear the Eye and the Arm, because the latter is one of my favorite books but never gets talked about nearly enough! Also, not to generalize (but then again you were sort of doing the same thing with Maybe her African-American students would be interested in African-based books), but you guys are Mormon, right? Have YOU read any Shannon Hale? She's not only an excellent writer but a proud Mormon herself, and that book I'm reading now, that main character (whom I think is so awesome but apparently there are other people who don't and they're STUPID) is a devout Mormon and her life as such is woven very securely into the plot and character development. It's cool.

Ironically, I'd always been hugely into the Disney Afternoon cartoons, and when they were ousted by Tiny Toons I was ANNOYED with Tiny Toons at first, but then I ended up loving it SO MUCH MORE. But THEN Animaniacs happened and it just wiped everything else away with its absolute absurdity. I became immediate friends with one of my good high school friends because she could sing "Yakko's World" the whole way through without messing up.

And I think my throat IS a bit better, now, thank you. A bit, anyway.

Re: Becky from Twitter

(Anonymous) 2012-06-04 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
I really need to watch the series again. Any scene without Martin is not the best as far as I'm concerned. :) And I especially need to see the end of the last show bigger than the screen of my phone. Knowing the plot points removed any urgency but I'm missing the chance to bask.

I don't mind a little generalizing, though I think I offended my sister with my suggestion her kids might like it, but it may've just been that she wasn't planning a book challenge this summer and I came out of left field with it. :) I recognize the name now that you said she's Mormon, I think I stumbled upon her blog/website through a friend or maybe an RT. She does some princess books or something? I'm pretty sure my best friend is a fan and has said good things about her on goodreads.

I have a terrible secret to tell you, please don't hate me, I just don't gravitate towards books with women as the main characters. I'll read whatever is assigned for book club so I know I can enjoy books with women as main characters, but I still just won't pick them up to read if there's no deadline involved. I think it's because I already know how women think and don't care for all the thinky emotion times as much as I like action. I recognize this is an unfair generalization but there are so many more books than a person could ever read anyway. I will try to overcome my bias for you. ;)

Re: Becky from Twitter

[identity profile] rockinlibrarian.livejournal.com 2012-06-04 11:52 pm (UTC)(link)
YES, BASK IN THE NUANCES OF HIS HEARTWRENCHING FACIAL EXPRESSIONS... *ahem*

Princess Academy! It's Newbery Honor-winning! And the sequel just came out or is about to come out! But like I said in the post, somehow I've never actually read her YA books. I actually had Book of a Thousand Days out once three years ago when I was in the hospital having my daughter, so I had to call and renew all my books, but they were like, "That one won't renew because someone has it on hold" and I was like "SERIOUSLY? That's the ONE I haven't read yet! Also it's the OLDEST book I have out so I thought I was SAFE! Also, I'M IN THE HOSPITAL HAVING A BABY!" Anyway... yeah, haven't gotten back to it yet.

Okay, action-packed female MCs. The first that comes to mind is Hunger Games, or is that too obvious? Is me even asking if you've read Hunger Games silly because the entire world has asked you that in passing by now? Hmm, what else. Okay, the next is a completely WEIRD choice to come to mind, but it's pretty off-the-wall satire-- and yes there is action-- but it's definitely not slow-paced at least: Beauty Queens by Libba Bray. I will have to think this through more when I'm not also trying to add up the library money for the evening at the same time.