I think the rest of it was the depressing part! Actually, I was thinking as I wrote how I touched on so many of my feelings in my last post, about mediocrity, but how that post came off as much less Depressing because I had my Snark on the whole time. Today I wasn't feeling tough enough to be snarky.

For awhile my mantra has been "Neither Lois Lowry nor Diana Wynne Jones started their careers in earnest until their kids were in college, and look what THEY did!" but then I have these moments where I wonder why it couldn't just as easily be "And Jane Austen died when she was 40." Sometimes I think I'm biding my time, sometimes I think I'm just stalling or being lazy or lost. I don't know.